hey gang. i’m probably gonna remove coomer’s theme entirely or fuck with it some other way, so i’m not putting this under a read more so everybody can still read it.
you’re probably wondering where the hell i went so abruptly. basically, i’m not really planning to ever return to tumblr rp. we’re at a point now where it’s just. diminishing returns. i’ve created some great dynamics in character, on coomer and on mario, and there’s a lot of really excellent people i’ve met through tumblr rp out of character (doc, cognac, frank, nikki, dakota, maunder, etc - i love you all very much, and my life would be so much more painful without your friendships.)
but. even trying to focus on the good things i’ve built through rp has stopped being able to make rp worth it.
i’m constantly followed on all of my blogs (especially mario, for some reason?) by helluva/hazbin/bnha blogs or people who seem to literally only interact with the users on the blocklist i subscribe to. i went and checked, and although it seems i’ve only got five people blocked for this kind of stuff on coomer? i’ve blocked an impossible amount of people for this stuff, mostly for being hazbinnies. like probably 20+
more recently, this constant ignoring of boundaries really got to me. like. i don’t know what it was, honestly. maybe it is because that’s what this kind of behavior boils down to - it’s an ignoring of boundaries. and these boundaries shouldn’t be fucking hard to follow. on mario, especially.
i fucking edited. the html. of mario’s theme. so that one cannot see the follow button on desktop, and have to click through to read the rules google doc to find the follow link. i made my boundaries very clear in the mobile header, so mobile users can see it. i’ve made pinned posts about it.
like. i don’t know what else to do. i shouldn’t have to do anything, really - it should be, y’know, understood, that no matter your own opinions on a fandom/media, someone’s boundaries are someone’s boundaries and they’re not up for debate, especially not when it’s at the fucking top of their rules regarding rp.
but that’s just the thing about tumblr, i guess. people just don’t give a shit and will not give a shit, i guess. and. it got to me. a hazbinnie followed me, asked if we could still rp. and something about that got to me, and i had a genuine breakdown and minor mental health emergency. i’m honestly still not at my best.
i guess it’s probably just the lasting impact of the other garbage experiences i’ve had on tumblr in quick succession finally catching up to me - if you know me, you’re probably familiar with the pedo-excusing fall of the cuphead rpc, and the su rpc.* *this. might count as a name drop, perhaps? but in my opinion, the behavior exhibited by the grown adults here warrants being mentioned, again and again, especially with how many people, myself included, were affected. i got namedropped and lied about to 40+ people, i don’t care about the feelings of borderline abusers who’ve already blocked me lol
anyway - i’m sorry for starting spongebob’s blog and then never doing anything with it, but even before these events, my faith in this website as a way to rp was already funky, and then genuinely being harmed by my own frustration really was the kicker. i definitely realize now i never should’ve made that blog at all.
that’s it, i guess. i realized that all trying to rp on tumblr (and possibly in general, tbh) is going to do is hurt me, and. i’m better than that. third time’s the charm and all that shit - this is the third time in very recent succession i’ve felt so low just because of rp.
so, yeah. i’m out.
if we were in a discord server together, feel free to send me a friend request. i’m vaguely active on my personal tumblr if you want that, too, and have a dA for making adoptables and doing small ych/comms. but i really don’t have any intent of touching tumblr again for rp, and i’m most likely gonna be taking steps to prevent myself from returning again like giving access to my accounts to other people. it’s finally been proven to me that it’s just not worth it.
i’m gonna reblog this to the different blogs i have, and then log out for the last time. thanks for being here, i guess.
a final note, also: …..5 people followed my mario blog. that’s great and all, but - each one followed days after i completely blanked out the rules and made them just say that i was never returning to the blog. that doesn’t feel good. that seems a lot like. none of them even clicked the link to my rules - why. why would you follow a dead blog, who’s not coming back? that’s. not good lol. thanks guys. i’ll keep this in mind if i ever get tempted to return, as a good reason not to.
