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After telling Roy about what happened in Amsterdam, Jamie starts having weird nightmares. He figures Roy must have been right about what happened being ‘traumatizing’. After thinking about how he’s had seemingly out of proportion or totally random negative reactions to sex, Jamie realizes even though he doesn’t fully remember what happened his body clearly does. He has triggers, apparently, he just has no clue what they are - and not much about what he actually does like either. He decides he should find out, with Roy and Keeley’s help.
Jamie's still catching his breath, flat on his back in Keeley's bed with her laying on top of him, strap still wet between his legs, when she abruptly lifts up to look him in the eye, digging her bony little elbows hard into his pecs. Ample as they are, it still stabs. He makes a noise of complaint, but doesn't push her off.
"So," she says. Her face is grim and serious but her eyes are bright. "Roy, yeah?"
"Yeah," Jamie agrees automatically. Then, "Er, what about him though?"
"Well, we could-" She pauses and Jamie watches in real time as the light of excitement in her eyes dims and goes out. "Okay, wait, I think we…" She gets up and does her post-peg routine, then gets perfunctorily dressed in a cami and boyshorts and brings Jamie a t-shirt. She knows him too well to suggest pants when he's in bed - and anyway, he's still kind of wet down there so he'd only have to change them again later probably. He kind of likes the feeling, and doesn't want to clean up just yet. He sits up to shrug on the shirt, though. If Keeley thinks it's important.
"Okay," Keeley says again, once they're both as dressed as they're going to get and they're sitting cross-legged on top of her blankets, facing each other. "Roy. I- You know I still lo- have feelings for him, yeah?"
"Yeah," Jamie repeats. He wasn't worried, but Keeley's seriousness is freaking him out a little. "Are you breaking up with me about it?"
"No!" Keeley assures quickly, leaning forward to grasp Jamie's hands. She seems to decide that's not reassuring or close enough and climbs partway into his lap. They're breathing the same air when she continues. "Whatever else comes from this conversation or doesn't, Jamie, I'm sticking with you. I want us to work, that's first priority. Okay?"
"Yeah, okay," Jamie says. He breathes a sigh of relief, and then plops a wet but chaste little kiss on Keeley's jaw, since he's there. "Okay, so… Roy?"
"I just… I think maybe you're into him too?" She says it kind of like a question even though it in't really, so Jamie doesn't know how to answer. She keeps going when he doesn't say anything. "You definitely- I mean, at least he turns you on. Right?"
"Well, he is fit," Jamie acknowledges. He had his late night visits with that poster on his wall as a kid, he wouldn't try to deny that, might even bring it up himself if he thought it were relevant or funny. If he had to pick a first celebrity crush, it would probably be Roy - although that Roy, the one on telly and in Jamie's adolescent head, is a different guy than the real life Roy.
Turns him on is not really the same thing as being fit, though, is it?
"He makes you get the way you get when you're with me," Keeley says next. Which is also a different thing. When Jamie thinks of it that way, though, yeah it's true. He weren't really thinking of it like a sex thing, like Keeley's implying now, even though it definitely happens during sex and when it happens outside of sex it makes him want to have some.
"Oops," he says, realizing some things. "Think I might've been accidentally hitting on him." Keeley laughs, gentle and sweet.
"Yeah, I think you might have too," she says. "But I think he's been doing it back, yeah?" Jamie shrugs. He's not sure. He's not so great at reading people usually - except Roy and Keeley are shaping up to be exceptions to that, at least certain ways. He's not exactly at his most detailed orientation when he's in that floaty being-good place, though.
"I flirted with him a bit too," Keeley confesses. "And he did it back. So I was thinking maybe we could… bring him in. To 'us'."
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