Donāt start self harming.
At the start you may think āitās just to tryā, āIāll do it just one timeā.
Then, you will probably end up doing it a second time, then a third, a fourthā¦ āJust because it helps me, but I can stop anytime when I want toā.
I know it, because I always thought the same.
Yesterday I had a terrible break down and my mother saw me while I was cutting badly my arms. Obviously, she took away my blade.
At that moment, I had already relapsed, so I was quite okay with that. But when today I had another bad moment and I felt the need to cut myself, the realization that I didnāt had the blade hit me like a punch in the stomach.
I panicked so badly. I started to scratch mi arms with my nails, trying to get some comfort, but it wasnāt enough. I stayed in such a state for like half-an-hour, crying, sobbing and trembling, then my father came back to home and helped me to calm down.
But the point is: I was sure I could stop whenever I wanted.
Once started, self harming become quickly a dependence, and you become unable to deal with anything without it.
So please, please donāt start self harming.
Iām sorry for the bad English, itās not my mother language and Iām still learning, but I hope this can help someone to prevent start self harming. If you feel the need, please look for help, donāt deal with this alone. And for those who already are in this corner of Hell, I hope one day you will be able to face everyday without harming that beautiful body of yours.
Itās hard, I know, but we can do it.
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