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Ghosted by someone I truly wanted & spent 4 months getting to know

Sharing my body

My emotions, my feelings and trust with

Only to be ignored when expressing how I feel

Tossed to the side...again

I’m tired but I know I will be okay I just want God to give me a break for once

Can the right one pick me??

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Today someone told me Happy Mother’s Day

It triggered me...

I said “I’m not a mom”

They said “wow I could’ve swore you said you were”

A reminder that I was supposed to be your mom

You would be here next month

Oh what I’d do to see your little face

& hold you close

A triggering reminder of what should’ve been

Missing you always, loving you for eternity.

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I really only come on here to vent anymore bc it’s the only safe place I have

The last few months have been crazy. I experienced so much emotional trauma while trying to maintain a dying relationship with another man & that drained me in itself. A relationship that only lasted a few months clouded my head so much I nearly lost me again. I had the worst NYE of my life because of him & ultimately ended our relationship on the very first day of the year...aint that some shit. On Jan. 2nd another guy hmu on social media & we started to talk I know how fast that seems to begin to move on within a day but I can’t just sit around & be miserable for weeks or months. Life goes on whether we want it to or not right? So this new guy lets chat about him a bit. He’s sooo fine but something seems off it could be me or it could be god giving me one of the infamous signs I ask for but simply ignore because I’m constantly hoping things will work out. We’be seen each other 3 times in the last 12 days which is legendary for me bc I’m literally the queen of dodging a meetup or a link. Idk if I want a relationship just yet but I also know I’ll never be okay with just being the girl that a guy will just call just to fuck on. The feelings I catch come on strong & hard & they aren’t meant to be felt by a “fwb” I need stability & I’m just not sure he’s it. Things are getting better but everyday is still hard. Only time will tell what will happen with all these situations in my life but I’m okay with that bc in the end I know things always get better & my path will become clear.

Missing someone who doesn’t miss you

Lowkey still in love with one person who acts like I don’t exist even tho we’ve known each other for YEARS so I don’t think it’ll ever work...