I need to lose me to find myself

Hi, I'm a 33 years old, diabetic, brazilian girl that hates herself. I'm a weak, worthless piece of shit that can't control what I eat, so I either eat too much or too little. Please be kind. Height: 1,69m/ 5'7 HW: 76kg/ 168lbs LW: 62kg/ 137lbs CW: 68 kg/ 149,9lbs (jun/22/2026) 53kg/ 116 lbs (Dez/29/2022) GW1: 65kg/ 144lbs GW2: 60kg/ 133lbs GW3: 55kg/ 121lbs GW4: 50kg/ 110lbs UGW*: 45kg/ 99lbs **None of these photos are mine, unless I say otherwise. If I have posted a picture of yours and you want it taken down, just message me with the link to that particular photo.**

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My weight this morning after Muay Thai training.

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My breakfast today was iced coffee, as always.

Lunch: omelette with chia seeds and cheese: 318c@l.

I couldn't take a picture because the office light's are already out.

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Today's starting weight.

I'm close to getting my period, and I'm scared of the cravings already.

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I had iced coffee for breakfast.

Lunch: vegetables and meat: 520c@l.

I have Muay Thai today, after that I'm eating my last meal of the day.

I'll update you guys later.

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So, my new scale arrived.

I gained weight, and I'm pissed about it.

I binged over the weekend, cause I'm a weak piece of $ht.

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I couldn't weight myself yesterday...

This was my OMAD, 850c@l... I'm going in the city tomorrow to spend money yay.

I need my scale like, RIGHT NOW!

People at work keep trying to discourage me, and make me give up, I WON'T!

Anyway, back to work, talk to you guys later.

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My OMAD today.

C@l: 860.

I also had an apple, but I didn't take a picture of it.

I was shaking all morning, mostly because of the Muay Thai training, but also because I was functioning on just coffee till noon.

Everyone at work kept offering me food in the afternoon, but I managed to not eat anything.

I don't think I can do more than one week of OMAD yet, I need to lose some weight first, eat less, but eat at least twice a day.

Anyway, there's another game on Sunday, and my friend wants to go watch it at a bar... Help me Lord.

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I hate having to weight myself on different scales, they are never calibrated right...

I need my new one like RIGHT NOW!

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So, we started the competition at work, to see who loses more weight till December (the goal is 15kg).

Everyone kept saying that I don't need to loose weight, and that I don't have 15kg to lose, that my body is good the way it is. But then one of the girls weighted herself and got startled that she weighted more than me, like she got really annoyed about it.

Like, I know I'm fat, you don't have to lie to me and be annoyed that I'm trying to change that.

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OMAD of today.

C@l: 580

I'm going to sleep now, because tomorrow I have Muay Thai early in the morning.

I'm scared of having a hypoglycemic attack tomorrow, so I might need to eat breakfast after practice...but I really don't want to because I don't know if I'll be able to eat only one meal if I do...

I might risk passing out at work... Idk.

Anyway, good night.

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My scale broke down completely today, and the new one I bought only arrives next week...

That being said, I had to weight myself outside.

Today is day 2 of my OMAD attempt, I'm going to try and stay under 600c@l, let's pray!

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Paint your nails. Don't eat.

Take a shower. Don't eat.

Do a hair mask. Don't eat.

Do a face mask. Don't eat.

Brush your teeth. Don't eat.

Whiten your teeth. Don't eat.

Drink water. Don't eat.

Go for a walk. Don't eat.

Make tea. Don't eat.

Do laundry. Don't eat.

Clean your house. Don't eat.

Brush your teeth again. Don't eat.

Read a book. Don't eat.

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This was my OMAD.

String beans (30g) + cuscuz marroquino + soy crumbles + 40g carrots + ricotta (55g) + 1 hard boiled egg + toasts = 362c@l.

That's all I'm having for today.

Brazil won the game today!

[gotmehookedonthekpop]

Just a little discourse on wanting to suck it. Lmaoooooooo

[violetwritin]

I hate my arms, my cellulite, my tummy, my back, my ankles, my neck, my cheeks. I hate being fat

[ryheana]

-20 kilos para todos que repostarem esse post!!!

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