Welcome to the psychotic space of my mind aka Lilie's
♡♡♡ Mostly Love and ♡♡♡
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Married to Zayne , in Love with Sylus , have beef with Rafayel (nothing too serious dw I love my fishie 🎀❤) , wanna get railed by Xavier on top of a building with the stars above us (WHOA who said that !!?) .
Masterlist
Love and Deepspace.
Fics
♡ Wine Pon you
♡ On the first snowfall
♡ Heartless
♡ Fill the void
♡ Love & War
Short drabbles
◇ Find you in every lifetime
◇ I trusted you but you doomed us All , just for her
What's everyone's favourite flowers that aren't like. The normal ones. Like everyone's a fan of roses and sunflowers what's a more niche one. One you don't get in gift sets. Mine's sweet peas
Sneak peek into my Enjin fic because I am losing the will to finish it.
Tag: Enjin x fem reader, Grish cameo.
The next following days were almost the same, waking up, eating, train and by train you mean physical training, you didn’t need it truly, but you couldn’t pass on the opportunity of having Grish train you.
You still haven’t joined the cleaners officially, so you almost had nothing to do; besides this worse-than-a-trash-beast of a man still held your beloved Raquel captive in his dirty hands.
“Careful Grish, those kicks could snap you in two”
Talking about the pest
You turned your head to see Enjin standing in the corner, looking infuriatingly hot as ever with a cigarette in hand as he watched you and Grish train spar.
“I am going easy on him, though” you said as you ran a hand through your sweaty hair. “Want to taste what I can really do?” you tilted your head at him, eyes burning with a dangerous glint.
“Sorry I don’t fight pretty girls” he shook his head, leaning his chin against the handle his umbrella.
“you’re just afraid I’ll beat your ass black and blue” you scoffed, not backing down.
“Remember how it ended last time” he retorted causing you to grit your teeth at the stinging reminder while Gris looked between the 2 of you like he didn’t want to be there
“I just remembered that Frollo asked me to help him train today so I’ll leave you 2 alone” Grish tried to excuse himself, but you stopped him before he could escape.
“I want my revenge” you declared firmly causing Enjin to raise an eyebrow at you. “If I won” you continued “I want Raquel back”
“Raquel?”
You internally facepalmed yourself at the look of disbelief on their faces before before groaning out.
“Heo! My vital instrument”
“ooh” they exclaimed in unison
“Your revolver” Enji grinned before propping his umbrella on his shoulder “and what’s in it for me if I won?”
“I might do whatever you say for a week” you replied as you crossed your arms over your chest, drawing his gaze automatically to the plump breast exposed by your shirt neckline
“Hmm I don’t work with possibilities, Princess” he tutted making you sigh
“Fine I’ll do whatever you say, now bring it on!” you hissed. already shifting into a defensive stance.
“So impatient” he drawled out before tossing his umbrella to Grish “don’t trip on your scarf this time, Princess” he quipped teasingly making you grind your teeth in anger.
Grish watched half amazed and half concerned as you swung kicks and punches around, each move controlled like a dance, step after step while Enjin effortlessly dodged every single one of your attacks.
“Will you stop dodging like a bitch and actually fight?” you snarled as you attempted to kick him again
“Told ya, I do not fight pretty girls” he retorted before grabbing your leg to stop you, but you were quick on your feet to wrap the other around his shoulder and slam him into the ground.
“Well, thanks for the compliment but I won” you smirked deviously as you looked down at him pinned between your legs. He didn’t seem unhappy at all; on the contrary he was grinning ear to ear like a cheshire cat.
“You really got a thing for pinning guys with your legs” he huffed, hands braced around your thighs -to stop you from suffocating him, he tells himself and not because he loved how soft they felt beneath his calloused palms.
“Only smart ass” you leaned down to whisper to him, hands tugging at his soft locks , relishing in the husky groan that left his parted lips at your touch. “besides your face is way too pretty, to not be in between my legs”
Oh, this actually made him blush, a faint hint of pink dusting his cheeks as he felt his breath stutter.
You were good, unfairly so.
The sound of Grish clearing his throat made you both realize that you were unfortunately not alone, and you were still straddling Enjin’s face like you owned it.
You quickly got off him like his mere presence burnt you, standing up to your 2 feet as Grish eyed you both with a knowing look in his eyes.
“It seems like she won fair and square” he patted your shoulder softly, but the light touch was enough to make you jolt.
“yeah” Enjin drawled out as he stood up, dusting his coat lightly with an annoyed huff. “I guess I have to honor my end of the deal” he sighed as he pulled your vital instrument from his coat.
Your eyes lit up at the familiar sight of your precious weapon, your heart lurching at the idea of having her back after so long. Your Hands were already reaching towards him, itching to run your hands over it, feel the slick metal under your fingertips and-
“but” your lips almost trembled when he stopped abruptly keeping it just out of reach, your inner voice screaming noooo in agony. “You have to promise me to not shoot me again or any of our comrades to that matter.”
You were planning to take him down as soon as you got your hands on Raquel but anyway.
“What made you think I’d attempt to shoot you just after I get her back?” you scoffed, but the pointed look he gave you clearly showed he didn’t believe you at all.
“fine” you sighed tipping your head back, already feeling the premise of a headache “I promise”
“Show me your hands”
“What are you? six?” you grumbled out in exasperation before lifting your hands up reluctantly “I promise to not shoot you”
For a while at least.
“Good girl” he teased, voice low and amused before tossing the gun at you.
You caught it with both hands, exhaling a sigh of relief as you dusted it off.
“finally,” you whispered before cocking the gun and aiming it straight at Enjin’s stunned face
“heh! You made a promise” he yelled while Grish placed 2 firm hands on your shoulders.
“don’t do anything reckless now” he murmured softly, his deep voice making your brain foggy for half a second before lowering your gun.
“I wasn’t planning to shoot you” you deadpanned at his horrifying stare “just trying to see if I still had a good aim” you shrugged with a small smirk.
None of the two men were convinced by your words but you didn’t care anyway. You had your vital instrument back and that’s all mattered.
A/ N : sorry for going missing but college has been such a pain in my ass . Since tonight I am feeling mad for some reason here.
"I am sorry"
"You really think that's gonna suffice" you glare defiantly at your towering boyfriend, chin raised up and arms folded over your chest.
He let out a small sigh before bringing his arms to rest on either side of your head against the wall behind your frame, caging you in.
"What should I do more then ?" He asked in an almost pained voice , head leaning down to rest against your shoulder
You grinned almost imperceptibly, hands still crossed over your chest, refusing to move an inch.
"On your knees" your words were firm , abrupt not even an ounce of teasing in it as you watch his face drop in slight disbelief before a slow smirk crept on his kissable lips.
"If it's what you want, then" those were the last words he spoke before he slid to his knees right in front of you , hands trailing against your clothed skin.
Your frown wavered for a second to leave place for surprise, but it completely disappeared when you felt his nose tracing shapes on the bare skin of your thighs
"Is this better?" He asked in a low husky voice , words muffled in the plush of your thighs, hot breath sending shivers down your spine but still you didn't melt, not just yet.
"No" you huffed stubbornly causing a throaty laugh yo escape him.
"Hmm" he hummed against your skin before leaving a small kiss on the inside of your thigh, big strong arms bringing it over his shoulder "what about now?"
His kisses were slowly chipping away at your sanity and you even forgot why you were mad at him in the first place but honestly it didn't matter anymore. Not when he looked so good on his knees for you and you were high off the power you had in this moment.
"I am still mad" you grumbled out but it came out as a breathy whimper that made him grin
"Still mad you say?" He murmured, voice dripping with faux innocence before nipping softly on your skin "I can't have my girl upset can I ?"' he chuckled before starting to leave open mouthed kisses on the inside of your thighs, tongue tracing weird patterns on your skin that felt like letters while he made his way up up to where your sleep shorts were riding up.
He looked up at you through his lashes , taking in the sinful view of you writhing underneath his touch , lips parted and head thrown back against the wall as you slowly rocked your hips against his face.
"You don't look really mad" his voice was all smug tease, tongue spelling out a messy "I am sorry" on your skin over and over until you were a whimpering mess.
"Nghh~ if I said I forgive you. Will you rip those off me and eat me out properly" your cute glare and the bite in your voice made his cock throb with an intensity that should be concerning but now he didn't give a flying fuck.
"Anything for my girl" he smiled , eyes lighting up like a puppy before standing up to scoop you up in his arms and throw you on the bed
Author's Note: I'm so sorry for the late upload, had some personal stuff come up, but my zayne girlies must be fed!! Thanks for being patient and understanding, ilysm!!! Check Out The Artist! (Artist & Original Post)
Silence is special: Zayne doesn’t fill space with noise. He doesn’t rush to answer, doesn’t speak unless it matters. But when he’s with you, his quiet isn’t distance: it’s presence. He listens in a way that makes you feel known. He answers you in hums, in looks, in the soft press of fingers against your wrist when he wants you close. And when he does speak, it’s always exactly what you needed to hear.
Care = Love : He notices everything. The faintest crease in your brow, the way your hands tremble when you're overstimulated, the slight hitch in your breath when something’s off. He doesn’t ask “Are you okay?” He just hands you your noise-canceling headphones. Or dims the lights. Or puts a blanket over your shoulders without a word. Every gesture is purposeful, because he never wants to get it wrong with you.
Something sweet for you (always): Zayne has a soft spot for desserts: little candies, pastries, anything warm and sugary. But ever since you came back into his life, he’s started saving the best bites for you. You’ll find them tucked into your bag, left on your desk, set aside with your name written on a sticky note. He doesn’t say why. He just thinks of you, and his first instinct is to give.
Because when he thinks of comfort — he thinks of you.
Time bends for you: Zayne’s schedule is brutal. Meetings, surgeries, research. He rarely stops. But if you say you miss him; even offhand, he’ll rearrange everything. Suddenly, he’s at your door. “I had a break,” he’ll lie, even though you know he moved his whole day around. Just for an extra hour with you. Just to sit beside you in silence and breathe a little easier.
Overall: Quality Time (Giving & Receiving)
You’re sitting on the couch, legs tangled, doing nothing in particular — and he looks over at you like it’s the only place he ever wants to be.
“You don’t get bored just... being here with me?” you ask.
Zayne blinks, like the question doesn’t compute.
“No,” he hums softly. “This is what I look forward to.”
Someone please summarize Death and rebirth main story for me . I am full time college student and my phone is too old to actually play Lads , I can't watch the video on YouTube because I don't have the time. So a kind soul please please please tell me what on earth is going on with my hubbies
You were just trying to push him back playfully, hands on his chest as he teased you relentlessly, grinning like a devil. But he leaned forward at the exact wrong moment, and your palm connected—not with his shoulder, but squarely with his face.
There was a sickening little “thump.”
Then silence.
“Oh my god—Xavier!” you gasped, rushing to him as he stumbled back, hand instinctively flying to his nose. “I didn’t mean—Are you okay? I’m so sorry—Xavier, shit, you’re bleeding—”
Panic flared in your chest as you reached for him, trying to tip his head back, your hands fluttering uselessly. “I didn’t think—I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I swear I wasn’t trying to—”
But then he looked up at you.
And smiled.
That lopsided, heat-slicked grin that melted your words right off your tongue. His nose was bleeding, face flushed, but his eyes—half-lidded, dazed, hungry—locked on yours like you were the most intoxicating thing he’d ever seen.
“Oh...wow..” he murmured, almost in awe. “that was…”
He licked a drop of blood from his upper lip, and his smile deepened, that dazed, turned-on look spreading across his face. “That was really hot...”
Your jaw dropped, he can not be for real right now...right??Maybe you accidently gave him concussion too, he is probably deluded from pain an—
He tilted his head slightly, his hair sticking to his damp forehead, and that pleased, breathless grin widened. “You get so worked up when you’re worried,” he murmured, leaning forward, and you couldn’t tell if the tremble in your hands was from guilt or the way he was suddenly looking at you like that.
“…You gonna kiss it better?”
Saw this piece of a masterpiece by juyo (in tumblr @stardustdusting) and had to get out of bed at 5 am to write about this. (JUST LOOK AT HIM GAWWD)
Earlier I shared one of my fics with a friend of mine and he was like "oh , there's no sex in it . That's impressive!" SIR I AM NOT JUST A WALKING SACK OF HORMONES YOU FUC-
Pairing : Caleb x non MC reader
Content :rough sex , aphrodisiac sex , oral sex (fem receiving) , slight bondage, inappropriate use of evol , slight exhibitionism, unprotected sex, MC's cameo , reader evol is mentioned, porn with plot , creampie (use protection guys )
Wk: 6.9 k (MF *side eye* )
Synopsis : when you fled on that island to save your comrade you didn't expect it to turn into forced vacation with the very reason of your jealousy.
Part 2 to Heartless
A/N: this part 2 wasnt planned but Caleb got me feeling some type of way . I need this man to rail me on top of a desk with his uniform still on and Call out my name playing in repeat in the BG. (Zayne be filling papers divorce after he heard me say that)
Now playing: Fill the void by The weeknd and Lily Rose Depp.
Masterlist
Fill the void.
Maybe that’s what you were desperately trying to do with Caleb’s presence in your life. Fill the enormous void in your heart and soul.
You didn’t know who avoided who at this point. Was it you or him? Who cared, anyway? He had his pipsqueak back. You just minded your own life and business now.
“It seems there isn’t anything wrong with that area,” you heard Commander Ash’s voice crackle through your headset.
“They must be hiding. Keep looking,” you replied, voice cool and controlled as your eyes scanned the real-time images from his UAV camera feed.
Usually, missions involving Protocurve anomalies fell under the Hunter Association’s jurisdiction, but the unusual readings near the Farspace Fleet-controlled zone warranted your team’s intervention. The fluctuations were too erratic, too dangerous to ignore.
A sudden crash broke through the static, followed by a sharp burst of white noise. Then, silence.
“Commander Ash! Can you hear me?” Your voice pitched higher as your fingers scrambled over the console. “Ash, respond!”
No answer.
Shit.
Ripping the headset off, you spun out of the command room, ignoring the shouts of other soldiers as they tried to stop you.
“Lieutenant General! Protocol requires—”
“I need Hershley 4543 prepped and ready for immediate departure!” you barked, cutting them off as you stormed into the hangar.
“Ma’am, that’s against—” the mechanic stammered, stepping forward.
“No buts! One of our own is out there, and I am not leaving him behind,” you snapped, your voice razor-sharp, thought your hands were trembling betraying the panic bubbling just beneath your façade.
“Make it two.”
The mechanic hesitated for a moment, then nodded, shrinking under your unwavering gaze. “Understood. We’ll have it ready in five.”
…*...*...*...*...*...*...
You climbed into the cockpit of the Hershley 4543 -a sleek reconnaissance aircraft equipped with stealth capabilities and advanced tracking systems. The roar of the engines was deafening, but it grounded you. You went through the pre-flight checks with practiced efficiency, hands flying over the controls as the team cleared you for takeoff.
Rushing into danger like this was beyond reckless. You knew that. But Commander Ash was an ally -a friend even, though you’d never admit it aloud.
“Flight control to LTG,” a voice crackled in your ear. “Tracking a spike in Protocurve readings at your target location. You sure about this?”
You flicked the comm switch. “I’ll handle it. Just keep the airspace clear.”
…*...*...*...*...*...
The flight to the designated zone was uneventful—eerily so. The clouds parted to reveal an expanse of barren terrain. From the air, everything seemed peaceful. Too peaceful.
You adjusted the thermal imaging on your monitor, scanning for any sign of Ash or the Wanderer he’d been tracking. The anomaly readings were spiking, but there was no visual confirmation.
“Come on, Ash. Where are you?” you muttered under your breath, gripping the controls tighter.
A loud thud made your ears perk up , your senses in high alert as you heard a faint curse.
What the actual fuck ? you quickly took off your headset ,shifting the commands on automatic pilot mode before standing up to explore what on earth was happening in the back of your plane.
Your steps were as silent as the plane 2 minutes ago and you were starting to think the curse you heard earlier was just a trick of your imagination .As you approached the source of the noise , your right hand reached for your sidearm.
You opened the curtain separating the rest of the plane from the cockpit ,gun raised and ready only for your eyes to fall on that hunter girl .
What was Caleb's pipsqueak doing aboard an Airforce plane ?
“What the fuck are you doing here?” You heard your voice said , your eyebrows furrowing in a confused frown that had the girl in front of you gasping.
You didn't lower your gun even as she scrambled onto her feet, her hands raised in surrender.
“Don't shoot , I am not an enemy” her voice was a pitched squeal that had your irritated nerves fraying further.
“This is an Air Force operation , why are you here?” You asked after finally lowering your gun , the sigh of relief that left her lips didn't escape you.
“I heard there is a wanderer involved and I happen to be a hunter so I thought I could help”
You scoffed at her words before placing your gun back in the holster.
“And you think boarding without permission on an airplane during an important mission is helping” you hummed sarcastically as you made your way back to the cockpit
Her hands curled into fists at your blatant dismissal , a small frown etched on her features as she followed closely behind you .
“I am here to help” she repeated, her voice edged with an hint of frustration “not to be a burden”
“Just you standing there and breathing is already a burden for me” you bit back before placing your headset back on, though your tone was cool and controlled the venom dripping from your words stung harder than she cared to admit .
Just her existence was already a burden you thought, eyes flickng back to the faint signal that appeared on your screen.
If she was the least offended by your words, she didn't show it . After all, you were known among the Farspace fleet for your temper and sharp tongue. And despite being there only for a short amount of time , she seemed to have already picked up that information.
She leaned against your seat to peer up over your shoulder at the monitoring screen where you could see the faint signal of Ash's locator
What does she think she's doing ? The poisonous look you gave her would have probably sent her 6ft deep underground if only looks could kill but it didn't even make her flinch.
“If you're planning to tag along stay out of my sight unless you want to find out what happens when you jump off a plane without parachute” your icy tone and the not so subtle menace in your words made her gulp audibly but she didn't leave as you hoped, instead to your growing irritation she plopped herself in the co-pilot seat beside you , her eyes scanning over the command board like a curious child.
Just what the heck is wrong with her ?
Whatever ! you shook your head before focusing back on the beeping signal of Ash's locator on your screen
As long as she kept her mouth shut , Everything would be fine . You'd just have to pretend she wasn't there.
But of course she wouldn't keep her mouth shut .
“I can sense something” she whispered mostly to herself as she stared at the beeping hunter watch on her wrist but it didn't escape your ears .
Your eyes flickered towards her for a fraction of second before refocusing back on the monitoring screen where you could see how much closer you were getting to Ash's location .
“Hold tight, hunter. We are about to land” you warned her before preparing for the descent.
She scrambled onto her seat, her hands gripping the armrest for dear life . The sight almost pulled a small smirk from you but you quickly schooled your features back in their usual stoic mask .
…*...*...*...*...*...
Even as you landed on the small island where Ash’s coordinates led you , everything was still peaceful, way too peaceful. Though that hunter girl insisted on the fact she could sense something, your surroundings were nothing short but the picture perfect of a small tropical paradise.
“It must be here” you heard her whisper to herself, her feet pacing back and forth on the shimmering white colored sand as she stared at that damn watch.
“Stop pacing around like that , it's making me dizzy” you finally snapped, making her freeze in her tracks to look at you .
“The signal said that Ash is there” you pointed at the dense forest at the edge of the beach
“But the fluctuations are coming from this wa-”
“We don't give a fuck about the fluctuations” you cut her off ,your voice icy cold as you stepped closer to her “we are here to save my friend and not to play hunter x hunter so either you stay here and get killed by whatever is lurking on this island or you come with me”
She contemplated your words for a moment, her teeth nibbling at the plush of her bottom lip for a moment before she finally spoke
“Go , I'll manage alone” not the answer you expected but if she seemed determined to find this wanderer .
“Very well” you let out a faint chuckle before turning on your heels to head towards the forest where you'll probably find Ash without sparing her a second glance
What ? She thought you'd bring her by a leash after you . She was a grown ass woman that could perfectly manage herself. Well you hope
If anything happens to her , Caleb will be devastated though. That torturing voice muttered in your ear .
Fuck no .
You weren't her damn babysitter and you didn't give a fuck about what Caleb thought or how would he feel if something happened to her . Hell you didn't even give a damn about Caleb anymore.
But even as you told yourself that , your legs were already jogging back to where you left her
“Damn hunter” you muttered as your searched frantically on the beach but she was nowhere to be found , only the clear blue seawater and dusty sand was looking back at you .
Sorry Ash but hunter first then I'll save your ass.
…*...*...*...*...*...
You didn't know for how long you've been roaming endlessly on that island , searching for Ash and that hardheaded hunter. You could easily leave her to perish there . After all it would be quite the sweet revenge to finally satisfy your petty jealousy but you weren't letting anyone die on your watch, not today .
You can always look away. that same persistent voice whispered but you quickly shook it off.
The dead branches creaked beneath your feet as you walked further into the forest , the eerily silence almost suffocating. It was too quiet to be normal. Not even a bird chirping sound ,That was beyond odd.
A faint rustling made your ears perk up , your hand already pointing the gun in whatever direction it came from but to your surprise and relief you found the hunter girl and Ash attached and suspended like sausages by the vines.
No they weren't vines .
“Lieutenant don't get any closer” Ash shouted, his voice laced with concern while the hunter was trying hard kick off those viscous tentacles around her legs .
You raised your gun to shoot but she interrupted you .
“This doesn't work on them, see” she gestured to her gun laying on the grassy ground “wasted my whole magazine while trying to hit it” she sighed , her hands hanging loosely beside her head.
You cursed lowly under your breath before grabbing the blade hidden in your boot to attempt to cut off those damn tentacles like vines or whatever they were.
“Why are you here , Lieutenant?” Ash asked, earning a dirty glare from you .
“Saving your ass, of course” you let through gritted teeth before slashing through the vines to free him.
He fell on the ground with a loud thud , his gloved hand reaching out to massage his head that got hit at the fall.
You stepped over his body to cut off the restraints still curled around the hunter girl. She fell flat on her ass with a small gasp before sitting up.
“Let's not hang around for too long” you suggested already helping Ash standing to his feet
But you knew by the way she was observing the weird vines-like tentacles you would definitely hang around for a while.
“I've never seen a wanderer like that” she whispered fascinately , her hands already reaching out to touch it but you stopped her halfway.
“So what?” You scowled, grabbing her wrist to stop her from touching the weird object “new kind of wanderers appears everyday it's not the moment to play mad scientist, hunter” you tugged her along wanting to get out of this island as soon as possible.
“But shouldn't we kill it?” She asked while you dragged her the further away possible from this wanderer .
“That wasn't our mission, Commander Ash was sent in reconnaissance and I went out of my way to save him” you explained not sparing her a glance while you navigated through the dense foliage with Ash trailing behind you.
She seemed to understand your point thought the unimpressed look she gave you made you want to abandon her in this wanderers infested island.
Yeah maybe you should do that .
But as you were concocting a plan to secretly ditch her and fly away with Ash in your head , A shrieking sound made you grab your gun quickly, eyes roaming around the tall trees as you and Ash almost sandwiched the hunter girl between your bodies , senses in high alert.
“Stay right behind me and don't move” you warned her , your voice low and controlled as your eyes scanned the surroundings area searching for any signs danger.
And then it came , from above a dragon-like wanderer surged from nowhere, his clawed limbs aiming straight toward the hunter girl behind you.
You quickly spun her around to fire at the beast but it dodged your attack with maddening ease.
Fuck.
“Another one!?” you heard her whisper in a ragged voice.
“An enormous one apparently” you spat before recharging your gun.
The dragon wanderer roared again before surging forward, his attack still aimed at the hunter girl.
Just what the fuck did it wanted from her ?
You and Ash continued to shoot at it but it seemed useless , the bullet ricocheted against his scales covered skin with ease.
Shit ,at this rate you'd have to use your evol.
You pulled on the trigger only to realize you no longer had bullets.
Crap
“Commander” you looked over Ash who was hiding behind a tree.
He shook his head , his own magazine empty.
Fuck what do we do ? You looked down at the grass covered ground your mind racing a mile per minutes.
“Maybe I can try to resonate with it” the hunter girl suggested making your gaze snap back at her.
“You have the resonance evol” you and Ash exclaimed at the same time making her look at you with a puzzled gaze .
“Yeah” she murmured, her head tilting slightly to the side in confusion .
You exchanged a knowing look with Ash , your mind conveying the same thoughts .
You'll have to use your evol . Unlike you two Ash wasnt an evolver and your evol , well you hated it or to be more franc you hated to use it because things always ended up spiralling out of control when you did.
But this time you didn't have any other choice and even if you absolutely despised this hunter you couldn't let her die .
Don't get you wrong , if she die it might look bad for your career.
“I am not going to ask you to trust me because I know you don’t and to be honest I do not either so are you ready to risk your life to get out of here Miss hunter?” You asked with an outstretched hand .
An invitation, a deal for the survival of you 3.
She looked longly at your hand before grasping it.
“well ,it's not like I have any other choice” she breathed out before squeezing your hand.
You let an half hearted chuckle before yanking her to her feet to step out from behind the tree you were hiding behind .
You heard the shrieking sound again before catching a glimpse of the dragon surging towards where you were standing .
You can do this. Don't think about the experiment , the thunder , the electroshocks.
Your eyes closed as you felt the burst of energy ran through your body , images of a young girl that wasn't you flashing through your eyes .
Caleb ? Why was he in those memories that weren't yours?
You heard the clap of thunder before the shrieking sound grew louder . Another clap , louder than the previous one and the shrieking sound turned into a faint howl.
You heard a distant call of your name but you couldn't respond, the image in front of you making your gut twist .
Caleb was gently cradling her cheeks as he wiped her tears . So this was what love feel like ?
You could feel everything: how his warm hands glided over her face , the faint words of reassurances he whispered to her , the light kisses he left against her temple . You could feel it all and it hurts, it hurts so bad it had you sinking on your knees.
So this is what it feels like to be loved ?
The sting of a slap wrenched you out of this loop of torture. The heart wrenching images of Caleb consoling his pipsqueak shattering in your mind .
You blinked your vision back only to see the hunter and Ash's concerned faces looking down at you .
“What happened?” You heard yourself ask, your voice sounded hoarse as your eyes roamed around to take on your surroundings . What was once a lush land of tree and foliage was now burned down to ashes.
“Where's the wanderer?” You questioned them
“Dead,” the hunter girl replied in a small and distant voice ,her eyes looking down in a way you didn't like at all .
“2 thunderclap was all it took” Ash added while avoiding your gaze
Why were they acting so strangely?
You hummed in response before standing up . Half of the forest was burned down leaving the giant wanderer laying on the center of it.
You approached it slowly , your steps deliberate as Ash and the hunter observed you from behind , their mind still struggling to comprehend what just happened.
When you were at the dead wanderer's level you crouched down to observe it more closely. A disgusting smell of burnt flesh was coming out of it , the nauseating scent so strong it had you pinching your nose .
But as you observed it ,a glowing light caught your attention making You lean in to take a closer look.
Only when you reached to touch it ,it exploded in a cloud of pink smoke that surrounded you.
You coughed out as you waved it off with your hands but only one whiff made your head spiral uncontrollably. It smelled so addictively good , the piney scent reminding you of Caleb ?
Huh? you quickly shook off your head ,hoping the smell would disappear but it persisted making your mind grow hazier by the seconds.
“Lieutenant” Ash shouted making your eyes snap back to his form who was already jogging towards where you were standing
“We need to leave” he breathed out making you nod in agreement
“Are you alright?” He asked , eyes squinting to observe you more closely, taking in the unusual flush of your cheeks.
“You are right let's go”
“Why wouldn't I be?” You retorted ,voice tenser than you intended. You internally winced at how his face fell at your harsh tone, his eyes darting away awkwardly.
“Let's just get the hell out of this island ” you added with one last glance at the wanderer’s corpse before starting walking ahead
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Ash followed closely behind you , often shooting concerned glances your way as you headed back to the airplane.
Once inside your case worsened further . You felt your body growing more heated by the seconds, your tie feeling too tight around your neck.
You loosened it before running an hand through your hair . Miss hunter (that was the new nickname you gave her) keep shooting you curious glances along with Ash , finding your fidgeting unusual even for the short amount of time she has spent with you.
“Are we arriving soon?” You asked for the nth time, heavy pants leaving your parted lips as you leaned back in your seat.
Why did it feel so hot in here?
“We'll be landing in approximately 32 minutes” Ash responded to your question
32 minutes . that was far too long .You needed to breathe, to drink water , to see Caleb
Caleb ? no , not Caleb
“Fuck” you breathed out before taking off your jacket . The heat feeling too unbearable .
“Are you sure you're alright?” You heard the hunter ask again ,a hint of concern lacing her tone as she watched you struggle with unbuttoning the top 2 buttons of your shirt.
“I am fine” you replied but the way your head was spinning uncontrollably was clearly proving you wrong.
You brushed it off as a side effect of whatever that pink smoke was but when you landed it only worsened to the point you were stumbling toward your office room, leaving the debriefing to Commander Ash .
You still felt like you were burning up , every fiber of your being screaming for a man who didn't even want you need you the way you did.
You closed the door shut before walking over your chair to plop yourself on it.
“What have you done to me Caleb?” You sighed as you leaned your head against your chair , your eyes looking up at the white ceiling as if it had the answers to your questions but it didn't. No one did .
You let out another heavy sigh before discarding your tie on your desk to see if you'd finally breathe properly .
Just as you thought you might be getting some rest from this unbearable heat that have been creeping up on your body your door fled open revealing an angry Caleb .
The sight of him , especially mad made your whole body throb with an intensity that should be concerning but your mind was way too clouded to care.
He stepped closer to your desk , the clicking sounds of his boots along with your thumping heartbeat the only sounds registering in your mind.
“What makes you think taking her on such a dangerous mission was a good idea ?” You heard him say , his voice barely able to contain his anger.
His words cut sharply through your daze , your eyes blinking back to focus on anything but the way his face looked so distractingly attractive
“I didn't take her anywhere” you replied, your voice sounding way too calm and steady for someone who was literally burning in the inside “your pipsqueak boarded on that plane without permission like a grown up” you added earning a scoff from him .
“You expect me to believe she managed to pass all those security guards to board on a plane with you out of all people” he leaned in to rest his hands on your desk , his eyes shining with a possessive gleam that wasnt directed at you but got your heart rate spiking nonetheless .
“What ?” You tilted your head mockingly before raising from your seat to lean closer towards him “you expected me to put a gun on her temple to force her fly away with me on an wanderer infested island only to come back unscathed” you added in a heated whisper against his ear that had his jaw clenching .
“Think wisely Caleb” You scoffed before stepping away from him , attempting to put some distance between you , to quell down the hunger that stocked further inside you the more you inhaled the addictive scent of his cologne .
But Caleb wouldn't let you off the hook this easily . As you walked beside him to head to your office door , he pulled you towards him by wrapping his hand around your wrist.
An embarrassing squeal left your parted lips as you felt your back hit the wooden material of your desk .
“Have I ever told you that jealousy looks awful on you , Lieutenant?” You felt the ghost of his lips against your heated skin as he whispered the words against your neck .
“T-this has nothing to do with jealousy” you heaved out , already panting while he hasn't even touched you yet .
“It doesn't hm?” He purred against the soft flesh of your neck before biting on it hard enough to have you clawing at the edge of the desk “then why have you been avoiding me?”
The question made your eyes widen the suddenness of it too abrupt for your scrambled mind to process .
“Tell me , lieutenant” he pressed, his lips leaving a gentle kiss on the bruised skin he bit earlier .
“You have your pipsqueak back our deal is supposed to be over” you managed to get out between feverish pants.
The flash of disappointment you saw through his eyes had your resolve faltering but the fragment of memories you saw when you resonated with the hunter earlier strengthened it further .
Don't get caught up in illusions. This man wasn't yours.
The realization made a burst of anger spread throughout you , one that had you yanking his hair harshly until your lips crashed against his, all teeth and tongue , drinking him in like a thirsty man in desert that finally found water. Because he was your water , your light , a light that was bound to leave you .
A small hushed plea left your mouth as he parted his lips from yours to trail kisses down on your neck. His hands were everywhere , caressing any inch of smooth skin he could reach
Caleb kissed you back with the same fervor, his gloved hand wrapping lightly around your throat as his mouth devoured yours with a feral intensity. It was messy depraved and desperate.
Your own hands reached out to unbuckle his belt but he stopped you halfway , his hand moving swiftly to bound your wrists with your own discarded tie.
“No touching this time Lieutenant” he taunted, cupping your chin to make you look up at him , the feral gleam in his purple eyes making your cunt throb harder.
“Today you're all mine” he whispered before capturing your mouth in another heated kiss.
How you wished you could be his forever but this would never happen. You were just a sinner and he was your worst sin. The one who will drag you through the pits of hell.
The small kiss he left on your nose was the last thing you felt before he slid down to his knees in front of you , his large hands spreading your legs apart as you tried to steady yourself on top of the desk despite your bound wrists.
His fingers unzipped your pants before sliding them off you , leaving your legs bare for his hungry gaze to admire.
How he has missed this view .
“Look at her” he looked up at you as he ran a gloved thumb along your covered slit “so wet f'me already”
“Still as beautiful as ever , Lieutenant” you heard him whisper in awe, the compliment making you feel even dizzier while your cunt fluttered uncontrollably at his praises .
You could feel his infuriating smirk against your plush fold through the flimsy material of your panties . The way he was so close but so far away at the same time drove you wild in the best way possible.
“Caleb” you whimpered out , your pleading eyes looking down at him in an half hearted glare that made his cock twitch.
“What?” He smirked before peeking the drenched material of your panties in a way that had you throwing your head back .
“What do you need , darling?” The sound of him calling you darling made your hips buck against his face , the sinful moan escaping your lips sounding like music to his ear.
“I need you” the words felt more like a confession than anything and if it wasn't for that weird wanderer based substance in your system you'd probably feel pathetic for baring your soul to him like this but right now as his face was resting between your legs seconds away from feasting ,you didn't give a damn.
The regrets and sermons would come later when you were no longer aching and panting from him .
The heat of Caleb's mouth pulled you out of your musings, the overwhelming sensation making you cry out loud . He hasn't even bothered to take off your ruined panties , his mouth latching onto the flimsy material like he was starving.
He was merciless, the relentless pace making you squeal.
“Oh fuck just like that” you moaned, not even ashamed of the sounds you were making. His tongue rolled over your swollen bud over and over until you were practically in tears .
When you felt like you'd finally reach heaven ,a knock to your door made him stop, his eyes looking up to take in your form.
And shit. The sight of you spread out on your desk with your shirt half buttoned, your skin flushed with heat , panting with tears clinging to your waterline almost had him cumming in his pants .
Such a sight to behold and all for him to see.
Another knock on the door made him let out a small growl against you , clearly not pleased by being interrupted .
“Lieutenant” you heard a worried voice said from the other side “can I come in?”
Commander Ash? Your ears perked up .
Shit shit shit why is here ?
You looked down at Caleb who was already back to work , his fingers finally pulling your ruined panties to the side to suck , lick and nip at your sensitive flesh while you tried your best to stay quiet and gather your thoughts
“Lieutenant” Ash knocked once again “are you alright in there?” his voice was growing somewhat more restless.
“Respond darling” you felt Caleb's nip gently at your clit before looking up at you from where he was kneeling “it's so rude to leave someone hanging hm?” He spat right on your entrance before slurping down the mess.
“ngh_” the sight of him looking so devilishly at you nearly had you cumming right there on his face but he purposely slowed down his pace to maddening kitten licks so you would focus on responding Ash.
But that only made you more restless and frustrated .
“I am fine” you snapped , voice laced with frustration while the man below faintly chuckled before rewarding you with a flick of his tongue that made you groan .
You fought against your restraints so at least you would cover your mouth to muffle your sounds but no matter how hard you tried the knot wouldn't loosen .
Handsome bastard.
“Are you sure?” you heard Ash said , the confusion note in his tone not escaping Caleb's ears.
“You don't really sound well” the sound of the creaking handle made your heart rate pick up ,your stomach curling into knots with a mixture of fear and arousal that has fresh waves of your beading juices gushing around Caleb's tongue.
You didn't lock the door and he could barge in at any moment.
“Dirty girl” he muttered faintly against your plush folds , sticking strands connecting his lips to your pussy .
You bit down on your lips to not let out a loud moan , the squelching sounds of your cunt along with your barely concealed moans leaving no doubt of what was happening inside there . Thought one thing was clear , Ash was clearly wrestling with the handle that wouldn't budge Thanks to Caleb's evol.
“I am fine truly” you attempted to speak again but the way Caleb was making out with your lips below while his gloved hand rubbed tight circles around your clit made your words came out like breathy whimpers. “Just a bit busy”
You really hoped Ash would get the memo and get the fuck out here before you combusted .
“Ok then” he said, his tone sounding a tad disappointed “I'll see around Lieutenant”
Yeah you'll see her around now go .
You felt a wave of relief wash over you as the sound of Ash's eloigning footsteps finally disappeared leaving only you and the smirking man still buried nose deep between your thighs.
“You're such a dirty little thing , Lieutenant” he rasped out , flicking your clit one last time before raising to his full height .
“And you're such a tease” you scowled before feeling him unbound your wrists.
As soon as they were free you tugged him by his tie to capture his lips in a messy kiss , your mouth sucking lewdly on his tongue , tasting yourself on him.
“We both know you love that tease, darling” he mumbled out between kisses
“No I hate you” you denied ,your grip tightening hard enough on his tie to make him lightheaded and the fucked whimper that left his mouth as you did so made your cunt howl his name in morse code.
If only he knew how right he was
You could feel every hard planes of his body against yours ,even through the material of your half off uniform shirt , the intoxicating scent of his cologne making your head spin.
"Well , we can't say the same about your slutty pussy ,Lieutenant” he panted out with a smirk, his hands gripping your hips so hard they'd probably leave marks.
His words had your cheeks flaming a deeper shade of red but the way you felt your little bundle throb only proved his point
"Unlike you_" he slid his hand down to toy with your already sensitive clit "she's not a smartass" a silent scream left your lips as he curled one thick finger inside your gummy walls .
Your reached for his belt once again and this time he let you had your way, too busy eating out your face and fingering your cunt to stop your wandering hands.
Just this once . You heard this voice whisper again .
Caleb's head fell against your shoulder when he felt your soft hand wrap around his shaft to pump it slowly. Your pace matching his own .
It was hot and heavy in your hand, the leaking precum coating your palm in a sticky mess.
He bit down on the plush skin on your shoulder to muffle his sounds , his hips thrusting in time with your movements while his fingers massaged this spot in your walls over and over
Wanting to get your revenge on the stunt he pulled on you earlier , you slowed down your pace until you could hear his muffled whimpers against your shoulder.
“What's wrong?” You cooed , leaning your head back to stare at him , his cheeks were flushed the prettiest shade of pink , his hair tousled from your ministrations , his kiss bitten lips parted open to let out the hottest sounds you’ve ever heard .
You must been smiling too widely for his taste because the feral glare he shot you made you anything but scared , it only had you more turned on than ever.
But as always Caleb wouldn't let you savor your victory for too long , using his evol as the awful bastard he was to manipulate your hands until they were bound behind your back once again, his fingers slipping out of you with a lewd squelch.
“Nothing's wrong Lieutenant” he rasped out before pulling your legs to wrap tighter around his waist , his pinkish tip teasing your entrance.
“Just thinking about how hard_” he punctuated his words with a rough thrust that had you clawing at his shoulders , the sensation of him stretching your insides too overwhelming. “_I am going to take you” he added in a heated whisper before setting a brutal pace that had your desk shaking maddeningly , important papers scattering on the floor in a mess you'd have to worry about later.
Caleb's hips were merciless, fucking up into you like he hated your gut (as if he wasn't deep in them) . You clung to his uniform jacket sleeve for dear life , afraid you might slip but with how sandwiched you were between the wooden desk and his body you shouldn't be worrying about that.
“Oh fuck” you threw your head back when you felt him hit that exact spot that has you seeing stars , body arching into his to bring him closer. Your hand grabbed at his tie to pull him closer to you as his hips kept pistonning into yours .
“Yeah let me hear you, darling” he placed one hand on the desk beside you while the other pulled your leg over his hip to reach even deeper into you.
Every forceful thrust planted on the bulleyes of your G-spot has your grip tightening on his tie hard enough he could now see white spots blurring his vision .
You were gonna be the death of him , (literally) .
The smell of sex and skin slapping sounds filled the room along with your scream of pleasure and his breathy groans as he literally wrecked you , molding your insides to his shaft until all you can think about was him and only him .
“You squeeze me s’tight” he groaned against your neck , his hips not easing his pace for a second , not when your greedy pussy was sucking him back in so perfectly at every thrust .
His hand that was planted beside you , slid up to wrap around your neck , putting enough pressure on your throat to have your eyes roll in the back of your skull.
“Come for me” he whispered before ducking his head down to bite on the plush skin of your collarbone. The action had you screaming loudly, the waves of pleasure crashing you over you like a sea storm. It was violent, leaving you shaking for several seconds as he continued to drive himself deeper into you , not even stopping when he reached his own high . Sensitive shaft twitching uncontrollably as he painted your insides white .
“Take it all , darling” he whimpered in the crook of your neck , puncturing every words by a sharp bite of his canines.
You sobbed in overstimulation. Your head resting against his chest as you murmured soft pleads for him to stop.
“Shh” he shushed you while kissing away your tears with a gentleness that contrasted his hips below “just take it”
He licked your tears away before kissing you with an unusual tenderness while he continued to fuck you roughly.
You cried out as your second orgasm washed over you ,your whole body convulsing against his as your hand practically tore his uniform jacket with how good it hurts.
Caleb's body jerked against yours, his head dropping in the crook of your neck as he reached his peak for a second time , pace finally slowing down to let you breathe.
You stayed like this for several minutes, wrapped in each other's embrace as you desperately tried to catch your breath.
As the fluffy cloud of pleasure dissipated the ugly truth came back to slap you right back on your face .
You succumbed to the sweet temptation Caleb was once again. Even as you promised yourself you wouldn't get involved with him again , here you were half naked with him still buried deep inside of you.
You attempted to push him off you , the action making him raise his head from the crook of your neck to shoot you a confused look.
The audacity to appear confused. You scoffed internally.
“You should go” you heard yourself say , your voice sounding hoarse from screaming his name too loudly .
His brow knitted together, clearly struggling to understand your point .
“It'll be troublesome if someone find you here” you explained calmly , acting as if he wasnt ramming into you 5 minutes ago.
“I am aware” he replied with that same confused note in his tone, still not making any moves to get the fuck off you.
“Then get off” you glared at him causing him to sigh
“You're trying to run away again” he caressed your legs softly with a pensive look in his eyes.
“I am not trying to run away, you dirtied me with your seed and I just want yo go the bathroom so get the fuck off me” you scowled stil trying to push him away .
Your words earned a barely muffled laugh from him. His eyes gleaming with barely concealed amusement.
“I am sorry” he left a small kiss on your nose that made your heart melt “I thought you'd enjoy the mess”
“Well I don't, so get off” you let out in a small grumble
“You're always so bossy , Lieutenant” he chided softly before picking you up making you wrap your arm tightly around his neck .
“You should ease up a little” he added , carrying you towards your personal bathroom to clean you up.
“And you should know by now that I don't take advices from you” you bit back .
The only thing you should ease is probably a gun down his throat.
“Sure you don't” he said with a small smirk before pushing the bathroom door open with his feet to get you inside.
After cleaning you up in a remotely peaceful silence , Caleb left you alone in your office to muse on your thoughts.
Just when will this madness end?
Just when will you stop being so attached to him? The response was clear : never because no matter how much he hurt you? And how hard you tried to stay away from him. You'll always find your way back . Like a drug addict , you were addicted to him. Addicted to his poison . A poison that will probably end up killing you
