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Don't report just block :)) HW: 260 CW:239 LW: 130??

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[pienk-sweater]

Everything sucks. I feel like I'm in a constant spiral and I'm only going down. My mental health is so much worse I can't sleep, I mean sometimes I'm not sleeping for over 30 hours and I usually sleep alot. Everything's on my mind. How fat I am. How I can feel the weight on me. How I don't feel appreciated or loved. I feel disgusting,vile and worthless. I want to escape everything. I'm tired but I can't sleep, I'm sad but I can't cry. Half of the time I'm just emotionally numb. I hate seeing myself in the store windows when I walk into town. I hate seeing my face. I hate having to heavily contour my face just for it to appear slimmer. I want to be pretty without all this makeup. I want my hair to not keep breaking off and being frizzy. I want my stretch marks to dissappear. I want my stomach to be flat and my arms to be so thin I can wrap my fingers around them. But I guess we don't always get what we want eh?

[nerwilla-deactivated20211101]

[pienk-sweater]

I gained so much weight back. Relapsed into binge eating. I'm nipping it in the bud though and have already lost 14 lbs in 6 days. Fucking hate being this big and don't understand how people can be happy being this huge

[pienk-sweater]

Can't believe I've lost 42lbs since I've started. I've got 3 months to get down to 150 and I don't think I'll be able to do it. 😩 I'm trying so hard to lose weight but I've hit a plateau, hopefully tomorrow I would have lost weight it's taking forever just to lose 1 lbs!!!

[ilydead-deactivated20220428]

[pienk-sweater]

I hate going out so much.... I've eaten like a fat pig today. I've lost weight and now weigh 227.4 but still no excuses luckily I go back tomorrow so I can start OMAD again

[pienk-sweater]

Well life sucks right now. I've actually never been this heavy in my life, with moving having a baby and my family pretty much deserting me my binge mode just Kickstarted! Im slowly going back into restricting as I don't want to binge again so for the mean while I'm doing a 1000-1600 Calorie deficit. Since relapsing I'm genuine surprised how I can lose up to a pound a day with such a high calorie deficit. Then again I remember I'm over 200 pounds- Yikes!😬 Anyways it's 2022 and I'm really hoping I can get to 150 by about....let's see September. It's only January, I should be able to. I have no excuse really but who cares.

New favourite drink- water😋