your best is enough

for positivity and venting frustration about living with ptsd and c-ptsd. we welcome asks and submissions. can give some small advise or supportive words but cannot diagnose your abuse. LGBTQIA supportive.

[ptsdandflowers]

i relate to a lot of posts about ptsd and idk there’s no specific trauma in my past that i can remember that would cause me to have ptsd, other than one thing but i don’t think it’s enough for something like ptsd? idk why i’m sending this and i don’t want it to come off as rude or anything bc i know ptsd is a daily struggle for you.

its ok to relate to posts even if you don’t have PTSD or are unsure! There is definitely a cross between some PTSD situations/feels/reactions.

You’re not rude at all. Please understand symptoms overlap with many things and you’re welcome here always. You’re allowed to relate if it’s how you feel, if it’s what you’ve experienced. 

[ptsdandflowers]

me: has a meltdown on one social media

also me: talks to my friends perfectly fine and jokes on another social media

[ptsdandflowers]

Ever experience like 60 moods at once and they are cycling so fast you just gotta like... snatch one to hold on to and hope its a good one

[ptsdandflowers]

everything is bad

and I’m exhausted from picking myself back Over and over and over and over and over and over

I’m so bad off

I want to buy actual groceries. All I do is vent to friends how literally broke I am. How in debt I am. How anxious and paranoid I am. How hard it is to find a job where I don’t stand. How mad I am that the job I love screwed me over.

I try to say I’m becoming suicidal but I don’t want any ‘it gets better’ talk.

I want to not exist.

[ptsdandflowers]

Dr: if you increase the dose too fast you could get a very serious rash and illness, that can be fatal, but its only if you take like A TON a lot so just a little at a time

Me, taking one small dosage pill the first time: SUDDENLY I’M SO ITCHY BC I’M PARANOID NOW

seriously I wish my brain would chill the fuck out XD 

[ashenbunny]

[ptsdandflowers]

corvaxcorax mentioned you in a post

@ptsdandflowers I'm sorry, I only wanted to share my personal experience in case it could help you somehow. You gave little information and I didn't expect an answer when I asked "for how long", it should be more of an indicator if what I write might be relevant for you (or maybe someone else who reads it) Doctors themselves are just humans - and sometimes it's shocking how little they seem to listen or care or take serious what they are told, I really feel you there.

It’s ok. I’m so used to people telling me unwanted advice that I just get so annoyed by any type of it. I know doctors are human but they are dealing with people anxieties and panic disorders and I wish they just took a little more care in how they listen and speak to us.

We don’t want to be there. We just want help and answers :(

[ptsdandflowers]

I think you're doing great. Don't worry too much about people. If you're upset with meds, get mad at the doctor until they listen. I had to do the same thing. Good luck.

ty!

My therapist actually helped me understand the new med and she said the lady explained it ALL wrong and thank god.

I’m starting it today! (first pill already making me drowsy as hell haha)

[ptsdandflowers]

I need some people to UNDERSTAND that taking meds might be a life long thing for some people

and that’s fucking OK!

That’s valid and that doesn’t make them bad people. 

Sometimes our brains just don’t want to work with us here. Sometimes, you just can’t fix something, but you can help it and maintain it, and live a little easier thanks to meds.

Even if I have yet to find the right ones myself. I’ve seen people feel so much better on them.

[ptsdandflowers]

owlsofstarlight

 “owlsofstarlight “I think some people who prescribe depression and...”

Ah, I see. (I'm not 100% clear on whether or not you want to keep taking them, but if you don't, could you say that whatever potential benefits they have isn't worth the side effects you are currently experiencing? Because if they're making you feel worse, it's probably worth it to try something else,.)

Yea sorry I’m not good at explaining lol. The ones i’m on I said I don’t want to be on, there are no benefits to it. They make things worse and now I have side effects but she is transitioning me from them into another medicine I’m not comfortable taking, which I’m not going to take until I get a hold of her again. So I’m kinda stuck on shit meds for now u_u

shes a knew psychiatrist, the old one had a few options I was into exploring and this lady completely ignored her.

it’s just frustrating U_U 

[ptsdandflowers]

owlsofstarlight

 “I think some people who prescribe depression and anxiety medicine just...”

My psych doesn't really listen to my side effects either. This time tho I have my mood tracker data which will hopefully get them to listen. So maybe do something that can give them "proof" of the side effects to get them to listen?

Its not that this new person doesn’t believe my side effects, it’s that these new ones that I don’t want to take take 8 weeks or more to reach a place where It will help me, and I gotta take these ones still for that 8 weeks and they make me feel worse and worse the more I take them and urg...

I’m going to therapy tomorrow hopefully if snow holds out so I’m going to be like I’M PANICKING 24/7 about meds please help Dx

[ptsdandflowers]

I think some people who prescribe depression and anxiety medicine just don’t listen. Please don’t prescribe something that will literally cause me to have a panic attack taking it because of a very rare and unseen fatal side effect…

because I’m already sensitive to EVERY medication I take… and I’m VERY anxious always… and this is ALL I’m going to think about

anyways… the meds I’m on again don’t work and I’ve developed tremors so… moving on to the next, but I think I’m going to ask for non anxiety death pills.

[corvaxcorax-blog]

Since when do you take this medicine?

Antidepressants make a change in the brainchemistry which often causes to feel worse at the start (with SNRIs it’s something like the first 2-4 weeks with pretty much what you described - trembling, feeling agitated, feeling more anxious, they can also stop you from sleeping and lower your inner hindrance to kill yourself, if you are suicidal..) before the actual effects can manage you feel better.

The first time I was prescribed an antidepressant I was pretty much left alone with it, I was prescribed venlafaxin 150 and I had to find out by myself that I better take it before I go to bed or I would be too agitated to fall asleep before it was time to sleep. After something like 2 weeks the side-effects went down to a level that was acceptable to bear for the effects of me feeling better. (which also started to show around that time)

After something like 6months I stopped to take it, and the withdrawal symptoms were quite nasty, too, but disappeared completely within one month. Overall the medicine was a great help to me.

A few years passed and there was again the need for medication - the same medicine but another doctor. She told me to start with a very low dose and raise it every second day until I reach the prescribed level and when I want to stop taking them to sneak out the medicine in the same way and that was so much better because I had nearly no side effects like this.

Long story short: not every antidepressant is for everyone but for most of them you can only tell after two weeks minimum. Until you know what effect they cause on you you should be very careful and make sure not to harm yourself, please. Side-effects can change with time, with the dosage itself and with wheather you sneak it in and out or not.

[ptsdandflowers]

ok I really appreciate the novel but at the same time I know myself and I know meds, I’ve been tryng to find the right ones to help me. I don’t appreciate assumptions based on what I don’t tell on my own vent post. I’ve been on this med for three months, and as every med, I’ve developed bad side effects AFTER a couple months. I’m not new to this :|

[ptsdandflowers]

I think some people who prescribe depression and anxiety medicine just don’t listen. Please don’t prescribe something that will literally cause me to have a panic attack taking it because of a very rare and unseen fatal side effect...

because I’m already sensitive to EVERY medication I take... and I’m VERY anxious always... and this is ALL I’m going to think about

anyways... the meds I’m on again don’t work and I’ve developed tremors so... moving on to the next, but I think I’m going to ask for non anxiety death pills.

[therealklt]

Me not on medication: PANICKING

Me on medication: panickimg

[fuckyeahasexual]

Happy release and birthday to the author of this amazing collection!

Bunny Bunny crowned princess again must learn again that those who smile will play this hateful game again - lovers become predators A short collection of poems that touch on finding yourself between the spaces of toxic people and emotionally abusive lovers.

I ordered my copy already so I definitely recommend picking yourself up one! If you absolutely can’t wait for shipping or are just a big kindle fan here’s the ebook link!

[fuckyeahasexual]

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[ptsdandflowers]

I really think some of you would love this one. She's a great debut <3 her outlet for her PTSD is poetry and it's good

[ashenbunny]

the weight of the world isn’t as heavy as the weight of your words lies like tides and you’re the moon

Anne Chivon

[ptsdandflowers]

abusers literally use ‘abuser awareness’ posts to turn shit around on mentally ill people and people with PTSD who are just having symptoms

abusers will take your honesty and twist it back at you as “too much oversharing” or “making me feel guilty” when all you did is share and explain why you may isolate or react a certain way.

abusers take that shit and RUN with it and it is a fuel to the fire, I’m afraid.

all these abuse survivor must be selfaware posts are a two edged sword.

This page is a zone that is critical and steers away from that.

‘abusers overshare’ I overshared because I wanted to be honest and communicate with my partner about why I’m antisocial, nervous around men and strangers, why I need to isolate sometimes. I didn’t want them to think it was their fault or that they have to stay and fix me/always be around.

‘abusers isolate you’ I wanted to isolate myself until I could reground myself and I specifically told my partner that they are welcome to stay with me or they can go out and do whatever with friends. They chose to stay with me, told me they wanted to, then they blamed me.

abusers DO do those things yes... but damn do they also take that info and twist it back around so fast you’re caught in between being honest and just burying it all down and letting it fester and having people misunderstand you.

please. please please be cautious and critical. 

I love you.

fuck abusers.

Fuck you “andi”