[possibdfmsds]

HOPE IS NOT AN INTELLECTUAL CERTAINTY BUT A MORAL OBLIGATION

[possibdfmsds]

”You’ll have other more stressful periods in your life” bitch. Bitch. I just wanted you to acknowledge it is hard for me right now and maybe give me a pep talk or a hug or some sort of encouragement? Bitch. How hard is it to give people what they need.

[recoveringarchivist]

lispector so simply saying “I humbly ask to be allowed to exist, I humbly ask for a little happiness, an act of grace, I ask to be allowed to suffer less, I ask to be less beset by painful experiences, I ask men and women to consider me a human being worthy of a little love and respect, I ask for the blessing of life.” I will not cry on this plane

[possibdfmsds]

Listening to Bon Iver can’t worsen the situation. *actively worsens the situation*

[possibdfmsds]

I went to bed at 2:17, to wake up at around 5:30 (that’s when the alarm went off at least) to do my powerpoint for today’s lesson. Time management nowhere to be found, but at least that’s a constant in my life (and always pulling it off anyway). The lesson went alright, I again packed it too tight and didn’t have the time for spoken fluency practice. I have the last lesson on Wednesday to really show I can address that and give a lesson that’s timed well. He said he’ll pick me up at the metro, waited some 15 minutes for him even though he knew exactly when my train departed, I let it go. Got home to some dishes in the sink, I let it go. Got home to a bunch of food in plastic, I let it go. He left for aperitivo with the boys, I let it go. At times it feels like we’re already at the flatmate stage of the relationship even though it hasn’t even been a month. At times it feels like I’m the only one explicitly happy to be here, happy to start this, happy to share this. I feel very sensitive, lack of sleep and the stress of the course exaggerate this definitey. All the same, I feel I’ve got little left but to cry about it all? I’m unhappy with the situation, I suppose that’s the correct way of explaining it.

[possibdfmsds]

If Modric didn’t get his fairytale ending no reason why Messi should

[possibdfmsds]

Live from the final

[possibdfmsds]

[possibdfmsds]

Football’s starting and I have to plan my lesson for tomorrow. He’s gone out to see the match and I’ve overpoured the wine for myself. He destroyed the book I got him but he’s almost finished reading it! I’ve never lived with a partner before and coupled with this intensive course it’s a bit too much. Not to mention the whole moving countries thing

[possibdfmsds]

Think this new chapter of my life will be a short paragraph only! I came I saw and I decide to leave

[possibdfmsds]

Am I too fast on the trigger. Perhaps

[possibdfmsds]

Think this new chapter of my life will be a short paragraph only! I came I saw and I decide to leave

[possibdfmsds]

What I’ve been doing for the past three weeks. And what I still have to do for another week

[possibdfmsds]

I will cry you a river. I can cry a lot when given a chance. Once I start

[nunhauntology]

LYDIA DAVIS

[possibdfmsds]

Unhealthy coping mechanisms

[possibdfmsds]

Wow ok I am a person who does not know how to take criticism and who does not know how to take other opinions into consideration and I am also passive aggressive and mean and I get offended easily and I suck so much that one would hardly believe I arrived at the age of 30 at all. Because I am so maladjusted to the world and the people and the air and everything

[possibdfmsds]

My period is due in 5 days

[possibdfmsds]

Wow ok I am a person who does not know how to take criticism and who does not know how to take other opinions into consideration and I am also passive aggressive and mean and I get offended easily and I suck so much that one would hardly believe I arrived at the age of 30 at all. Because I am so maladjusted to the world and the people and the air and everything