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2/13/2020 was the last time I looked like myself, although I hadn't felt like myself in a very long time. I lost myself. But I'ma find that bitch, because, NO. Mental illness or no, I ain't got the time to be anything but 100%, organic, unfiltered me. Even on my worst days I can't forget the weird, wonderful space unicorn I discovered so many years ago. She's all I've got if I ain't got shit else. On that note #pleasestandby 🦄

an actual footage of me "taking life one day at a time"

hello 💚✨ #sundayfunday #memorialdayweekend (at Cedarbrook, Philadelphia) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx73cH_HBBa/?igshid=148rl8p93s5v0

#sundayfunday #memorialdayweekend

#HAPPYMOTHERSDAY 💐💕 each and every one of you is a goddamn goddess! ..no matter how you became somebody's momma you are valid, beautiful and badass ❤ this is your day.. enjoy it! #moms #stepmoms #fostermoms #grandmoms #greatgrandmoms #mothers #goddesses Shout out to my momma, my birth mother, my mother-in-law and my Nana and Queen Granny .. and also to my beautiful babies, Noella, Imogen and Josef.. without you all, I would not be the mother I am today #iloveyou https://www.instagram.com/p/BxYAwoKHBCd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=xdlotdk5slod

#happymothersday #moms #stepmoms #fostermoms #grandmoms #greatgrandmoms #mothers #goddesses #iloveyou

#pyxilationray breaks the intranets with @tpain and a blood orange 👀🍊❤ #dancing #feltlikeit #mood #sometimesidance 💃🏽 #updown #tpain #singer #songwriter #performer #dancer #queen #goddess #diva #jawn #fun #fruit #bloodorange #hips #curves #multitalented #dance #bodypositivity #phillyartist #philadelphia #pennsylvania #newjersey #newyork #likeforlikes #followforfollowback (at Philadelphia, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuafssIn2mA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1e8kmu3jgnkww

I'm not like everyone else. I don't think the way they do. I don't operate the way they do. My intentions are always good even when I'm in a bad place. I carry so much pain but all I know how to do is love. I understand the skepticism, just not the abuse. All I know how to do is love.

"Life is short. Poison them. "

-Pyxilation Ray

soft humming in the dark

I could spend forever in this room yet every passing second is robbing me of my desire for forever. Every minute, the world outside grows more overwhelming. I long for something more. I long to see faces and exchange words. I long to find my place in the world outside. I dread having to return to this room unsuccessful, defeated once more. I listen to the hum of solitude until it puts me to sleep. Maybe tomorrow my feet will touch the floor and I'll find my way out. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.