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Crown TCG Championship (CTC) & My Situation Announcement Part 03 (Last Part)

Written By: Neng Lam Date Begin: April 24, 2026 (Date Posted: 05/23/2026) Title: Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Development Overview Title Posted My PTTS Blog: Crown TCG Championship (CTC) & My Situation Announcement Part 03

Contents:

Introduction

Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Is My Final

Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?

My Brainstorm On Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Base Set

No Other Way

Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder (BIIEB)

Redemption

Goals On Manageable Schedule

(Part 1: 1-3, Part 2: 4-6, Part 3: 7 & 8)

Redemption

War have casualties. The same with the 1975-1978 war.

Like I wrote in most of the contents in this announcement, Crown TCG Championship (CTC) & My Situation including "Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Is My Final" and "Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?". My father, Chung Wun Lam was a civilian who was a victim of that war. He been doing speeches by telling his experiences in that war to crowd of people in the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam. I grow up listen to those stories of war told by him.

On 2006 in the USA, he went back to the countries, Cambodia and Vietnam where the 1975-1978 war took place and wrote an autobiography book on that war. He printed 4,000 copies of his autobiography books in China from a Chinese printing company. Then, he shipped the 4,000 copies to his house in San Diego, California USA. The book is written in the Chinese language. So, he have asked me multiple times to help him translate the Chinese language to the English language.

But, on 2006, I was struggling with wanting to keep my Trading Card Game (TCG) occuation and having a job to pay for my college enrollment expenses in general. Also, to live up to my family's pioneer blood and name. So, I don't have any time in my schedule to help him with the English language translation. In addition, I don't know how to read Chinese Kanji (Chinese Language) and his autobiography book is written in Chinese Kanji. Nevertheless, I did help him with his autobiography book on the things I could help him out with.

From my observations, there were multiple journalists who came to our house to interview my father and my older sister, Bun Hong San about my father's autobiography book. Also, my father have a connection with a female Chinese promoter who is helping him advertise his autobiography book.

In summary, I think he already did what he can to let the world know about the 1975-1978 war. At the same time, he is a victim of that war.

Among all of the curses in the CTC Base Set including the list of curses, the CTC Curse is the worst curse. Such as the triumph of all the curses.

Read the "CTC Curse Summarization Overview" for more information. I'll look for an opportunity to post it up on my PTTS Blog soon.

The following is an example of the CTC Curse:

[CTC Curse Example1 Begin]

The 1975-1978 war didn't ended on 1978. The children of the victims of that war is either:

Die during birth or live to 1 or 2 year(s) old and die at that age.

Born as deform babies during birth. The sights of the deform would leave people with nightmares during their sleeps.

Live a cursed life where the children parents and the world would push those children until those children are force to commit suicide before reaching 13 years old. From 13-19 (teenager years) years old, the cursed life is much worse than before. Live to 20 years old is mission impossible.

Because of #1-3, it is an act of mercy for the parents to suffocate their children to death with a pillow when those children is still an infant.

[CTC Curse Example1 End]

Like I wrote above, my father did his best to tell stories about the 1975-1978 war to crowd of people all the time.

Like I wrote above, on 2006, my father travel back to the countries, Cambodia and Vietnam where the 1975-1978 war took place and wrote an autobiography book on that war.

Like I wrote in "Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?", in my father's stories of the 1975-1978 war, he have made commit suicide attempts to escape out of the pains and sufferings of that war. If he die in his commit suicide attempts, then me and my siblings won't be born.

Hiding My Identity Argument: This argument is I'm half way across the world from the countries, Cambodia and Vietnam where the 1975-1978 war took place, so it is reasonable for me to hide my identity by forgetting about that war and start a new life with a different identity. Or, I could look for trustworthy people who could help me hide my identity from the world.

Beside #1-3, my father asked me multiple times to help him translate his autobiography book from the Chinese language to the English language. This mean the "Hiding My Identity Argument" is not a choice for me. In addition, it is too much risks to trust people to help me hide my identity, because my father try so hard to let the world know about the 1975-1978 war and I'm trying to hide my identity by forgetting about that war.

On the other hand, the world could use "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB) as their argument and the world make the following argument against me: I could smash someone face against the wall or I could smash my face against the wall to get some attention that I have no recognition. The world is the eyes of the beholder and the world could choose not to give me any attention and I have to continue to have no recognition.

Vice-versa, people could argue that they are helping me to hide my identity by not giving me recognition.

Like I wrote in "Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final", "My Brainstorm On Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Base Set" and "Back To How Many Second Chances In Life Do I Need?":

I never immigrated to the USA and I live in the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam my whole life.

My abusive and sadistic parents destroy every goals and happiness I had. Made sure I live a life in poorness. And, enslave me into slavery. Example: I have the Higher Math Achievement Acclaim for 5 consecutive years (1995-1999), then my parents set me up to have 2 failing grades in 2 of my math classes.

I don't want to go against the current. I don't want to go against the whole San Diego. And, I don't want to go against my parents. So, I gave everything I got to TCG. Then, my parents made TCG into a curse in my life. And, made me felt like the whole San Diego won't acknowledge TCG.

I would argues that I just wanted a chance to point out #1-3. But, each time I say something or wrote something. It is like the world is arguing that I would never be half of my father. Yet, I should count my blessing that the war casualties didn't made me a deform baby during birth. I'm going to call #1-3 as the CTC Curse (like the CTC Curse in the list of curses). So that I could refer to it easier.

To stop confusing myself or to give myself a break, I have to see that the adversities and tough struggles in my life is because I'm cursed by the CTC Curse. I can't hide my identity by forgetting about the 1975-1978 war. Also, it is too much risks for me to trust people to help me hide my identity.

Because I'm cursed by the CTC Curse, so it is hard for me to be like my father who get to make speeches about the 1975-1978 war to crowd of people and wrote an autobiography book on that war including print out 4,000 copies.

I have to see developing CTC (Trading Card Game (TCG) Development) as my way to deal with the CTC Curse. Because I don't know if I have recognition or not on my TCG occupation, so developing CTC is equivalent to I'm inside a hospital in a room on a bed or I'm inside an asylum in a locked room and I can't leave that room.

But, it is better than being forced to commit suicide. Like I wrote above, while being forced to commit suicide, I have to see how lucky I am to be forced to commit suicide or I have to thank the people who are forcing me to commit suicide. Example: I have to count my blessing that I was not a deform baby during birth.

The world could use "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB) as their argument. The world as the eyes of the beholder, so the world could choose not to see I'm inside a hospital or asylum self-helping myself. Instead the world see that I'm taking on a big project, because I want to be rich and famous. Developing CTC is that big project.

Drowning Man Argument: Alone all the time, living a poor life and adversities constantly happening to me almost daily is equivalent to I'm drowning. To stop myself from drowning, I have to come up with reasons why people want to drown me. Example: The people who are creating pains and miseries to my life is much more powerful than the mayor of San Diego or the president of USA. Those people are forcing me to see that I can't hope that what if they stop creating pains and miseries to my life.

Man On Fire Argument: Adversities constantly happening to me almost daily made me overwhelmed by fears and problems. So, I'm on fire to burn away all the fears and problems in my life.

I'm going to narrow down the list of curses and the list of painful scenarios to the "Drowning Man Argument" and "Man On Fire Argument". Water and Fire. Water cover 70% of planet earth. Fire is a powerful force that have the power to become mass destruction.

I have to keep everything at fundamental and relevant. Also, easy to understand like elementary/introductory. To have management on my situation. Dealing with the CTC Curse is like managing my life including dealing with the problems in my life. The following is to list a few examples:

Origin (Core): Origin is to indicate where everything begin.

Orphanage: Once a person became an orphan adversities constantly happening to that person almost daily.

Poverty: Once poverty happen to a person adversities constantly happening to that person almost daily.

If a person's affair have an Origin, then you know that you could find information on the cause and effect of that affair. Example: Don't give up on me, my problems have Origins.

When Orphanage and Poverty is brought up you know things could get very confusing and complicated. Example1: An orphan who got adopted could hide that he or she use to be an orphan to live in his or her community. Example2: Poverty is a very serious problem.

Like I wrote above, because I have no recognition. So, people could argue that I would do anything for a little bit of attention. Vice-versa, hiding my identity could disassociate me with the 1975-1978 war, because that war is the reasons my family are victims of the war. This mean I would do anything to have no recognition. Because without recognition is easier for me to hide my identity.

I'm going to keep it at the CTC Curse is the triumph of all the curses such as the worst curse. So, I could stop listing the curses. Example: Even though, I'm lying on a hospital bed or locked inside an asylum room is not the way to live my life. But, it is a lot better than the curses including CTC Curse is making me live a cursed life where I have to wish people would kill me to end my pains and miseries daily.

Right now, everything seem very tough. And, I felt like my life can't get any worse. So, it is hard for me to see that CTC could be very successful one day. People from all over the world would voted CTC as their favorited game.

If developing and playing CTC could help me overcome the curses in my life, then I think people who are playing CTC could also help themselves overcome the curses in their life too.

Goals On Manageable Schedule

I want to narrow down all the works I have done and my overall history to the world recognize me for my Trading Card Game (TCG) occupation and novelist occupation. Creator of CTC and novelist who wrote Batlantica Novels. If I able to achieve that goal, then it would help me manage my schedule.

It is true facts that I did created CTC and wrote Batlantica Novels. But, I have been to events where there are thousands of people standing in line to meet creators of "Pokemon" TCG. As for major events to meet novelists, I have read about it in books, magazines, and Newspapers. The following are small events that not many people know about:

[Small Events Begin]

I been to small book tours and small graphic novel exhibitions (Fool Gold, Soul Eater and so on) before. Because those events are small and unimportant, so I didn't get much out of those events. Example: I don't know anything about "Fool Gold" and "Soul Eater", because I didn't read those graphic novels. Me as the club president and Rebecca Karcz as club vice-president was looking to see if we could create club activities for the Mesa College Multimedia Club involving the Comic-Con, so I went with her to the "Soul Eater" exhibition.

As for the "Fool Gold" exhibition, I was taking a break and sat down on a seat that was part of the "Fool Gold" exhibition, the "Fool Gold" author call me out in the crowd. I took picture with the female author, but I don't have the money to develop my camera's film. I still have the film, but I don't know if film still develop after a long time. She have blonde hair. She wore a pink Supergirl T-shirt and jean.

[Small Events End]

First thing first. On November 2001, I got accept as a journalist of the "Beachcomber" (Journalism). The training was very tough struggles. The try-out was beating great odds. Because it is journalism, so it is official and have recognition. As a result, I thought it was a very important event in my life that is official and have recognition. This mean being a journalist was very important to me and I thought it could bring me recognition.

But, the contradiction (opposite) happen to me. Not only people doesn't know that I'm a journalist and it didn't bring me recognition. I'm being cursed for being a journalist. Example: Whenever the word, journalist is brought up adversities starting to happen to me.

The same thing happen to me on January 2008, when I got elected as club president of the Mesa College Multimedia Club. (Read the Introduction for the briefed summarization on my club presidency responsibilities and duties.) But, this time there was an obligation that forced me to take on this club president responsibilities and duties. This obligation is the multimedia club will discontinue in San Diego Mesa College campus if I don't accept this position. Same thing again, college club is like journalism, it is official and have recognition.

My journalist position and club president position would argued as the most official occupation I have. Also, those 2 positions could have brought me recognition.

I would argues the world have to recognize me as a journalist and club president first. In order for me to be recognize as TCG creator and novelist.

I apologize, because like I wrote above, I have to narrow everything down to I'm a creator of CTC and novelist who wrote Batlantica Novels. In order to have a manageable schedule.

That will be all for this 3 parts announcement.

Last but not least, I want to continue writing TAFA (To Acceptance & Forgiveness Autobiography) autobiography books from my stopping point at Book 4 Chapter 11. I'm going to change the name from TAFA to "My Situation Emergency Affairs". Hopefully, people could see the word, emergency mean that I want to have some attention. Also, it is important documents. Another thing, I'm trying to focus this autobiography on I get to have a chance to explain about all the events involving writing Batlantica Novels from May 1998 to current 2026. From writing the first Batlantica title to the 12th (last) Batlantica title.

Before I could continue writing TAFA, I have the following things I need to do in my schedule:

[1.] CTC Curse Overview [2.] CTC League [3.] CTC Promotional Event Flyer [4.] PTTS Exclusive First Magazine A. List of contents going to be in this magazine B. Complete the incomplete contents C. Proof read and make correction [5.] List of my old videos and recent videos [6.] To Acceptance & Forgiveness Autobiography (TAFA) A. Re-add Tags to TAFA B. Proof read and make correction [7.] My May 2026 Status Quo [8.] My TCG Development Timeline Summarization

Crown TCG Championship (CTC) & My Situation Announcement Part 02

Written By: Neng Lam Date Begin: April 24, 2026 (Date Posted: May 15, 2026) Title: Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Development Overview Title Posted My PTTS Blog: Crown TCG Championship (CTC) & My Situation Announcement Part 02

Contents:

Introduction

Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Is My Final

Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?

My Brainstorm On Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Base Set

No Other Way

Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder (BIIEB)

Redemption

Goals On Manageable Schedule

(Part 1: 1-3, Part 2: 4-6, Part 3: 7 & 8)

My Brainstorm On Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Base Set

Base Set is the first set.

It is hard for me to say I don't want to continue to not have feedback like the last 9 years (2016-Current 2026) of no feedback on my PTTS Blog (tumblr.com/ptts2023). But, the same thing could continue to happen to me. Vice-versa, living together and sharing should be common sense.

One feedback from one person on my PTTS Blog could save me a lot of pains and miseries.

During the time while I was living in the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam from my birth to when I'm 8 years old from 1984-1992. That is 34 years ago.

My father, Chung Wun Lam pass away on December 2020 at 82 years old. That is 6 years ago.

My father's autobiography book and many stories he told is from the 1975-1978 war in the countries of Cambodia and Vietnam. Because I was born on May 03, 1984 in Sand Be, Vietnam, so I was born in the aftermath of that war. Not during that war. This mean I didn't live through that war like my father.

My father's stories of that war is equivalent to he is a victim of that war. And/or, he is traumatized by that war. Example: The traumas he have from that war have made him a handicap person.

While living in Sand Be, Vietnam such as the aftermath of that war, like I wrote in "Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final": I did saw soldiers and civilians who were crippled by the war casualties. Based on what I saw, I would think that because the government couldn't give them living expenses, so they became homeless (beggar) cripples. As for the war casualties that made babies became deform babies during birth, I would think that it would be unpleasant sight or sight that could leave me with nightmares during my sleeps. This mean I would deny what I saw to able to sleep at night. I think later on, after I immigrated to the USA and a few years older, in the TV commercials on making donations to help out regions of the third world countries that are in famine and poverty or needed help. There were footages of deform babies in that TV commercial.

Like I wrote above, I live in the aftermath of that war. Not during that war. I'm not a victim of that war like my father. Also, seeing homeless cripple(s) and deform baby(ies) doesn't mean I'm a homeless cripple and deform baby. Example: The war casualties didn't made me became a homeless cripple. And, the war casualties didn't made me a deform baby during birth.

Like I wrote above, living in Sand Be, Vietnam is 34 years ago.

I live with my father in his house from November 2015-his death, December 2020. As much as I want to deny it, he is alone and he die alone on his bed, because he took me in his house. Yet, I assume he already knew that when he took me in his house. But, he is my father, because it is an embarrassment to him that I have to sleep in my car.

Like I wrote in, "Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?", "in my recent videos I been asking for a public hearing which I called a conference where a crowd of people would listen to what I have to say. The results is like my 9 years of no feedback on my PTTS Blog. No feedback."

Like I been saying in almost all of the contents in this announcement, "I been saying the following over and over too many times: I want to stop going against the current. I want to stop colliding against the "Uncertainty"."

The public hearing approaches would lead to the following: If I can't get any attention from the county of San Diego, then I would want to go to the White House. Then, the Pentagon. Then, the Surpreme Court, and so on. Until the United Nations.

But, I don't have a lot of money and connections. I would argues the best I could do is hire a lawyer from the San Diego City Hall. So, I have to take a step back from all that. And, set goals that I could achieve such as practical goals.

The following are my practical goals:

My family members are victims of the war. Also, my family have immigrant status, refugee status, English as a Second Language (ESL) status and low income family status. This mean I have been living a life that would be argued as a punishment. So, I have to stop being upset at myself for being in this situation, because so far my life have been a punishment.

1 person leave me 1 feedback on my PTTS Blog or my youtube channel would save me a lot of pains and miseries. I think this goal is possible. Example: A miracle could happen to me. In this miracle, 1 person left me a feedback on my PTTS Blog or my youtube channel.

In the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam, I had 1 official one-on-one empty handed combat fight against Scorpion. In San Diego, California USA, from 1993-1999, I had 20 empty handed combat fights. I would want to see those fights as the Empty Handed Combat League fights. In the high School wrestling team competition, I have 2 matches. 1 match against the USDHS (University of San Diego High School) JV 140 weight class. 1 match against my teammate, Jabron JV 135 weight class. I hope one day, I could talk with an individual or group about my fights and I don't have to feel embarrassing or I don't have to feel like I did something wrong.

To not be afraid and not upset at myself for thinking that I could be at the president of the USA speech or shook hand with the president of the USA.

I don't have to focus so much on the little things in life. Example: I don't have to focus so much on greeting my family and neighbors like "Good morning" daily. Also, I don't have to focus so much on getting 1 feedback on my PTTS Blog or my youtube channel.

Like I wrote in Goal 1, "My family members are victims of the war. Also, my family have immigrant status, refugee status, English as a Second Language (ESL) status and low income family status." I don't have to keep wishing my father, Chung Wun Lam haven't pass away. So, that I don't have to be afraid that I don't have equality and civil rights.

I have to stop dwelling on #1-6 would be argued as privileges that even a foreigner of the USA would have living in the USA. I have live in the USA for 34 years. It is upsetting how my equality and civil rights have degenerated. Example: How did I got sunk so low and keep sinking?

I felt like I have to burn my father and my mother to death, so I could redeem myself because each day of my life have been like a punishment and they did not take any responsibilities for born me in this world.

It would save me a lot pains and miseries if someone in the 9 years have left me the following feedback on my PTTS Blog:

"Because your whole family are bad people including you."

"No matter what you do the Trading Card Game (TCG) association will never open their door to you."

It is embarrassing feedbacks, but it would save me a lot of pains and miseries. Because I have been struggling very hard with everything I got for 9 years to keep my PTTS Blog active and free for people to read. How am I supposed to know what is going on without feedback on my PTTS Blog for 9 years?

The CTC Base Set would be about how to deal with the pains and miseries in my life. The same with the first 4 TCG development periods. Read "My Trading Card Game (TCG) Development Timeline Summarization" for more details. Check my future announcements for a chance to read this content. The following are a few sentences about each periods:

First Period: TCG development begin at around April 2019 and last for around 3 months. Because I was full of fears that the adversities been happening to me daily would get worse. Sometime the regrets, doubts and fears in my life made me having a difficult time sleeping at night. So, I self-help myself with the following wishful thought: One day when my TCG development is completed. As a TCG creator I could have recognition and feedback in my life.

Second Period: TCG development begin at around June 2020 and last for around 4 months. the same. But, this time I'm trying to convince myself that there are people who would truly give me a chance on my TCG occupation and/or novelist occupation. Example: That chance is people recognize me as a struggling novelist who have an on-going TCG occupation for 20 years (1999-2020). This is during the hard time and tough struggles, so I have a lot of regrets, doubts and fears in my life. The doubts would lead to people want to trap me or contradicted me. Example: The chance I thought people was going to give me is those people want to destroy me. I would defend myself with the following: If I'm at the wrong place at the wrong time, then it is hard for me to explain about I'm at the right place at the right time. The same with my TCG development.

Third Period: TCG development begin at around October 2021 and last for around 5 months. I completed the 3 UMF (Universe of Millennium Fighter) stories to go with my TCG development. The 3 UMF stories setting is in a world where TCG have got accepted in the tradition and custom. This setting is equivalent to the "Yu-Gi-Oh" TV series including Duelist Kingdom Island became a reality. I thought this is it. I did it. After about 4 months, I have to stop my TCG development to write about my contemplation on commit suicide. While writing that book is equivalent to I'm self-helping myself on my contemplation on commit suicide.

Fourth Period: TCG development begin at around April 2024 and last for around 5 months. In my miserable world, the conspiracies have kill journalists or anyone who talk about TCG. But, in the world of Arowra, there are people who have overcame very severe curses in their life. All of Arowra wisdom have transferred into 2 swords. Those 2 swords will be the base of my fourth TCG development. I called it as Arowra Spirial of Conspiracies. Example1: Talking about TCG is already death. Developing TCG would be a more severe death. Example2: Conspiracies killed many people. Spiral of Conspiracies kill even more greater number of people. My TCG development is independence and limited sources. Even though, I did the best I can to let the world know about it, but there were no acknowledgement and support from my surrounding including my family and relatives on it. To make things worse, I got complains by my family and relatives instead of supports. After not having enough foods to eat for a period of time, I decided to come to stop on it.

Now, this is the fifth TCG development period. Like I been stressing, CTC is my redemption. I'm going to use what I have so far in the 4 TCG development periods and make them into CTC. So, CTC is going to be a type of TCG. Basically, I want to says the words, "Crown" and "Championship" in CTC are strong words. Through my eyes, a TCG building around "Crown TCG" and "TCG Championship" and 4 controversial TCG development periods might not be like what you would expected from a conventional TCG development. I would avoid the following scenario: What if before CTC and those 4 TCG development periods, a TCG company accepted me as a TCG developer/creator and gave me an opportunity to be part of the conventional TCG development. In other words, the TCG association open up a door to me by giving me a chance to be part of the conventional TCG development main stream.

But, looking at the semantics meaning (including words context) and dictionary definitions of "Crown" and "Championship", those 2 words are words affiliated with convention. Example: Whenever a person come upon those 2 words, he or she would naturally know it is conventional. Like I wrote above, "Read "My Trading Card Game (TCG) Development Timeline Summarization" for more details."

Since CTC is not fully developed into a TCG. Also, I'm just starting to make announcements about CTC. Even though, without the initial (abbreviation) "CTC", you could see the initial TCG in "Crown [TCG] Championship". So, if people want to call CTC as CTC TCG to be familiar that it is a type of TCG, then I would see it as a transition. Until, the world know about CTC.

On 2000, I struggle very hard and go through so much very tough trainings. Beating overwhelming odds. Just for a chance to be accepted as a journalist. I'm working very hard as a journalist so that people could know what is going on. My journalism struggles is equivalent to I'm struggling very hard to leave feedbacks for people, so those people know what is going on.

Seeing my journalism struggles, I will forgive myself. I think that is why so many of my commit suicide attempts have fail.

Like I wrote above, "2. 1 person leave me 1 feedback on my PTTS Blog or my youtube channel would save me a lot of pains and miseries. I think this goal is possible. Example: A miracle could happen to me. In this miracle, 1 person left me a feedback on my PTTS Blog or my youtube channel."

Like I wrote above, "1. My family members are victims of the war. Also, my family have immigrant status, refugee status, English as a Second Language (ESL) status and low income family status. This mean I have been living a life that would be argued as a punishment. So, I have to stop being upset at myself for being in this situation, because so far my life have been a punishment."

Like I wrote in "Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?" and "Back To How Many Second Chances In Life Do I Need?":

I never immigrated to the USA and I live in the poor fuedal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam my whole life.

It depend how me and the world want to see my life. The CTC Curse (#1-3) have cursed my life. Or, I could use "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB) as my arguments. The following is the BIIEB Argument I use in "Back To How Many Second Chances In Life Do I Need?": "My father have been acclaimed for his public speaking skill on the many speeches he made and his storytelling skill on the many stories he have told. I grow up listening to his stories. Then, I self-train myself very hard in the journalism the best I could. On 2001, I got accepted as a journalist of "The Beachcomber". After high school, I use the resources that was accessible to me to pursuit the novelist occupation and journalism through the multimedia field."

People could filter out all the things involving and related to BIIEB Argument and make my life as CTC Curse. Or, people could ignore BIIEB Argument and find evidences to make my life as CTC Curse. Vice-versa, people could filter out all the things involving and related to the CTC Curse and make my life as BIIEB Argument. Or, people could ignore the CTC Curse and find evidences to make my life as BIIEB Argument.

I would argues people only see deform babies' during birth and homeless cripples' pains and sufferings. This mean no matter how much pains and sufferings I go through. Those pains and sufferings will not match the deform babies' and homeless cripples' pains and sufferings. Yet, because my family are victims of the war and have multiple inferior statuses, so I must struggle harder to keep up.

The war casualties might not made me look like deform during birth and crippled me. But, because my family are victims of the war, I suffer side-effects. Not enough foods to eat. Lack of education. And, poor living environment.

Nevertheless, there are regular USA students who have disability on learning how to read the English language. But, how can you tell the different between student that are victims of the war and students that have reading disability? Example: I can't read and write, because I haven't taught to read and write before. As for the reading disability, they could still read, but they are having a hard time reading.

I think it is because of the hard study. And, miracle, blessing, divine, zealous, or pious that gave me the strength to think that I could catch up with the other students. But, I would argues that I didn't needed my father to whip me with his leather belt, so that I could catch up with the other students. At the same time, it is very obvious to tell the different between elementary school and college. This mean there is a different between a child brain and an adult brain. Example: The elementary school children would learn the elementary school education. The adults would learn the college education which is known as higher education.

I live in a family who are victims of the war and I have multiple inferior statuses. Then, my parents and schools pushed me to not only catch up with the other students. But, I have to have the Higher Math Achievement Acclaim on math. And, set goals on being in the advance placement on the other subjects. The scary thing is my parents and the schools made it seem like it is possible for me to achieve it.

Math is math. The other subjects. Students' parents speak the English language. Those students been speaking the English language since the day they were born. All the activities they got into are English language based. The same with the other subjects, it is all English language based.

Higher Math Achievement Acclaim mean I have got 100% test scores on all of my math tests. Also, I have the most high achievement awards on math among all the students at my school.

As for the other subjects, I study very hard on them. There were days, because of the stresses from studying too hard and too long have made me have high fever. There were very few times I fainted, because I continue studying after I have got high fever. Like I wrote above, "The scary thing is my parents and the schools made it seem like it is possible for me to achieve it." So, to not disappoint them, I have to hide my high fever and fainted.

The next step would be push me off a rooftop. Or, push me into the street with moving cars. Because I already pushed myself very hard on studying until I have high fever and fainted.

No Other Way

One day, on 1997, the way I see it. Just when I'm starting to adjust to the other school subjects, because math is the only subject that I got acclaimed as the Higher Math Achievement Acclaim. The computer subject starting to stand out. In summary, I'm looking for ways where I could spend more time on a computer. Because it is not about how hard I could study the computer subject. It is about being familiar on using a computer. Coincidentally, my English teacher, Mrs. Atwell told me I got awarded with the President Award. At the same time, she handed me a letter of invitation to invite my family to the President Award Ceremony with me. As usual, because she is my English teacher, this mean she know that I'm still learning how to read and write. So, I asked her to read the letter to me.

I thought everything should clear up the moment I told her to read the letter to me. Because how could I be awarded with the President Award if I'm still learning how to read and write. Surprisingly, after she finish reading the letter to me. She gave me congratulations for being awarded with the President Award.

I mumbled, "You forgot to say I'm invited to the award ceremony as an attendee. I'm not being awarded with the President Award." As though there is a big misunderstanding.

"No. You are awarded with the President Award. Go check your name on the bulletin board. If your name is on the top of the lists in each classes, then you are awarded with the President Award."

"I'm heading that way. I would take a look."

The bulletin board is at the main hall. It is also called the gallery hall. The reason I didn't look at those sheets, because how could I be awarded with the President Award.

My hands starting to shake a little, after I saw my names multiple times on the top of the lists for a few classes. There are 7 classes. Only 6 classes have grades. As I continue checking through those sheets, in all of my classes, my name is on the top of the list. There is only 1 class left. That is my history class (Sometime it is called Social Study). Mrs. Araico.

"Almost every time when I have Mrs. Araico's class, I would stay after when her class end for extra helps. I can't be on the top of the list in her class."

I would have flashbacks on staying in her class when her class have ended for extra helps. After I return from my flashbacks, I would focus my attention back on those sheets pinned up on the bulletin board, my name is on the top of the list in her class. And, my thought is the sheets can't lie.

I thought I should worry about traveling in the forest in Sand Be, Vietnam. Because if I accidentally step on a beartrap or landmine. Then, there goes one of my limbs for the rest of my life. Not looking at some sheets on the bulletin board.

I vibe the following argument against me: I will not celebrate my empty handed combat fight victories. I will not celebrate my high achievement awards including the President Award at school. For my generation. If I were to have any children, then the same for my second generation. If my children were to have their children, by then my third generation. They could make the exceptions to celebrate. That is how I should live my life. But, even if I live my life that way, how could I have evidences to prove it. Example: Mrs. Atwell and Mrs. Araico have about 100 new students each years. The same with the other teachers. It would be very rare for those teachers to say, "I remember Neng Lam."

By my third generation, my history is clear. My third generation could live a normal life including being part of the celebration.

If your name is on the top of the list mean you have the highest grade in that class. President Award Ceremony without celebration is hard to believe.

I checked the sheets. I got the letter of invitation in my hand. Once my name is called at the President Award Ceremony, I have to decide to go up to the podium or not.

I study very hard, so the school invite me and my family to the President Award Ceremony. I really wanted to keep it at that. If I do have a third generation, then my third generation could celebrate for me.

The way I see it. During my first or second year, I lost a fight in the Empty Handed Combat League, so the USA send me back to the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam where I came from. While in the airport, I jump off the airport building and kill myself. Life flashes before my eyes. Before I die, I dream up everything. This mean I'm living in my own dream.

I must have dreamt I got awarded with the President Award. Yet, I can't blame myself, because I did study very hard and I did study until I fainted during my high fever.

Everything I ever dream about, I made it come true.

But, what I really wanted is to go back to that airport and ease the pain of me who struggle so hard and at the end, I still have to kill myself.

Yet, what if it is not a dream? It is really happening? Will I have a third generation who will celebrate this day for me?

There is no other way. Mrs. Atwell and Mrs. Araico will going to be there. They wanted to tell me all those times I stay after in their class for the extra helps have finally pay off.

First, it scare me that my parents and the schools made it seem like it is possible for me to able to achieve my goal on being in the advance placement classes. With this President Award mean I'm ready to be in the advance placement classes.

It is at the Catamaran Resort Hotel. During the ceremony, I manage to get away from the hotel. I took a walk at the shore. I wanted to shout out the following: "I have killed myself at the airport!" But, I didn't. For a second, I picture myself like the sands at the shore. Smooth and calm. Blend right into to the sands at the shore. My feet and hands have touches those sands, but my feet and hands are clean. Will my life stay clean like tonight?

I was able to hide the following in the award ceremony: The whole night I'm bother by I'm going to be in the advance placement classes and it will be a tough struggle.

I would argues I must have became like the sands. Smooth, calm and clean. So, that I could manage to get through tonight at the ceremony.

Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder (BIIEB)

I would use "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB) as my argument to point out that on January 1999, love at first sight. No one have more love for anything than I have love for Trading Card Game (TCG). So, TCG is the greatest thing that ever happen to me.

But, the world could also use "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB) as their argument to argue that the world see TCG as the destruction that destroy my life. Because my life was going so perfect until I committed to TCG.

I would argues my parents and the schools would eventually push me off the rooftop. Example: I'm still learning how to read and write. Yet, I went up to the poduim to received the President Award in the President Award Ceremony (Catamaran Resort Hotel).

I would continue the argument with. I probably freeze to death while cuddle myself with the TCG. But, the TCG have saved me from being push off the rooftop by my parents and the schools.

There were long nights. I would hide myself away and dried my tears recalling the following memories: Mrs. Atwell, Mrs. Araico and my other teachers who have gave me encouragements and supports on my education.

But, I already saw what will happen to me on my education path. It is TCG that saved my life.

No feedback on my PTTS Blog for 9 years could argued as I have no recognition in San Diego.

The 34 years I live in San Diego is very confusing.

My family conflicts made my life very tough struggles and very confusing.

Life of an immigrant in the USA are very tough struggles and a lot of bitterness.

Life of an empty handed combat league fighter are very tough struggles and a lot of bitterness.

I would argues that one out of #1-5 have made me in this situation and it is very hard for me to figure out which one it is. But, #1-5 is like punching a person in the face when the word, joke is brought up. Yet, if I told anyone about it. They would have a good laugh and replied, "The joke is on you." To get by today and able to see the next day, I have to be very brave and I must struggle very hard.

If it is very hard to get pass each day mean I don't have a long life. This mean I probably won't have a second generation. So, to have a third generation would be even harder than second generation. But, I have to talk about my third generation, because only by my third generation, they could live a normal life including be part of the celebration.

I hate myself each day for being in this situation. I picture I would hate myself even more if I felt I deserve better. Deserve better by felt sorry for myself and crying about San Diego is a very foul place. No honor. No history.

My crys would probably made me even sadier and made me have more hatred. If I'm overwhelmed by sadness and hatred, then I probably won't able to write anymore.

Back to 1999. In the game of Janga, each players take turns to remove a rectangle block from a tower of blocks. The player who made the tower fall while removing a block get eliminated from the game. The remaining players would start a new game. The last remaining player is the victor.

"Domino Effect" mean when you knock down one domino. That domino you knock down would knock down a chain of many dominos in a consistence sequence.

Even though, I don't have a chess occupation like I have TCG occupation. But, during the years while I'm teaching and playing chess. I can't help it to hear chess players saying the following: "Pawn pieces are use for sacrifice or trade."

There are times, I would daze after hearing that. Then, I would convince myself that it is the different styles of playing chess. Because I see pawn pieces as the castle walls. How you move your pawns is equivalent to how you want to build your castle walls or how you want to fortify your castle walls. At the same time, I would often remind myself the following quote: "A good offense is also a good defense."

It is nice to have the castle walls during your siege. But, a siege don't require castle walls.

1 domino knock down all the other dominos. Make mistake(s) while removing 1 block made the tower of blocks fall down. 1 wrong move lead to losing the chess game.

I say my schools and my parents are pushing me off the rooftop. My surrounding would argue back that I have the Higher Math Achievement Acclaim and President Award. Also, I'm the leading student in my school campuses. Vice-versa, I say I'm doing great at school. My surrounding would argue back that my schools and my parents are pushing me off the rooftop.

The same with the activities in my life. I thought after I save my classmate, Steve Decker 3 times, he might not be the same as my surrounding. First time, Dominick Labade stole his money and making fun of him in front of some students in the Boy Locker Room. I took his money back from Dominick and handed back to him. Second time, I grab on to him as he about to fell off a tree. Third time, my father told me and him that me and him can't hang out anymore. Because he want to continue to hang out with me, so I went against my father's words and let him hang out with me.

One day, he started talking about his parents paying for his martial art lessons. His parents encouraging him to train hard to become a better martial artist (fighter). The black belt is the highest rank. He told me he is setting goal on one day, he will achieve the black belt. Then, he told me he is strapping weights to his angles to improve his training.

He is pretty serious about what he told me, because he didn't say, "You could see my martial art belt, but you can't touch it."

I say I created and regulated the Empty Handed Combat League. Also, I participated and won all my fights. My surrounding would argue back no one know about it, because it is unofficial. Vice-versa, I say I'm looking to hire a lawyer to help me clear my record on my empty handed combat league. My surrounding would argue back that I created and regulated the Empty Handed Combat League. Also, I won all my fights.

My surrounding would use "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB) as their arguments to argue that I'm only self-punishing myself by continue listing the discontent in my life during 1999.

Vice-versa, I would use BIIEB as my arguments to argues that through my eyes I'm better than what my surrounding think of me. But, no matter how much skills I have. I'm at the wrong place at the wrong time, it is hard for me to explain that I'm at the right place at the right time. Or, if I'm being forced to go against all the people in San Diego by myself, then I'm not going to like the results.

In schools, I have the Higher Math Achievement Acclaim and President Award. In the Empty Handed Combat League, I won all of my fights. In the Trading Card Game (TCG) Tournaments, I have the most first places among the players in the "Name of the Game" store. The same with Collectible Miniatures Game (TCG) Tournaments and Board Games. I could continue listing...

But, I have to self-criticize myself with because I'm the only person who care about my achievements, this mean no one care about my achievements. To show that I care and my words matter, I have to stab a knife into my own hand to prove my point.

Back to BIIEB as my argument. Only in my eyes I'm better than what my surrounding think of me. To save me the pains and miseries of stabbing my own hand again.

Score 1 more 100% math test score for my Higher Math Achievement Acclaim. Win 1 more fight to add to my 20 wins and 0 loss Empty Handed Combat League record. Compete for 1 more first place to add to my accumulation of tournament first places. Win 1 more basketball game for my sport recognition.

It is hard to make people understand that it is not about 1 more win. The losing consequences of 1 lost is much more than what people see about the rewards of 1 win.

I have to continue using BIIEB as my arguments to point out the pioneer blood run in my heritage. My father, Chung Wun Lam is the founding father of Sand Be, Vietnam. He have sons, step-sons and adopted sons that are pioneers and importers.

I became an importer at 13 years old on August 1997. I became a pioneer at 15 years old on January 1999. At 18 years old (2002), I have a very controversial title, TCG Tycoon.

It is through my eyes. I could only imagine if I were to see through other people eyes, then it would be like the following: On the day the county of San Diego acknowledge the people who got San Diego to recognize the Trading Card Game (TCG) history. On that same day, I drove my car off the cliff.

"Vons" Supermarket is about 4 streets away from the "Name of the Game" store. Game room for Trading Card Game (TCG) tournament or nontournament. Horton Plaza Mall is about 4 streets away from "Comic-Con" Convention Center. Game rooms for TCG tournament or nontournament.

TCG Players could argue that they have spotted me in "Vons" and Horton Plaza Mall before, because those 2 locations are close to the game rooms. But, I rather see myself staying at the game rooms as long as I can. Yet, one day, I'm going to step out of those game rooms.

In conclusion, I surrounded myself with as much TCG as possible. For as long as I could. That is what I been holding in for as long as I can without saying a word to anyone about it.

Last but not least, in the CTC Base Set, I'm going to create 2 cards, "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB) And Redemption. Then, I'm going to make those 2 cards as the highest rarity and most expensive cards in the CTC Base Set. In addition, the name of the base set will be titled as "Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder" (BIIEB). It will only satisfy the eyes of the beholder. If those words can't get through to the world, then I hope redemption could get throught to the world.

Crown TCG Championship (CTC) & My Situation Announcement Part 01

Written By: Neng Lam Date Begin: April 24, 2026 Title: Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Development Overview Title Posted My PTTS Blog: Crown TCG Championship (CTC) & My Situation Announcement Part 01

Recent Videos On My Youtube Channel (youtube.com/@ptts2023) My Schedule Overall Update Magazine Documentary CTC & TCG Crown TCG Championship CTC & My TCG History

Contents:

Introduction

Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Is My Final

Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?

My Brainstorm On Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Base Set

No Other Way

Beauty Is In the Eyes of the Beholder (BIIEB)

Redemption

Goals On Manageable Schedule

(Part 1: 1-3, Part 2: 4-6, Part 3: 7 & 8)

Introduction

Club Presidency

On February 2008, my first day as club-president of Mesa College Multimedia Club in the San Diego Mesa College campus. In a computer lab at the K403 room. There were 50 people show up to the first club meeting. The computer lab only have 40 chairs. So, there were people who didn't have a chair to sit on. 35 people wrote their name, student number, email address, and phone number on the sign in sheet. 20 out of the 35 I have been to the club meeting at least 1 time before. 15 out of the 35 consider themselves as club members. Later on, 5 out of the 35 request me to take them out of the sign in sheet.

On December 2011, my last semester as club-president, there were only 8 people left including me. 3 active club officers, Johnson, Kevin and Meho Patel who show up to the club meeting weekly. 1 active club officer, Joe and 3 club members who request to stay active through email communication. As for the list of people that get email weekly, if they request me to remove them out of the list and they didn't get remove from the list. Then, they could complain to me that I'm spamming email to them weekly. In other words, there are people who get the Multimedia Club email weekly from me and I never heard of them before.

At the end of each email, I would have the following:

Neng Lam, Club President My email address My phone number

Legoland Recruitment

On 2014, toward the end of my long months (spanning throughout the years of 2013 & 2014) of job search training. I decided that Legoland theme park employment will be my last job search. Then, I have to find another way. Because I'm doing what I can to deny the following: Adversities in general that make me can't have an employment in the USA.

The recruitment activities is 2 hours long. The 30 people that were in my appointment are break into groups. so that we could have group activities. My group have selected me and Alison as the group leaders.

I hate to see the recruitment as if I got hire, then Alison will not get hire. Vice-versa, Alison got hire, then I will not get hire. But, it is recruitment. Not club meeting. I would argues looking at my resume. I got elected as club president. This mean Alison need this job more than I do.

I would rather me and Alison became friend. She told me that she need this job more than I do. So, me and her could stop competing for this job, because we are in the same group. Yet, it is my last job search.

During break, I told her. That I'm glad she also wore a fashionable suit. And, she took charge as the group leader. So, I don't stand out as overdress. Ali mean God. She is God son, this mean she is Jesus. Because in the bible, God son is Jesus.

After the group activities, the 30 people waited in the conference room until we are call to be interview one by one.

During the 4 years as club president, I have set the main goal on our whole club taking a field trip to see what a conference room look like. So that our club could make plan on one day our meeting could be like a conference meeting. But, I didn't achieve our goal.

The following is the advertisement for Legoland: The theme is a place of building fantasy and exploring imagination. Example: It is like Toysland, Minecraft, or Kingdom Heart.

For me to be hire, I have to be the club president who is serving coffees and running errands at Legoland. And, Alison is my manager. But, it is very obvious, me and her act as group leaders in the group activities. We should finish our act by sitting on the board seats in the conference room. That is why me and her were the only 2 who wore fashionable suits to the recruitment.

During the interview, the interviewer make me felt like the interview process have got reserved. Because I should be the interviewer. Not being interview.

I self-criticize myself with the following to move on with not being hired by Legoland: I'm just a puppet on a string. Not important and don't matter. And, I'm only serving coffees and running errands. Please hire me. I'm not the people who is sitting on the board seats in the conference room.

Looking at my self-criticism, I accepted why I didn't got hired.

I drove about 60 miles from where I live for this appointment. Took me about 1 hour on the road. I use up about $20 of my gas money. I didn't receive any income on my responsibilities and duties as club president of the Mesa College Multimedia Club for 4 years. The same with my job search training. I didn't receive any income.

Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Recruitment

I'm alone working on Crown TCG Championship (CTC). And, looking at my self-criticism above, it look like Alison is my manager. But, since I'm working on CTC alone, this mean I have to manage CTC project as the manager, so she is not the manager. In addition, there are no club officers helping me. So, I need to hire employees to help me work on CTC.

The following are the employee responsibilities and duties: Office works. Example: Using a computer and organize office materials. If employees know how to use Photoshop or an artist. Then, those employees could help me with the illustrations/designs.

I would recommend employees to have some TCG experiences. Example: 1. Those employees have compete in the TCG Tournament before. Or, have been a TCG Tournament Coordinator before. 2. Those employees want to have a career in the TCG field. 3. Those employees could teach a range of different type of TCG to people who want to learn how to play TCG.

I would recommend employees to know about the copyright laws or don't mind reading about the copyright laws.

Ownership of the works and pay rate may be open for discussion. Example: Contract agreement, partnership, commission (compensation), pay by the hour, pay by project, share ownership of the works, and so on.

Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Is My Final

I have to put the following to the side, because "Uncertainty" is "Uncertainty": I want to stop going against the current. I want to stop colliding against the "Uncertainty". The "Uncertainty" is no one want to leave everything behind and start a new life. But, it is better than keep going against the current and colliding against the "Uncertainty".

Laws against gambling including casino is for the protection of the people, because gambling including casino could make a person lost everything he or she have and owe debts.

The same with Trading Card Game (TCG). If TCG is harmful to the people, then the people could create laws against TCG.

The blame is I gamble with TCG that is why my life is cursed. And, the curse of the TCG have put me in a restless turmoil. At the same time, no feedback on my PTTS Blog for 9 years could argued as no one pay attention to me, so no one know about my life. The confusions is it is hard for me to tell is it no recognition or TCG is a curse.

Like I wrote in "Crown TCG Championship CTC & My TCG History" video description, "2. If a person is given a fair chance to qualify for a lifestyle of official and long-term TCG championship. And, history will remember the TCG hall of fame. Then, TCG is no longer a curse."

Fate and family tree (trait/genetic) determine a person whole life the moment he or she is born. Example: The moment a person is born, he have the following fate: he have royal blood, so his birth right is he will one day have a coronation to be a crown king.

What if my fate is I have to always be poor, happiness is faraway, I can't live with any family member and friend, and I have to always be alone? This mean the fate factor could have created problems to my TCG occupation.

What if the TCG age restriction is TCG is created for 10 years or older and teenagers (13-19)? This mean the age factor is after I turn 20 years old, I have to stop playing TCG.

Putting the fate factor to the side. Did TCG really make me, the grand champion and TCG tycoon sunk this low and continue sinking, because I did not follow the TCG age restriction or something else?

The TCG companies, Nintendo, Konami, Wizards of the Coast, and Upper Deck Entertainment did not put warning label on the TCG boxes. And, inside the TCG rule booklet.

The TCG tournament coordinators did not warn you about TCG while you were signing up for the TCG Tournament.

I created Crown TCG Championship (CTC) to redeem myself for the 27 years of my TCG occupation. And, the 4 TCG development periods I got into. I will not be like the TCG companies and TCG tournament coordinators who have no responsibilities on the commerce of the TCG products, providing TCG endeavor, and/or avocating TCG in general.

Crown is to indicate a person or place have royal ascension to become a king. Example: The knight who have crowned to be a king mean the knight who have ascended to be a king. King is the highest ranking position in a monarch. So, crown mean ascension, discretion and convention abided by the royalty.

TCG is to indicate a card-based game come to be known as TCG (Trading Card Game). Exceptions are most TCG doesn't have the words, "Trading Card Game" on the cardback. But, the box covers, packages, rule booklets, inserts and so on would tell you it is a Trading Card Game.

Championship is to indicate a person is given a fair chance to qualify for a lifestyle of official and long-term TCG championship. And, history will remember the TCG hall of fame.

CTC is the cure to the following ailment status cause by TCG: poison, curse, restless turmoil, going against the current, colliding against the "Uncertainty", and so on. Example: If you are like me who got cursed by TCG, then CTC is your cure.

I will never forget that day when I saw TCG for the first time. Then, like wrote in "Crown TCG Championship CTC & My TCG History" video description, "At first, I thought TCG was the greatest thing that ever happen to me. And, I want to take TCG to the grave with me. Example: I felt no one have more love for anything than I have love for TCG."

My regret is dealing with the "Uncertainty" involving TCG was very tough struggles. CTC is the cure to those tough struggles. Instead of TCG have brought me wealth and CTC will continue to bring me more wealth.

I would argues that I'm not the only person who is cursed by TCG. So, CTC will not only cure me. It will also cure people who are like me. Example: People who have committed to TCG for many years and TCG cursed them for those many years.

I could see where the blames came from. At the same time, if I point out the blames, then I could creates confusions and misunderstandings to my life. Yet, I have already suffer 27 years from my TCG occupation. One day, when I have 1 feedback on my PTTS Blog or my youtube channel, then I would point out where the blames came from.

Like I wrote above, CTC is my redemption.

Like I wrote in the Introduction, I'm looking to hire employee(s) to work for me. Those people who are interest in this employement have to go through an one-on-one interview with me. I will determine their overall assessment depend on how they answer the questions from my interview. I'm looking for employees who have some TCG experiences, so if you have that, then you have a better chance of getting hire. The following are examples:

Those employees have compete in the TCG Tournament before. Or, have been a TCG Tournament Coordinator before.

Those employees want to have a career in the TCG field.

Those employees could teach a range of different type of TCG to people who want to learn how to play TCG.

Like I wrote above, if you met #1-3, then there is a good chance I would hire you.

I'm sick and tired of hearing humors about there are TCG that the world never heard of before. First task, I want my employee(s) to work on.

Search thoroughly to find all existence TCG. Old and new.

For each TCG found, make sure to also find their rulebook. Read through it and make any correction, so that those employees could teach them to people who want to learn how to play TCG.

Rate each TCG found. The TCG overall grade depend on the rating from the following categories: Graphic, Replay Value, Gameplay (including game pieces), Base Set And Expansion Set(s), and Expenses.

After the first task is completed, I will gather up my employees for a meeting. As their employer, I will be in charge of the meeting. Example: I will start and coordinate the meeting. Also, I will ask them to vote which TCG could be selected to be part of the official and long-term TCG championship. CTC will not be the only TCG for the official and long-term TCG championship.

Why Is Crown TCG Championship (CTC) My Final?

Like I wrote in "Crown TCG Championship CTC & My TCG History" video desrciption and "Crown TCG Championship (CTC) Is My Final". "I been saying the following over and over too many times: I want to stop going against the current. I want to stop colliding against the "Uncertainty"."

In addition, in my recent videos I been asking for a public hearing which I called a conference where a crowd of people would listen to what I have to say. The results is like my 9 years of no feedback on my PTTS Blog. No feedback.

I posted up my autobiography books which I called "To Acceptance & Forgiveness Autobiography" (TAFA) on my PTTS Blog from the day I was born, May 03, 1984 to 2000. I'm 16 years old. That is the stopping point. Book 4 Chapter 11. From April 2025-August 2025. In the elaborated Introduction section of TAFA, I thoroughly explained why I have to write TAFA.

Before TAFA, I would select very important events in my life which I think are very controversial events. And, I would write them into article form and post those articles up as posts on my PTTS Blog.

A feedback like the followng: "Poverty such as poor kill. Or, poorness led to poverty. And, poverty kill."

If in the 9 years I got 1 feedback in general or 1 feedback like the feedback above, then I would forgive myself. Then, I won't have to write TAFA.

The following are my reasons:

[My Reasons Begin]

I was born in a poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam. Inside my house. In addition, that country-side region I born in and live until 8 years old use to be a war-zone. After the war ended, that region was clear away and let civilians live in.

Based on what my observation, while I was growing up in that region, I see soldiers and civilians who became cripple, because they got injured by the war casualties. I would think that because the government couldn't give them living expenses, so they became homeless cripples. Also, war casualties that made babies deform during birth. I would deny about seeing deform babies during birth, because the sight would make me have nightmares during my sleeps. Later on, after I immigrated to the USA for years, in the TV commercial on making donation(s) to third world countries that needed help. There were footages of deform babies during birth or 1 or 2 years old in that TV commercial.

My father, Chung Wun Lam would often and regularly tell stories of the 1975-1978 war to crowd of people. Because being in that war have made him going through a lot of sufferings and pains. So, he would emphasize the crucial points of his stories on the commit suicide attempts he made that somehow the gods have saved him from being kill by his commit suicide attempts.

My family members and relatives would talks about assassinations to kill people like my father who is telling stories about the war. So, there would be cover ups for the war. Because seeing homeless cripple soldiers and civilians, deform babies and hearing stories about the war casualties bring embarrassments to the country of where the war took place.

Yet, my father told his stories openly to the public all the time. In addition, there were Newspapers published the stories my father told. On 2006, after my father immigrated to the USA for around 10 years (1994-2006). He return back to the countries of Cambodia and Vietnam where the 1975-1978 war took place. And, wrote an autobiography on the 4 years while he was in that war from 1975-1978. But, somehow he survive the assassinations that my family members and relatives talk about. Example: He didn't wrote his autobiography in the USA. He traveled to the countries of Cambodia and Vietnam. And, wrote his autobiography in Cambodia. It is like he wanted the assassination to happen to him.

Nevertheless, he live out his years until he is an old man. And, die on his bed as an old man. From the accumulated stories I heard about him, I see that he have the following overall status: He is the founding father of Sand Be, Vietnam. Philanthropist/consultant of the Asian continent. And, chief engineer of the iron factory.

[My Reasons End]

I never immigrated to the USA and I live in the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam my whole life.

The list of curses. 1 curse that will be the worst curse in that list of curses. The list of curses is from "Second Chance In Life Part 04". I have planned to have this content in "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine".

Cursed For Being Very Competitive

Untouchable Curse

Oblivion Curse

Cursed For Living Under the Government of Someone Inferior To Me

Lam Family Curse

Random Curse

Ghetto Curse

Reverse Curse

Cursed For Being An Informer

Cursed For Having A Good Looking Face

Triumph of Cruelty Curse

Self-Destruct Curse

No Rest And Keep Running Curse

Cursed For Being Incompetent Miscellaneous: Exile and Excommunication

The list of painful scenarios is from the Renaissance Remembrance Introduction. This introduction is used as introduction for both "Renaissance Remembrance" and TAFA Book 4.

The Most Painful Death Scenario

Life After Sex Scenario

Cursed Family Tree Scenario

Stinking Rotten Corpse Scenario

Die Painfully And Casted Into the Hellfire Scenario

Vengeful Wrath Scenario

Down To My Worst Luck Scenario

Beside the list of curses and painful scenarios, CTC also have Royalty and Championship. Example: On the playmat, you could see palace and orphanage.

Picture 1896 during the first Olympic Games when the stadium look like your backyard basketball court. When badminton and tennis rackets are made out of woods. Instead of metal.

In CTC, you could deal with curses and painful scenarios. Instead of the traditional way of medicine and hospital.

Since I didn't create a San Diego in CTC, so I didn't give San Diego a chance to not acknowledge TCG in CTC. Example: I can't just leave the 27 years of my TCG occupation behind and start going to medical school.

Seeing how each curses and painful scenarios going to kill each characters in CTC. I don't have to die with the suspenses of the curses and pianful scenarios. I don't have to die with the confusions of no recognition.

I don't even get a chance to say I'm still living in the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam. So, I don't think I would have a chance to say that after I make some money and have connections. Then, one day, I could move out of the poor feudal country-side and meet people that I have always wanted to meet.

Like my father wrote in his autobiography book, the war ended on 1978. I don't have to continue suffer, because the war have already ended.

TCG developers, TCG pioneers, TCG tycoons and TCG players could go back to TCG.

Historians could go back to writing history.

Soldiers could return back home to their families.

You could return back to your occupation.

I should start looking through my feedbacks on CTC and plan events to response to those feedbacks I receive. But, I must first have feedbacks on CTC.

Perhaps, it was a big misunderstanding, because no one could picture me at an event talking about CTC TCG. This misunderstanding made all us felt like the war is still going on.

Vice-versa, on 2000, there is a historical moment in the Comic-Con for having the longest line to meet exhibitors. That line is at the "Pokemon" booth to meet the creators of the "Pokemon" TCG.

PTTS Exclusive First Magazine Intermission & My Schedule Update

Written By: Neng Lam Date Written: April 10, 2026 Title: PTTS Exclusive First Magazine Intermission & My Schedule Update

Contents: [1.] No Recognition Struggles [2.] I'm Trying Very Hard To Get Some Attentions [3.] My Reasons For Getting Into An Intermission [4.] My Schedule Update

No Recognition Struggles

It is very painful and sad that I didn't get the champion recognition I deserve for being a champion in a range of championships. The worse is people total ignore the champion recognition (trophies and hall of fame) and championship and argue that I have beat up a lot of people.

To stop the endless headaches and confusions, people want to make the following argument against me: You should stop complanning about not having recognition for being a champion. You should see that at least you have won your championship matches. Better than being a loser.

This is where the curse that cursed me happen. For a long time, I'm trying very hard to get some attentions about my life including my situation. By asking people to leave me feedback on my PTTS Blog (tumblr.com/ptts2023). All of a sudden, a person telling me that I should be happy I get to say what I want to say. Then, that same person telling me that there are poor countries in the world that people are dying from famine and poverty.

I don't know how could this happen to a person. Not a chance in world that this could hapen to a person. It is like saying that the USA doesn't recognize the president of the USA.

I would argues during the president of the USA public appearance, me and him shook hand. During the handshake, he mention my name. I would picture I would reply with the following. "President sir, no one have mention my name for a long time."

Neatlessly to say, it is worth it to beat overwhelming odds to get together and continue with an existed championship or put together the new championship by setting up tournaments and create hall of fame. Because the championship is equivalent to the president of the USA election.

According the tradition and custom, the president's of the USA debates and campaigns is equivalent the people daily activities. This mean the president mentioned my name, because he is ready to accept my debate against him. The question is if championship doesn't exist, then how could the world tell if I'm ready to get into a debate against the president or not? Example: I know that the president have campaigns and debates all the time. But, does the world know I'm a champion in a range of championships?

Just picture the world reaction seeing me and the president in debates. "Did he know that is the president?"

If championship didn't work out for me, then the daily activities in my life would be worse than the championship. This mean I'm going to face a lot of problems with my daily activities.

Championship didn't just all of a sudden disappear in San Diego. The people that made championship disappear is equivalent to the people who are creating problems to my daily activities.

I'm Trying Very Hard To Get Some Attentions

As a defending champion in empty handed combat league and a range of Trading Card Game (TCG) and Collectible Miniatures Game (CMG) Tournaments, I have bought some self-help books on struggling artists guide on how to overcome adversities.

I'm cursed with a very severe curse. An invisible group of people who are with me 24 hours a day. They think they are helping me each day when they are pissing me off each day. I live in the city of San Diego, the people of San Diego is criticizing me that I should enjoy being torment. Then, I would live a satisfying life. Or, I could commit suicide and save myself from the pains and miseries.

Curse is curse. The only thing I could do is make the curse cursed me not so severe. Most important of all, it would save me a lot of pains if people could tell the different between being cursed and not being cursed.

To give me a break, the world would agree with me on the following: As a defending champion, I already saw how this curse going to kill me. Because the world want to recognize me as a champion and recognize that I have bought a lot of self-help books to break the curse in my life. So, even though, I already saw how this curse going to kill me, but the world want to give me a chance to fight against this curse.

After I made around 100 commit suicide attempts over many years of time, I begin to feel sorry for myself. The sympathy is I'm the only person who felt sorry for myself.

I want to draw myself being tied to a pole. Chopped woods are placed around me. A crowd of angry townsfolks light up the chopped woods around me and burn me. As I'm being burn, the angry townsfolks shouting at me and throwing rocks at me. I titled that drawing as "Being Burn At the Stake".

I want to draw another drawing of me. I'm being strapped in a straight jacket. My arms are strapped to my body, so I can't move my arms. My legs are strapped together, so I have to hop to move around. I'm forced to be seated in a middle of a room. In that room, there are educators, doctors, scientists and high scholars who are probing me as I'm shouting and screaming. I titled that drawing as "Asylum".

I draw myself carry the world on my back. I used that drawing as Batlantica logo. I draw a drawing of me blind folded and there are bloods coming out of the cloth that blind folded me. I used that drawing as a logo of me.

I would argues that I have to become a very good artist to draw drawings like "Being Burn At the Stake" and "Asylum", so I could get some attention on my situation. In addition, I have to compete very hard in the art contests, so that one day, I get to show the world the drawings I drew.

In conclusion, I have to train myself very hard on drawing and I have to compete very hard in the art contests in order to have some attentions to my situation.

My Reasons For Getting Into An Intermission

Being in my situation already created a lot of distresses to me. I have No Feedback on my PTTS Blog (tumblr.com/ptts2023) for 9 years (2016-current 2026) create even more distresses to me.

I'm trying very hard to get some attentions about my situation create distresses to me.

I'm coming up with ways to explain about my situation create distresses to me.

#1-3 have created a lot of distresses to me, so I have get into a PTTS Exclusive First Magazine intermission before I post up the date for the second season. This intermission would give me more time to work on the things in my schedule. Including working on this current magazine.

Season 1 Date: January 23 - April 17 (Spring 2026)

Season 2 Date: To Be Announce (TBA)

I still haven't finish with the PTTS Exclusive First Magazine "Logos Overview" pages (Page 14-18). In addition, I won't able to finish the "Leagues & Trophies Flow Chart" in-time for the deadline (April 17). During the intermission, I'm going to finish up those two first, then I'll work on the other contents for PTTS Exclusive First Magazine.

Another reason I want to have this intermission is I want to make sure I have enough time in this intermission to continue working on "My Situation Emergency Affairs" documentary. Right now my brainstorm is I probably going to put most of my focus on working on this documentary during the intermission. Because to juggle back-and-fore between working on this documentary and the magazine would be harder than to focus on 1 thing at a time.

My Schedule Update

My Exercise Schedule

On January 01, 2026, I have added push-ups, crunches and six-inches to my jogging exercise. I called those 3 added workouts as fundamental workout. The fundamental workout is daily. The jogging exercise is on Monday and Thursday. Push-ups is 3 sets. Each set is 20 reps. Crunches is 3 sets. Each set is 30 reps. Six-inches is 3 sets. Each set is hold for 30 count. Jogging exercise is approximately 5 miles. The first month I do stretches warm-up before the fundamental workout. After the first month I do it after the fundamental workout.

Recently, because I was busy working on PTTS Exclusive First Magazine, so I have to skip some of the fundamental workout days. Otherwise, I was able to go with my exercise schedule.

My Diet Plan

I have been using my android phone camera to take pictures of the grocery stores (supermarkets) I been to. Also, take pictures of the food packages and labels.

I have also save all the grocery store receipts, because the receipts have the names of the food products.

Because of my busy schedule, I have to buy foods that are easy to cook, convenient, taste good and meet my diet plan requirement.

Instant Noodle: The 3 main favors: Spicy Seafood, Spicy Beef and Spicy Kimchi. (There are many different brands of instant noodle.)

Ingredients to go with the instant noodle: Vegetable: Diced green onions, sliced onions and kimchi. Meat: Shrimps, ground beefs ground pork. Other Meat: Fish balls, fish cake, beef balls and shrimp balls. (Some of of the meat balls have the option of filling.)

Half instant noodle and half is the rice noodle or dried noodle. (I like the taste of rice noodle out of the 3 different noodles.) I ate instant noodle for about a month of time. Then, I cook a range of recipes.

Thank you for reading. Please leave me feedback.

PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE PAGE 19 (PTTS FLOW CHART)

PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE PAGE 14-18

On 12/05/2025, I post up an sample magazine page of "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" and announcement about my schedule update. That sample is today (03/20/2026) post. The name of the page and page number is incorrect. Example: It is not called "PTTS Logos & Key Words" and it is not page 31.

The correct name is "Logos Overview". The correct page number is page 14-18.

My thought is because I have already put some works into creating that sample page. So, most of the works already done. That thought led to I miscalculated my schedule time and didn't have enough time to finish those pages, Page 14-18. I apologize for not posting up Page 14-18 on time. When I'm done with those pages I will post them up. For now, I'm posting up that sample page again. When I'm done, I'll replace that sample page with "Magazine Page 14-18".

PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE PAGE 06-13

PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE PAGE 01-05 INCLUDING TABLE OF CONTENTS

PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE COVER & BACKCOVER

The following is the reason I couldn't post it up on the scheduled date: There were technical problems with tumblr.

This is the flyer for "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine".

"PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE" FLYER ANNOUNCEMENT

Written By: Neng Lam Date Written: January 23, 2026

The following are my most recent "Important Announcements":

"Important Announcement On Having An Intermission" Part 01 & 02 is written on August 18, 2025

"Important Announcement About My Intermission" Part 01-03 is written on November 01, 2025

"PTTS Exclusive First Magazine & Announcement" is written on December 05, 2025

Like I wrote in "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine & Announcement", I'm going to post up that magazine on my PTTS Blog.

Finally, I able to put together the "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" Flyer. On that flyer, I have the list of the magazine pages I'm going to post up by each dates. To help remember those dates, I selected those dates by every other Fridays. Example: Every 2 weeks, on Friday, I would post up 1 post.

Each post is about 5-10 magazine pages (magazine page format will allow you to print it out and staple it together to make it look a magazine). Or, 1-4 magazine pages if those pages have a lot of illustration. Example: The magazine cover & back cover count as 1 post. Even though, it is only 2 magazine pages.

Even though, I put a lot of thoughts into making that flyer as concise and prioritized as possible. But, I couldn't help it, I brainstormed some jokes on that flyer that I felt random strangers could make at me. At the same time, there are still a few more jokes I wanted to include on that flyer to help get the point across about my situation. Probably farce or parody is a better word than joke. Dictionary definition, farce mean exaggerated comedy. Parody is a synonym of farce.

The following is another joke:

On 1990, when I was 6 years old, I took on the child leadership responsibilities and duties of a group of boys around my age in the poor feudal country-side of Sand Be, Vietnam. Exception is I didn't made rules against girl can't join our group.

On 1993, when I was 9 years old, I took on the Empty Handed Combat League responsibilities and duties by creating and regulating that league in Crown Point Elementary School (CPES) in San Diego, California. There were a few classmates who help me regulate that league. Also, all the fights have been only boys. Both child leadership and league management was very well managed.

The joke is I was much better at managing my life when I was 6 and 9 years old. Right now, I'm 41 years old. Once again, I can't help it, but to include this brainstormed joke.

I'm going to keep it at: I made sure that flyer is self-explanatory.

Technical Problem Uploading Image

Sorry, I try uploading "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" Flyer on Wednesday (01/21/2026) and today (01/23/2026), but for some reasons I can't.

I'll try to upload again some other time. For now, the following are the dates for PTTS Exclusive First Magazine on my PTTS Blog:

THE DATES FOR PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE ON MY PTTS BLOG (SEASON 1, JANUARY-APRIL) EVERY OTHER FRIDAY (2 WEEK PER POST) JANUARY 23, 2026: ANNOUNCEMENT & FLYER FEBRUARY 06, 2026: MAGAZINE COVER & BACK COVER FEBRUARY 20, 2026 CONTENTS: [1.] MY SITUATION A. MY APOLOGY B. MY SITUATION CONCISED & PRIORITIZED C. FIRST MAKE COMITMENT TO ME D. FAQ ON MY SITUATION [2.] PRELUDE: FACE OR NO FACE MARCH 06, 2026 [3.] COPYRIGHT & PTTS Agenda A. COPYRIGHT B. PTTS Agenda [4.] FOREWORD: A. READ THIS FIRST, B. OVERCOMING GREAT DISASTERS IN MY LIFE, C. SELF-INTERVIEW TO KNOW MY STATUS QUO, D. RENAISSANCE VERSUS GHETTO & EXTREME POVERTY [5.] INTRODUCTION: A. BEING ON THE SAME PAGE, B. DON'T WANT TO REPEAT THE GREAT DEPRESSIONS IN MY LIFE MARCH 20, 2026: 6. PTTS LOGOS & KEY WORDS APRIL 03, 2026: 7. PTTS FLOW CHART APRIL 17, 2026: 8. PTTS FLOW CHART ON DCSS (LEAGUE & TROPHY)

PTTS EXCLUSIVE FIRST MAGAZINE UPDATE & ANNOUNCEMENT

Written By: Neng Hong Lam Date Written: 12/05/2025

I'm currently at: Autobiography: TGT Magazine Volume 08 Entry 07* Private Investigation Case: Renaissance Remembrance Volume 01 Entry 05 *I abbreviated the full name, "Step By Step Long Journey To Acceptance & Forgiveness" to TAFA (To Acceptance And Forgiveness Autobiography). Book 4 Chapter 11, "Renaissance Versus Pressures At Greater Height"

PTTS Exclusive First Magazine Update

There is a Sample Page of "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" in this update. On November 08, 2025, in "Important Announcement About My Intermission", I wrote about working on "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" starting around August 2025 during the intermission. The Sample Page is first look at how this magazine going to be like.

I'm working very hard to complete this magazine as soon as possible. At the same time, I'm dealing with the problems in my situation. Example: The bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me.

If I able to step up my management and things work out for me. Then, working on this magazine is equivalent to dealing with the bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me.

On January 2012, the same thing happen to me. I became the founder/president of the Independence Company, PTTS (Planet-wide Tournament Tip Session). I'm working very hard to establish the PTTS from bottom up. At the same time, the bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me. So, working on the PTTS is equivalent to dealing with the bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me.

In other words, I channel everything I got into working on PTTS. Helping myself is the same as helping PTTS. The bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me is the same as the bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to PTTS.

But, on January 2012, I didn't thought I could beat the bad lucks and adversities that constantly happening to me. This mean the bad lucks and adversities going to make me die very painfully and slowly. So, I made many commit suicide attempts.

Currently, today (12/05/2025), the argument is if I overcome the bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me and complete this magazine. Then, I beat a great challenge. This great challenge could argued as it is a challenge that you can't find it even if you search for it your whole life. So, it is the challenge of a lifetime.

I would argues it is a costly challenge, because my life is on the line or at stake. Such as I have to commit suicide if I don't beat this challenge. Or, if I don't beat this challenge, then I will be burn at the stake if I don't commit suicide.

In the past, I constantly competing very hard in the weekly Trading Card Game (TCG) Tournaments and the weekly "Heroclix" Tournaments for 8 years (1999-2006). In that 8 years, I accumulated around 180 First Places. At the same time, I keep thinking having the most First Places among the players in the region of San Diego would bring me wealth in life. Or, a more stabilize future. I would argues that in those 8 years, I have high priority that all my money (funds) will be for competing in the weekly TCG Tournaments and weekly "Heroclix" Tournaments. This mean that 8 years I'm very careful about spending my money could be argued as I'm a despicable person. So, I sacrifice how people see me in order to have enough money to constantly competing very hard in the weekly TCG Tournaments and weekly "Heroclix" Tournaments. The question is did I got wealth or stabilize future for having 180 First Places?

Currently, today (12/05/2025), I know my life is on the line or at stake. But, I know this time around I did it for the Independence Company, PTTS and to save myself from commit suicide. Example: If I beat the bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me, then I could live to see that day the world would notice PTTS.

Furthermore, I'm hanging on the wishful thoughts I don't have to commit suicide or make commit suicide attempt(s) to beat the bad lucks and adversities constantly happening to me.

To continue with the wishful thoughts, a miracle could happen to me. That miracle is people would leave me feedback on my blog and/or my youtube channel (youtube.com/@ptts2023).

Thank you for reading about this update.

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT MY INTERMISSION PART 03

Written By: Neng Hong Lam Date Written: November 16, 2025 (Posted on my blog: 11/19/2025)

I'm currently at: Autobiography: TGT Magazine Volume 08 Entry 07* Private Investigation Case: Renaissance Remembrance Volume 01 Entry 05 (*Book 4 Chapter 11, "Renaissance Versus Pressures At Greater Height")

Contents (Headlines): IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT MY INTERMISSION PART 01 [1.] Important Announcement About My Intermission [2.] My Situation [3.] Extreme Poverty (AKA Forsaken Ghetto) IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT MY INTERMISSION PART 02 [4.] My Situation Highlights IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT MY INTERMISSION PART 03 [5.] Chinese Bible Church (CBC) [6.] Rebirth [7.] The following are "Wrap Up Contents": A. Health And Human Services Agency (HHSA) B. My Exercise Schedule C. PTTS Exclusive First Magazine D. Doing Fundraising To Make Emergency Funds E. PTTS Sexiest Women In the World

Chinese Bible Church (CBC)

Like I wrote above, in "Extreme Poverty", "At one glance, the argument is I should be at my house celebrating the Thanksgiving holiday and eating the Thanksgiving dinner with my family. Not survival in Las Vegas."

On November 2015, at one glance, it look like I have got everything down. I'm living with my family like a traditional Asian-American family living in the USA. But, things are very confusing, and it is not like how it look like.

So, I have to argues that it is not like that one glance at me on my life. Because if people judge with that one glance at me, then people might misunderstood that I was living happily and comfortably with my family. And, it was my pride and ego that led me to my survival in Las Vegas.

In this period, December 2011 to November 2015 would be argued as the most conflicted time of my life and the most confusing period of my life. So, in this content, "Chinese Bible Church" (CBC), it would be too long for me to write about what happen in this period including too many explanations on the events in my life involved with this period.

Example: Like I wrote above, in "My Situation Highlights", "accumulated all of my works on establishing the "Independence Company", PTTS, I have wrote many contents explaining about the events in my life."

This mean this content only to let people know about why I decided to go to Chinese Bible Church (CBC) with my father, Chung Wun Lam. And, only briefed writing on 2012-2015 period.

On 2013, I needed a person I could relies on like a partnership on the Trading Card Game (TCG) establishment (AKA TM Game industry). My friend, Jason Viwart and my younger brother, Du Hong Lam would be my favorited choices. Because they both been with me and joining the same TCG Tournaments (AKA TM Game Tournaments) as me starting on 1999.

But, Jason have discontinued the Yu-Gi-Oh TCG Tournament on 2004 and discontinued Dot Hack TCG Tournament about the same period of time, around 2005. Dot Hack TCG Tournament was his last TCG Tournament. And, he switched from TCG to casino card games. The casino card game he focus on is mainly Texas Holdem Poker.

More or less, I did asked him if he would one day return back to TCG. But, I already know the answer. The answer is if a person switch from TCG to casino card games, then he doesn't go back to TCG. Since we are friend. It is okay for me to talk with him about TCG even though, I know going back to TCG is like an embarrassment for him.

As for Du, he doesn't write explanations about the events in his life. So, if he is in the same situation as me, then it could be very confusing. Like I wrote above, in "My Situation Highlights", "accumulated all of my works on establishing the "Independence Company", PTTS, I have wrote many contents explaining about the events in my life." Since he is getting marry, so I see that him and his wife have their plan for their future.

So, I couldn't ask them both if they still play TCG. At the same time, I'm doing the best I can to keep in touch with them. Yet, I vibe the following argument: On January 2008 when I got elected as club president of Mesa Multimedia Club. Even though, it was very clear that I either step up take this club president responsibilities and duties by going with the club have elected me as the club president. Or, the Mesa Multimedia Club would discontinued. So, I'm just doing what is necessary. But, the argument is if I go with the club have elected me as the club president, then I have abandon Jason and Du. And, the TCG establishment (AKA TM Game industry).

I recalled on 2005, our whole family is picking on our youngest brother, Mon Hong Lam. At the same time, he is getting failing grades in his classes at school. I remember putting everything in my life a side and try to get him back on his feet. Later on, me and him is like best brother and hangout together a lot.

But, on 2009, when I moved out of our family house, I think Mon would argue that I have betrayed him and betrayed our family.

"There have to be one time in Mon's life where he have liked playing TCG. I mean I know I'm not expecting him to be like me, Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder. Such as I have burning desire for TCG." I try to convince myself to remind Mon that he once liked TCG.

For some weeks of time, me and him would play the Magic The Gathering (MTG) TCG in the MTG TCG matches. Then, one day I drove him in my car to "Game Empire" comic store. Inside "Game Empire", I told him if he joined the MTG TCG Tournament, then I would pay the fees for him such as the tournament entry fees and other fees. The weekly MTG Tournament is called Friday Night Magic (FNM).

We didn't join the MTG Tournament that day. At the same time, he would argues that I have betrayed again for the second time. Because I have forget that I'm a Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder by just hoping things would work for us both, so we could have TCG activities in our life.

Back to 2013. As I'm very angry and frustrated looking for a person I could relies on on the TCG establishment. At the same time, I found out that Mon doesn't care about the TCG like before. So, inside the living room of our house where there are no one around. I shouted out loud, "This family doesn't make any senses." And, I tossed Mon's MTG deck against the wall. It is not really his deck, because he doesn't have any MTG cards. Basically, I told him like I told Du on 1999 that he could borrow any of my MTG cards to construct his deck. Example: On 1999, I told Du that he could borrow any of my Pokemon TCG cards to construct his deck. Even though, I constructed his first deck for him on his first Pokemon Tournament on 1999.

Back to Mon. So, I told Mon that he could borrow any of my MTG cards to construct his deck. But, because of the many advices and suggestions I gave to him on his deck construction, so those advices and suggestions could be argued as I constructed that deck him.

Nevertheless, I went back to pick up his MTG deck cards that have scattered around our living room. Momentary, the door bell rung. As I open the door, there are many police officers outside our house.

I immediately shout out to my father, Chung Wun Lam, to help me out. But, 2 police officers have to use physical force to drag me out of my house.

Father Chung hurried over. But, he is an old man he can't fight against many police officers.

"Please father! Help me! You have to talk to the police officers is a big misunderstanding!" I shouted to Father Chung for help.

"The police officers are saying that they are taking you to hospital for help. You will be okay." Father Chung replied to me in one of the Chinese dialect.

After I made some shouting, I could see a few of our neighbors outside of their houses. So, I decided to stop shouting and stop resisting against the police officers. So, I went with one of the police officer to his police car. At the same time, I would made many apologies to that police officer for the shouting and resisting.

In the police car's receiver device, I heard the police officers was broadcasting a name, Ross.

Then, that police officer took me to the mental hospital in his police car.

Even though, no one saw me shouting and tossing Mon's MTG deck in the living room of our house. But, that scene. Combined with seeing me being locked in the mental hospital. Could be argued as our family have abandon me like I abandon them on 2009 when I moved out of our family house to live on my own place at Nancy's rental house.

Nevertheless, the next day, Father Chung and Pastor Paul Ho, a pastor of Chinese Bible Church (CBC) came to visit me in the mental hospital. I assume Father Chung brought Pastor Ho with him, because I was shouting out for Father Chung to help me at our house in front of many police officers. This mean Pastor Ho also want to help me out like Father Chung.

In the mental hospital visiting area, me, Father Chung, and Pastor Ho got into talk.

The argument is it is hard to picture that the important figure (VIP or have followers that follow them) and educated Father Chung and Pastor Ho have a son who is locked in the metal hospital for having wild behavior. This mean the metal hospital is helping out Father Chung and Pastor Ho by locking me up in the mental hospital to save them the embarrassment of having a son who is a disgrace to them.

Looking at that argument, they both didn't agree with that argument. Also, they really wanted to help me out by finding ways to help me find a way to be released from the mental hospital.

At the beginning of the talk, me, Father Chung, and Pastor Ho seated on a table. We would place our hands on the table. Also, holding on to each other hands. Then, Pastor Ho would make a prayer for me by asking God to help me, so I could be release from the mental hospital. After the prayer, we stop holding our hands and get into a normal talk. The same for at the end of the talk. We would hold hands and Pastor Ho would make a similar prayer for me.

In the past, I don't know about CBC and Pastor Ho. Because I just knew Father Chung go to the church. And, occasionally, Pastor Ho would come over to visit Father Chung at our house. There were a few times I greeted Pastor Ho at our house. So, meeting Pastor Ho in the mental hospital visiting area, I'm starting to know more about CBC and Pastor Ho.

Before Father Chung and Pastor Ho left the visit area, they both told me that I could call Pastor Ho any time on Pastor Ho's phone if I need to talk to him or if I need anything.

My rehabilitation in the mental hospital lasted for about 7-9 weeks. It is a bit shorter than the first time which lasted longer by a few weeks of time.

I have to stop myself from thinking that it is a misunderstanding, because there were no one in the living room of our house when I shouted out loud and threw Mon's MTG deck. At the same time, I have to deny that it is a heavy price to pay for an outburst consequence. Yet, the argument is what if I work at the nuclear factory, an outburst like that could cause a nuclear meltdown. A nuclear meltdown could destroy a whole city.

Because Father Chung and Pastor Ho visited me and gave me Pastor Ho's phone number. So, I would continue to stop myself from thinking that it is a misunderstanding and I would continue to deny that it is a heavy price to pay for an outburst consequence. Finally, I get a chance to talk with Pastor Ho instead of just greeting him in our house. Because Pastor Ho reminded me of one of the main characters in the Hong Kong's highly acclaimed and blockbuster movie, "Running Out of Time". That main character is a mediator/negotiator like a diplomat, but his responsibilities and duties is to representing the Hong Kong Police Department and have talks with possible convicts in dangerous situations.

The world doesn't know that I'm a Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder, Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title Holder, and have math high achievements. So, I'm not important enough to have a person to talk to me like in the movie, "Running Out of Time". This mean Father Chung helped me out by bringing Pastor Ho with him to visit me in the mental hospital. Example: In the past, I remember a few times, Father Chung would told me that, "A father would die for his son."

Finally, I get a chance to see that line Father Chung told me, "A father would die for his son." So, it is no longer just words.

Instead of stopping myself from thinking that it is a misunderstanding and denial. I want to see it as a trade. This trade is a chance to see what it mean for a father to die for his son. And, seeing the heroic mediator live in person and no longer just a movie.

If the argument is Father Chung and Pastor Ho are both Hong Kong actors, then I see people lining up to get actors' autographs all the time. This mean it is still a privilege to have talks with Hong Kong actors.

Looking at that argument above, I would argues that it is hard to picture who would argues that they both are Hong Kong actors. Example: A father in a father dying for his son situation can't be lying to his son by using his son to make a Hong Kong movie. It would ruin the purpose of that father finally have an opportunity to show his son what mean for a father to die for his son.

In addition, the argument is it is more like my family have abandon me, because if someone make the following argument: I shouted violently and threaten my family. And, I scattered Mon's MTG deck all over the living room in front of my family to get my point across to my family. Then, it would make sense why my family wanted to abandon me and lock me up in the mental hospital.

Looking at that argument above, I would argues I don't have any evidences that no one have made that argument above. At the same time, I was very angry and frustrated that day. Also, when no one is in the living room of our house, I did made a very loud shout . And, as I tossed Mon's MTG deck the cards did scattered in the living room.

In conclusion, I would stop thinking it is a misunderstanding and continue denying that it is a heavy price to pay for an outburst consequence.

When my head is filled with too much doubts of my family have abandon me and I'm going to be locked in the mental hospital for a long time or forever. Then, I would call Pastor Ho and ask him if there is a way that the mental hospital could speed up my rehabilitation. He would provided with assuring words that he would check on me to see how I'm doing in the mental hospital. In addition, even if my family have abandon me, then I could still be release from the mental hospital. So, it is only my doubts that making me think that I have to be locked in the mental hospital for a long time or forever. Example: The first time I got locked in the mental hospital for about 10-12 weeks which seem like a long time. But, a long time mean many years of time.

That is how I begin to think that the CBC could help me out.

It is already very confusing. What about laws on surveillance and privacy? Example: Seeing things you are not supposed to see could get a person into a lot of problems. Because I was very sure there was no one in the living room of our house, when I made that loud shout and tossed Mon's MTG deck.

Come on. I'm fighting very hard to be on feet and able to have manageable schedule. Then, all of a sudden, I have locked in the mental hospital forever. Does this make sense to anyone? Am I supposed to continue writing, because it is already very confusing?

Come on. How many times I have to keep hurting and pissing off myself by saying is who is the one not being recognize for having the Regional TM Game Championship Title, Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title, and math high achievements?

Rebirth

Pastor Paul Ho visited me only 1 time in the mental hospital with Father Chung. My parents, Father Chung and Sok Nighm Hoi would visited me once a week. During each visits, they would bring foods from mainly "Burger King" restaurant. Eating the foods they brought for me is a reminder that they visited me. So, I don't feel nervous living in the mental hospital.

Even though, my parents told me that I'm safe from the world living in the mental hospital. But, I don't feel that way.

"The piece of broken glass, Mon. Don't forget it. It is that item that made the desert survivor out survived the other desert survivors." I told Mon before I made a checkmate on him in a game of chess.

"Come on. It is 5 AM. You guys promise me that you would go jogging with me." I woke up Mon and Qwen Bui early in the morning to go jogging with me. We went to the Pacific Beach beach to jog. We would stay at the pedestrian lane.

Mon brought his roller blade with him. As for Qwen, me and Mon would occasionally waited for her when we are too far ahead of her. Even though, it is 5 AM in the morning, but there already people at the beach.

They came with me. They kept their promise. I think that is what my parents mean when they said the mental hospital would protect me from the world. Because the world is not like Mon and Qwen.

But, Mon and Qwen only came with me 1 time. I go jogging 3 times a week. Even though, it is just 1 time. But, for once I'm not alone on my jogging schedule.

On my bad days, it is hard to tell I'm crying while I'm jogging. Because my sweats have blended with my tears. I just keep jogging even on my bad days.

Like I wrote in "My Side of the Argument On Design Institute of San Diego (DISD)", on 2009, Dee invited me to her birthday party at the Mission Beach. It is picnic and barbecue/grill next to the beach shore. Also, a lot of people came to her party.

During her party, she let me help her out on setting up her party. So, I felt a sense of belonging. Example: I'm finally not jogging alone at the parks, bays, and beaches anymore and all by myself working in the Design Institute of San Diego (DISD) anymore.

It was just a small favor in her part. But, it mean a lot to me.

She must been too busy with all the activities in her party, so she was more open up than usual. Coincidentally, she stayed at the nighttime, after the party end.

She and Qwen both were so caught up with the party and wanted to go swimming at the nighttime in the beach. So, I changed the subject by shouted very loud toward the beach. Then, I asked them if they wanted to have a shouting contest with me?

After they made a few practice shouts, they told me that back then they would come to the beach to do the shouting as a way to relief some of the stresses in their life.

About half mile away from us is the signal tower (which look like a light house). I look toward that signal toward and recall my past memory when I went up there to commit suicide. But, I refuse to jump down. So, I shouted back at San Diego. That is the first time I made a loud shout at this beach. "It is not over! San Diego can't you hear me?! I said it is not over!"

The way I see it. It was either jump down or make those shouts.

Now, Dee and Qwen is in a similar situation. Go swimming in the beach in the nighttime or make the shout.

But, some how that night they told me I helped them out by able to stop them from going to swimming in the beach.

Yet, it is they both are doing me a favor? By letting me reunite with the Mission Beach. The place of my rebirth instead of death.

Later on, on 2013, time after time, I would come to this beach. Test myself over and over. One slip on one of the rocks, my life is over. It is very intense and high difficulty natural obstacle course training during the nighttime. The jogging exercise would argued as light training. Rebirth. Instead of death.

But, there was once me and Dee who made shouts at the shore of this beach. I couldn't recall if Qwen also made the shouts with us.

Yet, one scene is very intense and high difficulty natural obstacle course training. And, another scene is fill in the blank. Example: Was I always alone in this lonely world? Is this world supposed to be lonely all the time?

I supposed asking Dee for a dance is the same as going swimming in the beach with her. But, we didn't include dancing with music in the party. Even though, there were music in the party. Also, I stopped her from going swimming in the beach.

Yet, I'm not supposed to be complaining. That party was supposed to give me a chance to be away from my lonely world.

Health And Human Services Agency (HHSA)

This announcement have go on for too long. Basically, I just want to let anyone who have followed me on my website blog to know what is going on during my intermission by letting people know about my schedule update. Because I have no feedback and no income on my website blog could be argued as I have no follower. This mean I'm only hurting myself by writing this announcement, because no follower could argued as no one going to read it. So, I'm going to try not to hurt myself too much by wrapping this announcement up. Wrapping up mean make it as short as I can.

There are the following sections that I still want to talk about: 3. Health And Human Services Agency (HHSA), 4. PTTS Exclusive First Magazine, 5. Doing fundraising to have emergency funds, 6. PTTS Sexiest Women In the World

Like before, I'm going to use chronological order. So, I begin with Health And Human Services Agency (HHSA).

By early June 2025, I have use up my emergency funds. And, my mother, Sok Nghim Hoi couldn't give me the $20 to buy a bag of rice.

I didn't wanted to repeat what happen about a month ago. Example: She was telling to get a job and straight up my life. So, I got on my knee and cried in front of her by telling her that the society already bully me enough. I don't need her to bully even more.

Back to early June. When I asked her for the $20. She was able to give me $6. That $6 would allow me to ride the city-bus 2 times. She told to use that $6 to go to the Heath And Human Services Agency building and apply for the CalFresh. If the CalFresh approve, then I would have money to buy foods.

I thanked for the $6. Then, I asked her if she would go with me to the Health And Human Services Agency (HHSA) building.

About a week later, me and her went there together at around 9:00 AM. We took the 43 city-bus (Metropolitan Transit System (MTS)) there. A long time ago when I still have my car. I remember I drove her to this building multiple times. So, I still remember the location. But, she asked me to ask the bus driver for the location. So, I got into a talk with the bus driver and asked that bus driver for the bus guide and map. After the bus ride (Our bus stop at Kearny Mesa Transit Center.), me and her walked about 20 minutes to that location.

At around 10:30 AM, we got inside that building. Inside that building, I asked a HHSA worker for the CalFresh Application form. That worker handed me a packet of papers and a clipboard. That packet is the CalFresh Application forms.

I started filling out that packet at the waiting area. That waiting area is like a lobby with rows of chairs. She sat next me. At around 1:00 PM, she told me she have to get back to our house, because she have skipped her breakfast and lunch, so she is hungry.

I told her I would hurry and finish up the packet. About 20 minutes later. At 1:20 PM, I completed that packet and I placed into the filled-out packet box outside the building.

On our way back, she told that she paid for my bus ride and took me to that building. There is still about $5 left. So, I have to completed the rest of the CalFresh process by myself.

I told her I appreciate her help. But, I have been facing a lot of bad lucks. So, if bad lucks doesn't happening to me, then I would stop complaining.

For about a year of time, my cell-phone have broke down. And, my email account require cell-phone verification. So, I don't have a phone and don't have an email account. The only way the HHSA could contact me is through mail. Because my contact is very limited. So, I have the prioritize the following as more important: I try to come up with an emergency fundraising to make $15, so I could have $20 to buy a bag of rice.

But, occasionally, I would check the mail for the HHSA mail. Nevertheless, my family got the HHSA mail before me. Mother Nghim gave me that HHSA mail a week later.

I asked her if she know anyone who have a cell-phone I could borrow to make a call to HHSA building to ask for another appointment date, because I have missed my appointment date. Basically, she told me to find another way.

I decided to ride my bicycle there. It is about 5 miles away from my house.

I'm going to wrap it up. If you want to know more about HHSA, then I kept most of the paper works with me. Contact me and I'll show you those paper works.

June: Me and Mother Nghim took the city-bus to the HHSA building.

July: I need to complete the CalFresh process by providing a copy of my Social Security Card and my USA citizen certificate. I got an Electronic Benefit Transfer (EBT) card inside the building. And, I got the CalFresh benefit right away. Right away consider as emergency.

August: My CalFresh benefit have discontinued. So, I rode my bicycle back to the HHSA building to talk with a HHSA worker on my case. Multiple times.

September: I continue to ride my bicycle there to have talk with the HHSA worker(s) about my case on the CalFriesh benefit. So, I was able to have my CalFresh benefit again.

October: I have my CalFresh benefit.

November: I have my CalFresh benefit.

My Exercise Schedule

Looking at the "Health And Human Services Agency (HHSA)" section, technically, I supposed to starve to death, because Mother Nghim couldn't give me any money to buy food and she forgot the location of the HHSA building.

So, the question is what is more important to me starve to death or do some exercise?

This mean my exercise schedule could be argued as I'm going against the current. But, on April 2025, I wrote on my website blog that maybe if I do some exercise I could stop the bad lucks and adversities from keep happening to me. So, my exercise schedule is like a crime (I'm going against the laws). But, I was able to follow through with my exercise schedule for about 5 weeks of time by exercising daily. In the morning and at night.

When I almost ran out of foods, so I have to change it to jogging 2 times a week. In each jogging exercises, the jogging distance is about 3 miles.

May: I begin my exercise schedule. It lasted around a month.

June: I almost ran out of foods, so I have to stop my exercise schedule for about 2 weeks. Then, I started only doing jogging exercise. 2 times a week.

July: When I got approved for CalFresh benefit. I want to get back on my exercise schedule. But, because I have use up my emergency funds, so if my CalFresh benefit discontinued, then I don't have foods to eat. I decided to use a month of time to save up some foods to have emergency foods. So, I stayed with my jogging exercise. 2 times a week.

August: My CalFresh benefit discontinued. So, I stayed with my jogging exercise. 2 times a week.

September: My CalFresh benefit is active again. So, I stayed with my jogging exercise. 2 times a week.

October: My CalFresh benefit is active. So, I stayed with my jogging exercise. 2 times a week.

November: My CalFresh benefit is active. So, I stayed with my jogging exercise. 2 times a week.

PTTS Exclusive First Magazine

I have to write about "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" some other time. For now, I'm just going to briefly point out the importance. Basically, I was supposed to give myself a break in my intermission. But, because when my intermission started, on August 18 (About 4 months ago), I begin working on "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine". As a result, my intermission have more works than my regular schedule. In other words, it wasn't much of an intermission, because I was busy working on it most of the time.

Like I wrote in "My Situation High Priority", "Before the world start burning me at the stake. Please read my first magazine, "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" (60% Completion). I'm expected to finish working on it."

The following are a list of the main arguments (main contents) in this magazine:

Face Or No Face

PTTS Agenda (AKA Independence Company Argument)

Being On the Same Page

Don't Want To Repeat the Great Depression In My Life

A Solution To the Daily Torment

A. Life Is Very Hard

B. My Side of the Argument On From Poor To Rich

C. My Side of the Argument On Design Institute of San Diego (DISD)

D. My Side of the Argument On Growing Up Watching the Condor On TV

Second Chance In Life

Understanding PTTS For No Brain

I would argue that on 2008, I got elected as club president of the Mesa Multimedia Club. At the same time, I'm being forced to point out the worst possible thing about me to make the world have to tell me that I'm not supposed to be elected as club president. Instead of a person doing me a favor and tell me that I'm not supposed to be elected as club president.

And, the voices in my head is saying if you wait a second, you would be stubborn.

The voices in the head would be argued as confusions. Or, making things more confusing,. But, from my experience, the voice in the head is being associated as: Chung Wun Lam's Autobiography, Cambodia Regime, Chinese Bible Church (CBC), And/Or Conscience.

Back to my argument. Why I need conscience when I'm being forced to point out the worst possible thing about me to make the world have to tell me that I'm not supposed to be elected as club president? If that is not conscience, then what it is?

But, on 2008, I have no choice, because if I don't go with being elected as club president, then the Mesa Multimedia Club would discontinued. Many club members such as multimedia students who needed that club to have a place where they could have some multimedia association. Would go back to constantly being abused by their abusive parents and dysfunctional families.

As I go with being elected as club president. In the ICC meeting, me and many club presidents sat in a circle and read a sheet of paper. That sheet is titled as Underdog Beating the Odds. Basically, a list of doubts why underdogs shouldn't be elected as club president.

1, There are many club presidents reading a list of doubts on why underdogs shouldn't be elected as club president.

There are many club members facing the jeopardy of if those club members don't have a Mesa College club to go to, then those club members have to go back to being constantly abuse by their abusive parents and dysfunctional families.

Looking at #1 and #2, the argument is "Oh yeah, you are making a lot of senses on telling us to read your magazine?"

Looking at that argument, I'm going to keep it at: 1. Before you start burning at the stake, read my magazine first. 2. Investors reading my magazine, so they could know more about PTTS before they make their investment on PTTS.

Doing Fundraising To Have Emergency Funds

Like I wrote above, this announcement is getting too long. So, I have to write about my fundraising some other time. For now, I'm just going to briefly point out the importance. Basically, after over a year without having a cell-phone, so when I got an Android Phone (Moto G Play 2024) and a phone plan, it really help out my situation.

The fundraising goal is to raise funds to have an emergency funds. This emergency fund would able me to pay for my monthly phone plan fee. Repair my camcorder. Repair my torn shoe. Replace my torn pant. And, the daily essential.

Even though, I want my fundraising to be more than going door to door to sell chocolate candies. But, I'm going to keep it at that for now.

PTTS Sexiest Women In the World

The same as above. I have to write about "PTTS Sexiest Women In the World" some other time. For now, I'm just going to briefly point out the importance. Back on April 2025. About 7 months ago. In my busy schedule, I have used my time to selected 2025 31 PTTS Sexiest Women In the World.

The argument is if I have a lot of problems with women, then doing this is a contradiction. Example: I should either become a Witch Hunter or Witcher. Not working on the sexiest women in the world.

Looking at that argument, I recalled the history of King Henry VIII and his wife, Queen Anne Boleyn. The king and the queen got into an affair. In that affair, the king beheaded the queen and all the queen's relatives. But, there is more to King Henry VIII history.

Nevertheless, I'm going to keep it at PTTS 31 Sexiest Women In the World for now. Even though, I have brainstorm ideas on other categories for the sexiest women in the world.

That will be all this announcement.

I finish writing this announcement on 11/16/2025. Announcement part 02 will be post up on 11/18/2025. Announcement Part 03 (final part) will be post up the next day, on 11/19/2025.

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT MY INTERMISSION PART 02

Written By: Neng Hong Lam Date Written: (Begin writing on) November 01, 2025 (Posted on my blog: 11/18/2025)

My Situation Highlights

Before I have "My Situation Highlights", I'm going to briefly summarized the High Priority of My Situation:

[My Situation High Priority Begin]

I would argues that I have no feedback and no income on my website blog (tumblr.com/ptts2023) for 9 years of time (2016-2025) would argued as I'm isolated and anti-social. Like a person who committed a very serious crime and got exiled or excommunicated from the society.

The great depression in my life is constantly tormenting me daily. Those daily torments are I'm living in incognito (not going what is going or blindness/darkness). Bad lucks and adversities keep happening to me. I'm living in poverty (or very poor) (Example: I have to live as affordablle as I can, I'm cutting back on my funds as much as I can, and I have to use my emergency funds.). I'm constantly being rushed all the time. And, my world have got flipped upside down, because I'm forced to live in contradiction.

My life is full of doubts. Those doubts is like the daily torments above.

The no feedback, great depression, and doubts made living each day very hard. Also, I can't live together with another person and I can't have any happiness in my life.

In my anger and hatred for hating myself and angry at myself, I would argue back at the world that it is my father is a great success and his son is a great failure custom. It is not my incompetent including lack of management of my life and judgement of other people's life.

The argument is the world gave me mercy and acknowledge that I'm being forced to self-criticize myself. My self-criticism is equivalent to I'm burning myself at the stake.

The world would laught at me and make fun of me with the following feedbacks:

"I told you so. Now do you see why we didn't give you any feedback? It is our act of mercy on you. So, we don't burn you at the stake with our feedbacks."

"Fucking total loser begging us to give him feedback. This feedback is all you getting from me."

"You are such as a cry baby. If you deserve the feedbacks, then you would eventually have feedbacks."

"You are pathetic. You want us to cheer for you through our feedbacks for you. So, you could find the doubts you forgot to point out on your situation. Have you not have enough doubts in your life?"

Looking at those feedbacks above, the world would argue you should have commit suicide when you have the chance. Now we are forced to say, "Your great triumph on overcoming your commit suicide made us have to say you are now wishing you should have commit suicide when you have the chance, because living each day for you is like being burn at the stake. Or, being lynch by the angry mob."

As for me, looking at those feedbacks above, I would argues. Not all the people in the world is like President Snow (Donald Sutherland) in the "Hungry Games" (Based on Suzanne Collins' novels) movie. Because he said the following about the underdogs: "There are lots of underdogs. And I think if you could see them, you would not root for them either."

For argument sake, looking at my situation and the feedbacks on my no feedback, maybe one day the world would associate me with the "Hungry Games". But, to have my own writings like the "Hungry Games". It is better for the world to ask me the following question: Do we have to ask you again, have you not learn that your great triumph on overcoming your commit suicide going to make you wish you should have commit suicide when you have the chance?

If you haven't heard of the "Hunger Games", then the plot is like a tournament setup. There is a similar movie, "Battle Royale" (Japan Cinema). I remember my classmate told me "Battle Royale" couldn't imported to the USA, because that movie is too bloody. Looking at my classmate's feedback on that movie, movies with tournament setup plot in general would argued as bloody.

The following movies have tournament setup plot in general: "Hunger Games" (Hollywood), "Battle Royale" (Japan cinema), "The Tournament" (Hollywood), "Smokin' Aces" (Hollywood), "Hard Target" (Hollywood), "The Quick Or the Dead" (Hollywood), and "Contract Killer" (Hong Kong cinema). The actual word, "tournament" is used in those movies. Not the metaphor or simile words. And/or, semantics meaning of the tournament. Also, the actions in those movies are in the standard of blockbuster Hollywood movies. (Tournament Setup Plot 80s Or Older: "The Running Man" (Hollywood, 1987), "Enter the Dragon" (Hollywood, 1973), "Bloodsport" (Hollywood, 1988), "Kickboxer" (Hollywood, 1989), "The Karate Kid" (Hollywood, 1984))

Fighter or Fighting Genre: "Gladiator" (Hollywood), "Rocky" (Hollywood), "Unleashed" (Hollywood, 2005), "Ong Bak" (Hollywood, 2004)

Race Car, Car Racing, or Motorcycle Racing Genre: "The Fast and the Furious" 1-5 (Hollywood), "A Moment of Romance" 1-3 (Hong Kong Cinema), "The Legend of Speed" (Hong Kong Cinema, 1999), "Initial D" (Hong Kong Cinema), "Speed Racer" (Hollywood, 2008), "Super Cross" (Hollywood) (Car Racing Miscellaneous: The science fiction vehicle racing in the movie, "Tron: Legacy" (Hollywood) is different than Car Racing or Motorcycle Racing. "Star Wars: Phantom Menace" (Hollywood) is hover-car (or hovercraft) racing.)

Tournament Setup Plot Miscellaneous: There is a scene in the movie, "Brotherhood of the Wolf" (France cinema) where a group of fighters is having a competition to see who is the champion fighter in that group (like a game of king of the hill).

In addition, there is the assassin movie cult or movies that have assassin theme. Example: "Assassin" (Hollywood), "Fulltime Killer" (Hong Kong cinema), and "V For Vendetta" (Hollywood). "The Tournament", "Smokin' Aces", and "Contract Killer" are assassin movie cult, but there is a tournament among many of the assassins in those 3 movies. (The plot in "Contract Killer", the winner of the tournament of killers beside the prize money. The winner would have the title, "Angel Killer".)

Off topic 01, action video games made into action movies in general does tend to have tournament setup plot in general. The 3 I have either made guides on or wrote about are: "Warcraft", "Mortal Kombat", and "Tekken". There are many, but I'm going to keep it at 3 to not be off topic.

Off topic 02, the movie, "S.W.A.T." have tournament setup plot. But, swat is part of the police academy. The tournament plot is the first person to break an infamous millionaire out of custody get millions of dollars reward (trophy/prize). The swat team doesn't make that prize money in their whole life time would they risk their life to make sure that infamous millionaire doesn't get break out of custody? Or, it is the responsibilities and duties as swat to carry out their responsibilities and duties as swat otherwise they don't have to become swat? My old friend, Jason Viwart starting from my middle school years invited me to go watch this movie in a group movie theater trip. He told me it is related to the tournament. I think his argument is I'm a Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder, so I should give a little bit of acknowledgement of the tournament setup in this movie. So, I should go watch this movie in our group movie theater trip. That is why I went on that movie theater trip with them t hat day to watch it.

Be happy that those nonvideo game based movies with tournament setup plot got released in the USA. Exception is "Battle Royale". Because on 2003, I have to order that movie from the country of Japan. But, 2003 is 22 years ago. So, by now it is safe to say that movie could be imported to the USA.

Talking about making a similar movie (my fictional writings) like that list of movies with the tournament setup plot. Back to what I wrote above. "It is better for the world to ask me the following question: Do we have to ask you again, have you not learn that your great triumph on overcoming your commit suicide going to make you wish you should have commit suicide when you have the chance?"

Acknowledge #1 and #2. Or, acknowledge that not all the people in the world is like President Snow (Donald Sutherland) in the "Hunger Games". Or, leave me the following feedback: "You could acknowledge my ass. The whole world is stealing candies from you, because like the saying, "it is like as easy as stealing candies from a baby." and you want me to acknowledge you instead of stealing candies from you?"

In general, people from the ghetto (or underdogs in general) don't stand a chance in the argument(s). I rather use President Snow's (Donald Sutherland) words, "There are lots of underdogs. And I think if you could see them, you would not root for them either." This mean once a person from the ghetto get into an argument (public affairs) it is like he is being burn at the stake. Or, being lynch by the angry mob.

The argument is I forgot to take my medicine, I forgot to feed the poor, I forgot to cure the sick, I forgot to satisfy all the people in the world, and I forgot I am not important. In addition, I forgot for so many years why I have been trying so hard to reach out to the world for help.

Furthermore, the argument is as I continue talking about me being burn at the stake and me wishing I should have committed suicided when I have the chance. The underworld orgainizations like the mafia, Yakuza, and so on. Doesn't joke around. What if those organizations read this announcment and those orgnizations gave me the respect on my words by really burning at the stake or by really making me wish I should have committed suicide?

I should have stand up for myself and say enough is enough. Example: I don't have to write multiple thousands of pages to explain about my situation and I don't know if 1 word got out to the world. Also, I should have took my chance on how many people have earned the title, "Angel Killer" like the movie, "Contract Killer".

With the bad lucks I have, I would argues that the first person I met so happen to be surpassed "Angel Killer". That is my bad lucks. Or, I never been anywhere near "Angel Killer" my whole life. How important does the title, "Angel Killer" matter to a person? Does it matter so much that person can't live his life? Or, it is just a title get over it?

The argument is I have went crazy. It was never about the title, "Angel Killer". It had been about the father is a great success and his son is a great failure custom the whole time.

I would argues no one believe in fairy tale any more. So, it would be harder for people to believe in the most unlikeliest fairy tale. What if my life is the most unlikeliest fairy tale, how does I expect people to belive in what I say?

I'm going to summarize my situation into the following, I supposed you just got to believe:

[1.] The father is a great success and his son is a great failure have been a common custom. Also, the voices in my head make sure that common custom continue on. That could be argued as why my life is cursed or why I have an ill fate life.

[My Father Is the Boss of the Mafia Argument Begin]

The following is Doctor Serious Second Chance's explanation on my situation:

You have been arguing about your situation is very confusing. So, to avoid creating more confusions, let say that Father Chung is that baby's father since he talk about that baby's llfe all the time. So, he care about that baby. This mean he is a person with a lot of powers, because he have to protect that baby from the world of very cruel and powerful people that wanted to kill that baby.

So, your acknowledgement of your father's achievments could be true. Not just bias, because you are his son. Example: Founding father of Sand Be Vietnam. Chief engineer of the iron factory. And, philanthropist of the Asia continent.

Since you are his son, this mean he could have lower his status, so that living with him doesn't create a lot of pressures to you.

For argument sake, he is the leader of a powerful humantarian organization, In the Underwold, it is known as the boss of the mafia.

[My Father Is the Boss of the Mafia Argument End]

[2.] I have no feedback and no inocme.

A. Because I have no feedback and no income on my website blog (tumblr.com/ptts2023) for 9 years (2016-2025). So, I have the following arguments against me: What if no one read my writings or the world make me have to beg the world to read my writings? Worse, hackers hacked into my laptop and read my writings before I posted up on my website blog and those hackers claimed those writings are their writings. This mean my situation could be very confusing, because I thought I have been self-helping myself and I didn't know that I got hacked. As a result, I would point out that my life could be argued as a cursed llife or an ill fate life.

B. There are many important arguments in "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine". Each arguments involved with important events in my life. Those important events could be argued as State of Affair, State of Emergency, High Priority, High Importance, and so on. But, if no one read those arguments, then how does people know about those arguments? It is like there are a lot of pressures in those arguments and I'm going through a lot of pressures dealing with those important arguments through my writing. But, the argument is who know I'm going through a lot of pressures? The world could argue that no one have read my writings, so how does the world know I have went through a lot of pressures?

C. The more I think I'm closer to finding a solution to my situation. The more it would hurt me when the world say that the world didn't read anything I wrote.

[3.] A person made an act of mercy and killed me to end my torments and miseries. I would die not knowing if those multiple thousands of pages I wrote have been read or not. In other words, I die not knowing were I a successful person in life or not.

Looking at #1-3, I would argues that knowing about my situation and how it have effected my life. Example: "The father is a great success and his son is a great failure custom", "I have no feedback and no inocme", and "it is an act of mercy to kill me to end my torments and miseries". Is not enough. This mean I have to continue arguing that knowing about my situation does help me out, but it is just the beginning. Because I still have to continue fighting against my situation in order to have positive results to my situation.

Before the world start burning me at the stake. Please read my first magazine, "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" (60% Completion). I'm expected to finish working on it.

[My Situation High Priority End]

The following are the highlights on the summary of my situation (the 2 contents, "My Situation" and "Extreme Poverty" above):

[My Situation Highlights Begin]

[1.] Imagine living in the most painful ways. Then, multiply that by 100 times. That is what "I" is good at. So, people doesn't say "I" doesn't like losing.

Yet, I keep asking myself, why people want to say "I" is losing? Example: "I" is the president of the USA. "I" is the governor of the state. "I" is the mayor of the city. "I" are the leaders of the countries around the world. "I" are the politicians and patriots. And, so on. When did people ever said "I" is losing before?

[2.] I'm being forced to commit suicide. The people want to lynch me to death. I'm being tied to a pole and burn at the stake. Or, I'm being put to death in very painful ways in general.

[3.] Inside my fights and outside my fight (when I'm not in a fight), I would argue that my world have got flipped upside down.

[4.] [Will Is Everything Argument Begin]

The argument is I'm trying with everything I got is not enough. Will is everything.

I would argues the many years starting at the beginning of January 2012 or the end of December 2011. I have been reading self-help books and seeking counselling, so I could step up my management of my life.

Why waste all my time and efforts on the self-help books and seeking counselling to have a better management of my life? My answer is I decided on January 2012, all my time and efforts to have a better management of my life to be known as I'm establishing the "Independence Company", PTTS (Planet-wide Tournament Tip Session). This make me as the founder of the PTTS. Since I'm in charge of establishing the PTTS, so I'm also the president of the PTTS.

For argument sake, to not confuse why I couldn't do anything about my situation for many years of time. So, the mutual agreement is to say that during the recent years I have went through a lot of tough struggles to make many stepping up the management attempts to manage my life (or my situation).

At the same time, I want to make my very recent works, "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" as emphasizing on my final attempt. This mean the contents in this magazine would argued as I'm trying harder than the attempts in my past.

[Will Is Everything Argument End]

[5.] Unspeakable Curse

[6.] What is worse than a person who is a Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title Holder, Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder, and highly acclaimed on math couldn't talk about empty handed combat, TM Game, and math?

That is not all. The voices in my head is saying why did I let that happen to me? Am I not a man who could defend myself?

I would argues back. So you want me to talk about the Unspeakable Curse, so I could be blamed for talking about the Unspeakable Curse and cursed the whole city of San Diego?

I have to narrow it down to the following: The world cursed with the Unspeakable Curse. The world not cursed with the Unspeakable Curse. Or, I have the choice to curse the whole city of San Diego or not, because I have the power to talk about the Unspeakable Curse.

[7.] Yet, what evidences I have that the world is not cursed with the Unspeakable Curse?

[8.] I would argues I don't know what to live for anymore. Because I thought being cursed for having those 2 titles and math high achievements and I can't talk about it. At the same time, the world won't acknowledge it. Is already beyond any imaginable curses and pains. So, on 2015, when I heard voices in my head and upset at myself for not commit suicide have create paradox in my life. The paradox made my life very confusing and contradicted.

My surrounding and my family is very cruel to me and bullied me all the time. So, I forced and pushed myself to become the Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title Holder and Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder. Through anger, frustration, and hatred. No mercy for myself. And, don't care if I'm in too much pains.

Then, on 2015, I heard voices in my head. What if those voices in my head said I can't have any emotions such as anger, frustration, and hatred? I would argues that my life have been all about anger, frustration, and hatred. So, I avoided that topic, voices in my head and pretend I didn't hear any voices in my head. Until now.

[9.] Life is life. Then, you have a genuine true bastard. Even the greatest scientist in the history can't fix it.

[10.] I couldn't afford to have regrets or feel depressed. (Example: Zealous, Pious, and Righteous could be the key to my survival.) Because I can't afford to make any mistakes. So, I try to not let the following bother me: The argument is Las Vegas is more confusing than my very confusing situation in San Diego.

[11.] At the end, Father Chung talking about the brain (mind, intelligence, and thoughts) as the fastest living and nonliving thing in the world. But, he die alone in a lot of pains. And, his son, me who is mistreated and have no equality and can't get a word through to the world.

[12.] The questions are: Do I really care about wealth, status, and expectations when the world totally ignored me? Would I says Father Chung's death is very sad, die alone and no one even check on him, when my situation is much worse than his death?

[My Situation Highlights End]

The moment my mother, Sok Nghim Hoi gave birth to me inside our house in Sand Be Vietnam on May 03, 1984. That is it. Don't I get it? The world is messing with me. What is wrong with me? It is right in front me the whole time, the day I was born. You still don't get it?

Okay, so you didn't know because you are still just a new born baby. Then, looking at My Situation Highlights #1-12. Just 1 of #1-12 is it. Just 1.

Yes. I'm like you. I did have thoughts of revenge. But, the Extreme Poverty (AKA Forsaken Ghetto) is already very poor. How much poorer can you make the Extreme Poverty? Also, what evidences I have to prove that the Extreme Poverty exist?

Poverty mean a state of being very poor and living in an underdevelopment and underachievement condition. Not suitable for standard living. Extreme poverty mean poverty to the extreme (very such as maximum level or fullest).

Ghettos have been associated with famine and poverty. So, in general when people talk about ghetto it is like talking about living in poverty.

Sand Be Vietnam is argued as an underdeveloped and poor feudal-county-side. This mean without knowing it is part of the feudalism, then it could be argued as a ghetto. Because I was born in Sand Be Vietnam, so I could argued as I was born in a ghetto.

Since I have immigrated to the USA on October 1992 (when I'm 8 years old), so I could argued as I have left the ghetto. The ghetto is still in my life is argued as extreme poverty or a forsaken ghetto. That is how I came with the concept, Extreme Poverty (AKA Forsaken Ghetto).

Going back to Highlight 4, Will Is Everything Argument, "I would argues the many years starting at the beginning of January 2012 or the end of December 2011. I have been reading self-help books and seeking counselling, so I could step up my management of my life.

By December 2016, I decided to post up PTTS contents on the social network website, tumblr.com. This mean my PTTS contents would be known as my website blog.

Nevertheless, I would argues that I would want my website blog goal to be like on January 2012, "all my time and efforts to have a better management of my life to be known as I'm establishing the "Independence Company", PTTS".

But, my website blog could be argued as self-centered on my life only. So, I included about 50% or more of the contents on the Trading Card Game (TCG) (AKA TM Game) enthusiasm on my website blog. You never know. What if there are people who have TCG enthusiasm? My website blog would be argued as goldmine to those people.

The facts are there are no evidences on the PTTS on 2012. There are the tumblr.com website blog as evidences on the PTTS starting on December 2016.

I would argues that to me, I see that I have been stepping up my management of my life since 2012. But, if you want to look at the facts and argue that I only have evidences on the PTTS starting on December 2016. Then, fact is fact.

In other words, PTTS is stepping up my management of my life. And, TCG enthusiasm.

Stepping up my management of my life mean I'm explaining about the events in my life through my writings. From the day I immigrated to the USA on October 1992. To my most recent events in my life. On April 2025, in my autobiography books, "Step By Step Long Journey To Acceptance And Forgiveness", I wrote before October 1992 such as before my USA immigration. Example: In "Book 1: Hard Appreciation", I wrote about living in my birth place, Sand Be Vietnam before I immigrated to the USA.

In other words, accumulated all of my works on establishing the "Independence Company", PTTS, I have wrote many contents explaining about the events in my life.

So, I would argues that having management of my life would argued as I able to save myself or I able to defend myself. But, if no one read my writings, then it would argued as I need someone to save me or I need someone to defend me.

Continue on "Important Announcement About My Intermission Part 02)

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT MY INTERMISSION PART 01

Written By: Neng Hong Lam Date Written: (Begin writing on) November 01, 2025 (Posted on my blog: 11/08/2025)

Contents (Headlines): IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT MY INTERMISSION PART 01 [1.] Important Announcement About My Intermission [2.] My Situation [3.] Extreme Poverty (AKA Forsaken Ghetto)

Important Announcement About My Intermission

The most recent "Important Announcement" ("Important Announcement On Having An Intermission" Part 01 & 02) is written on August 18, 2025. Around 2-3 months ago. So much had happen in my life since then, so I have to write this important announcement.

I'm going to break those events in my life into the following: 1. My Situation, 2. Chinese Bible Church (CBC), 3. Health And Human Services Agency, 4. PTTS Exclusive First Magazine, 5. Doing fundraising to have emergency funds, 6. PTTS Sexiest Women In the World

Many months ago (starting at April 2025), I been asking for help. In my announcement to ask for help, to not create any more problems and confusions to my situation, so I narrowed down my situation to the following 5 high priority in my life:

Please leave me feedbacks. I started posting up posts on my website blog, tumblr.com (first account link, tumblr.com/tratct) starting on December 2016. From December 2016 until now, November 2025 I haven't receive any feedback on my website blog that I posted up at tumblr.com. This is my second account (second account link, tumblr.com/ptts2023). (The following are the steps I have took since then: Read the contents, 2. Chinese Bible Church (CBC) and 4. PTTS Exclusive First Magazine.)

I need donations to replace my broken cell-phones. (The following are the steps I have took since then: I have received a donation from my older brother, Ho Hong Lam. Because he have bought me an android cell-phone (Moto G Play 2024). This priority have been resulted.)

I need a cell-phone to verifies my gmail account. And, youtube account. (The following are the steps I have took since then: I have received a donation from my older brother, Ho Hong Lam. Because he have bought me an android cell-phone (Moto G Play 2024). This priority have been resulted.)

I need donations to repair or replace my camcorder that is not working. (The following are the steps I have took since then: Read the content, 5. Doing fundraising to have emergency funds.)

My foods supplies could only last for months of time. So, I need donations. Or, if my account(s) are verified, then I could use my account(s) to do fundraising to make some money to buy some foods. (The following are the steps I have took since then: Read the content, 3. Health And Human Services Agency.)

My Situation

Like I wrote above, in this important announcement, I'm going to be talking about the following contents: 1. My Situation, 2. Chinese Bible Church (CBC), 3. Health And Human Services Agency, 4. PTTS Exclusive First Magazine, 5. Doing fundraising to have emergency funds, 6. PTTS Sexiest Women In the World

I'm going to go with the chronological order in that list #1-6. This mean I'm going to talk about my situation first.

Imagine living in the most painful ways. Then, multiply that by 100 times. That is what "I" is good at. So, people doesn't say "I" doesn't like losing.

I wish I didn't went against the current. I wish I'm not miserable all the time. I wish "I" would leave me alone. But, this announcement is a mercy that my wish is not coming true. So, I have to write this announcement.

The argument is "No matter what I do and what I have achieved in life. I'm still a piece of shit from the ghetto and sons of the devil. People will always look down on me and spit at me."

Looking at that argument, the mercy is I could say that I'm living in misery and I'm going against the current. So, I don't have to run around shouting out loud and embarrassing myself in the public. Like I wrote above, "That is what "I" is good at."

There are contents in "PTTS Exclusive First Magazine" called "Second Chance In Life". In those contents I'm being forced to commit suicide. The people want to lynch me to death. I'm being tied to a pole and burn at the stake. Or, I'm being put to death in very painful ways in general. But, I'm given a second chance in life by writing about why I have to die in those very painful ways. In summary, in those contents, "Second Chance In Life", I would explain about why I got caught in this situation and the steps I have took to find a solution.

Example: The following is why San Diego want to put me to death in a very painful way in general: San Diego see me as a low life bastard that have no future and I would continue as a low life bastard my whole life. But, I made a mistake. I got 20 wins and 0 loss in my fights. Because San Diego want to see me as a big loser who get beat up all the time. This mean the argument is in the fights, San Diego want to watch me getting beat up by my opponent fighters. Not having a perfect record, 20 wins and 0 loss. Outside the fight (when I'm not in a fight), San Diego is tormenting me every day forcing me to commit suicide.

Fighter Stereotype: The following are some of the common associations that make a person as a fighter: A person who have a lot of experiences and skills on empty handed combat, sword combat, firearm combat, and/or combat in general. The following are stereotypes on fighter: 1. It is hard to try to teach or adjust a fighter, because when a fighter is inside a fight, he is either beating up his opponent fighter and/or getting beat up by his opponent fighter. The teaching and adjustment doesn't really matter that much to him in a fight. The stereotype is why waste your time on the adjustment, because the fighters going to ask to result the problems in a fight. To go further with this stereotype is teaching and adjustment is not important to the fighters, because the fighters see the fights as important and serious. 2. Look up the common stereotypes on fighters.

Looking at that Example and Fighter Stereotype, the things in my life have become very confusing and complicated. Example: Side 1: Come on. Why waste your time on Neng Hong Lam. He just going to ask for a fight to result his problems. Or, worse, when he is punching and kicking back and fore against his opponent fighter inside a fight everything you have told him have become not important. Side 2: Sorry, man. Calling you a fighter is respect. You are a low life bastard. You think the world would give a low life bastard a chance to result his problems in a fight?

Because of the very confusing, so it is hard for me to tell if resulting my problems in a fight still apply to me. The argument is no one care about me, because I'm just going to ask to result my problems in a fight. I would argues that I'm trying very hard with words and diplomacy. At the end, the world would argue I'm no longer a fighter, because I have forgot that all I wanted is to result my problems in a fight. Example: What is there to talk about? You just wanted a fight to result your problems.

Going back to the argument above. The argument is in the fights, San Diego want to watch me getting beat up by my opponent fighters. Not having a perfect record, 20 wins and 0 loss. Outside the fight (when I'm not in a fight), San Diego is tormenting me every day forcing me to commit suicide.

Inside my fights and outside my fight (when I'm not in a fight), I would argue that my world have got flipped upside down. That is why I wanted a second chance in life. In summary, I'm writing the contents, "Second Chance In Life" would argued as better than living my life. Or, a management to have improvement in my life.

[Will Is Everything Argument Begin]

The argument is I'm trying with everything I got is not enough. Will is everything.

[Will Is Everything Argument End]

Too many Hollywood movies such as "Mortal Kombat" (2011), "Tekken" (2006), "Cinderella Man", "Rocky" (1-5 and "Rocky Balboa"), "Bloodsport (1988)", "Spider-Man", and movies that have scenes where the protagonist have to get into a fight for money in general. Show scenes where the protagonists earn money from getting into a fight. Example1: In "Mortal Kombat", one of the main characters, Young (descendant of Scorpion) fight in an UFC (Ultimate Fighting Championship) style like fight for $200. Example2: In "Spider-Man", before the protagonist, Peter Parker knew he is the Spider-Man superhero, he saw an advertisement in a magazine where he could earn $2,000 in a fight.

Looking at those Hollywood movies, a fighter could be confused that he could earn money from getting into a fight.

The same with the "Unofficial Junior Local Empty Handed Combat League" I created and regulated that league with my classmates starting at 1993 in the Crown Point Elementary School (CPES) campus. That league most active period is between 1993-1999. In this period of time, I have got 20 wins and 0 loss in my fights.

It would be very confusing and mess up for me to self-criticize myself as ghetto. Because there are 20 fighters lost their fights to me. If I'm ghetto, then those 20 fighters lost to a ghetto person.

The same with the TM (Table-Miniature) Game Tournament. I'm the Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder for having the most First Places in the TM Game Tournaments among the players in San Diego, California USA.

Like I wrote above, it would be very confusing and mess up for me to self-criticize myself as ghetto. Because I'm the Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder mean that there are many players lost to me in the TM Game Tournaments. If I'm ghetto, then those players lost to a ghetto person.

The same with being highly acclaimed on the math subject as a scholar.

I'm going to keep it at I'm good at Empty Handed Combat League, TM Game Tournament, and Math. To avoid the confusion that I'm good at everything I do. Or, I have to be better than people on everything I do. Example: What if I'm just learning how to speak the Japanese language and I have to get into a competition on the Japanese language against an instructor with Japanese nationality who is teaching the Japanese language classes in college? One of the competitions could be using water brushes to calligraph Japanese Kanji in a calligraphy competition.

My answer is I don't even know how to speak the Japanese language, how could I compete in a competition on the Japanese language against that instructor?

The argument is I got cursed. This curse make me can't talk about Empty Handed Combat League, TM Game Tournament, and Math.

Looking at that argument and curse, I would argues that I have claimed those 3 things is what I'm good at.

Extreme Poverty (AKA Forsaken Ghetto)

I'm going to use the Extreme Poverty (AKA Forsaken Ghetto) concept to continue talking about my situation.

The Unspeakable Curse or the curse that people can't mention. Because if that curse is being mention, then all hells will break loose. But, what if you are being cursed with the Unspeakable Curse?

Right now, I have management on my website blog, because I have been working on it and posting it up regularly on tumblr.com for 9 years of time (2016-2025). In addition, I'm being rational about my situation instead of being irrational by shouting loud that the whole world is against me and it is unfair.

This mean what if I didn't have management and being irrational, and accidentally said the Unspeakable Curse?

Looking at that question, I could tell it is very hard once there are evidences that there could be an Unspeakable Curse. But, does all the people in the world have management, being rational, and doesn't accidentally said the Unspeakable Curse?

What is worse than a person who is a Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title Holder, Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder, and highly acclaimed on math couldn't talk about empty handed combat, TM Game, and math?

That is not all. The voices in my head is saying why did I let that happen to me? Am I not a man who could defend myself?

I would argues back. So you want me to talk about the Unspeakable Curse, so I could be blamed for talking about the Unspeakable Curse and cursed the whole city of San Diego?

Yet, what evidences I have that the world is not cursed with the Unspeakable Curse?

Unspeakable Curse.

It is mess up for me to self-criticize myself as nobody and ghetto. Because how does a nobody and ghetto have the Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title, Regional TM Game Championship Title, and math high achievements?

The argument is international contemporary conflicts and global warfare effected all the people in the world. But, at the end, the ghettos suffer the most. Because the ghettos is insignificant (not important).

I have go with what I have. For months of time, I have post up in my announcement that the bad lucks in my life have made me use up my emergency funds.

At the same time, the argument is I could do anything I want, because the ghetto don't have status and don't have to keep up with the expectations. So, the people want me to taste the pains and sufferings for having status and keeping up with the expectations. Example: It is a very painful life filled with pains and sufferings to have status and keeping up with the expectations. Living like the ghetto is carefree filled with happiness and don't have to care about status and don't have to keep up with the expectations.

I would argues back. But, you guys have wealth, status, and expectations. I don't even have feedback and income on the 9 years of my website blog. Also, I have use up my emergency funds. First, let me have wealth, status, and expectations. Then, let me taste the pains and sufferings for having wealth, status, and keeping up with the expectations.

For argument sake, we know where this is headed. I'm going to keep running and crying about the whole world is against me. Until I'm too tired to continue running and crying and I committed suicide.

I would argues I don't know what to live for anymore. Because I thought being cursed for having those 2 titles and math high achievements and I can't talk about it. At the same time, the world won't acknowledge it. Is already beyond any imaginable curses and pains. So, on 2015, when I heard voices in my head and upset at myself for not commit suicide have create paradox in my life. The paradox made my life very confusing and contradicted.

My father, Chung Wun Lam argued that the brain (mind, intelligence, and thoughts) is the fastest living and nonliving thing in the world. Faster than the jet aircraft.

The argument is someone told him I betrayed him, because I'm a bastard. Bastard don't have father.

A few days before he die he told me to kill him. Even though, he didn't tell me the reason why I should kill him, but I think he wanted me to kill him, so I could redeem myself as a genuine true bastard.

Coincidentally, months before he die, I caught him talking to the voices in his head. He told those voices in his head to talk to me after he die. The way I see it, he want to upset me enough, so I would kill him. So, he could die as a righteous person having proof that I wanted to kill him. As for me, I could redeem myself as a genuine true bastard.

At the very end, he die alone and no one care enough to know what is going with him. A few days after he die, the medics came by and took his dead body out of the house inside a body bag.

I would argues based on my observation, I was the only person who have acknowledged him as the founding father of Sand Be Vietnam. Chief engineer of the iron factory. Philanthropist of the Asia continent. Also, he wrote an autobiography book of the 4 years (1975-1978) he live in the Cambodia regime. But, the years I live with him. The world only see him as an abandon old man and no one know who he is. Also, he is in a lot of pains. And, die alone inside his bedroom on his bed (on December 2020).

On 2015, after hearing the voices in my head, I was planning to travel far away from my house in San Diego, California. My reason is what if the voices in my head said I could have been a very successful person if I wasn't a chicken shit all the time? But, during my travel away from my house, my car broke down. I was able to get a ride to Las Vegas, Nevada.

In Las Vegas, I made a phone call using the Phone Booth to Father Chung. In the phone call, I told him I probably won't be at our house for a while, because I'm in Las Vegas. He told me he would look for someone who could go to Las Vegas and give me a ride back to San Diego. It is too common for a father to says those lines.

"Don't you get it? I wanted to stay as far away from you as possible. You only saying those lines to me, because you are a father." I thought to myself.

Then, I said the following to him before I hung up the phone: It is nice hearing your voice again. It would be nice to able to sit down on a dining table as father and son again. But, I don't know if I have completed my obligation as a son.

Then, I hung up the phone.

Life is life. Then, you have a genuine true bastard. Even the greatest scientist in the history can't fix it.

For the first week of time in Las Vegas, I could be argued as a tourist. I remember a janitor with Asian nationality handed me a bottle water in the Caesar Casino. He is a little pass his midlife.

Give me a few more weeks living in Las Vegas, I'm going to start eating the left over foods on the table from the restaurants. I remember seeing a lady ordered a dish and barely took a bite and left that plate full of foods on the table. Then, she left the table and didn't return to that table. A plate full of foods just tossed into the trashcan by the waiter/waitress.

After the security guards criticized me a few times for living beneath the standard. I would argues that society have forced me to go into the wilderness. Then, I would enter the wilderness. And, stop being a hypocrite for training people how to survive in the desert and wilderness while I have never experience it before. (Not to be off topic, but there was a period of time starting at around 2012, I have a theory on the following: What if the world think I'm still the founder and regulator of Empty Handed Combat League and TM Game Tournament. Also, Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title Holder and Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder. So, I did a lot of writings on this theory. I see my writings on this theory as training people how to survive in the desert and wilderness. Or, Championship Title Holder (CTH) responsibilities and duties.)

Back to my survival in Las Vegas. I remember back then close by to Circus Circus Casino, there is a hotdog joint (small restaurant). Selling a mega hotdog for only $1 or $2 each. A mega hotdog is like 3-5 hotdogs combined together. This mean buying a mega hotdog is like buying 3-5 hotdogs. But, where I'm stationed it is about a few miles away from Circus Circus Casino.

Coincidentally, my shoe is missing the shoe sole, so I have blisters on my feet from walking all day to chart down the environment. So, I decided to continue staying at where I'm at. I would go Circus Circus Casino later on.

The shoe sole cost $14.99 in the grocery store. With the $14.99 I could buy foods to live in Las Vegas for weeks of time. But, I need the shoe sole, because the blisters on my feet make it hard for me to walk around. So, I bought the shoe sole and half gallon of orange juice in the grocery store. With the shoe sole, I no longer have blisters on my feet and the orange juice give me energy and keep me in shape. Even though, it might seem like little things that is not important. But, it is a huge improvement to my situation. I drink a cup of orange juice in the morning and a cup at night, because I'm trying to make that half gallon of orange juice last as long as possible.

It is November 2015. Close to the Thanksgiving holiday. My mother, Sok Nghim Hoi cooked her family recipe, pork and beef soup to go with the rice noodle on the day I left my house. I still remember she was calling out my name. "Neng, do you want a bowl of rice noodle?" How could I replied to anything my family said during my last few days before I leave my house, because I'm trying to travel as far away from my house as possible? Yet, just thinking about that bowl of rice noodle make my mouth water.

At one glance, the argument is I should be at my house celebrating the Thanksgiving holiday and eating the Thanksgiving dinner with my family. Not survival in Las Vegas.

During the nighttime, the climate of Las Vegas is below freezing point such as there are snows in Las Vegas. It is the cold winter nights that get to me. I don't have any blanket to keep me warm at nights, so I have to use the cardboard boxes as blankets. In other words, getting through the cold winter nights is very hard.

The argument is all the casinos in Las Vegas open 24 hours a day. Also, where I have stationed, there are many casinos. So, if the cold winter nights is too hard for me, then I would go into one of the casinos and try not to fall asleep. If I fall asleep, then the security guards would tell me that the casino is not a place for sleeping. If I have to go inside a casino, then I would try to find the food court area as soon as possible while I'm in that casino and stay around that area. If I'm too exhausted and sleepy to walk around, then I would find a table at the food court area and take a rest. But, it is very hard to not fall asleep. One time, I hit a jackpot I found a food court area where there are no one around. So, immediately I fell asleep at one of the tables. After I slept for about 3-4 hours, a security guard walk by, I woke up by her footsteps. I immediately left that table and start searching for a new food court in a different casino for a quiet food court to take a rest. This mean I only stay at the food court areas in the casinos. The exceptions are I have went through the casino's shopping centers before.

Coincidentally, there is a huge jogging marathon that have over thousands of people participated in it at the same spot as me. So, there are marathon joggers everywhere I go. The security guards might think I'm a marathon jogger taking a rest. Rest rest like sleeping. Not just a break from the jogging marathon. That marathon lasted about 3 days. It is worth a shot, while the marathon just begun, I started hiding my bags in the bushes. Because people are paying attention to that marathon and not me.

Another coincidence is when that marathon begun, at the same time, it started raining. I dodged the rain and that marathon. Also, I ignored the blisters on my feet. Do what I can to hide my bags. But, a few days later, my hiding spot was discovered, the things in my bags got scattered all over the places.

Where I'm at, I found a bar that sell a bottle of bear and a hotdog for $2. During the first days, I would break the hotdog to 2 pieces. 1 hotdog would last me the whole day. I would drink the beer when I feel nervous. The beer calm my nerves and make me relax and not nervous. Later on, I would break the hotdog into 3 pieces. So, it would last me more than 1 day.

Coincidentally, that bar is having argument competition. The rule is you have to use a lot of bad words and profanity in your arguments. So, whenever I'm in that bar, I hear a lot of bad words and profanity.

A good plan is sleep during the daytime. And, try to stay active during the nighttime to get through the cold winter nights. But, I'm denying that I'm surviving in Las Vegas. And, I would argues that I'm campaigning to improve my situation. Or, to become a successful person.

I couldn't afford to have regrets or feel depressed. (Example: Zealous, Pious, and Righteous could be the key to my survival.) Because I can't afford to make any mistakes. So, I try to not let the following bother me: The argument is Las Vegas is more confusing than my very confusing situation in San Diego.

Nevertheless, who would have thought Father Chung kept his words, he did send 2 persons, Pastor Paul Ho and Pastor Edward Chiu to Las Vegas to give me a ride back to San Diego.

What if the security guards didn't criticize me and I don't have to enter the wilderness, would I have become a successful person in Las Vegas?

At the end, Father Chung talking about the brain (mind, intelligence, and thoughts) as the fastest living and nonliving thing in the world. But, he die alone in a lot of pains. And, his son, me who is mistreated and have no equality and can't get a word through to the world.

The questions are: Do I really care about wealth, status, and expectations when the world totally ignored me? Would I says Father Chung's death is very sad, die alone and no one even check on him, when my situation is much worse than his death?

A genuine true bastard given a second chance in life. For weeks of time, in the Chinese Bible Church (CBC) and the Bible Study at Living Water building, I would tell the CBC members as an introduction about me on how Pastor Ho and Pastor Chiu as the saviors who have saved my life in Las Vegas.

Yet, part of me, would argue that even if I have entered the wilderness. I might be argued as a hypocrite, but I think I could have survive in the wilderness.

This mean part of me would deny that Pastor Ho and Pastor Chiu is my saviors. So, each time when I see them, to overcome my denial, I would either go to them and thank them for saving my life or give them hugs as gratitude for them saving my life.

There are many bastards out there in the world. But, how often you came across a genuine true bastard who is a Local Undisputed Empty Handed Combat Championship Title Holder and Regional TM Game Championship Title Holder?

I got nothing and the voices in my head still happen to me, don't I feel upset about it? There are very cruel people out there in the world and the voices in the head don't even happen to them, don't I feel upset about it? Don't I think the voices in my head got the wrong person, because I haven't done anything yet?

First, on 2015, I thought the voices in my head would go away after a few weeks of time. Later on, I found out that the voices in my head have became dicks such as the more I want them to go away the more they wanted to talk to me.

Just me. I can't be successful no matter what I do. As for other people, they don't have to do anything and they became successful person.

Dicks always deserve the punishments they have. Because no one is stupid enough to give dicks punishments they don't deserve. That is why no one would help me out. Example: Dicks are known to want punishments to happen to them.

The voices in my head is a totally wrong way of living together with me. Because it constantly harassing me.

Like I wrote above, at this rate. I either going to be too tired to continue running and crying. Or, I'm going to accidentally talk about the Unspeakable Curse.

Continue on "Important Announcement About My Intermission Part 02".

RENAISSANCE REMEMBRANCE VOLUME 01 ENTRY 05

Date: August 27, 2025 (Date Post Up On Blog: September 09, 2025) Written By: Neng Hong Lam

Origin Arguments (AKA Bizarre/Grotesque And Heinous Lead)

Book 4 Chapter 09 ("Renaissance Versus Pressures"):

[Ghetto Argument Begin]

Death Happen Everywhere: People are starving to death from the famine and poverty all the time in the ghetto.

Life Don't Worth Much: People are constantly days and nights fighting against the famine and poverty all the time in the ghetto. Many times those people would die in the process. In addition, people taking great risks or risking their life to beat the famine and poverty all the time in the ghetto. Many times those people would die in the process.

Barren Land: The ghetto is very poor and underdevelopment. The people who live in the ghetto have lack of education including geography. Example: Don't know about places outside the ghetto.

The following are the "List of Painful Scenarios": The Most Painful Death Scenario, Life After Sex Scenario, Cursed Family Tree Scenario, Stinking Rotten Corpse Scenario, Die Painfully And Casted Into the Hellfire Scenario, Vengeful Wrath Scenario, Down To My Worst Luck Scenario

In "PTTS Briefed Summarization", in "2012 PTTS" section, I wrote that on 2012-2015, I constantly dealing with adversities and bad lucks happening to me , I generalized all those events in that 4 years (2012-2015) as "Gods Is Using Me To Teach The World A Lesson", Double Dilemma, my many commit suicide attempts, and every little things in my life could create a big scene.

If the Ghetto Argument, "List of Painful Scenarios", "Gods Is Using Me To Teach The World A Lesson", Double Dilemma, my many commit suicide attempts, and every little things in my life could create a big scene happen to another person. Then, that person could die in a tragic death. His or her death would consider as a bizarre/grotesque and heinous mystery.

I'm listing those events including arguments and scenarios to point out that the events in my life could consider as bizarre/grotesque and heinous mysteries.

I have no feedback and no income on my website blog for 9 years (2016-2025) could lead to I'm creating more confusions to my very confusing situation. And, I'm reaching out to the world for help could lead to I'm creating more confusions to my very confusing situation.

If the world don't acknowledge those events including arguments and scenarios above. Also, don't acknowledge that I'm working very hard almost daily to try to manage my life. It been going for many years of time. And, only see that my situation is very confusing. Then, the world could argue that I don't know what is bizarre/grotesque and heinous mysteries is. Also, the world would accused me for asking the world to show me hatred and anger.

I'm going to take a step back from those arguments.

Like I wrote in the "Brainstorm Renaissance Remembrance Pledge": "I could be alone on this private investigation case, Renaissance Remembrance for a long time."

I still have no evidences on why I don't have feedback. Commit suicide for no feedback. Or, the slavers is very cruel to slaver's slaves.

I could hear people arguing against me. Example: No feedback and no support. Just arguments and criticisms. The following are the more common arguments and criticisms:

I told you so you should see this coming.

We will be the very cruel slavers if no admit to be the very cruel slavers.

If you said it is very hard to do your investigation, then don't do your investigation. Try something else.

But, I have no feedback. Example: I have no evidences that anyone have said anything to me.

The no feedback on my regular posting of 9 years of website blog (monthly blog (2016-2020) and daily/weekly blog (2024-2025)) (Or, my 9 years of PTTS posts) could argued as I have no evidences on my investigation. To give myself a break. I get to narrow it down to the following: People don't want me to have any evidences. Or, it is very hard to have any evidences.

The argument is the world hated me so much that the world have killed me over a 100 times already. Then, the world shouted at my face. "We already killed you over a 100 times already! To live in this world is very hard! You don't have what it take to live in this world!"

Looking at that argument, I would argues there are some very serious problems going on in my life. This is not just an ordinary private investigation case. So, I'm going to titled what I wrote as "Origin Arguments" (AKA "Bizarre/Grotesque And Heinous Lead").

The theory is anyone who found this lead, "Origin Arguments" (AKA "Bizarre/Grotesque And Heinous Lead") will be arrested by the police. Why haven't the police arrested me?

My answer is there are a lot of problems in the TM Game industry. The problems have made the TM Game industry into chaos. The chaos confused this case. That is why the police haven't arrested me. Vice-versa, if I didn't face problems in the TM Game industry, then I would have been very successful in the TM Game industry. The police would be protecting me. Not arresting me.

To be a slave/dog is already hard enough. My slaver/master who is very cruel to me make it even harder for me to be a slave/dog.

Slave In Ghetto Argument: The Ghetto Argument is Death Happen Everywhere in the ghetto, Life Don't Worth Much in the ghetto, and the ghetto is a Barren Land. The slave in the ghetto is worse than the Ghetto Argument. The slaves would die first. And, the people in the ghetto would be unfair toward the slaves. This mean slaves living in the ghetto is worse than the people living in the ghetto. So, since life don't worth much in the ghetto, slaves in the ghetto is worth even less than life don't worth much.

The argument is if I'm a slave in the ghetto, then I should accept life is punishment/pain. So, I should welcome the punishment/pain. Also, I should enjoy the punishment/pain. This mean if I trained myself to enjoy the punishment/pain and be emotionless, then I won't feel that my slaver/master is very cruel to me.

To continue with this argument, slave in the ghetto should be emotionless (or have no emotion).

Looking at that argument, the world could argue that if I trained myself to be emotionless, then I won't feel that my slaver/master is very cruel to me.

For argument sake, I don't have evidences on slaves in the ghetto should be emotionless.

Like I wrote above, for 9 years my regular posting of website blog (PTTS posts) have no feedback. So, my situation is very confusing. Going to the origin where it all started mean I'm going to talk about sensitive topics. Those sensitive topics could lead to chaos, wars, and/or revolutions. Example: There will be a lot of people who is going to die. A lot of people who is going to get serious injuries. And, so on. In chaos, wars, and/or revolutions. So, going to the origin arguments is a very serious matter.

The following are my reasons for going to the origin arguments: I would argues in my daily life adversities and bad lucks constantly happening to me. Those adversities and bad lucks is pressuring me to keep self-criticizing myself and self-punish myself so much that someone going to kill me as an act of mercy to end my miseries. Or, I keep beating up myself by hurting myself with I'm a slave in the ghetto I should be emotionless. To continue with this argument, I have to go to the origin where it all started.

The following are the origin arguments:

[Order Versus Chaos Argument Begin]

The order/clergy is protecting the order. The chaos/thieves is creating chaos.

The chaos/thieves is tormenting the order/clergy by making sure that he or she is alone and couldn't reach out the order/clergy. Then, the chaos/thieves would create problems to him or her in his or her daily life. When he or she is filled with anger and frustration, then the chaos/thieves would tell him or her, "Why are you angry? It is our daily activities to keep you occupied. See it like all the people need to eat in order to survive."

The order/clergy would tie the chaos/thief to a pole. Then, the order/clergy would tell the people to toss rocks at him or her. The people will throw rocks at him or her until he or she die.

The order/clergy can't read anything that is consider fictional or lies. And, can't watch movies, because movies would be argued as fictional works.

Anyone write a fictional story, read a fictional book, and/or watch a fictional movie could be argued as chaos/thieves.

The radicals/extremists would lockdown a whole city. Then, those radicals/extremists would burn all the fictional books and fictional movies in the libraries and other places. Those radicals/extremists would defend themselves with they are carrying out missions for the order/clergy. All of a sudden, that city known for having a high publishing rate on fictional books to all fictional books are being burned.

The writers/novelists who have been very successful and famous on writing fictional books. Also, they have huge fan base and there are huge lines of people lining up for those writers/novelists to sign the books. All of a sudden, those writers/novelists have committed suicide. The ones didn't committed suicide are lynched to death and their bodies are hanging on the poles.

Would people see that the adversities and bad lucks been constantly happening to me for many years of time, also I have no feedback on my website blog for 9 years (2016-2025) that is why I brought up the origin arguments? Or would people accused me for bringing up the origin arguments and created a great disaster in the city?

I would defend myself with I brought up the origin arguments, I have to watch out for the word, innocent.

To go further with this argument, using the word, innocent could create more confusion. Example: Who is the innocent ones the order/clergy or the chaos/thieves? Or, the people who don't know about order versus chaos arguments?

The argument is origin arguments is very confusing and complicated. Also, it is restless and constantly looking over your shoulder.

[Order Versus Chaos Argument End]

RENAISSANCE REMEMBRANCE VOLUME 01 ENTRY 04

Date: August 21, 2025 (Date Post Up At Blog: September 08, 2025) Written By: Neng Hong Lam

My Reasons For Declaring A Pledge

I live with my family my whole life. But, I'm having so much problems just to greet them or have a talk with them.

I studied camcorder my whole life. But, I'm having so much problems with camcorder.

I have 202 first places in the TM Game Tournaments. But, I'm a big loser.

My father, Chung Wun Lam send help to rescue me and save me from serious problems in my life. Then, he asked me to live with him. But, I have to straggle him to death, so he could find forgiveness in his afterlife, because while I'm living with him I'm being tormented daily and he can't do anything to help me.

The adversities and bad lucks keep happening to me when I was living with my father, Chung. After he pass away on 2022, the adversities and bad lucks continue to happen to me. But, while I was living with him I supposed to be grateful that he is protecting. Yet, looking at adversities and bad lucks in my life, the argument is I would want protection from Father Chung.

I been saying the same things over and over for many years.

For argument sake, they were there helping me when I won all 20 of my Empty Handed Combat fights. They were there helping me when I got my 202 first places in the TM Game Tournaments. They were there helping me on everything I do. That is why they could tormented me daily.

My very confusing situation would lead to the following:

[Very Confusing Begin]

The whole city of San Diego hate me and would do anything to ignore me.

I can't even say the important thing I want to say, because people doesn't give me a chance to say what I have to say.

No one would join the activities I'm in.

No one would play the games I play.

The list continue on. I still can't get a word out to the world.

[Very Confusing End]

I put it at: I been saying this line too many times, "Commit suicide is not an easy thing for me to do." Also, I have made too many commit suicide attempts. And, I got arrested multiple times, because someone called the police on me while I was committing suicide.

I could cry and feel sorry for myself. Or, I could do something about my life.

Looking at what I have said above, whatever I do and whatever I got into. It is either destroy, no one care about, or fill in the blank.

For argument sake, the Renaissance Remembrance is going to be the same as the things I listed above. But, I'm not going to cry and feel sorry for myself.

I want me to forgive me. With forgiveness and my rights as an USA citizen, during my last moment before I die, I could carry through with 1 more commit suicide attempt without worrying about being arrested by the police. Example: I die knowing I was able to carry through with 1 last commit suicide attempt before I die.

For some reason you felt like you are in similar situation as me. Or, worse than my situation. So, you want to be a member of Renaissance Remembrance.

The following could be your reasons:

You tasted fine wine. Because you have relatives that own a wine factory.

You have live in a palace before. Because you have relatives that have connection with the royal family.

As for me, I have thoughts that I have got out of the ghetto. Example: Empty Handed Combat Undisputed Championship Title Holder, TM Game Tournament Championship Title Holder, Highest Math Achievement, TM Game Pioneer/Tycoon, and so on.

I have been occupied with the TM Game industry most of my life. Also, I don't own a private investigation firm and I'm not a member of the clergy/order.

Renaissance Remembrance cases are bizarre/grotesque, dark, very confusing, and chaos. In addition, government officials breaking the laws. Orphanage and ghetto enforcing the laws.

The argument is to maintain the chaos, there need to be order.

I have a holy bible and a certificate that show that I'm a member of the Chinese Bible Church.

I came from the ghetto, so it is rare, for me to came upon the word, renaissance. I would picture the historians having record of the historical figures during the renaissance.

[Historical Figures Begin]

I look up those names listed here in the American Heritage College Dictionary. Not all those names are in the the renaissance era. In addition, since the renaissance could be argued as creed/credo. In that creed/credo, it is an era of progress and wealth. Depending on a person's creed/credo on the renaissance. Example: Some people never heard of the word, renaissance before. Some people define the word, renaissance like the dictionary's definition. 3. a. A revival of intellectual or artistic achievement and vigor. (American Heritage Dictionary) But, it is a fantasy to fantasize that where I came from the word, renaissance is a creed/credo. In that creed/credo it mean an era with progress and wealth.

Like I wrote above, I came from the ghetto, so it is rare, for me came upon the word, renaissance. Also, like I wrote below, it is risky for me to look up the word, renaissance. Because I could get accused as a thief for looking up that word.

To not create confusion on my creed/credo on the renaissance is the same as the history. I kept the renaissance as my creed/credo. And, I didn't look in the history on the renaissance. In other words, my creed/credo on the renaissance is like beliefs that great progress(es) and great success(es) could happen to me as a way to overcoming having immigrant status and low income family status. At the same time, I'm not neglecting that I never heard of the word, renaissance before.

I would have wishful thoughts that one day, my neighborhood would practice my creed/credo on the renaissance. Polymaths, renaissance man, the renaissance era, and giving high acclaims on a person's works as renaissance works. Are using in regular talks. Even in the same sentence(s).

A count said the following to me, "Neng Hong Lam if your highest math achievement have made you into a renaissance man in the city you live in, then you would know it."

Selected historians (elite archivist) on a highest priority mission to do whatever means necessary on making sure the word, renaissance is use correctly in the history. And, correct the wrong usages of the word, renaissance or make up for the wrong usages of the word, renaissance. In addition, those historians have made solemn oath on their responsibilities and duties to give their life to their mission.

A count cracked a person's skull against the floor for using the word, renaissance as an act of mercy. Then, he said, "God damn it. You have no respect for anything." Vice-versa, a warrior inquisitor cracked that count's skull against the floor for killing a person. Then, he said, "God damn it. That person only used the word, renaissance."

The way I see it, who is faster? #1, #2, or #3. Or, I said, "The renaissance is my creed/credo"? (Creed is more commonly used. Credo is the same as creed, but the "Do" at the end add some impact to it.)

The argument is there is a person with the highest math achievement in the city. It is a matter of time, someone will bring up the renaissance. Desperated measure by wiping out the entire city of people history including the city history and the officials history. In addition, making the city into a total chaos. No history. Total chaos. And, conspiracies. All because to stall the word, renaissance to be brought up. Until that person with the highest math achievement is killed.

Looking at that argument, I have to ask the following questions: "It is an act of mercy to kill that person with the highest math achievement to relieve that person from being responsible for all the no history, total chaos, and conspiracies in the city?" "Does killing that person going to end all the no history, total chaos, and conspiracies in the city or killing person would only make things worse?"

A righteous person would answer those questions with the following word: "CREDO." To be more discrete, that righteous person would answer those questions with the following: "CREDO. My friend."

I would argues I have to study hard to have good grades in my math classes and have 100% on my math test scores. Because if I get lower than an A grade in my math classes and/or under 100% on my math test scores. Then, I would have punishments from my parents and my schools. It didn't cross mind back then. The highest math achievement would led to… fill in the blank.

Leonardo da Vinci, Buonarroti Michelangelo, Sandro Botticelli, Gustav Klimt, Odilon Redon, and William Blake.

In science and math, Isaac Newton and Galileo Galilei.

Aristotle, Plato, Socrates, Marco Polo, Homer, Virgil, Ovid, Aesop, Euripides, and Aeschylus.

[Historical Figures End]

Because of the adversities and bad lucks in my life, where do I have time to remember them? So, why it is called the Renaissance Remembrance?

My answer is I'm not going to left out the art of war, military history, strategists, tacticians, emperors, empresses, kings, queens, generals, conquerors, and rulers. In the Renaissance Remembrance.

The argument is each of those names they have went through the same amount of struggles that I have went through. The renaissance is not like what I imagine in my imagination. The celebration wasn't that big. There were noticeable progress, but it is not as great as I imagine. The polymaths was treated unfair and they went through a lot of pains and sufferings.

I would argues I try very hard to not become the slavery in the ghetto. I do what I can to keep up with the USA standard. Even if I have to list names from the renaissance that I don't know much about them and make the renaissance greater than how history remember. Because the Renaissance Remembrance is my inspiration and my ticket out of the ghetto. Example: The ghetto is small and insignificant. The Renaissance Remembrance is big and significant.

Looking at the adversities and bad lucks in my life, I see that my resonation is reasonable and just. But, how does the world see it or how does the clergy/order see it? Does the world and the clergy/order see that my resonation would lead to chaos? Example: If it is a resonation of order, then it is not called resonation. It is called enlightenment.

While I was growing up, when I first heard of the word, renaissance. The semantics of it mean a wealthy era filled with innovational ideas, great progress, and high achievements. I came from the ghetto. So, naturally, I would be awed by the semantics meaning. To know more about it could argued as taking great risks. Example: I want to confirm if renaissance does mean the same as the semantics meaning. But, if I got caught learning about the renaissance, then I could be criticized as a thief.

This mean I didn't confirm it. And, I didn't talk about it much with people also. The way I see it. The ghetto is filled with problems and a place that is hard to live in. To remember the renaissance mean that there is a place with manageable lifestyle and the problems are manageable.

If people look up my website blog (PTTS posts) at tumblr.com, then people will find out that I have been posting up my website blog (PTTS posts) for 9 years (2016-2025). Would people see that I'm both, PTTS and Renaissance Remembrance? Or would people see that Renaissance Remembrance have taken over PTTS?

The answer is on 2012 when I created PTTS. I didn't killed myself in my many commit suicide attempts. Since I felt like I was going to die in my commit suicide attempts this mean PTTS is like me going to die. Also, I haven't got a feedback for posting up my website blog (PTTS posts) on tumblr.com for 9 years.

[Brainstorm Renaissance Remembrance Pledge Begin]

I know that if I make this pledge, then my life is at great risks. Example: I could die during the middle of my case.

I could be alone on this private investigation case, Renaissance Remembrance for a long time.

I have to simplify things even though it is very confusing and complicated.

I might not going to be satisfy with the rewards/achievements or there is no reward/achievement from solving my cases.

Overwork. Underpay. Underdog.

How will I be able to hang on when I'm weighed down by all the bitterness, hard time, and contradictions?

The thought of long term commitment is crushed by outburst, ephemeral, and temporary goals.

I have went through a lot of tough struggles to get to Renaissance Remembrance, how could I make it stay?

Like the seasons. It is not going to last. And, I grew tired of repeating the disappointments.

The thought that I have to come up with words to make it stay is too much pains.

I'm going to focus on the Renaissance Remembrance responsibilities and duties. Not making it stay.

The lead is Extreme Poverty came from the same place as me, the ghetto. Also, it is the work of Extreme Poverty to able to make the government officials breaking the laws. Orphanage and ghetto enforcing the laws.

Extreme Poverty is a very hard case to solve. But, Arowra is even a harder case to solve.

As Renaissance Remembrance, I have the responsibilities and duties to look into Extreme Poverty and Arowra. But, seeing that there have been a lot of adversities and bad lucks in my life, will there be a fine line between friends and foes? Example: Government officials are breaking the laws. Orphanage and ghetto are enforcing the laws.

To some people Arowra is like a treasure map. After I use the treasure map to find the treasures, I would be rich with treasures. But, along the way I would run into people who are also looking to be rich with treasures. This mean fights could break out fighting over the treasures.

To some people Arowra is the weights of the world. Anyone who came close to it will be crushed by the weights of the world.

Just by looking at a word, Arowra, how could anyone tell it is a treasure map or weights of the world?

My knowledge, marksmanship, and championship is all in the TM Game industry. This mean I have to keep the Renaissance Remembrance in the TM Game industry, So, it have to be a TM Game.

As I'm doing my investigation, I'm creating the Renaissance Remembrance card-based TM Game.

No one would join the activities I'm in.

No one would play the games I play.

[Brainstorm Renaissance Remembrance Pledge End]

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