My Zoo

Continuing the Zoo with a blog to go with my podcast.

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Motivated? Or just another half ass thought?

Life events, whether good or bad always tend to have a big impact on the way we view things and how we view ourselves. For example when something bad happens we always take it as a sign that we need to change and do better in our lives. When something good happens we think its the good coming back to us which we spread about. I am no different, when something bad happens I am motivated to change. but how long does that change happen for? and how long does the motivation stay before another life event happens and we become derailed? I guess theres only one way to find out...

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Healthy Grind...#fixie #commute #fasterthandriving #notraffic #summerready #summerbody #sfv #sfvfixieriding #losangeles

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on that health morning. #ride #fixie #losangeles #thevalley #fixieriding #fixie #bikeride #commute #under5minutespermile (at Van Nuys, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bl-3sRIn_vtuxEGP2nVlXbOzRfe3McyG_shiWU0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1hw5ryo58grmy

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M.I.A.

So here I am back at it again,

Life is so crazy, theres so many changes happening that I was having an adjustment period. 

Adjustment period over...lol no JK but really though normally in a situation like this i would have panicked. Maybe a bit of anxiety would have taken over and i definitely would have shut down immediately. 

Today feels different, today feels calm and...better. Now, I haven’t sat down to write as much as I would like to, but, I still have been reflecting and have been...dare I say...improving.

Since i started the podcast, I have tried to practice what i preach. Self reflection, self acceptance and growth. 

Thats whats so different today, i have accepted where I am and how I can grow. 

Theres this great line in this song I’ve been listening to lately that says; “staring at the sky ain’t gonna fix my problem”. Simple yet so complicated to understand. 

Life is hard, things are constantly changing, shit gets really crazy and yet we are expected to live these complicated ass hell lives always pretending to be 100% ok. Man FUCK THAT. Nobody is ever 100% happy and content because SHIT sometimes I am just not having a good day FUCK OFF I am entitled to those.

Anyways,

So, all these changes I am accepting. Knowing that, I alone, have the power to make this work and get through these challenges is what its all about, right. 

I work my ass off every single day in one way or another and I put in the time that needs to be put in. No one is ever going to hand you anything, blood sweat and tears have to be put in. Days of never ending frustration, tiredness, insanity, yet you just have to push. 

I have pushed, and pushed and pushed and i am still pushing. Things are looking good, looking like theres a rainbow at the end of this. Now is the time to work even harder and prove to myself that what I have known all these years of all the things I am capable of doing, I can do. All I need is the chance. 

Lately I have had some of the longest days ever staying up working and I was working on so many things at once before but I always fell short in one. Now i am focusing on one thing at a time, completion, and most of all making time for myself. 

Anyway I guess the whole point of this is Ive been MIA lol. Yeah I have and thats ok, I am ok with that because that ensures that my energy is consumed on one project at a time to completion before the others. 

I am focused, I feel good, I am completing one thing at a time and putting out amazing work. 

Somebody told me today that talking to me now after years of not speaking was like talking to someone completely different.

Took me by complete surprise because I am still myself, just more positive and open and accepting of my circumstances per se lol. 

My world is crazy enough on its own as is I can’t add more to myself just because things didn’t turn out the way others envisioned. Thats some heavy shit to carry around all the time. 

Cycling helps, man I’ve been back on my bike and fuck its helped so much. The other day I rode so much that both my fucken calfs began to cramp. I rode thru that shit and I never stopped. Eventually my calfs gave up and relaxed so much that I made it back to my car lol. Thanks X for sticking with me man, you had no idea that was going on but you still decided to ride slow. 

Sometimes i push too hard, but its necessary for me to get where I need to be, and nothings gonna stop me from being where I want to be. The only thing i need to do is make sure I am healthy and happier than before. 

The struggle is fucken real and hard, but things could always be so much worse. Life is fucken amazing and full of amazing moments with those we love and cherish even if those haters out there tell you otherwise. DO YOU!. BE HAPPY! take yourself as number one. FUCK everyone else, you come first. 

Find some time to do something you enjoy for yourself. Write a blog, paint, ride ur bike, whatever makes you happy. 

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3-21

Today was a good day. 

Funny, i feel like so much starts with that phrase, songs, stories, movies. But, it really was a good day. I feel like a big difference in my routine was waking up early and being awake before i even started to get ready to go. 

I have to admit, i tend to get up with about 5 minutes before i have to leave my house and not be late. Ive even gotten it down to the minute that ill be late. i think its a bad habit and something i need to stop relying on. I feel like its so much fun to do when you are used to procrastinating, and then, when you get to the point of being really good at finishing things right before the dead line is when you feel like you can do anything. Thats not real thou, a total false sense of confidence. 

Not only do you end up doing things half assed as opposed to the way they should be done, you end up being a let down not only to yourself, but those who counted on you for something. Sometimes you just cant help it right? i know the feeling. 

For many years I have tried to change and be more productive and more focused on the things that i want to do and the things i want to accomplish. No matter what i tried or how hard i tried, it just seems useless, always something thats started and not finished. 

Ive been down the route of blaming others for what I didn’t accomplish and its just another easy way out of avoiding the real issues at hand. Whatever those issues may be. 

Ive been trying to slowly make changes in my life that will better me and my being. My diet has changed recently to something more healthy and i started to exercise, Yeah i agree its not much but something is better than nothing. While thats a good start I have always felt like something was missing.

Then, today happened.

I just happened to accidentally stumble upon this ebook with the title MANAGE YOUR DAY TO DAY, and under that it simply said, stop doing busy work and start doing your best work. 

It was at that moment that i realized i was a complete slave to busy work. Busy work being Emails, text messages, memes, social media, anything to make me feel accomplished. Did i really accomplish anything thou? What was it if i did? Nohting. I managed to give in to every distraction and demand for my attention yet did nothing that I wanted to get accomplished. 

The temptation of my phone buzzing with alerts from instagram and texts and what not is such that I have no will power over it and tend to give in wasting anywhere from 5 to 15 minutes at a time swiping thru apps now that im on my phone. When you think about it thats a big waste of time. 

So what am I supposed to do about it? Well first of all I gotta have more will power to say NO I AM BUSY RIGHT NOW and be ok with the fact that my time is indeed blocked off for something that I truly want to get done that is part of my creative process. That happens to involve my podcast, my blog, even some social media to help with the previous projects. 

Honestly putting together the newest podcasts has been extremely difficult. Its frustrating and insanely time consuming. No, thats not me giving up or complaining, those are just the facts. Having a podcast is no simple task and i fully understand that now more than ever. 

So after reading this book, and I’m not yet done with it I must admit, I have come to a somewhat productive outline for my everyday routine. Now the easy part is done, having an outline of what i should be doing at a certain time of the day, the hard part is going to be making this a routine, and sticking to it daily. Making it part of my life and most of all having self control enough to know and be ok with being busy for whatever part of the day it may be, 

Part of my routine is going to be writing a daily entry into this blog as well as my podcast notes as soon as I finish this editing this episode which i feel has taken me months honestly but its part of the learning curve. 

Anyway, tomorrow is another day and another entry and eventually writing is just going to come natural and which much less of an accent as my podcast has. hahahaha thanks for that feedback btw I had to go back and do so many more edits. 

Anyways ragers, take care and I am working on the podcast. new episode coming soon just a few more tweaks. Till next time, Stay safe Ragers!

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BE

You ever just feel like you’re just being sometimes? I mean being not in the sense of you being yourself or a daughter or a sister or son or father or whatever but actually as in just being, just being alive, just being a part of this insanely big universe?

Im sitting here wondering if these thoughts ever happen to anyone else and also contemplating what it means to me.

Usually after having one of these moments I have this intense moment of clarity where it all makes sense.

Does that make sense?

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New Episodes

Ive been working on a lot of new episodes as well as a new intro and much better edits and content. its taken me some time to get used to the new software and get new edits but I’m really excited to be able to put really good episodes together and have them go up on youtube for people to check out. 

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Working with new equipment and new recording software. Trying to bring better quality sounds to you. #hardwork #edits #newepisodefriday #friday #afewmoredays #hardatwork #podcast #blog #new #interesting #followforfollow #listenforlisten #tellmewhatyouthink #picoftheday #picoftheweek #losangeles #art #artist #voice #spokenword #reflectandgrow #reflection #growth #me #hashtag

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Bumpers.fm/u/hipposzoo check it out and share your input. Feel free to email [email protected] would love to hear what you think. #podcast #free #fun #new #losangeles #art #artist #blog #newpodcast #wordoftheday #picoftheday #friday #mood #excited #followforfollow #feedback

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Let our advance worrying become advance thinking and planning

Winston Churchill

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Podcast

So I recently started publishing a free podcast where I’ve been trying to address topics that maybe not everyone is comfortable with talking about.

I have to say honestly its been one really awesome experience putting it together and I can honestly say I see myself doing better and better episodes for everyone to enjoy.

I try to be as real as possible on this podcast and talk about my own experiences so you can relate to someone at least.

If you don’t relate to me maybe you have a different experience and relate to the topic in a different way and that is what’s so cool about this is that everyone may have a different experience and provides different input.

I want to start a conversation about things, I want people to provide input and their own thoughts and reasons so that our conversation maybe helps someone either start their own healing journey, continue on it, or even come to the best place they have been in life so far.

Putting a podcast together really is no piece of cake. There has to be ample time and effort spent in preparation even before you can even begin a recording.

I have enjoyed putting them together very much. I’ve never been much of a talker and its been really fun to hear the reactions of those people who have known me for some time but didn’t know intimate details until they heard them on my podcast.

I’ve always been fairly reserved, always kept to myself, didn’t really let anyone in. Recently though, I think for the past year or so i have been on a path of growth and improvement. This podcast has helped me tremendously in that.

I want to be able to keep doing this, and bring better episodes to where i can include other people to join me.

I think the more i think about it and go over my options the ability to use Patreon is amazing.

I am starting a Patreon page for my podcast because it is going to give me the ability to put in the work, time and effort into bringing you quality work as well as provide EXTRAS for those who become patrons for me. I want to include you guys as much as possible in my process and the best way to give back the opportunity to do that is to use Patreon.

I hope to be able to bring you guys extra goodies as fast as possible and i hope you guys enjoy the podcast. I have a few episodes up now on Bumpers. WWW.BUMPERS.FM/U/ITSAZOO . Please keep an eye out for my Patreon page coming soon theres so many good things coming on there.

As you guys can tell I am super excited for this adventure that i am trying to share everything with you guys now. HAHA I will retouch on these topics more as i go along. Thanks for your patience.