@eversolo / @presidentdriver sent: ‘ it takes me seven days to stop being in love with you ’ (angsty drama phillip, they probably got in a fight and now he’s acting too cool for school but really he’s just a fool)
“You say that like you’ve done it before,” Jin snapped back. There were times when loving Phillip was downright exhausting. He knew that it wasn’t easy for the other to come to terms with his shifting sense of identity, but that didn’t mean Jin always felt like putting up with his boyfriend’s dramatic outbursts. He folded his arms over his chest as if to shield his heart from any more blows. He didn’t want to let Phillip see just how much that stung.
His brow furrowed his lips pushed into a scowl. This wasn’t their first argument but he certainly hoped it wouldn’t be their last as a couple; despite Phillip’s defensive demeanor Jin loved him. He didn’t want to lose him. Their relationship was far from perfect, but so were they. When things were good they were great, and lately it had seemed like Phillip was making progress on himself — until that afternoon, that is.
“I’m not asking you to parade me around, I just want you to stop acting like you’re ashamed to be with me! You didn’t even lie about having a girlfriend, you told them you were single, as if I don’t even exist, like we don’t live together! I’m sick of being treated like some sort of secret retreat where you go to find yourself and leave when you feel satisfied! You pull me close when it’s convenient for you and push me away when it isn’t.”
Jin sighed heavily. He was damn near panting with how much energy was rushing through him. Every little thing that was bothering him was rising to the surface. He could feel his words threatening to bubble over in his growing anger. Fighting with Phillip was like talking to an immature brick wall. He avoided eye contact, his gaze darting around the room to look everywhere but at his partner.
“You know, sometimes I think the only reason you call me your boyfriend is to keep me from being with someone else. You say you love me when we’re together, but I wonder if I’ll ever be more important to you than your goddamned ego — But I stay because I love you, Phillip! I really, truly love you even though it makes no sense sometimes!”
Tears started to creep out of the corners of Jin’s eyes. That familiar tingling sensation told him more were coming but he just couldn’t help it. He turned away from Phillip slightly, just enough to be able to still glance over at him without having to face him. He didn’t want to cry in front of him. To cry would be to admit defeat, even if it was involuntary.
“I just want you to love me the way I love you.”
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