sunflower in space

[pipescreams]

It's my own personal sadness, Summed up in a few pretty little words: "Stay away from me, You've gone too far".

[pipescreams]

I wanted to tell you

I wanted to tell you that I hate my stupid little heart And how it flutters under the weight of your sleeping arm I wanted you to know that Evolution is to blame for my madness And that you must have known what you were getting yourself into I wanted to show you that Underneath the lace and robes I’m Cracked and desperate, A half begging to be whole I wanted to tell you everything, But you must have already known.

[pipescreams]

This is paralysis without the nerve damage. This is the sound of your brain humming, The reminder of your heart beating, Your loins stirring Anxiety bubbling beneath your skin, But here you are, Stuck. Unable to move, Unable to breathe, Trapped in a body you wish was never created. Perhaps if you close your eyes once more it will all go away, Perhaps you can numb it with the drug of the day, But until this bed disintegrates Or your mind just happens to deteriorate, You’re not going anywhere. Not for a long, long time.

[pipescreams]

Why live when you can die? There's no point to fight when you know you can't survive. So I'll lie my head on the pillow once again, And hope that this time the dream doesn't end.

[pipescreams]

I wrote this thinking of a pixelated you, the you that fills in the gaps between the lines holding me during the rifts in my mind, existing with me in a land outside of time.

If we could withdraw into a chariot of kisses, or find a way to draw love from the blind, if we could force our feathers to synchronize Then maybe I'd find peace of mind; Then maybe it'd stop eating me inside,  And maybe loving you is a crime,

But I'd be wiling to find out, even if I had to die.