The Star Circus System 🌟

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

Hi! We're the Star Circus System🌟⭑ o⭑ . ⭑ ⯌ .

We're still figuring everything out so bear with us! ⬫ . ✧ + ⭒

Here's some of the folk you may see here!

🌟 - Star - Host - Any Pronouns - 70+ front percentage according to PK

🏀 - Basketball - The sniler - He/Him

🎴 - RK / Rouxls Kaard - Rouxls Kaard Introject - As obvious as a brick through a window - He/Him

🍊 - Cat - Literally baby kitty cat - She/her + cat neos

If anyone else posts here, they'll have their own tag on their posts! Also- We're not using our real names, it's a privacy thing. Well except RK. He's special (obvious as fuck)

Asks are welcome and encouraged!!

We wont be answering anything too personal, and we're not looking to get into syscourse, but anything else is fair game!!

Adorable clown/circus graphics by @idog-graphics!! Go check them out! Userboxes by me! Yippee!

Endo/Pro Endo dni please!

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

Woah..

[raulimages]

[im-mender]

Smoking on that we'd

[weepingchoir]

So stupid when a piece of fiction impacts your identity. Like ok bitcj. It worked. Now what.

[junecast-moonfast]

Guy who got fired from his job as a fictional character so now he has to be a real person.

[dissociablues]

dissociation meme. "i'm" and "we're" version. enjoy!

[lavender-viper]

me when I project my dissociation onto comfort characters

[bathhousekitty]

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

[syscultureis]

Newly-discovered sys culture is figuring out who's in your head and finding it oddly reminiscent of a ghost-hunting show:

"If someone's here, can you give me a sign?"

"If anyone wants to introduce themselves, the floor is yours."

"Can you tell me your name? Do you have a name?"

"I can feel a presence nearby; can you come closer, please?"

"How long have you been in here?"

"It's okay, I just want to talk."

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[potentially-infinite-clowns]

you ever just

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

Hey yall

If any of you are diagnosed, what's it like? Like the diagnostic process n stuff?

Mentioned it before but we're looking into getting diagnosed n stuff so we can get support for our dissociation n stuff

Wanna know what we should be doing n stuff

Our GP is very understanding, and while he doesn't have much knowledge on the subject of DID, he's referred me to a mental health thing regarding it. And has been proactive in writing back and basically telling them to fuck off when they rejected the referral cos I was autistic lol. He has said he trusts my judgement on what I think is going on

We're also UK based so that will for sure change things compared to the US

[hobbbitor]

strange comic abt my face

[my-dollyeis-dead]

[alteredpanel]

liking an activity so much you wanna do it more faster

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

Trying to unmask is a funny feeling

We struggle a lot with telling if someone wants to front, or if we want someone to front. If that makes sense?

I think it's due to a variety of factors.

We've been masking this for our whole lives now. So of course it's hard to understand the feelings

As well. Our (ok- my) uncertainty over whether we're faking. My anxiety about "sounding weird". The worry about making our friends uncomfortable. The fear of not wanting to lie. Or to be wrong about what we're feeling.

It means that when these uncertain feelings come up. I just ignore them. I keep my hands on controls and I stay in front alone.

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

"no one else ever fronts" i say forgetting when other people front

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

What do you mean this has 67 notes huh how

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

"no one else ever fronts" i say forgetting when other people front

[potentially-infinite-clowns]

YO???