Plus Vibes

Life is too short to focus on the negative. Think positive and all will be ours.

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A Whirlwind in my mind. Something I didn't know. But something now I know. A lifetime of this has caught up to me. Somehow this has become what I have been. Now I see. Now I hope. To carry on with the things I Broke.

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Man, what a rock collection I have. These stones mean nothing. I spent many years wondering why I wasn't heard why someone wouldn't listen. Why someone wouldn't love me the way I "Loved Them" The fact is I was so wrapped up in my needs and my wants that I thought I was being taken for granted. The irony is I allowed some version of myself to be reckless and do whatever he pleased. Some idiotic place in my brain decided that I was free to do whatever I want because of this/these hardships. Influence. The very few people that I did vent to or talk about my issues would mostly agree with me. Thus strengthening my position within my own head. Never once did they ask the other side of the story. If they did I would explain it best I could while thinking I was being fair. The truth is I thought I was being fair but in the bigger picture I was far from it.

Emotions. I allowed all of my emotions to validate my behavior, some understandable most unforgiveable. So wrapped up in my own emotions and seeking a fix that I never saw the other side.

Thoughts.  My mind ran rampant. Every avenue imaginable every situation was real you name it I thought it. I let my thoughts own me and let them feel real. Even the most darkest thoughts. I wasn't thinking for someone else... and never saw the other side. Actions.  I as bright as I am allowed that same idiotic place in my brain to justify some of my actions. I thought most of my good actions were more than sufficient. But in reality they weren't even close. I never saw how they looked from the other side. I became a stone collector. Until one day the stones were to heavy and they sunk this vessel. Luckily I was rescued and everything became clear. I was the one not listening. I was the selfish one. I was the one who took everything for granted. My needs didn't matter as much as I began to realize that I was the one who collected stones while you tried to polish this piece of coal. If I had just listened. Just really listened. I would have never learned the depths of the ocean. Instead I would have known the stars. I would have seen the world from atop the world. To the one who filled my Empty Heart, raised a family, tended a house, gave all of her free time,cooked lunches, cooked dinners, and gave all of your being.

You ARE  a diamond.  I am Coal  -Forever I will sit here wishing and hoping to polish the most precious thing I have ever had in my life.   

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I KNOW

conceited, self-righteous, selfish, self-centered. That is how some have described me when I tell them "I just know" but no one knows me like I do. The Empath & Healer. Ever since I was young I have felt a connection to the spiritual world, the paranormal and most of all weird or out of the blue emotions. At 31 I can finally say I understand why. I am learning how to hone these skills as well as how to shelter myself from emotions that do not belong to me. I have only really ever felt 100% myself when I am engulfed in music or in helping others. I think my purpose on earth is to help, help, help and help. I have often gave advice and not even known where it came from, I JUST KNOW. I've often knew the outcome of a situation or the reason why something was happening. I JUST KNEW. Now I fully trust that "I JUST KNOW" feeling. Some may look at it as some of the words I recently used at the beginning of this entry. But there is a huge difference from those words from what I feel and KNOW. To be honest I am not sure I have been wrong yet. As long as my ego is in check, and kept at bay I know exactly what I Know... because I KNOW (haha). This aspect of my life has been extremely lonely. But some of the most fulfilling moments in my life have happened within this Time.

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WHATS NEW TODAY ISN’T NEW TOMORROW

We live in a day and age where everything is meant to be replace. Not like nature, but on a consumer level. Nothing is made to last, nothing is given to us as a whole and nothing is supposed to stand the test of time. When my cellular phone isn’t the latest or isn’t the quickest or fastest, I get a new one. Why? There is nothing wrong with the old one….. it just isn’t NEW. When my T.V. isn’t as big as the Jones’, I get a new one. Why? There is nothing wrong with the old one….. it just isn’t NEW.

When my partner isn’t pulling weight or isn’t meeting my needs or maybe has let themselves go physical speaking….. Ill just get a new one. Why? Because it is easier to bring in the new then to remedy the old. When it comes to technology, everything is seemingly released at a snails pace. The ironic thing is whatever is touted as “NEW” is in fact “OLD” We are spoon-fed in baby bites the “NEW” and latest fads. Who knew I would need a fridge with a TV & Computer built right into the door…..

When it comes to relationships everyone seems to have limits & lines, and once surpassed or crossed. We look for something new and dispose of the old; while taking whatever good may have been found in the old. I often look at my father and wonder…. over 30  years with the same woman in marriage. I see all if not most of his faults and my mothers as well. How many times has he said to himself: “That’s it I’m Done” I would bet my life on Zero Times. But why is that??

My guess is it is the time and upbringing he had. There wasn’t TV (yet), there weren’t copious amounts of distraction. The bright flashing lights if you will… He is a man of great morals, faith and stubbornness to a fault. But not once did he give up on his family, his partner or his life as it were. He found a way to move on and repair and revitalize the OLD. I’ve witnessed some if not all my parents tribulations throughout my childhood. Comparing similar issues to mine.. many times I have entertained the thoughts of someone or something new. Weighing out the pros & cons of said thoughts. Even in dark times allowing these thoughts to dictate my path at any given time. I still ended up where I began. But how much damage did these thoughts or sometimes actions cause? That remains to be seen. I don’t think my father ever gave such thoughts the time of day. Rather, he would let the storm calm and work harder to bridge a gap or find a solution. Society today is to blame for this. The constant bombardment of all things new and neverlasting products…. everything is and has become disposable. Even Humans.

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Welcome

Welcome to Plus Vibes. I plan on sharing my spiritual journey along the path of awakening and social de-conditioning through poetry, journaling, music and more. I hope I can reach as many people whom feel isolated in their journey to provide insight guidance and healing. I am a natural Empath a father of 2 and an extremely open minded thinker. You can also check Plus Vibes out on instagram (Plusvibess) Cheers