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IV: ryan
IV: actually nevermind
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PT: um NO you cant just pull that shit.
PT: once you got me youre stuck with me.
PT: whats up finnberly???
IV: oh uh
IV: i don't know
PT: k...
PT: well i wanna chat anyway.
PT: im having a pretty choice day today. :100: :ok_hand:
PT: sipping this drank of the cafe variety. :coffee:
IV: that's good
IV: do you mean coffee
PT: yessiree. courtesy of the coffee can. i fuckin love this place.
IV: where is it though
PT: downtown on skaia. around where my usual haunts are.
IV: is that place
IV: like
IV: okay
PT: liiiike? safe?? is that what youre asking?
IV: yeah i guess
PT: its all good in this hood. :heart:
IV: are you by yourself
PT: yeeees. currently.
IV: are you eating anything
IV: are you by yourself by yourself or by yourself with people around
PT: there are people around yeah. in the restaurant.
PT: otherwise its just me and mr coffee.
IV: maybe ask a few people if they know cpr
PT: finn... baby...
PT: im not gonna choke on my coffee.
IV: no i mean just in case
IV: it might be good
PT: in case of what?
IV: in case there's
IV: i don't know
IV: a cardiac emergency
IV: do they have an aed there
IV: maybe you should make sure they do
PT: finn...
PT: are you alright sweetie? you seem like youre freaking out a little.
IV: i'm fine
IV: i just think it's important that people are educated
PT: it sure is!!! but i think its fine.
IV: well it's easy to think that
IV: i just want to make sure
PT: of course. no problemo.
PT: but hey lets talk about something else!!!
PT: guess what happened to me last night.
IV: are you okay
PT: yes FINN. im great in fact. :blush:
IV: oh
IV: are you sure
PT: YES FINN!!!!!!!
PT: this is me trying to share GOOD news.
IV: okay tell me
PT: well.
PT: well well WELL well WELL.
PT: me and jack are kiiiinda back together.
IV: oh
IV: wow
IV: that's great
PT: I KNOW RIGHT.
IV: is he okay
PT: shit he better be amazing cuz hes got me.
IV: you have a point
PT: I KNOW RIGHT.
IV: right
PT: in general tho he seems fine.
IV: they have an aed
PT: what??
IV: i called the place
IV: they have one
IV: in case you were wondering
PT: ...
PT: umm okay i wasnt but...
PT: are you sure youre alright??
IV: do you know how to use one IV: that's okay it tells you how to use one anyway
IV: it literally talks to you
PT: :confused:
PT: okay i definitely know youre not alright cuz youre ignoring me!!!!
IV: no i just need to tell you that
IV: it's by the bathroom
PT: duly noted.
PT: finnnnn.
IV: yeah
PT: talk to me. youre acting weird.
IV: 30 chest compressions 2 rescue breaths
IV: you can use it for a lot of things
IV: maybe the people around you should know too
PT: I DIDNT MEAN TALK TO ME ABOUT THAT.
IV: sorry
IV: oh you have to open the airway too don't forget that
PT: mmmmmmmoh my god.
IV: does jack know
IV: i should tell him
PT: youre starting to worry me...
PT: dont make me call colt.
IV: you don't need to call him he's fine
IV: i'm fine
IV: it's fine
PT: are you sure something isnt going on??
IV: i don't know
PT: tell me whats going on in your head right now.
IV: i don't know
IV: i'm
IV: this was a mistake
IV: another one on top of another one that everybody saw coming
PT: nooo baby its fine.
PT: you fuss at me just lemme fuss at you.
PT: its the law of equivalent friend exchange.
IV: he was right the whole time
IV: what am i doing
PT: who?? ill fight him.
IV: i'm not really different am all am i
IV: i'm just
IV: doing the same things
PT: :frowning2:
IV: i'll probably ruin her life and think i'm helping her but i'm not
IV: i have to go
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PT: no you dont!! hey!
PT: finn listen.
PT: you can talk to me alright?
PT: if you feel like a fuck up just know youre talking to the Ultimate fuck up so im the last person who would ever judge you for whatever is going on in your head.
PT: i wanna listen... i wanna be more helpful...
PT: come on. please?
IV: i need to go i have to
IV: i have to stop doing this
IV: i have to stop
PT: hey hey.
PT: it doesnt work that way alright??
PT: shit happens sometimes.
PT: but it passes too... yeah?
PT: i fucked up last night too finn.
PT: i started drinking again... but i know for a fact it couldve wound up way worse.
PT: and im okay! im gonna be okay even if i slipped up. you know what i mean? its the same with you.
IV: i brought an innocent life into all of my shit
IV: i have to make sure she's safe
IV: she's not safe with me
PT: baby youre doing a great job with her!! anybody can see that.
PT: just because youre sick doesnt mean you gotta stop living your life.
PT: youve got friends whove got your back... and theres nothing wrong with that.
PT: shit i mean we were all basically raised by our parents friends along with our parents too right??? shes got the same kind of environment. i cant think of any place safer than where she is right now.
IV: i don't know
IV: i don't want to keep hurting people
PT: i know... it sucks.
PT: but its gonna be okay. i promise.
IV: fuck
PT: yeah let all your fucks out.
IV: i think i need help
IV: i'm by myself right now
IV: well me and sofia
IV: i think i
IV: need to
IV: something i don't know
PT: well hey i can come over if you want.
IV: please
PT: okay gimme like... 45 mins or so since colts gotta live in the middle of bfe.
PT: ill be RIGHT over. hang in there.
IV: okay the door is IV: is it locked or unlocked
IV: i should know this
IV: oh no
PT: i figure colt locks the door when he leaves. so just lemme in when i get there!
PT: okay message me if you need to but im omw.
RYAN: -pockets her device, fleeing the coffee shop and making her way to the transportalizer hub. with a quick zap she's on odimist, but the longer neck of her journey is getting a cab out to colt's place. she arrives at her estimated time... give or take a few minutes, but probably give, but of course no one can ever arrive early during emergencies. still, she's here, and she's knocking on the door while also texting finn that she's here.-
FINN: -his fingers feel numb and so do his his toes and so does his mouth in a weird way, but that's probably due to how messed up his breathing is. he's terrified he's going to drop sofia, that his arms will just give out from underneath her, so it's taking him a long time to get to the door-
RYAN: -that's fine... she can be patient... but not really. she peeps through the front window to see if she can spot him anywhere inside.-
FINN: -she can. He's mostly still other than the tiny steps he's taking and the steps he's taking backwards before he goes forward again. it makes sense in his head, somehow-
RYAN: -frowns through the window at him. does she wait? does she try something else? she's REALLY not good at this, but dammit she's trying. she taps on the window now?? maybe that'll snap him out of it long enough to get her in there.-
FINN: -he looks up suddenly at the window tapping and has an expression of embarrassment on his face before he looks around frantically and just holds sofia closer as he goes to open the door. Finally, the door opens-
RYAN: -SUCCESS. she scurries over, looking up at him with big concerned eyes.- heeey buddy.
RYAN: im here now.
FINN: hi
FINN: sorry
RYAN: -flaps a hand- its all good.
RYAN: hey sofia. -smiles a little at her and then kinda dances around finn to get inside.-
SOFIA: -stares at Ryan-
FINN: -just looks really frazzled- i uh
FINN: um
RYAN: -puts a hand on his back and starts rubbing in small circles.- shhh its cool.
RYAN: maybe we should sit down??
FINN: -he takes a moment and nods before looking down at the baby again- yeah probably
RYAN: -starts guiding him to the couch.- alright alright alriiiight.
RYAN: -plops down and plops her hand on the cushion next to her.-
FINN: -sits carefully-
FINN: i need to wash my hands
FINN: you need to wash your hands
RYAN: huh?? oh... because of the baby?
RYAN: i can do that now... then we can trade off and you can go wash your hands?
FINN: do you remember how to hold her RYAN: yeah yeah of course. -gets up and scurries over to the kitchen to wash her hands in the sink, quickly returning to them.-
RYAN: okay i got this.
FINN: -he looks so worried but he carefully hands her over to ryan- you got her RYAN: i got her finn. i promise. -coos at the baby as she takes her.-
RYAN: hi again sofia. did you miss me? FINN: -watches the two of them as he leaves the room and bumps into the wall before disappearing into the kitchen to wash his hands. he returns after a few minutes.- maybe we should change
SOFIA: -subtly wiggles- RYAN: nah... besides were all cozy here right? -snuggles sofia- we can relax. FINN: maybe we should though
FINN: just in case
FINN: the fabric is laced with deadly germs RYAN: -gazes at him a little bit- yeah... nah... that doesnt just happen. i think its cool. FINN: remember smallpox blankets RYAN: ... noooo?? FINN: it was a thing
RYAN: well thats cool but! pretty sure were good.
RYAN: lets talk about something else okay?
FINN: -sits back down and his fingers are digging into the couch cushion- RYAN: ...
RYAN: actually i think im gonna sing something.
RYAN: what do you wanna hear baby?
FINN: who RYAN: you. the bigger baby. FINN: oh
FINN: i don't think i have a great taste in music RYAN: okay i know youre tone deaf but you can still like music. everybody does.
RYAN: but alright leave it to me.
RYAN: just focus on listening alright? FINN: okay RYAN: -takes a breath- i know i havent been perfect but give it some time.
RYAN: cuz not a single day goes by where you dont cross my mind.
RYAN: and we spend our lives looking for things we cant find.
RYAN: oh but not a single day goes by where you dont cross my mind.
RYAN: all the days you spend on my mind.
RYAN: all the times that id say that well be together. well be together oh.
RYAN: all the ways you see through my heart.
RYAN: i know the good intentions they won't last forever wont last forever.
FINN: -listens to her sing and watches her, trying to focus on her voice and not anything else. it's beautiful-
SOFIA: -YAAAAAS this is great. she gurgles-
RYAN: -smiles down at sofia.- all the hours weve spent on the line.
RYAN: all the times that youd say that i never listen i never listen
RYAN: through the conversations weve had til 4 am.
RYAN: you say you want something different want something different.
RYAN: and i know i havent been perfect but give it some time.
RYAN: cuz not a single day goes by where you dont cross my mind.
RYAN: and we spend our lives looking for things we cant find.
RYAN: oh but not a single day goes by where you dont cross my mind. -looks over at finn when she's done.-
FINN: -he looks calmer now. If not just a little- that was
FINN: really nice
RYAN: -smiles softly.- yeah i know haha.
RYAN: thanks man.
SOFIA: aaaaa
FINN: did you just inherit a good singing voice
RYAN: haha i mean kinda? but it takes a lot of training too.
FINN: i think i'm untrainable
RYAN: i mean... we cant ALL be fabulous singers.
FINN: that would probably get a little annoying
RYAN: yeah man. i wouldnt feel very special haha... singing is basically all im good at.
FINN: that's not true
SOFIA: nnnnn
RYAN: -bounces sofia a little in her arms, cooing at her.-
RYAN: well i never pass up the opportunity to hear about myself sooo tell me what else im good at. :wink:
SOFIA: -wow this is the best time of her life-
FINN: it's a long list but okay
FINN: good at livening up a party good at being a good friend good at doing hair and makeup good at acting good with sofia good at not giving up
RYAN: -oh... dammit. why does she ask this stuff if she doesn't want sappy sentimental answers? she laughs a little and sighs.- ... thanks finn.
FINN: you're welcome
FINN: it's true
RYAN: -sniff... ugh. she's been feeling an awful lot of emotions these past couple days. she didn't ASK for this. accepting genuine, heartfelt compliments is hard so she tries to just focus on one. one thing she's curious about.-
RYAN: you think im good with sofia?
FINN: well yeah FINN: -his expression softens- you're kind of a natural FINN: she loves you
RYAN: well the feeling is mutual sofia. -grins lopsided at her.-
RYAN: i do kinda... like kids more than i would expect if someone like me. i dunno...
SOFIA: -good bitch you better love me-
FINN: that's why assumptions are stupid
RYAN: troo.
RYAN: ... maybe id have fun being a mom.
FINN: you can babysit her sometime if you want
RYAN: yeah? alright.
RYAN: just call me whenever. not like im ever busy.
FINN: come on you have to be busy sometimes
RYAN: busy being SEXY sure.
FINN: -smiles a little- entertaining jack is that time consuming huh
RYAN: PFF no way i make him entertain me.
RYAN: i only have to rely on my sexy personality around him since he cant see shit.
FINN: oh yes makes perfect sense
RYAN: -snickers- ... you know its kind of surreal.
RYAN: like how naturally we kinda fell into it but...
RYAN: -sighs- were both scared too?? and thats like... a reality of the situation we arent sure how to deal with. does that make sense??
FINN: -looks off for a moment- i know exactly what you mean
RYAN: yeah...
RYAN: i just want it to work.
RYAN: i really feel like it could if i just... knew what to do.
FINN: -he looks off- yeah
FINN: i uh
FINN: i get it
FINN: i might be going through the same thing
RYAN: -glances at him- yeah?
FINN: -his cheeks redden a little bit- yeah
RYAN: :eyes:
FINN: -scratches his head nervously- yeah i
FINN: saw emilet again
RYAN: oh reeeeally?
FINN: -HE'S SO RED- yeah
FINN: i did -he saw a LOT of emilet-
RYAN: heheh aww finn. always getting up to something.
RYAN: guess this means we can flail at each other while we flounder through familiar but tumultuous waters.
RYAN: be my lifeboat hombre.
FINN: okay
FINN: if you'll be mine
RYAN: -smiles, soft and sincere.- of course.
FINN: -smiles a little, taking a breath- colt's not
FINN: too happy about it
FINN: but things are different this time
RYAN: hes a grumpy gus anyway.
RYAN: ... a neigh sayer if you will.
RYAN: but man whatever floobs your boobs. even if it isnt different its your decision to make you know?
FINN: -he nods- you know the person that just
FINN: you're with them and you know they're important to you
FINN: then you're away from them
FINN: and then when you're back in the same room you realize they were always the most important person to you a ll along
RYAN: -she laughs a little.- shit i mean yeah.
RYAN: except for me its more like i definitely repressed all those feelings like every day until we were in the same room together.
RYAN: and hes looking so different but so good and its like.
RYAN: well fuck me i guess.
RYAN: in every sense.
FINN: -laughs a little too- been there done that
RYAN: come on finn that goes without saying.
RYAN: youre like the sluttiest person i know. and thats coming from ME.
FINN: -just slowly shrugs and smiles-
RYAN: -SNRRRKKK- goddammit finn!! -elbows him as best she can with a baby in her arms.-
FINN: ow hey
FINN: you're the most violent person i know
RYAN: thats right bitch. ill fuck you up.
FINN: not with her you won't
RYAN: damn... true.
SOFIA: -whines a little and scrunches up her face-
RYAN: aw sofia im not really gonna fuck him up.
RYAN: (im just telling her that to relax her.) -snickers and bounces her a little though.-
RYAN: you think shes tired?
SOFIA: -starts to cry. life is hard-
FINN: that or hungry or she needs to be changed
FINN: that girl can eat
FINN: que paso sofia
RYAN: oh shit. good.
RYAN: youre a growin girl. -smiles at finn, glad he's really calmed down now.-
RYAN: want her back?
FINN: -puts his arms out- yeah sure
FINN: she's probably tired
SOFIA: -she's tired and upset about it-
RYAN: bet youre tired too. -hands sofia off to him carefully.-
FINN: -takes this cute little sad baby into his arms and he feels so much better about it than he did before- yeah
FINN: but she has to sleep first
RYAN: naturally.
RYAN: ... can i come with you when you put her to bed? -strangely curious about this routine.-
FINN: -looks over at ryan for a moment and then smiles- sure
RYAN: cool. cool cool cool. -smiles a little back-
FINN: -stands up and shooshes sofia- follow me
RYAN: -rises to her feet, hovering closely- :eyes:
FINN: -walks into sofia's room where he flips on the light. this is such a baby room, with a lot of pastel colors and a very secure crib. there are a lot of stuffed animals in the crib, but not so much that it affects her sleeping. his first stop is the changing table, where he takes the crying baby and sets her down- don't feel obligated to watch this part










