Moi, You Needn't Know More

Yes, I give autographs, no I don't do photographs, yes, you saw me in that magazine and no, I'm not stupid, so sashay away.

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

You aren’t an idiot.  We can figure it out together, yeah?

[puteacrack]

Too much talking. More touching. You taste good. 

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

Then you can understand why I would feel the same thing.

Of course we can.  I’m always yours.

[puteacrack]

Yes. I don't like it. 

Good. I love you, Nathan. Even if I'm an idiot. And have no idea how to do this...relationship thing. 

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

I want you to think about it … If I were miserable, would you be happy?

I’m not saying I’m going to be miserable because you are, but I’m not going to be completely happy when you aren’t.

Thank you, I wouldn’t want you to change.  

[puteacrack]

NO! NOT FOR A SECOND! I'LL BUY YOU AN ISLAND, I'LL...DO ANYTHING. ANYTHING. So long as you're happy. 

Can we snuggle and kiss? I want to make you mine tonight. 

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

I am your sub, I am supposed to serve. Why can’t that include listening to you? Or offering help?  I don’t see how that makes you any less my dom, or me any less of a sub.

Yes, if that’s the truth. Then yes that’s exactly what I want to hear.  Does it hurt? Yes.  But only because I love you.  How can you hold all of that in, and not expect me to see it, or want to help?  

You can either tell me those things, or let me walk around worrying about you. Because you may be my dom, but you can’t magically change my disposition.  

I love you, Andrew.  I want to help.  But I can’t give you keep shutting me out.  And shutting me out is way worse than listening to what you have to say.  

I am not a weak person.  Submissive doesn’t equal weak.  Don’t treat me like I am.  

And you are not weak, so don’t go there.

[puteacrack]

I don't want to burden you or distract you from your studies, especially your music, Love. I want you to be happy even if I'm going through a miserable time because you're the only reason this is all bearable. 

I love you too. No more shutting you out. And I don't equate you with weak...at all...have you seen your arms? I'm sorry, Nate. 

If I could, though...If I could magically change anything about you, I wouldn't. 

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

I’m not leaving.  I told you I wasn’t.  You are going to have to start talking to me and stop pretending things are fine when they aren’t.  I’m not stupid, Andy. I can’t handle all the back and forth of not knowing what’s going on.  

You aren’t impossible to respect. But, I’m starting to feel angry that you seem to not trust me, or something.  I don’t know what it is, but I constantly feel like there is always something you aren’t telling me.  Part of my rules were being honest.

I think I deserve the that in return.

[puteacrack]

I don't think you're stupid, Nathan. I seriously, really, truly don't, but I am your Dom, and it's not your job to worry yourself with my problems. 

I do trust you, nathan but what am I supposed to say? "Everyone I cared about turned their backs?" "The only person who still cared is dead?" Oh, I know! "I'll be meeting your family and have nothing to show you of my own." What is it that you want to hear? Because I wont say that I cry when you're not here and I'm not going to say that I feel like I'm drowning and that I can see people on the surface but nobody ever extends a hand to help me. I'm not going to tell you about the string of nightmares I have every single night and that I'm terrified of annoying you by hanging around too much because without you I'm just lonely.

So tell me, what is it that you want to hear?

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

Yes, you weren’t honest.  Instead of saying “Nathan I can’t be there anymore"  You just told me to move back to my own dorm.

You know what … Everything is not perfect.  You keep saying not to worry.  That’s bullshit.  You are all over the map on what you want.  I feel like you are deliberately pushing me away.  I’m trying my hardest to be respectful, but it’s getting very difficult.

[puteacrack]

I thought it would be easiest for you that way. Nathan, I love you. When you're in rehearsals I find that I claw at my own skin to keep myself from bursting in to listen or to be closer to you. I don't like the idea of you being anywhere without me. Ever. 

I'm not pushing you away, or at least I'm not trying. That would be terribly stupid to do given I have nobody else. If this is too difficult to believe, if I am impossible to respect, I'm okay with that, I won't punish you for not respecting my current choices nor do I expect you to understand something I myself don't.

...But please don't leave me. 

[puteacrack]

Text || Banned

Sebastian: Drew...you know that's a bad idea. And hiding it from him is worse.

Sebastian: Just be careful who you get it from. I have numbers if you need them.

Andy: Whatever.

Andy: Enjoy New York.

[puteacrack]

Text || Banned

Sebastian: He can't not know, Drew. It doesn't work that way.

Sebastian: Especially not if you love him as much as you claim to, because he will figure it out and you are going to end up breaking your own heart.

Sebastian: Don't destroy yourself like that, Babe. Please.

Andy: Fine, so I'll do it while he's in class.

Andy: Don't call me "babe," Sebastian. I have a name, just like you do.

Andy: On second thought, I'll find molly myself. Don't need your help.

[puteacrack]

Text || Banned

Sebastian: . . .

Sebastian: If I get you some, will you swear not to roll unsupervised?

Andy: What?

Andy: No. But Nathan's here so I wont be alone. He just...wont know.

[puteacrack]

Text || Banned

Sebastian: Drew, you know I know you better than that. You do care. And I've been being a complete ass lately.

Sebastian: More than usual.

Sebastian: Kurt and I will probably go to the apartment or something next week after we've moved to our new dorm, but if you want to talk to me, give me a time and place and I'll be there.

Sebastian: If you want to talk to him about what a prick I am, that's fine, too (though he's well aware of the fact; I honestly don't know why he puts up with me).

Sebastian: Love you.

Andy: No idea what you're talking about.

Andy: At all. Have fun in New York.

Andy: I left my molly in the dorm, do you know anyone who can sell me a roll?

[puteacrack]

Text || Banned

Sebastian: I owe you an apology

Sebastian: Or several

Sebastian: But I don't know if you would prefer them in writing, over the phone, in person, or for me not to speak to you at all.

Andy: You do? What did you do?

Andy: Anyway, I don't care. I'm at the beach, I'll talk to you later.

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

I will find a way to make it work. I … don’t … I can’t be away from you like that.  I want to be where you are, and it just … I wish you could have just been honest about it.

[puteacrack]

I...wasn't honest? When? Nathan, I decided to move the hell away from there about thirty minutes ago. When I asked you to join me for the night. It's not something I've been thinking about. If you move here...you'd have to wake up far too early, you would be able to practice at school for as long as you usually do...I don't want to hurt you or your music.

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

Move back?  Are you serious?  You just asked me to move in. I … you know what, I have no idea what you are thinking at times.  You didn’t think that would hurt me at all? Oh by the way, move in, but … oh, nevermind, I won’t be there.

You said you’d try not to run away, and that’s exactly what you are doing.

[puteacrack]

I'm sorry. I know I...I don't want to hurt you, Nathan...I'm actually not trying to run away from you. If you could move into the apartment and make it to classes I'd encourage you to come here, and you can if you want I...want to be with you. I just don't want to be there. 

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

Family isn’t just defined by blood you know. I know you aren’t ashamed of me.  

[puteacrack]

Yeah, I know. It doesn't matter, though. I just wanted to make sure you knew. Because I love you...That said...I think...maybe you should move back to your own dorm, or mine if you want, I don't mind. I think I'll be staying at the apartment for a while and it's a bit far for early morning classes. 

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

Andy - I’m not collared to your family, if you want to find them, that’s fine.  If you don’t, that’s fine.  I’ll be your family.

[puteacrack]

There's not point in finding them, they'll only smile and pretend everything is okay and then accidentally forget to invite me to any holidays. Family's...over-rated anyways. I just didn't want you to think I was ashamed of you or anything along those lines. 

[puteacrack]

Just Because- Private || Nandy

[nate-berry-sub]

No, it’s just who they are.  Everyone should be as accepting.  I don’t take it the wrong way.  Not everyone has what I have at home, I’m very lucky.

[puteacrack]

Yes, you are...It's not about them judging you, though. They would love you, you're...normal. Me, not so much. I don't even know where they live now, so...I mean...I would take you...but...If you want to, I could find out where they are, I guess. 

[zayn-saelau]

Okay. That's enough for today.

[zayn-saelau]

Oh. Yeah. I know.

[puteacrack]

Sweet dreams, Doll.