I discovered today that I am not a size queen. Also my hatred of men has been solidified.
I went on a tinder hookup today because momma needs some DIYUCK, but the experience was literally -1000000000/10.
First offense, he puts on White Chicks. Now, White Chicks is a fantastic movie and always makes me giggle and chuckle, but it is not a movie I would like to have sex to.
Second offense? Making out with my nose. All tongue. It would have been bad enough in my mouth, but he’s slurping all up on my nose thinking he had my lips? Unsure, didn’t want to ask.
Third offense was his silence. Not one moan, not one groan, not even a simple “god you’re so beautiful.” NOTHING. Just stripped and stared at me for me to do the same.
Fourth offense was a lack of foreplay. He had me suck him off. Points for not being a head pusher because I have a horrible gag reflex and WILL vomit, and if a man holds my head down I’m biting. Desperately thrusting into my face is allowed, but I need to be able to have free rein to move my head. He didn’t eat me out. There was no fingering, not even a gentle caress on my body. Anyone who has fucked me knows I am baseline kinda damp at all times and generally ready to fuck at any given moment, but his lack of appreciation for my body or even my BUSH had me appalled and dry as a bone.
The fifth offense was shoving me on my back and trying to shove it in. He was so big it didn’t go in. I’m like 99% sure that if I was wet or even PREPPED WITH FINGERS, we wouldn’t have had a problem. He tried like 4 different positions. Nothing. Because I was DRY and NOT HAVING FUN, and IRRITATED.
It hurt. Badly. I was legit gritting my teeth for the 10 minutes he was tryna jam into my sweet tight little hole, then eventually pushed him off me and told him to finger me a bit. He did for legit 30 seconds. I wasn’t even wet to my full potential before he went back to shoving into me. Mind you, only made I think the tip in from FORCING HIS COCK into me. I may have a bit of a rape kink, but this was just egregious behavior.
I finally pushed him off me and was like “yeah I’m not doing this. You’re too big and also suck.” And I pulled my clothes on, shoved my panties into my pocket and my bra into my purse, and left.
I got home and was scared to piss because I swear I felt something rip in me. And I was right. I tried to pee upon coming home and it’s fucking AGONY. So now I basically HAVE to do holds because urinating is genuine fucking agony and fire and it hurts even more to wipe after. I fucking bled. I’m bleeding from this fuckass man.