Don’t start self harming.
At the start you may think “it’s just to try”, “I’ll do it just one time”.
Then, you will probably end up doing it a second time, then a third, a fourth… “Just because it helps me, but I can stop anytime when I want to”.
I know it, because I always thought the same.
Yesterday I had a terrible break down and my mother saw me while I was cutting badly my arms. Obviously, she took away my blade.
At that moment, I had already relapsed, so I was quite okay with that. But when today I had another bad moment and I felt the need to cut myself, the realization that I didn’t had the blade hit me like a punch in the stomach.
I panicked so badly. I started to scratch mi arms with my nails, trying to get some comfort, but it wasn’t enough. I stayed in such a state for like half-an-hour, crying, sobbing and trembling, then my father came back to home and helped me to calm down.
But the point is: I was sure I could stop whenever I wanted.
Once started, self harming become quickly a dependence, and you become unable to deal with anything without it.
So please, please don’t start self harming.
I’m sorry for the bad English, it’s not my mother language and I’m still learning, but I hope this can help someone to prevent start self harming. If you feel the need, please look for help, don’t deal with this alone. And for those who already are in this corner of Hell, I hope one day you will be able to face everyday without harming that beautiful body of yours.
It’s hard, I know, but we can do it.
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