Unrequited Feelings

Bottled in one tumblr account is the unrequited feelings, insecurities, and inadequacy of one girl from her early 20's.

[loveserum-deactivated20191021]

I know you don’t love me. I know you don’t think about what it would be like to trace your fingertips along the edge of my jaw and across my eyelids and on the inside of my knee. I know that I think about you as sunlight and that you don’t think about me at all. I know it’s a one-sided kind of love, the kind where you don’t taste acid on your tongue when you see someone’s hand around my own. I know you don’t love me. I know you don’t, but I can’t help the fact that I love you. I love you so much that I slur it in drunken hazes and think about it when I go to sleep. I wish I could press my love into every inch of your skin and bruise it into your heart so that it could beat to the sound of my love, but you’re too out of reach and I’m too hard to love. Please know that I love you more than I can begin to stand. Please let me know if one day you wake up and suddenly see me in a different way. I know you don’t feel me in your bones, but if you ripped my chest open all you’d find is your smile and your eyes and your laugh in the inseam of my heart. You’ll find the love that I possess, and the bleeding cracks from the love that you don’t.

Unrequited (via veincold)

[iwrite-myheartt-deactivated2016]

عندما تُريد قتل أحد، إستعمر قلبه ثم إرحل How to kill someone: fill them with love and then leave.

March 20, 2015  (via clinginess)

[cosmicwizdom]

At some point, you have to forget those people that have forgotten you. Let go.

- unknown (via quotelounge)

[track82-deactivated20170519]

Why couldn’t I have seen it before? I thought this drifting away was temporary, but I guess the farther from the shore you get, your chances of getting back gets smaller and smaller.

Shoreline (58 of 366) || J.Kim. (via finitetoinfinity)

[track82-deactivated20170519]

The more I felt us getting closer, the more I felt you were going to push me away.

Deserter (65 of 366) || J.Kim. (via finitetoinfinity)

[track82-deactivated20170519]

I think I’ve come to terms that you don’t care for me and I’m scared that I’ve come to accept it.

Unwanted Gifts (68 of 366) || J.Kim. (via finitetoinfinity)

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[prattledaily-blog]

Rejections. It was never new to me that someone rejects me. I have been rejected way too many times that I have handled all the same way-- crying and getting too emotional about it. It's not like it was new that someone I like doesn't like me back. So when someone tries to show some motive of interest about me, I couldn't believe it. Cause it's something out of the ordinary. It was right for me to deny your compliments back then. Cause I wasn't even qualified to be called beautiful. Cause I'm not. Not from someone else's view of point. I am always lacking.

[prattledaily-blog]

Open letter to senpai

I'm the type of person that gets easily flustered, flattered, and swoon over when someone compliments me, tries to allot time for me, holds my hand, or even hug me. So don't blame me if I get attached to you that easily. Don't blame me if I fall head-over-heels about you. I don't get special treatment from guys all the time. I rarely do. And if I do, I get so happy and expect a lot afterwards. I watch and check over my phone a million times just to see if you already remembered to hit me up a message. I get a little crazy over thinking about how to respond to your messages just so I wouldn't mess what I have with you even if I found out that I don't really matter that much to you. I wish I could get a grip of myself on how I react to how it all turned out. But I blame myself too. For pushing myself too hard on you. For expecting that you do like me too. For thinking that you actually felt the same way too. For getting so giddy when I get a message from you. For getting all excited by thought of crossing your mind. You were already giving me hints that you weren't interested about me anyway but I guess I was at fault for trying to deny it-- for trying to believe that for once, someone actually wants to like me and wants to make me feel special. Deleting our photo together in your instagram and not messaging me for days were the clearest hints that I was thinking differently and that we were never in the same page. For this short time, I am still thankful though. That you gave me happiness that I wouldn't imagine experiencing after all the heart aches I've been through for the past years. That I was capable of feeling blissful just because of a touch of kindness. Maybe you got scared because I was pushing myself too hard towards you-- squeezing myself in to your heart never realizing that I was already pushing you away instead. I couldn't blame myself because I feel like I am emotionally bankrupt and I need someone to fill the emptiness. Thank you and sayonara, senpai.

[cosmicwizdom]

The best feeling in the world is knowing that you actually mean something to someone.

- unknown (via quotelounge)

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[rhinobeetletheo-deactivated2016]

[prattledaily-blog]

It'll be three days now that I haven't heard from you. It'll be three days now that I've been hurting to see my phone not receiving any message from you. It'll be three days now that I've been having a lot of doubts about myself.

[difficult]

Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love.

R. M. drake (via difficult)

[samesounds-deactivated20260529]

You’re not the only person in this world. But for me? It felt like you were. And to ignore me like that? God, I’ve never felt so alone.

(via samesounds)

[prattledaily-blog]

Sums up what I feel for the last few weeks.