I do not want to live anymore.
Everything that has ever happened to me, everyone i have ever met, has all boiled down to this final and overwhelming conclusion that my life is absolute, 100% PAIN, SUFFERING, LONELINESS, WORTHLESSNESS...
I need this pain to stop... And as long as im alive, it will never cease...
None of you give a fuck, and that's okay. I dont want you to pretend that you care, i dont want you to post on my social medias saying "but i care"- because. Fucking. No. You. Dont.
You either feel that you are obligated/ supposed to say that, or you want to pretend that youre a caring friend and post on my page so everyone thinks, "aw what a good friend, saying that they care when their friend is at a low point"- i dont WANT to read that BULLSHIT!!
Dont pretend like you give a fuck. Just dont.
Before you tell me "life gets better, things will improve, someone does care about you, blablabla", just listen to me:
If I actually killed myself, you'd maybe be like, "wow that sucks that she died" but then you'd go about your day, you'd SOON forget about me. Within days, people would move on.
My entire life is worthless, empty, hollow, pointless, useless, just so... So...
Im done, guys. Whoever reads this, all 3 of you lol, you'll read the first sentence, maybe even this whole post... And you will keep scrolling, and i would be out of your mind, probably forever.
I dont want reassurance. I dont want to hear the bullshit you say to people to "comfort" them. That shit wont work on me, because i ALREADY AM AWARE what my life is going to continue to be. Nothing will change.
I have done Everything to try and make it better, I've tried and done EVERYTHING. LITERALLY. EVERYTHING. And it always ends up the exact same way...
Im choosing to end my pain.
Im choosing to exit this cycle of pain, loneliness, worthlessness.
yousharknotpass
stormborns
izzy806
jimmyeatworldofficial
amandla
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