tuba

[ppluvio-phile]

don't you get sick of it? livin' in isolation

cut off, cut off like an island nation

I can tell you're lost, I can see you're reelin

drownin' in a flood of a thousand feelings

I'll tell you I'm lost, in the world l know

throw myself onto the rocks to make you feel less alone, less alone, less alone

[ppluvio-phile]

when I wake, can all my memories fade away?

'cause the nightmares and the dreams don't separate

[ppluvio-phile]

it’s gin o’clock where I’ll wake up

i don’t know

[ppluvio-phile]

pardon my delay

I'm navigating, I'm navigating my head

disassociate

I'm navigating, I'm navigating my head

give me some advice

I am wasting all this time

my, oh my

[ppluvio-phile]

my brain's a dog asleep that I cannot let lie

cloudy head, though I can't find a single silver lining

guess there is no hope for me in sight

to ease this troubled mind

I worry for the sun, yes, I worry for the snow

I worry I'll die young while I worry I'll grow old

oh, I worry for the time I spent worrying alone

it makes me sad

it takes me back

I break in half

ah-ooh, I break in half

[ppluvio-phile]

I got soul, but l'm not a soldier

[ppluvio-phile]

all of our plans are falling through

sometimes a dream, it don't come true

[ppluvio-phile]

peace be still my darlin'

all is well my darlin'

your anxious heart may as well be stone

oh it weighs you down deeper than you know

yeah it weighs you down deeper than you know

[ppluvio-phile]

i try to sink and never float

cause my head is underwater

i’m here by choice by my own hand

i’m a lamb sent into slaughter

i’m aware of my own body

i can feel beneath my skin

i can wash away my insecurities

but can't wash away my sin

[ppluvio-phile]

it feels just like a dagger buried deep in your back

you run for cover but you can't escape the second attack

your soul was innocent, she kissed him and she painted it black

you should have seen your little face, burnin' for love, holdin' on for your life

all that I wanted was a little touch

a little tenderness and truth, I didn't ask for much, no

talk about being in the wrong place at the wrong time

[ppluvio-phile]

babe

there's something wretched about this

something so precious about this

where to begin

babe

there's something broken about this

but I might be hoping about this

oh, what a sin

[ppluvio-phile]

have existential thoughts,

like a winner

[thoughtkick]

“I happen to like the strange ones. People who look normal and leads normal lives – they’re the ones you have to watch out for.”

— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

[ppluvio-phile]

There was nothing she could do, but there was always the next thing to be done.

~ Ursula K. Le Guin, Tehanu

[ppluvio-phile]

Relax, yes, I'm trying

But fear's got a hold on me

Yes, this fear's got a hold on me

[daily-spooky]

[ppluvio-phile]

In love with being noticed

and

afraid of bein' seen