[q-rehs]

we wouldn’t have grown if we didn’t separate. i don’t think it was only what was best for me, but for you. you deserve to be with someone who knows how to love you, and i’m sorry it wasn’t me. or maybe i’m not? because why should i be sorry when there is someone who is better for you than me.

i always wish you are happier. i’ve recognized my shortcomings, but i also know my strengths now. in some world, i know we worked out. but i keep leaving this door unlocked like some sort of reconnection will happen, but i think i know i need to just lock it and throw that fucking key away.

i’ll always miss you, and that’s what i think you don’t get or maybe don’t understand. im reminded of you every day. whether being dumped or being the dumper, neither side is fucking easy. you’ll soon just be a distant memory. it’s crazy when i go through my old photos of us from years ago, remembering that we were so happy at one point, and seeing where we’re at now.

i barely drink these days, i’m in therapy, im busy with work, him, and his kids. i’m happy. i eat better, i’m more to myself than i’ve ever been, and i’m honestly sometimes okay with that.

hope you’re well.

[destroymylife]

[meand-myimaginaryfriends]

[memoryslandscape-deactivated202]

“All beauty is a dream, even if it exists, For beauty is always more than it is. The beauty I see in you Isn’t here, next to me. What I see in you lives where I dream, Far away from here. If you exist, I only know it Because I just dreamed it.”

— Fernando Pessoa, from “All beauty is a dream, even if it exists,” 22 April 1934,  A Little Larger Than the Entire Universe: Selected Poems, ed. & transl. Richard Zenith (Penguin Classics, 2006)

[justdave-deactivated20211107]

“Between what is said and not meant, and what is meant and not said, most of love is lost.”

— Kahlil Gibran

[q-rehs]

I feel like the worst is on it’s way and I know it’s my anxiety talking, but you know when you can just feel shit.

Sigh.

[lovemakesyouwonder]

[q-rehs]

i don’t know what to do.

[q-rehs]

“From then on, you become more and more dope. Feels like I knew you in another life or something. Usually that’s not a good thing for me, but idk about you. You’re different I guess”

[q-rehs]

i’ll never forget when i got this text. crazy how time as flown by

[ouilavie-deactivated20191107]

Bruno Barbey. China. Guangxi province. 1980.

[90377]

Petit-déjeuner complet by Marc Andreu

[q-rehs]

i just want this feeling to stop coming back. i am having a hard time of trying to figure out how to deal with it and i beat myself up about it, even though it’s not my fault. i’m trying to be patient with myself and allow myself to let these thoughts and feelings flow; no matter how tight my chest gets, how difficult i find it to sleep at night, and the little tears that slowly build up and then fall, i remind myself that i am okay. i’m just a big ball of confusion and sensitivity as of late and i don’t feel like myself. sometimes i do, but sometimes... i don’t.

[girlcolour-blog]

kissing is so good and it makes me feel so happy and content. it doesn’t even have to be mouth on mouth kissing just cheek kisses, forehead kisses, holding my hand and picking it up and kissing it I love kisses I want so many

[horrifying]

via weheartit

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[meand-myimaginaryfriends]

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