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active march ‘26 lw 95.4/bmi 18.6 cw 99.4/bmi 19.4 ugw 90/bmi 17.6

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fawn (she/her) - 20

pro-fatspo & anti-recovery DNI

non-ED blogs & minors pls do not follow

i dont post thinspo or whtever but i do talk abt my ed & obviously it can be triggering

this is really just a vent blog so i can feel less alone. by all means block me but please leave me n my blog alone lol

National Eating Disorders Association Helpline: 1-800-931-2237 (available Mon–Thurs 9am–9pm EST, Fri 9am–5pm EST)

National Suicide/Crisis Line: 988

^ please dont hesitate to reach out for help. you deserve it (and we both know you could use it)

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sobbed for a full hour and a half last night, knocked myself out at 9pm by drinking meijer nyquil straight from the bottle, slept for 11 hrs and woke up to an email congratulating me on being selected for a $10k award #mysillylittlelife

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daily affirmations

no one is coming to save me

desire is inherently shameful and all attachment is a liability

it's not paranoia if i've been right before

not being good at everything on the first try is a moral failing

if i overexplain myself enough they will finally understand

i am in control

one day i will disappear and never be seen again

if god could speak he would tell me i have never been worthy

someone else is currently getting the love i begged for

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surely walking around with arms covered in scars from cutting will improve my friendship prospects

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trying to come up with creative ways to hide my scars at college because they’re worse than ever this year and i just remembered it doesn’t matter because nobody gives a fuck and even if they do they can’t do anything about it

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struggling so hard to motivate myself to stay skinny i think my frontal lobe is developing

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nvm yall just remembered i have to go home for spring break next week and i can’t afford to have gained any weight

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struggling so hard to motivate myself to stay skinny i think my frontal lobe is developing

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texting my grown ass roommates to kindly ask them to replace the toilet paper roll when they use the last of it 😐

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leith ross ily forever

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how to tell my crazy ass roommate that she can’t keep the thermostat at 90°F

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last night i got a carton of strawberries from target and ate them all and this morning i shit bright red. what a time to be alive

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massive fuckyou to my roommate who waited until 2:30-3am to (loudly) do her dishes from dinner and has now been up cooking breakfast since 8:30

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ok my game plan for 2026 is to finally get down to 90 lbs and/or if i’m still this depressed by the end of february just end it

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2026 needs to be the year i finally starve myself into oblivion and die im such an awful person

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ha ha plans cancelled i’ve started getting heart palpitations and have never felt this afraid to die

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UGH im off my spironolactone rn bc even tho i requested a refill 2 weeks ago my pharmacy insurance and dermatologist all worked together to delay it past christmas so now i’m up like 5 lbs since i can retain water again 😵‍💫 i feel like shit

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2026 needs to be the year i finally starve myself into oblivion and die im such an awful person

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every single semester without fail i convince myself it’s finally going to be the one where my mental health obliterates my gpa & somehow i keep fucking winning . i dont know how. i blacked out in august & woke up this week with a 3.96