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I feel pretty… oh, so pretty…

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You are.

Seblaine convo

That damn charming smile. It makes me cave into any request, and before I know it, I’m naked. HOW?!

It’s a secret.

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Ugh. Swoon.

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😉

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Tough call huh? ;P

Mm yes, but I think the Kurt sandwich wins by a small fraction. ;)

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I know you do.

Preferably a sausage one. Or a Kurt one.

Blaine: grinned. "We will always love you that much. It's fine. Insecurities will happen, but talk to us first before thinking you just need to leave. You're basically not allowed to leave ever." He laughed. "You're ours." Blaine's eyes widened at the mention of Paris and he just squeezed Kurt's hands tighter. "What?! This is everything you've dreamed of. I would be on board either way, babe. Both positions are perfect for you. You just have to make the step towards what you want out of your career."

Kurt: pulled Blaine closer to the sandwich they were having, the light slowly returning to his eyes as it was. "Thank you, guys. It is a big chance, both options are. But honestly? I don't want to leave my home. And home it's you guys. Us. Here in New York. That's home." He smiled. "I'm taking the job here. And it'll be amazing... after we're done with the runway, of course." He chuckled, then moved one of his hands back and cradled Sebastian's face, the other still holding onto Blaine's. "I love you guys... I really do."

Sebastian: bit his lip, wondering what he'd choose. But, whatever he picked, he'd support him. All the while Kurt spoke, he traced small circles on his hip and stomach, encouragingly. He was glad to hear that he wanted the New York job, not because he wouldn't wanna go to Paris, but because it would be better for Kurt in the long run. For his career. "As long as you're sure, babe," he kissed the side of Kurt's head, and looked at Blaine, giving him a relieved look that things seemed to be okay. "We love you too, Kurt. So much," he pulled him flush against him, kissing the back of his neck. "So much."

Blaine: sighed. "Even if you feel that way, there's no cause to say you're not a fit to this puzzle. Both of us are here telling you how much we love you and need you. Kurt, you're absolutely anything but boring. You calm me down, you take care of us. You tell Sebastian when he's being a bit much with just as much sass as him-- which makes me laugh because you're both literally the same." He glanced at Sebastian and chuckled. "You've brought me so much joy though life... even before Sebastian stepped into it. That hasn't changed, and it will never change. I'm proud to have you. I'm proud of your attitude towards life and your career. Shit, Kurt. You have the coolest job ever, and you've built your name yourself. How even is that boring? We love you more than anything."

Kurt: felt his heart beating faster as he heard Blaine's sweet words, even more so when he felt the warmth of Sebastian's body against his back; he sighed as he allowed himself to calm himself down before he would cry in a non so pretty manner. He closed his eyes and pulled Blaine closer to himself, closer to the sandwich. "I'm sorry, guys... I'm sorry for being so silly and insecure. Maybe- I don't know, so much happiness makes me feel like i should see where the floor is going to fall underneath me." He bit his lip as he moved both his hands up and cradled their faces. "Thank you... for loving me that much" he said with a soft voice, then he looked at Sebastian before he looked at Blaine. "You know... Isabelle is going to Paris. They're sending her there. And she asked if I wanted to go with her. I thought about it, and I told Bas earlier that if it just so happened that you guys didn't want me- But... she also gave me another choice. To have her job at the Creative Department here, in New York... And that's the one I really want to take. So... what'd you guys think?" he asked, looking at both of them.

Sebastian: looked at Kurt back with an intense and desperate stare, and he held onto him tight, arms around his waist. He listened to his words, and gasped. Maybe they had a chance... maybe this meant Kurt would stay. "Baby... that's amazing, that offer... both offers, are great. And you really have to decide which one you'd rather do. Does that mean that you're not leaving us?" he dared ask, ready to do anything if it meant keeping both his boyfriends. He'd quit and move to Paris, or he'd give Kurt all the time and love he would ever ask either way.

Blaine: listened to both of them openly and bit his lip. "I understand, Kurt. I do. We talked about this insistently back when we considered this relationship. You know there's nothing that will make me stop loving you, right? Nothing. Us three make a great team, and Sebastian loves you too. Look at him." He smiled towards him and squeezed his hand as well. "When did you ever see Sebastian show emotion like this?" He grinned. "We made him taken man! He's insane about us." He looked at Sebastian next. "You are not "just" added fun. You're just the late leg to a tripod that didn't know it needed to be a tripod. You've done so much for us. Helping our careers, making us laugh, letting us travel-- showing us love that's never been showed to anyone before. You BOTH are important to me." He turned back to Kurt. "It's not a competition. Without you, me and Sebastian aren't even whole. It's us, and it's always needed to be 'us.'"

Kurt: sighed, his hand still holding onto Blaine's as they both turned to look at Sebastian. "I don't, and won't ever doubt of your love, both of your love. It's me who I doubt of my... I don't know, capacity to be... to stay interesting for you guys. I'm boring, okay? I said it. Always will be. And you two- You two are /Seblaine/, the one who almost got away." He turned to Sebastian. "Did you know Blaine and I broke up some years ago? And when we happened to meet again and he told me he was seeing someone, a voice inside my head pleaded not to be you, because I knew that if that was the case I wouldn't have had a chance. How silly is that, right?" He chuckled dryly.

Sebastian: was touched by the soft words Blaine was saying about him. He did love them, and they had showed him that it was okay to feel, and to be himself. He opened his mouth to tell Kurt that of course he wasn't boring, when he kept going about Blaine and their past. He blinked, looking between them. No, he hadn't known any of that. What...the fuck? How was that possible? "N-No. I didn't know that," he said, confused and upset. Their... they had broken up? And to think Kurt had thought Blaine would go to him? "That's not what happened. He didn't call me or reach out to me. And... isn't that in the past? You guys are back together." He took a few steps towards him. He chanced a look at Blaine, wondering why it had all happened. "Baby," he looked back at Kurt. "You are far from boring. You surprise me all the time. You think I thought you were that passionate about life? About your friends, your boyfriend, your career? Or how much you were a sexy dominatrix in bed and how sometimes you surrender so beautifully&" he asked, coming up behind him and holding his hips gently, kind of sandwiching him between him and Blaine gently. "I love you so much," he said, looking at the side of his face, close.

Blaine: 's reaction at first was confused. He raised an eyebrow. He couldn't believe that Kurt thought he was a problem, but then his heart shattered when he implied that he wanted out. "Kurt-- what?" He shook his head. The first emotion that presented itself was anger. How could Kurt even think like this? But he took a deep breath. Being rash would solve nothing, and Kurt needed love. Blaine swallowed thickly and opened his mouth to speak. "How have we made you feel this way, Kurt? We've both put in our fair share of effort to this relationship, but if we've slacked in some way, then tell us." He glanced at Sebastian, which was a mistake. His tearful eyes would just make Blaine more upset. "But you saying that you don't belong is absolutely crazy, Kurt, and you know that. He stepped forward and took his hand, looking at him square in the eye. "What's this /really/ about?

Kurt: sighed and runbed his face with both hands. "I know. I know you both think this is stupid. And yes, we've all made plenty of efforts. It's just... a feeling that I've had since day one, back when I thought I couldn't compete with someone like Sebastian for your affection." He took Blaine's hand back and shook his head. "Like I told Sebastian, it's not anything either of you lacked of in any way. It's me... I don't feel... good enough for you guys anymore."

Sebastian: bit his lip when Blaine looked away from him that fast. He watched the argument, not sure if he should say anything. He sighed when Kurt mentioned that he couldn't 'compete' with him. He wasn't that great, he didn't know why Kurt thought he was better than him. He wasn't. "Which I don't understand," he finally interjected from the couch, but remained seated. "You /are/ good enough for us. You've always been. You're so bright, and funny, and the right kind of bitchy. You're so important to me, and I'm sure you are to him too," he tilted his chin towards Blaine. "You guys were together first. You're KurtandBlaine," he said, because it was a thing. "You guys are the perfect duo. I'm just... the added fun," he shrugged.

Blaine: looked at Sebastian's reaction. He looked miserable and broken, and Blaine's heart couldn't take it. "Okay... what's-- guys. You're scaring me. What's wrong? What are we talking about?"

Kurt: was wriggling his hands as he took a couple of steps forward. "Thing is... Sebastian sort of confronted me about me being down in the mouth lately, and after I thought about it I figured... that I'm problem. That it's me the one who's the 'plus one' here. You guys are so good together and to each other, I don't feel I should be in the middle anymore." His heart broke a bit more with every word he spoke, especially with having to repeat that that was killing him all over again.

Sebastian: looked lost, and his vision wasn't even focused on anything, just slightly blurry as he listened to what Kurt had told him already, and what he still couldn't believe. He almost couldn't look at Blaine's reaction, for fear it'd break his heart even more, but he had to see. He looked at him.

Blaine: knew something was wrong. Kurt didn't go into detail, and he wasn't being descriptive. A million things ran through his head. Something happened to Burt, or Sebastian was in an accident-- and his heart was pounding. He wouldn't stop until he knew what was going on. He all but ran back to the apartment, and immediately took the elevator to their apartment. He burst through the door without warning. "Kurt? What's wrong?" He met them in the living room. "Is your dad okay?"

Kurt: looked up from the nest he had made on Sebastian's lap when he heard the door being burst open. His heart hurt when he saw the genuine concern in his voice. "Hey... He's fine" he said, finally letting go of Sebastian and standing up. "I guess... we have to talk, Blaine."

Sebastian: was internally freaking out when Blaine walked in, because somehow, he felt like he was about to witness either an epic Klaine fight, or breakup, and he wasn't ready for either. And, he somehow really felt guilty as well, because if he hadn't joined in on this relationship, this wouldn't be happening. He hadn't wanted to steal Blaine from Kurt, and that wasn't what he was doing. He let Kurt stand and looked defeatedly at Blaine, staying seated. He sighed and looked down between his knees at the floor.

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Kurt: reached out and held him with his two hands to stop him from moving further. "Your opinion also matters to me, Bas. I don't just... want to run away. I'm simply telling you how I feel about all this. It isn't about you, and it's not about Blaine. It's about me. And this... Paris just happened. I haven't made a decision yet." He sighed, then pulled his phone out and sent a text to Blaine, telling to come home as soon as possible. "There. Sent" he said, then looked up at him and bit his lip down. "Would it be unproper for me to... ask you to hold me while he gets home? We could sit on the couch and- I don't know..." He shrugged.

Sebastian: looked down at Kurt's hands pulling at his shirt, confused. Kurt wanted to get out of the relationship, but he wanted Sebastian to stay close and to hold him. He was so confused. He watched him text Blaine, and he felt bad for his other boyfriend. He had no idea that he'd get here and hear one of the worst news. "Kurt... I'll hold you for as long as you want me too," he sighed, hoping Kurt understood it meant forever. He lead him to the couch and pulled him in his lap, holding him close and burying his face in his soft hair, heart hammering. They stayed like that until Blaine arrived.

End.

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Kurt: held onto Sebastian's shirt with both hands, his eyes looking right back into his. The pain he was causing the other was obvious, and it broke his own heart in two. "I'm... too sad and confused right now..." he said quietly, then shrugged. "I have- Blaine needs to know about this" he finally said, looking at the envelope.

Sebastian: looked towards the ceiling, because he knew he wouldn't be able to change anything Kurt was feeling. "Call him." He sighed, looking back down at him. "Call him now. He needs to know." /And he's the one who could affect your decision anyway/, he thought. He pulled back, even if he could feel his heart tearing. He put about two feet's distance between them. "Call, Kurt. Ask him to come."

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Kurt: cried quietly, his eyes looking into Sebastian's eyes, then their hands as they rested together above his heart. "Do you really love me enough to put up with me? With this? What is it of me that you love? You loved Blaine first, remember? I was just... part of the take it or leave it package..."

Sebastian: almost let out a pained noise but it only sounded like a small gasp. « Of course I love you enough! And don’t you remember? I told /you/ that I loved you first. I... Yeah maybe I was physically attracted to him first in High School, but you seriously surprised me. I fell for you so fast, » he said, choking on a small sob. « You’re not ... part of the package. You’re the whole package. I just happen to want two packages, but I want the whole of you... » He licked his dry lips, staring at him.

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Kurt: shook his head. "I haven't made any decision yet. The offer is just there." A single tear rolled down his face, his body already unable to hold back the sadness. "I guess... I'm just looking for a reason to stay..."

Sebastian: knew that Blaine could make Kurt stay. But he was persuaded he couldn't. What good was he, compared to Kurt's first love? But there was no time to call Blaine, or Kurt would decide and leave. "Aren't we reason enough?" he asked, taking Kurt's hand and placing it over his own heart. "Half of this is yours. It is. I love you." He leaned down and kissed him, pouring all of his desperation in it. "I .../love/ you..." he sighed, eyes filling. It wouldn't work. And if Kurt wasn't happy, was it wrong to force him to stay?

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Kurt: shook his head. "It's not that you don't make me happy, Sebastian. You do. And so does Blaine. But I also think about your guys' happiness, and maybe... I'm not suppose to be part of it." He sighed. "Maybe... you will have to." He looked up at him, then reached for an envelope that had been on the desk the whole time. "This is an open plane ticket, for Paris. Isabelle has been hired to work there, and she.. has asked to join her."

Sebastian: pulled back to see the letter with the plane ticket, but he kept a hand in Kurt's shirt for fear he'd disappear. His stomach felt like it fell to his feet. What the hell? "What? N-No... Kurt, if you're thinking about our happiness, then you'd stay," he reasoned, because it wouldn't make them happy to watch him leave them. "Good for your job, but no, babe. You can't go.." he said desperately.

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