We decided to play this dangerous game.
I’m enjoying every second.
occasionally subtle
trying on a metaphor
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We decided to play this dangerous game.
I’m enjoying every second.
Everything will be fine I promise
Once upon a time would take too long
Words build bridges into unexpected regions
I fall more in love every time you kiss me. For when you say my name I feel myself get lighter; and every time I see the lightning, I think about you.
If you love me, why did you leave ?
The ends of day!
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the romance is in the air
I want to disappear, this place is too much…
My Lucid Dream Pt 3
I’m back in the cosmic void. Everything is swirling by me. Or am I flying past everything? I land on the ground and I end up at. . . Amazon. I used to work there.I walk around and notice it’s very futuristic. I run into someone that I know, but in real life I have never met this person before.I realized that I wasn’t supposed to be there. This prompts me to go into “stealth mode”. I start sneaking around. I noticed, This isn’t Amazon anymore. It turns out to be a really expensive university. I end up outside and I’m following two men who start climbing rooftops. I don’t hesitate to climb up after them and catch wind of their conversation about renovations. The rooftops look like something from Italy in Assassin’s Creed. The two men start scaling down rooftop to rooftop. The thing that was odd to me was these men were definitely up there in age, confidently climbing down with ease. I jump down after them and head back into the school.
I’m in the cafeteria and someone, a guy, invites me over and gives me a sandwich. He then exclaims how it seems easy to feed me and that he doesn’t mind doing so. I raise an eyebrow. The look on his face is suggestive. I get uncomfortable and leave. I start to contemplate if I should eat the sandwich. I was starving and saw that it was tuna. I go outside where I see three men talking. One of them happens to be a current coworker. I don’t remember what their conversation was about. I just remember feeling weird about eating the sandwich. I eat half. I feel my body jerk. I hear the music getting more intense. I hop back into the dream. I’m on a rooftop looking at a group of 9 people in suits. They look nefarious so I decided to approach them. I take note that I normally wouldn’t do that. I hear them mentioning something about a plan and my name. They spot me and begin to surround me. I get defensive, yelling at them. Whatever you think you’re gonna do to me. . . I trail off recognizing three faces: the person I first ran into, the guy from the cafeteria, and a woman. . .who looks and sounds like Viola Davis. I think my brain threw her in the mix based on her role from How To Get Away With Murder.
I somehow escape them, following a student as she used a pass to get through some doors. I manage to swipe her card before she slips through. I run back to grab an item. It seemed important at the time. I notice that I am being tailed by two of the people from the group. I haul ass for the door and swipe the pass. I look back and I see the two standing down the hallway. I begin to slide towards them. I tell myself NO and I go through the door. I feel my body jerk. I’m falling down what looks to be a sewer of some kind. I hit the ground, arms covering my face. I get up and turn to see a. . . giant man, but he doesn’t look human. A mask with a red light obscures his face, or it’s face. The giant throws me down another level, jumps down and starts punching me in the face. I somehow get him off me and I run, but it’s too quick. It catches me, throws me to the ground and resumes pummeling my face. Let it happen my mind said. The giant throws me down another level and this time a girl, very reminiscent of the girl from the Ring, jumps on top of me, screeching. I cover my face thinking she’s about to wail on me. Instead, her face changes to that of a young lady, about my age, blackish-blue hair, light-skinned, yelling, “You’re always trying to release me. Why?!”
I jerk awake. I use the bathroom one last time and I say, “This is it. Let’s finish this.” I fall back to sleep. I’m falling through what seems to be hell in the cosmos. I land. A woman with a great body is having sex with me. Her face is blocked by her hair. Before anything happens any further, I jump to a hallway. I’m fully clothed. The blackish-blue haired girl is running towards me. “Not now,” I said. “I need to finish something.” I was thinking back to the school. At this point I lose total control of the dream. The girl keeps appearing, zombies come towards me, back to me and the woman still having sex, back to the girl, two of her this time, back to zombies. I keep swatting them all away saying, “Not now! I need to finish something.” Then I get my head cut off by a chainsaw. My head falls down and lands on my body perfectly connected while I’m standing in front of the school. “Okay.” I say to myself, only it’s my voice from when I was a child. Why am I a child? “This needs to be finished,” another voice, similar to mine states. I look over and it’s me. . . as a child. I look around. . .three more of me. What is this? I jerk awake. The music is still going on. It’s still very intense. I was fully awake. I feel a bit better than I did during the week, but a bit of this feeling still remains. Some of the twitching does as well. I’m thinking I should continue. . .
My Lucid Dream Pt 2
I go downstairs and put on a pot of water. I randomly had a taste for coffee. I know it’s a stimulant and can keep you awake, but sometimes coffee has the opposite effect on me. This time it didn’t. I drink the coffee and proceed to my room. The coffee starts reacting. I put on some music that is supposed to help with astral projection. It sounds a bit intense than what I’m used to hearing. I lay down on my back. The coffee kicks in. I feel that I’m tired but now my brain is too stimulated. It’s so stimulated I start thinking that I forgot how to breathe automatically and I have focus on my breathing to make sure I don’t suffocate myself. I have the music on and it feels so off. I also had a fan on. I figured after about 20-30 minutes to finally turn the fan off. I can hear the music much more clearly. But, I must go to the bathroom. I feel tense. I feel awkward. I feel anxious. I went back to my room. I lie down and try to let go. I can’t. an hour goes by. I finally gave in without much thought or knowledge. I saw wolves. A pack of wolves. Different kinds. Baring their teeth in disgust. Howling at the moon. . .wait. Where’s the moon? I start to fall. Downward. Hell. I thought I was going to hell. There was fire, darkness. And more wolves. Surrounding me. Backs towards me. They’re protecting me from. . . something. I wanted to help. I get up. . .end up falling on all fours. Running as a wolf. In an area I’d guess was hell. I panic and I wake up. I try to move my body, but I can’t. Sleep paralysis. I can’t move myself, but my right arm is lying on my stomach and it starts twitching. I try to stop it, but it involuntarily starts shaking much more violently. I can’t stop it. Every time I think of stopping it the shaking gets worse. Then suddenly the rest of my body starts shaking involuntarily. This shaking occurs for about 4-5 minutes. I thought about calling for help, but I can’t open my mouth. So I just lie there shaking. It finally stops but I still can’t move. When I thought about moving my arm would shake again. I finally forced myself onto my right side and stretched my body. Even now the twitching is slightly present.
I go to the bathroom again. Lie back down. I can’t do it. My mind keeps asking what am I afraid of. My mind wants to see if this will help, but something keeps me from being secure. Maybe it’s just the coffee. I use the bathroom one more time. I lie down and this time I just let go. I’m adrift in space. Then slowly scenery starts to form. I’m at work, but it looks totally different. Yet I still know the layout. (FYI I work in a warehouse.) I go to, what I presume is the back, and I see my coworker that I had a crush on. She’s listening to music and rapping along to the song very well, then it sounds like the flow sped up too much. She couldn’t master the flow and the words. I found it weird. I started laughing to myself and I head back to the middle of the warehouse and I still hear her just mumbling the song now. I find it hilarious. She starts walking towards me, but the flow she’s rapping to now is slower and she’s more coherent, but I still hear the other flow. . . and it still sounds like it’s her voice. I shake myself awake briefly to realize the super crazy sped up flow is part of the music that I’m listening to. I chuckle and immediately fall back into dream state.
My Lucid Dream Pt 1
I used to dabble in some form of the “occult”. Then I stopped believing in it. I became more of a rational thinker. Something has happened that just earlier this morning, I decided to reopen those doors. (To be honest, it sometimes feels like you never truly left.) Since Tuesday of this past week, 5/16/2017 to be exact, I have been waking up crying and having fits of random crying sprees. I couldn’t go to work. I couldn’t even call in to let them know. The only way it would stop was if I went back to sleep. That night, I couldn’t get any sleep. I would lay down, feel myself toss and turn. . . and I would check the clock. An hour had gone by. I barely got any sleep except for the two hours I managed to get. Then the crying spree started again.
I don’t know where this was coming from. Thankfully I had enough strength to call my job. I started twitching all over. I would try to calm myself down, but my sentences were fragmented. Even talking to people became difficult. I didn’t want to be around people. (I still kinda don’t to be honest.) I thought this day would be the end of it. I was wrong. Thursday I went to work. I didn’t cry, until I was half way to work. Trying to calm my nerves, I play music. I make it to work early. (I forced myself to leave to try to actually be at work.) I go sit in the break room and unfortunately Kendrick Lamar’s song U starts playing. I knew I should have switched but the screaming he does in the beginning sorta expressed how I was feeling.
I started crying. Then another song pops on. It’s Apotheosis by the band Last Chance To Reason. And the last few lines stick to me the most. “Erasing this world that I am nothing without” Did me in. Now I’m shaking. I go to clock in. I’m avoiding people. Not wanting them to look at me or touch me. Not wanting them to even be near me. My bosses send me home. I had Friday off. I spent most of the day trying to figure out what I could do. . . I want to talk to a therapist. But I also decided that for the time being. . . I’ll see if Lucid Dreaming would help. It’s 12:46 AM, 5/20/17. I’m looking up H.P. Lovecraft. Edgar Allen Poe. Sylvia Plath, research Madame Blavatsky, and looking for horror stories I’d like to check out. Just before all this I had drawn a sketch. I realized it’s what I see in the mirror sometimes. I started doodling. Things that didn’t make sense at first. I decided they were some demons I may need to face. That was when I fully committed to Lucid Dreaming.