What are you wanting?
A simple yet extremely complicated question in my opinion , regrading life, regarding a relationship, regarding myself… maybe instead I’ll start with who I am…
Who am I? I am a mom, a friend, A Sister, A Daughter, A lover, A partner,A wife, A Granddaughter, a business women, an artist…what do those mean
A mom- taking care of our baby, helping her grow and thrive in life (feeling about that failure)
A Friend- someone who is there when the going gets tuff and there for emotional support that they can get from their family.. (feeling about that: lost)
A Sister- someone who you grow up with the “first friend” in your life also a brothers keeper (feeling: indifferent)
A lover: a comfortable jacket one that been warn a few times (feeling: content/ that’s a lie)
A partner- is supposed to be someone who is with you giving what you can’t and vice Versa 80/20 30/70 someone who is in capable of picking up the prices when the world is wrong.(feeling: overwhelming)
A wife- locked together for life and possibly more, ( feeling: unsure)
A Daughter-a mothers mini-me, a Best Friend,mothers secret keeper (feeling: caged)
A Granddaughter: servant. (Feeling: indifferent)
A business Women: starting a small business, hand making things overwhelmed, underwhelmed, (feeling:drowning)
An artist: is to make things and try not to hate what you make, and then confidently slide into the business women mask and sale yourself and your work. (Feeling: suffocated)
Sigh there’s still so much to unpack but my mind and thought are erratic and chaotic. Deep thoughts are for another day. Maybe next post can be something easier 8/21/22
