AnPANman

I’m ya pan demigirl who might be poly, is asexual ATM and is only referring to self as demigirl on here to see if the shoe fits 🦋💎🦋

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Dancing is the only place I can be fully me, without being fully me. Like I'm obviously not out so they don't know how much I crush on their figures, and they don't like the same things as me so I can't talk about that. But being able to de stress and do something I'm good at without having anxiety... I dunno I just really appreciate it.

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So I'm struggling again. School has just started back and I've had an anxiety attack in 4 classes. But that's aside the point, I wanna know more about myself.

You see I know I am pan, absolutely, no question about it. But can I be pan and be more directed towards a certain type?

Listen, I'm a baby girl, not really serious at all. When I'm in a relationship in the future I hope to have someone who cuddles and cares. But I am easing more towards a girly girl even though I myself am girly, will that work?

And I'm focused more on feminine guys, even though I'm girly. But I'd also like to be treated like a low key princess, but not be the center of attention all the time, will that work?

Also, even though I have talked to my mum about liking girls too, she still thinks of me as straight, so now I'm hetero until I'm 17... Woop.

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Yo anyone else at that awkward stage when you know your sexuality, you know what you want to be called but don't know anything else about yourself? And to make matters worse your family keep forcing you into stereotypical boxes that you don't comply with so it makes you think you don't really know your sexuality or what you want to be called? So you're constantly spiraling in doubt?

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👯‍♂️If I were a boy // Since I'm a girl👯‍♀️

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I think I have finally found some labels that are comfortable to me right now! I am so unbelievably happy!!!

💖💖💛💛💙💙

🖤🖤💖♡ 💖🖤🖤

[prollypancreatuwe]

Mama said I could be anything I wanted when I grew up, I said I wanted to be a Princess, a little Princess I became.

She said I could have whatever I wanted, I said a Queen who would take care of me, a little Princess was once my name.

Mama said I’m too young to know what I like, too immature to know that, yet she expects me to know the periodic table and Pythagoras therum.

She said she accepts lgbt, but it’s all that I talk about. Maybe it’s because I want you to accept me as part of the spectrum, or maybe it’s because that’s what you focus on every time I speak.

Mama will understand, one day or the next. But there’s always a but in the sentence, never a understanding okay.

She says that most girls nowadays will be bisexual because they want to impress a guy, but she says a boy is just a closeted gay if he is bi.

Mama doesn’t truly want me to like girls, as her and her best friend have been called gay their whole lives. She says she wants to save me from the pain, but it hurts more when she tells me I’m straight.

Mama said I could be anything when I grew up, I now want to be understood.

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🕊Gestures of Love🕊

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🧚‍♀️Fairy’s are real, they walk among us. Though they look somewhat queer and magical, the world has yet to notice.🧝‍♀️

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🌪What's messier here? My hair, my leg, my outfit or the whole thing?🌪

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Lmao I keep going to make coming out jokes in front of the Fam! They said "Now you see it's not an easy path, it's not a straight road up the mountain." (They were doing a card reading) and I snORTED ON MY MILK CAUSE I ALMOST SAID "SAME" I'M GONNA OUT MYSELF OOH DEAR!

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🦋Outfit looking cute AF today!🦋