I had been blessed with a wilder mind

We look up at the same stars and see such different things. enthusiast for life, words, and people.

[memewhore]

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I feel a bit useless right now. Want to be a superhero and fix everything.

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I’M GOING TO INDIA. NOT ONLY AM I GOING TO INDIA, BUT MY FAMILY IS THROWING ME AN INDIAN WEDDING. CAN I SAY IM DYING CAUSE IM DYING

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I’m feeling really crappy about myself. I need to get waxed, my eyebrows need to be done, I’m out of my good makeup, I don’t like my body, and I need to get my hair conditioned. It’s been making me feel like crap about myself on top of my insecurities. Now I feel like everyone is being overly sympathetic about a stupid situation. I just want to be left alone. I hate feeling like I’m not important. All my life I’ve been made to feel that way by people. My family, friends, boyfriends. I’ve also felt like I’m a burden and no one has ever made me feel like I’m the most amazing thing in the universe until my husband. So when I feel like less than that it really sticks to me like a leech sucking out all my happiness and good feeling. I’m trying not to be negative... Just feel a depression hitting me that I can’t shake. It doesn’t help that my head just always swims towards these horrible memories of things that have happened. They try to warp my memories and I’m left questioning too much.

[pleasantpoppy]

This is going to sound silly, but, I remember watching Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging like 10 years ago and she would call Robbie a sex god and just thinking it was really cute, and now my husband calls me a sex goddess all the time and I just can't believe how much my life has changed...

[pleasantpoppy]

All I want is a the pineapple dessert from Great British Menu please? And a cuddle from my husband.

[pleasantpoppy]

I could google things, but I prefer just asking my husband.

[pleasantpoppy]

If everyone had a partner who when they woke up in the morning, even when you get to stay in bed and they have to work, turned over with the biggest smile ever and just said how beautiful you were, the world would be such a better place.

[pleasantpoppy]

I feel like my life has been on hold for like two years now. Just want this all to begin already.

[pleasantpoppy]

Remember when you were little and you had crushes on guys and you made them perfect in your head? I now have the perfect man.

[pleasantpoppy]

I used to watch The Office all the time and think Jim was so great and him and Pam were the cutest. I'm so glad I have a fiancé who went for what he wanted and didn't back down.

[mejonahiam]

(SNAKEHIPS)

[pleasantpoppy]

I wish I could just wish something hard enough and it could all just come true and everything could just work out how it needs to.

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I'm watching Bridget Jones and she's a TV show producer in London and I can't help but be annoyed that I have all the right degrees to do this, but no experience and never in the right place at the right time. I want to feel powerful like she does.

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Nicky is the best thing that's ever happened to me. He's given me so much already and I'm forever and always grateful to have such a strong, talented, and caring fiancé. I'm marrying him and all I keep thinking is, how did this even happen? He would do anything for me to make sure I'm happy and we are secure. Tomorrow's a big day and whatever happens, no matter what, I'll have him. So in the end, I get the best prize. I get scared of stupid things for no reason, but when it comes down to it, I know this is my life. There will be hiccups and bumps, but not pot holes. Nothing to derail us. He would never do that, and I wouldn't, and anything out of our control doesn't matter. I just want to always be happy. The closer I get to being married the more I'm realizing the significance of it and how happy I have been and how all of that one day could come to an end. But we wouldn't let that day come.

[pleasantpoppy]

I hate this feeling in my stomach. I feel so uniquely alone and afraid. The only word that keeps repeating in my head is crashing.

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I miss England. I miss the history and the feeling I get being there. I miss my family, but most importantly I miss the love of my life. Side note, watching Bake Off and the guy brought in his own eggs and was so chuffed. Only in England would something sustainable and not wasteful happen.