Hello Tumblr my old friend. I think I've finally been broken. I was really fucked up over the weekend and got some soul crushing news but it's exciting too. A part of me really feels betrayed. The other part is happy and excited. I think these past 5 months of distance have given me a bit of time to dissociate and start to distance myself already. I've given it all I've got and in the end, the out come was one of many. I'm so angry at myself for being such an altruistic person. Because it doesn't allow me to be angry, yet here I am venting into the void. I can't speak my truth because it'll go unheard by the one person that I wish would hear it. But I think it's best to transform that anger on myself to love. I've given so much of it out that I didn't realize how little I had left for myself until now. Just wanted to say, I think I'll be okay. I'm taking all this love back and adding some color back into my sky. Building myself up stronger and maybe, just maybe allow myself to love again. "I just want to mean something to somebody, the way you mean something to me..."
