Dream To Get Away

~ Fashion ~ Designing ~ Shopping ~ Traveling ~ Food ~ Sleep ~ Dreaming ~ Occasionally, I rage but very rarely will you see me unhappy because life is always better when you choose to see things from a more positive perspective :)

[pretty-little-lioness]

Having a lot of fun with my complimentary radiant liquid rouge from Influenster and Clé de Peau Beauté :*

[pretty-little-lioness]

DISCLAIMER: I AM OKAY. #soggypost Tonight, having been sick for over a week and dealing with a few other personal matters, I started to feel a bit panicked. The room began to feel smaller, the night darker, and the air heavier. It's not often that I have panic attacks but even the smaller ones (and if you've ever had one, you'll know) suck. I found myself wishing the sun were out so I could find myself some sense of relief. Obviously, I couldn't just turn the sun on lol so instead I tried to distract myself, with makeup, in an attempt to prevent the anxieties from worsening. I was too panicked to do anything involving my face, so instead I decided to practice special effects. I chose to do something a little graphic, all the while promising myself I would only ever express this act through scar wax and fake blood. It helped me to try and understand why some might choose to do this in real life. It helped to physically see it, from a first person perspective. It calmed me to know that that wasn't something I needed. I don't mean to overshare, but I wanted to post my sfx progress (it could have been better lol) and I didn't want just another superficial caption. I wanted the awareness because before I experienced any mental obstacles of my own, I never used to understand how people could be so debilitated by their own mind. I used to judge them, assuming everyone had the same control I thought I had over my own mind. I'm not sure how others experience it but for myself, it feels like you're trapped in an unpenetrable bubble, suffocating. It wasn't until I experienced that, that I understood why people do the things they do under distress. Recently, I even found out that many of those whom I've been close to experience similar, if not worse, moments. No one wears a sign on them that says these are things they've gone through. Unless they tell you, you can never be sure of what's happening in someone's mind. So it's our jobs as fellow human beings to be supportive and give others an open and safe space to express those feelings in a healthier way. This was my healthier way 🙂 Thanks to those who always give me a safe space ❤

[pretty-little-lioness]

Happy Fucking Birthday to me....

It shouldn't be this difficult to find people who actually give a shit about me. What do I ever do to deserve for people to treat me like my feelings don't matter?? If you know me, there's something very important you need to understand: it is very difficult for me to connect with people, emotionally or otherwise. Like even the most basic interactions takes a lot of energy for me. If I give you my time and attention, it means I actually give a fuck about you because any interaction literally drains me. In a natural state, I am unresponsive and expressionless. Due to social norms, I have to figure out how to properly communicate with people using facial expressions, tone, mood, etc. IT TAKES A LOT OF GODDAMN ENERGY. THIS SHIT DOESN'T COME NATURALLY TO ME. So when I'm constantly using all this energy in order to interact with you, for you to go and disregard me...ON MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY....is quite upsetting to me. I just....I'm tired. I'm tired of wasting my energy on people who seem to not give a fuck about me.... Happy Fucking Birthday to me....

[pretty-little-lioness]

I was really feelin the red tonight⚘#mocktattoo #poppies #dopoppiesevenlooklikethis #artworkonmyarm #icanonlymakeup #cantdothisshitonpaperdoe #nyx #urbandecay #sugarpill #limecrime #mufe #lalathesearefun

[pretty-little-lioness]

My ZzzQuil Voxbox! Finally got to test it out and slept like a baby! Perfect for those who are insomniacs like me haha

Please note: I received #ZzzQuil from Influenster for testing purposes!

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Was not impressed #SuperSizerFibers

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How do you know.

How do you know when it's time to terminate a relationship....

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My boyfriend found my twitter...

Now I can only vent here T.T

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[pretty-little-lioness]

Please go away.

I love my mom but her and I differ greatly. In times like this (ie the storm), I am grateful for the alone time and the excuse to sit inside the house and not interact with anyone. But my mother, being the social butterfly that she is, feels the need to come downstairs and say something pointless every hour......I just want to be snowed in without having someone bothering me. It's selfish but I need it.

[pretty-little-lioness]

To a better year.

Today I cried. Not because I was sad. Or angry. Or happy. I cried because I didn't know that my mom knew why I was depressed. She was defending me during a fight with her sister and not only knew why but put it into words that I could not. I never thought she took my depression seriously so I stopped trusting her. I guess I was relieved. Relieved that I could finally trust someone again, at least for the things that matter. And I'm grateful for that.

[pretty-little-lioness]

Thank you @influenster & @stivesskin for including me in the St. Ive's Holiday Campaign 😃💖 Pretty excited to try all of these full sized products! Use my link www.influenster.com/r/143734 if you'd like to join influenster! 😉 #influenster #voxbox #stivesskin #liveradiantly #freebies #5yearsoffreebies

[melonboyy]

[medusick]

this is so wholesome 

[tiredassperra-deactivated201704]

honestly i just want this to spread because i’m so sick of the heteronormative narrative of ‘lol hate my wife/gf so annoying stop talking’ like… if you don’t want to hear them talk don’t be with them that’s what a relationship is i don’t

[phospore]

[coffeeandadvice]

[sheholdsyoucaptivated]

“This leaves men confused and unable to pigeonhole you. What they are forced to do instead is… take you seriously.”

Syrup (2013)

[zodiacmind]

[pretty-little-lioness]

Unfortunately this is quite true. I don't mean to, just what feels right at that moment.