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> Dirk Strider | He/him | 19

> Fictive & system host

> Collective blog - @system-x-failure

> Basic DNI, I'll block you if I don't want you interacting

(ic - waspik)

#dirk.txt #homestuck fictive #homestuck introject #I have my own separate blog but logging in and out of accounts is annoying so whatever go my sideblog

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@princeofhxrt Is this enough mentionsnfornyou to see when you wake back up

princeofhxrt

One was enough along with your like 8 dms

#Ilyt

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@princeofhxrt I miss you

princeofhxrt

Wake me up next time

#Or at least try to

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@princeofhxrt Hi i lov eyou

princeofhxrt

Hi I love you too <>

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@princeofhxrt Im madly in lfove with you by thew ay

princeofhxrt

I think your previous decision to not drink again was good actually

#Joking #<>

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Sometimes I feel like this mental image of myself staring blankly with like 5 thought bubbles above my head that are just several thoughts leading into or building off of one another

princeofhxrt

Always some shit like this

#I can be sitting around doing fuck nothing and just passively calmly start wondering if I'm a bad person again #It's like I get back on that train of thought for the love of the game #dirk.txt

Sometimes I feel like this mental image of myself staring blankly with like 5 thought bubbles above my head that are just several thoughts leading into or building off of one another

#I'm always on some damn train of thought #dirk.txt

stickthings

Daaamn them

idkmaybeoneday

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I'll actually be fine with main right now on the one condition that I keep it through to tomorrow and I don't forget to message someone again

#Because I've needed to for a few days and I kept just. Not #Partly because I've been letting the vamps have front #dirk.txt

Once again I'm so sick of this battle between trying to be a good person and trying to heal to no avail and just letting go and not caring anymore and letting whatever go to shit

#But I still refuse to let go in a way that targets others #I still keep it together to not take anything out on others #And shes really just tested my willingness to keep that up when it comes to her #But whatever #We don't talk #It's only been these few shitty interactions #I don't need to care really #Unless she approaches us instead #Then depending what that would be for and how it would go would determine shit #I'm so tired #dirk.txt

There's such a difference in how I'm thinking about this bullshit compared to how Sable would have been and thank fucking god it's me in this scenario instead

#He would be wondering if he was just a bad person if clearly nothing he says or does can appease her #He'd take her constant discontent and accusation and vice versa as a sign that he can't do anything right and he's just a bad person #But I'm not doing that shit #I'm done taking things as a sign of us being cursed to only be bad #She's dug herself deep into this mental view of us and decided everything we do or say is wrong #Sable minimzied himself as much as possible and dehumanized himself just to try and appease her and that didn't even work #She's the shitty figure in this equation not him #Making him feel the need to disregard and disrespect his own emotions for her #I showed her respect and tried to avoid making anything seem like I was giving her blame #I tried to explain to her that Sable was trying to avoid further impacting her negatively #I tried to explain to her how much remorse he held constantly and how much he felt like he hurt her #And she decided that was me apparently trying to make it her fault? And make her feel like shit?#For explaining that actually he was showing insane regard for her.#That does not make us the bad one here. I am not taking that shit.#dirk.txt

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dirk always stretching a bunch any time he gets the space to is like when a beaver sees an open space and some objects n goes wow i need to build a dam right now

princeofhxrt

God forbid our body is stiff and I exercise my free will as soon as there's open veritcal space for my arms to occupy

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Old man

princeofhxrt

We're the same age

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dirk always stretching a bunch any time he gets the space to is like when a beaver sees an open space and some objects n goes wow i need to build a dam right now

princeofhxrt

God forbid our body is stiff and I exercise my free will as soon as there's open veritcal space for my arms to occupy

#We don't stretch enough and my back hurts

Decided to take a shower while I have rice cooking and it means I have to take a shorter shower, I will not survive

#Unfortunately in accurate Strider fashion I do take long showers #dirk.txt

@princeofhxrt hi

Hi??

@princeofhxrt nerd

Leave me alone

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