pixie

red is my color :)

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05/22/21

sorry for disappearing, although i’m willing to bet that no one is keeping track at this point. a lot has been going on: testing, unemployment, affairs of the unruly heart, the whole nine. as for today, i find myself stuck. i reunited with a very old friend of mine who i haven’t seen since february last year. i’ve had feelings for this person for a long time, and i left them today feeling really shitty, unresolved, almost. someone might say my feelings for them went unrealized, someone would be right. i’m not sure how to confront this situation. i have an honesty only policy with my friends, and i’m battling with possibly not honoring that, and keeping my conflict a secret. i’m not sure what to do.

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~11:06

i wanna fly away.

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05/09/21

if i ended up falling off the face of the earth, i'd be okay with that. i'd be content floating in the stars forever

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~7:03 pm

parties are draining as fuck.

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~05/08/21

i've been seeing a guy for a little while now. i've known him for five years, and we've been sneaking out to see one another for about a month. i keep having dreams about him. nothing sexual, just snippets of memories my subconscious has saved for me to relive. sometimes i wish they would stop; all they do is make me miss him, and for some reason i wish i didn't. something about those eyes, the way he touches me, it's both magnetizing and repulsive. i find myself wanting to dance with him in my kitchen at 3am. if music be the food of love, play on.

[pixiecracked]

~10:01 am

i can’t stop watching bailey sarian, something about the feeling of girl talk mixed with fucked up murder cases is soothing. i may be a sociopath lmao

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~05/06/21

men are great but y’all need to do some serious work. 

[pixiecracked]

~9:41 pm

a little weird that i want to dismantle the patriarchy and yet also simp over a cishet white man 

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the basics

some things you should know: 

1.) i’m pansexual, meaning my sexual preference isn’t limited by gender

2.) i’m a white female 

3.) i’m a leftist who is learning how to be a better ally

4.) i’m an artist, dancer, painter, writer, actor, singer, etc

5.) if you’re different from me, i’d like to learn from you

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~ first post 05/06/21

this may be slightly fucked, but i got the inspiration to make a tumblr account from the elisa lam case. i watch a lot of true crime. i don’t intend to show my face or my name, but i’m sure someone will know me.