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Usami Haru- G-senjou no Maou

I learned how to be dead. i promised myself to live but i knew i could not return alive from Japan. i felt it then and there, making the worst choice, to give up.

carrying a corpse around is exhausting but i see myself doing it a little bit longer. i have nothing left to lose anymore. i don’t love my family like i did and i don’t care about barely anybody or thing enough that it would kill me. there is freedom in it. sometimes i see a dog and my heart turns down to my stomach. i still can not breath and everything hurts when i am awake.

i like when i see nightlights and the green leaves and rain pouring down every other day.

#dear log

ozth

what? oh sweetheart no, you're not weirding me out at all. you're weirding me in. keep talking, freak

mixi-tan

minty-playhouse

What pops up over my head when I'm having a conversation

disclosable

juiceboxyyx

For you new moot 😇

Aaaaugh

pixxietart

communist-hatsunemiku

br3ak_go

its all so overwhelming.

i feel like most of the time i can’t take life as it is. the passing of time erases me little by little and i feel it in my bones like a disease. feels like I’m dying, and actually i am. been coughing up blood and i can’t smell since january. sun is in my face treating me like a dead flower. its not of use anymore when you’re rotting.

yet I’ll make myself fight again. for some days, for some hours.

#dear log

i love you and the things you do are not something that could condition that,

prolly the most heart opening thing that anyone has said to me; what a pretty thing to be growing as a grown up.

#dear log

moekitti-deactivated20250812

be smoking all my bf butts like brobie be eating left over pizza from the couch:3 i love it here. i never ever hated it here, cant say the same about home.

being alive is so scary 💭💭💭

#dear log