Miscellany Of Messed Up Thoughts

19 | Divergent x Prodigy x Selenophile | CPA 2017

[fighting-ghosts]

[foolsgoldd]

I crave the most innocent parts of a relationship. Like holding hands and forehead kisses and being able to tell someone how much I absolutely adore them.

[mydogsnokes-deactivated20150723]

i miss when i was like 10 and it would be the night before a big field trip or something and i couldnt go to sleep because i was so excited. i miss being so into a book that i would stay up past my bed time reading it. everything seems so bland or something idk. i’m only 19 and everything is so tiring. i miss wanting to be awake

[elation-success]

this is the realist shit on this website

[probablyfaded]

💯👌🏻

[sevente3nbloom]

[probablyfaded]

It's funny how you're wishing for me to stay when you're the one who left me in the first place. Lol

[buhaybabae]

why’d you only call me when you’re sad

i used to be the person you go to when you’re sad and you got no one else but i was never the person you go to when you’re happy. i was like that to a lot of people. it felt like i was being used but growing up and having to experience the bitter side of life made me realize that i was the kind of person i needed. so it was not a waste of time. yes, these people might have forgotten me during happy days but these people might have turned to wrong ways if i didn’t get to comfort or stay with them during the dark days. yes, it was exhausting trying to understand the depth of sadness they got themselves into but nothing compares to the feeling of knowing they still believed in life and in love because of what i did, and all i did was stay and listen.

[chasingeuphoriia-deactivated202]

Every night, I cut myself, squeeze my brain to bleed words to show how much I want you back.

// 8-30-’16, 10:01pm (via chasinqeuphoria)

[wherewritersblockcomestodie]

I miss you, And not in a “it’s one in the morning, I’m so lonely, looking through old pictures” kind of way. I miss you, In a “my friends are all laughing, and so am I, but somehow you still haven’t left my mind” kind of way. I miss you, And not in a “someone asked me how you were today and I realized I didn’t know the answer” kind of way. I miss you, In a “nobody has brought you up in months, but I still tell stories about you” kind of way. I miss you, And not in a “it’s Valentine’s Day and I’m alone” kind of way. I miss you, In a “you did well on a test and I want to be the first person you tell” kind of way. I miss you. I don’t just miss the idea of you. I miss you.

excerpt from an unfinished book #59 // “breaking up is hard to do” (via un-predictible)

Amazing!

(via hrishita122000)

[iglovequotes]

[probablyfaded]

[omg-relatable]

[love-personal]

[lovequotesrus]

Everything you love is here

[probablyfaded]

Sorry for my nonsense messages. I just really wanna talk to you. :(

[anastasiatasou]

[matialonsorphoto]

hunger

by matialonsor

[probablyfaded]

Another messed up day in my already messed up life. 😪

[probablyfaded]

A part of me is really regretting that I didn't join this year's literary contest. It is my last year in college, and that was my last chance. I was supposed to participate, but I backed out, not because I don't have much time to prepare, but because I don't have enough courage. I have always thought that I am in need of someone who will support me, but the truth is, all I ever needed was myself to believe in me.