Me in my fav leopard bikini …one of the only times you can post without being accused of posting a sexy selfie….I knew I always liked a bit of leopard …
What I feel like today….coming to the Lord as a child…there is healing in His wings !!!…thankyou a to all those that have been praying for me !!!….
This picture prompts many thoughts and metaphors…….I had a dream last night definitely from God. I can always tell when they are. It was one of hope and healing. Recently I’ve loved watching futuristic movies, and really movies of all sorts and old ones as well. The thing about all of them, is that there is good vs evil, “every time ”!
My mom recently posted this pic and I loved it! She also posted for people to pray with a bold print spirit-filled war cry for me. Only as a mom would and could! The thing is, it was a shout out that was too close for comfort, in the sense that, “do I want to be publicized?.. Like THAT public? There are people that will see this and not pray but only judge. And where is the discretion? And why not private messaging to all the same people?” As these thoughts ran through me in my veins literally, I began to fear rampantly and was actually kinda mad, okay! “I don’t mind being an open book, but please, let ME be the one to say!”
I ranted in text to my mom to please not post my personal stuff. And there is a part of me that still agrees with all this. But last night, something changed.
Jesus showed up !!! Like big time! Like He always does with me. It always feels like He is not there at all….UNTIL HE IS, LIKE NO DOUBT! In a message I’d heard, in my dreams I was met with the spiritual martial arts I was so used to in the past that had been numbed. This is why I like all those movies, with the bad ass warrior chicks that save the day but have to go through hell and back to get to that day. And it doesn’t happen overnight. Yeah, they are beat up, and keep getting up, knocked down and look like they are down for the count. And then, they sloooowly wake up again. They get up and go for it again. There is always a purpose for the better of all humankind that drives them. They have a desire for peace and freedom and joy in life for themselves and all the people that can’t fight for themselves. They are the light, which is a huge responsibility.
I was always that girl. I’ve had jaw dropping experiences in the spirit realm that would blow even some Jesus believers away. But the thing is, and back to the movies, there is ALWAYS an enemy & a hero. And the enemy is real! No joke people, in this world, just like the movies, there is a very real evil enemy. Where do you think they get all these ideas for films? And he wants us down! Like really down! Like shut up! Like even dead down! And look in the movies who the enemy always goes for first. It’s the one who has Spirit! The one who will do something. The one who will open people’s eyes to truth. The one who will actually stand up to him!
But just like anything, to get good at something you can’t just read all about it. You have to experience, learn, study, go through some super hard stuff. This is like the gym, it builds your strength. You can’t just watch people at the gym, you, have to do the work! Likewise in the Spirit realm.
So here I am, up, down, joy filled , hope again, numb again, happy, then depressed, with struggles and demon fights, and my own human flesh fights that seem so insurmountable. And this fight and war and challenges have been going on since the good old days that I’d always had a blast with in the Spirit. And then something happened, just like the movies. I wanted to give up. It was too hard to fight anymore. I was tired. Despaired. And it’s going on for like, years!!!
Then my super awesome cherished-by-me mom posts this shout out for the whole army of all Jesus believers to pray. Okay now! Well, I’m here to say, like I always have, He is real !!! More real then my own freakin breath. So is the enemy. But guess who always wins? Yep, the Hero. And the Hero is Jesus! And He lives in me to make me one as well. And He can do the same for anyone. So I’m am hear to proclaim to all and anyone who will listen to never, never, never give up !! And I’m grateful that she did it in the end.
I also want to thank my mom !! ThankYou O'Cherished mother of mine. I love you more than words can say. I am humbled and willing. And ThankYou to all my family !
I want to thank everyone who responded. ThankYou!!!! Thankyou!!! Please don’t stop praying. And if there is anyone who prays and sees this, I humbly ask for more! I need it like a man in the desert with no water!
The journey continues and my little pic of me, and Jesus give me hope and a strength once again….
There will be more battles, and fighting and challenges. But there will be peace and joy and a purpose and hope for my life as well.
Happy thankful Thursday !
1 Peter 5:5-11 Voice
You who are younger in the faith: do as your elders and leaders ask. All of you should treat each other with humility, for as it says in Proverbs, God opposes the proud but offers grace to the humble. a So bow down under God’s strong hand; then when the time comes, God will lift you up. Since God cares for you, let Him carry all your burdens and worries. Most importantly, be disciplined and stay on guard. Your enemy the devil is prowling around outside like a roaring lion, just waiting and hoping for the chance to devour someone. Resist him and be strong in your faith, knowing that your brothers and sisters throughout the world are fellow sufferers with you. After you have suffered for a little while, the God of grace who has called you [to His everlasting presence] through Jesus the Anointed will restore you, support you, strengthen you, and ground you. For all power belongs to God, now and forever. Amen. …
