Dual Minded

Just a collection of thoughts, art and music. Just trying to be different than the past.

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Now we've circled this Earth almost a full revolution

Since I dropped the last bar and still I ain't losing

I'm cruising

Lanes like some of y'all doing lines of cocaine

From the spine to the brain,

I swear this shit electric

Pressure birthed me into something eclectic

Beyond the average worth, grade, measure or metric

This life built me block by block like a game, a type of Tetris

I'ma test this;

With every foul move made, I rise above

But be careful you solve your mess

Before you overload and fold like Icarus

Reaching too high, parable designed to show you to shoot for dreams

But keep your humility

Otherwise that hyperbole you concieved will eat your ass up along with your tendencies

To breathe lies like a disease,

A plague on your very name

Following you like the darkest shade

And you can't even realize it's the bed you made

With yourself

Narcissus mindset only reflecting the shallow waters

Never the ocean

Because past the surface, well Hell, that's all you see

All you could ever receive

And trust me brother, that shit is deep as long as you can reach

With a thought process that hasn't been breached

Verse 2.

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

I am a being that you've never seen

Just kidding I'm a being you could see from a moon off a planet

Eons away

Too visible, shining dreams

Darken to nightmares

Harken to times where your very existence felt inevitable

Whether I eat, bleed,

This life don't fight fair

Drink humbleness 'til the test of this shit phase through spaces

Too small for most of your morals

So you take the low road with the biggest chip on your shoulder

And all these faces never change,

They eyes still pierce like blades

Let's hang up the imaginary laurels

We give to ourselves for senseless accomplishments

That never touch a soul

I pour it out, this knowledge

But taking my own advice

Is a road I would probably walk

After the cost and punishment make me feel I'm close to being done with it

What is "being"

Trust me, I know this question is one that drives people mad

To lunacy

But neither you or me would believe, even if we could see the forest from the trees

Constant paradoxes we try to wrap our minds around but it gets toxic

We gotta just let go of this petrol

That burn our spirit, I hear it, the death rolls and rattles

That we all eventually deal with

We can act like it don't matter

But to come to terms with these riddles within this little pinch of reality we inhabit

Is one of the purest things we can practice

Time to change my tactics

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Whether nuanced or nuisance

I ruin rude-intented

Clueless

Rivals

Vying for survival when these bars ain't even a trial

Keep running,

It might buy you time though

It's a crime,

Flow like this free fluid running from me

My veins drip blood

But this brain spit creative juices

That if I were decapitated

Would shower acid rain over half the plane

We exist, I snatch the stage,

Thespian

Dropping lyrical hammers like Hespheastus

It's a test, this

Litmus exercise

That press the mind and the speed you can reach and still breed creativity

My speech teacher would be proud seeing me now going from a stuttering lummox to a lyricist who can peer with this

Lucid vision, clear as an eagle as I tease and throw

Different metronomes and cadences

I just play with this

Through fits and Gerald's Game (Fitzgerald) I give thanks

You don't get the message

But that's the point of subliminal innit it

My command of English could match any Kings

Hawking loogies like logic through the universe like Stephen

See?

We can flip Alphas and Omegas

We can realize most of us are Noreigas

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

I ain't gonna give you people any more of me

It'd be the Morte of me

Your fucking spirit and demeanor be deforming me

Lord please don't let 'em be conforming me

There's a raging storm in me

Tornadoes forming deep in this psyche

Distorting me

Different channels I'm tuning into morphing me

This energy I'm storing be

The equivalent of Oppenheimer bombs released

Force the dream from the stone

I'm on my own with this rhyming,

Doors sealed with homophones

White knights saving you from wight nights

I'm in a zone never found before

When I pounce your feet better pound the floor

Get to stepping, get to running before I'm coming

Let out the dungeon

Set to bludgeon,

A ruffian rushing these motherfuckers that think they punish,

They criminals, they judges with jury, executioner planned out

But really they lushes

Idiocracy playing out like natural selection died

Guess this existence didn't pan out

Now we just prance 'round

Selfies hiding the selfish faces behind facades that cover whatever self is left

Be patient

Because with each bar I reveal more nascent knowledge

You need to process this ancient world with its modern problems

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

You pick the song.

I love it when people just twist me off

My energy is kalishnikovs mixed with cocktails

Malo, Tov, explosive paradoxes in language

R&R, no, stop, this flow obnoxious

And we ain't hanging

With it

We want this modernized welfare line bars,

Disguising their lynch mob mindset

I wanna rise above this system designed to hold down a social class,

Whether black, white, yellow, brown, no one gets a pass

Unless those greenbacks paved a way for you to exceed the average

The rest of us claw through this septic

Cavalier thinking get us stuck on the tragic

Searing images in our memory to test us

Whether imperial or metric

This math is easy to comprehend if you just listen for a fucking second

If I can "X" you, remove you from the equation

Treat you as an exponent,

A value I attribute to you, since you a number with no sentience,

Something faceless

What's stopping a nation from treating you the same?

This

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

I drop into different dimensions

On the defensive

What you gonna say when I bend the pretenses that got this globe boiling with tension

Normal humans just toys for elitists

We don't even fight cause most of us chose to be defeatist

This whole existense fatalistic, God we love the taste of it, stick a boomstick in a dudes face, and like a broom we can sweep em away

Fade from it, no guilt

Limited morals flow through your fingers like silt

This river of life, this sea, this ocean

Constantly expanding, creating canyons

Through this experience, strife lay em low

Pyramid schemes looking like dreams you could climb if you could just peep the design

I drive the beam home, dark tower rise like a rose from the backdrop of a cold world

Tide turns, nerves in my spine burn, unlocking the prospects of turning these lines into talisman like objects

You rub for safety, protection, but all they contain is knowledge and you seem to be deflecting

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

I was used to this pain

After this life ripped love from my hands

Most of you wouldn't understand

Unless you've lost a parent, a friend,

Senseless, wanton, I know we mortals but sometimes I just gotta question the plan

You know what?

I'm done being cordial

Whether forthright with it or sneaking in shadows

Opening portals in your mind you stuck in some cattle

Existence but the amenities is there

So you like "omg, this is some sick shit, unique, so different!"

Scratch this.

I really need to expand my horizons

All y'all looking like flat earthers while staring into devices

That rob your mind of creative thought til you just a ball of slime, this

De-evolution ruthless, got us shooting and stabbing at the same rate we dappin' them hands

Now all we want is to ravage a man

No longer a fellow, a brother, just a sucker who bellows when we slit they throats,

The love died to the emotes

And you don't get it do you?

They stole your soul, gave you just enough so you roll feeling in control

When in reality

We all pawns to the same fallacy

And since the gen pop wanna stay in the matrix

The wolves can't separate themselves from the sheep 'cause the pen is unbreakable

We need to dig deeper, show 'em words can curb motherfuckers like the shine on the curve of a sword

Through the research, I dragged my ass out the ether, no longer inert

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Different flows

Grow through me

Like Mother Nature

Cultivated me

To the

Point Father Time

Threw me

For loops

Whether this route be

Rocky or smooth I know it was meant for me

Sometimes I want God to soothe me

But this path mine alone and the pain, tears and blows

Drew me

Like an artists masterpiece,

The magnum opus that comes shattering

Rudely

All conceptions of reality

And moves the

Needle further in the haystack

Unique

Is what I search for,

When I finally find it I'ma burst forth

Some days I feel cursed, scorned

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Listen I'll spit to phantoms

Humans, beasts, beings in between and in tandem

My rhymes could fill a mansion

I'm manic with my penning

From Maine down past Atlanta

Busting walls like a cannon

What you want, what you need

Used to be the man you demanding

Them illicits that got you twisted

Seeing shadows in corners landing

Like eldritch monsters

Coming to haunt ya

Dreading your slaughter

Sweating bullets, that fear a product

They wanting sold

My boy this shit getting old

Where is my companion,

Competition for this flow?

The compassion passing me, soon it'll leave this body

Just like a common cold

But I won't cease, on God my G

Throw me under the bridge

Just like a bumming troll,

No need to scour the globe

I'd live content

Devouring what you call the goats

Literally one of my favorite songs of my late teens. The beat, the vibe, everything.

[missinyouiskillingme]

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

But what if you're not okay with losing that person? What happens when you see yourself in only one capacity in regards to that person? What happens when that capacity ends, as things do, and you can't imagine yourself fulfilling any other role in regards to that person?

Those are the questions.

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

I'm a breed beyond average

Lavish means get wasted on me

Trust me, riches make any mans eyes glint

With shadows forming, inner energy brewing,

Going seismic

I'd rather die with

Nothing, content with something

more than greed could succeed in morphing me

Love, camaraderie, even the rage, the dreams, the fears that paralyze with schemes

Anxious cause too many pairs of eyes beam through the darkness

Listen, I WANT THIS

This is living

Not the green parchment

Vellum will be spelling your doom like stepping on the dark side of the moon

We all pink inside 'til we die, gray hairs and all

See, we're just swimming souls in a fish bowl

Homages to melodies that fell to me like comets

Shining paths through the wastelands I wandered

I ponder;

If I repeat words, does that defeat the purpose?

Am I stuck in ruts, going fucking nuts?

Or is this genius mode?

I gleam the prose

Like I was squeezing a stone

And under pressure, I reveal a rose

Green thumb with rhythm, a bouquet of bars, never stunted with it, magic with metronome

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Every day we wake up to news,

They say none is good so guess you can see the ruse

Hate information because complacent citizens

Make the nation one easier to run

But in the process, we lost us,

We soulless now,

Gun in hand to destroy another life

Another objective fact

One big movie like Running Man

Endless night is where we seem to be careening to

We used to be dreamers too

But now the images switched to horror and atrocity

Shots dropped at an artery with absolutely no second thoughts

And we wonder where we first went wrong

Seems like the broken homes we clawed a life from

Still catch up like the dawn

Cycical natures got my mind running circles

Looking for reasons for this hateful shit bubbling up from our species

Like some dormant, latent secret

Kept quiet 'til this moment, now it's racing, like time for those whose heads are leaking

Most feel like prayers fall on deaf ears

So we all seething, reaching,

Touching depths of rage where a page couldn't keep it

In place

This more like a novel, an epic, the biological product of our twisted essence

The quicker you accept it, with haste we can redirect it

And instead of all this hate and pain hitting like drops of rain

We could raise the populace to a range

Where we overcome obstacles,

Popping paradigms so the same outcomes break like window panes

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Let me drop in the vault

And grab a rhyme that pop blows like an assault

On the nose with the 'caine

Act like an Animaniac, insane with the membranes

In my brain firing on all pistons

Pistol whip party on this cranium

My bars imprison the very system they say was designed to hold me

I got the coded messages

Codex presents you see as decadent

But really they simple,

If you want I could titillate senses coming up from the ether

Existence never mentioned

See, I'm a sleeper cell

Agent dropping bars like napalm

On this concrete jungle, hang up, let me hit my drip, go relax at the bungalow

Nah fuck that, I'm esoteric, I'll never swallow my talents like my pride

Don't feign embarrassment

You know this shit real harrowing like a hit of heroin

Since we all toxic males now, where's the heroine?

Copping homophones like the twilight zone in this rhyme 'til the world is mine

Terror of the seven seas to the highest peaks

A disease they haven't even dreamed of coming into being

A tongue twister,

Mind ripper, becoming one with the

Richter

Scale

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Trust me, every day I open a scar

A way for me to feel again,

Instead of this numbness draggin' flotsam

Bars pry and force open

These pieces I stab down deep

'Cause what they keep doing is killing me, wounding me

If you recognized this as a plea

Would you even see me?

Or would you just observe the smiles

Miss the eyes that stare beyond you,

Miles

I walked, crawled, bled and sweated until I fed it, met it,

This ego

'Til I realized

It ain't me though

It was a beast that pushed me to the very limits of pleasure and pain

Like they were the same rank and category in my brain

Fuck it, hit the lane and speed until we percieve

What we really exist as,

The true beings that with a touch,

Change a heart, electric scenes

Painted on skin and in mind, de-sign like a dream,

But we can create it, if we work it, pay it, show patience

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

Listen I've seen my mind so clouded

In a fugue where a best friend, a brothers name is something you can't pronounce

It a poison, a curse every breath and lurch closer to casket

I could be straight out the basket but most of y'all would ask if

I'm ready for more, ready for war

Nose raw, lungs feel weighted with lead, steady your pores

You be sweating every first impression

Can they see me? do they gleam past the mask to the addict,

In my eyes do they catch every relapse,

All the little patterns

That I repeat 'til I'm insane,

Insomniac wishing for sleep but it always flits away

Like dreams in the gutter

Obscene mutters concealing true feelings

But when you stutter 'cause that grey matter sitting up so relaxed

That you and your body can't even get up,

Go

React

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

When I spit I split molecules

Don't ask me how you gon' rule

All you do is drool,

Balled and screwed by Lady Nature

When I create I phase through hateful thoughts

And try to find beauty, the paydirt

That make this life somethin' beyond living

When you rise to occasions that have others spacing

And don't get your heart twisted;

That's something to admire, aspire to

Instead of trapezing this livewire

Crude ethics make me lose method

Man I see Red,

Bull temper,

Need to cool,

Zen 'fore I get cruel

Censor the best parts of myself,

Cut 'em off like a cancer,

Tempted to sell my talents instead of mentor

And nurture it like a child searching for purposes,

A simple answer

But we all just out in the wild, the jungle

Bucking, ducking eachother because most say fuck it and try to off you 'cause of a difference in style,

Or upbringing,

A street,

Whatever shit they see as a reason to compete

And the sport bloody, I'll be damned if you catch me acting backwards

I adVANce,

The kids used to say

"Clean in my white T and jeans"

But this jawn clod 'em over the head

A universal soldier of bars

Firing off at targets small and large

Get full of lead or lead,

Paradoxes you percieve

Show you how the truth bends,

Too easily

[larrycarlson]

[prehistoric-minds-lost-in-time]

No matter the twisted landscape

No matter the time

I can't stop feeling love

Even if the love is no longer mine.

I seriously wish you the best. I wish I felt comfortable having something more than what was, but it terrifies me. It feels like a little death, moving on from those emotions. I'll never forget today though, and I love you.