on AO3 at qianzhangs and on my fallen london sideblog @rosewreathed!
i talk about school for good and evil, hollow knight, genshin impact, and ateez (+assorted other kpop and cpop groups)! hua chenyu has settled into a corner of my mind. here to write fic, stumble through gifmaking, and say words.
tagging system under the cut :]
general:
#* - my originals. probably either fic or gifs.
past URL: @fourleafclovxr
alternate blog: @staryinghao. was for cpop/kpop but i just talk about that here anyway.
SGE tags:
#saderposting - for anything related to august sader, or any of the saders (notably: rhian). and by god i have a lot of posts related to august sader
#roleswap au - evelyn as the seer, august as the powerless half-sibling. leaning into august's history talent and evelyn's potential as an Evil seer (it would not fix her)
#sader lives au - what it says on the can. going to be rewritten at some point. it'll happen eventually, i'm sure.
#modern sader family - also what it says on the can. focuses on rhian (ii) & kei, august, and agatha. may involve fun side tangents about the sader-mistral relationship entanglements!
#rhian seer au - the one where rhian (ii) is mildly prescient, gets claimed by rafal, and gets semi-adopted by august. no one is happy about any of these things.
#sge november prompts - a series i did back in 2024. actually quite a lot of writing in this tag including various sci-fi and canon AUs, and a lot of seer lore. i like this a lot personally!
fallen london tags:
#roseposting - general tag for FLposting that i don't want to put in the main tags. named for my beloved...
#the rose-wreathed archivist - my main FL player character :) for lore about the archivist & the associated parts of me playing fallen london.
someone whose never lived anywhere where malaria / dengue / chikingunya is endemic: we need to love mosquitoes more!!! they're so important to the ecosystem you just need to get over those massive death tolls, the only disease that really needs to be cured is cancer
i know its mostly contrarianism, but the rates at which mosquitoes breed in major cities in the tropics is just as destabilising to local ecosystems lol. surprisingly, every shallow pond, sewer and garden in new delhi was not meant to breed mosquitoes.
to the people in my notes, no the problem with the vaccine against malaria is that it isn't very effective. its about 40% effective and reduces mortality only by 13%. there is basically no treatment for the viral illnesses like dengue or chikingunya. the widely agreed upon option is controlling the spread of the pathogen by its vector. these illnesses lead to about 600k deaths in 2023.
aedes aegypti the specific species that spreads about 53 pathogens is invasive outside north africa. the cutting edge of eradication efforts trialled in brazil is releasing genetically modified male mosquitoes (only the female bites) which self limits the population since their offspring can't survive to adulthood. similar trials for female sterility have been trialled with the malaria causing anopheles genus. these methods have neither the downsides of mass poisoning that insectides do, nor the widespread insectide resistance that mosquitoes eventually develop.
Im enjoying the longevity of tumblrs recontextualization style of humor. a seemingly innocuous post followed by like "posts that a gnome would make" or like "are you a phone"
you'll feel like a total dipshit train wreck and no matter what some girl is gonna see you and think "role model". you can't kill yourself you have to go be clocky in the gas station so a 14 year old can have the trajectory of her life altered forever
as annoying as it is to work fast food, at my previous job one time a kid recognized the theta delta pin on my hat and was so fucking excited because i was the first other therian they had ever encountered offline.
"hey....are you a therian?" "yeah!" "what kind of animal?" "eh, some kinda dog" "😲😀 im like a wolf coyote hybrid" "that's fuckin awesome"
what really drives me nuts is that like. this happens an average of x times per year as a visibly weird person, but we only get made aware of it a small fraction of the time. you can't kill yourself you have to be clocky in the gas station.
Being clocky when i was working as a barista was one of my big joys. Being clocky when i was teaching high schoolers how to play the marimba was my reason for being for half a decade. It sucks how scared I am to leave the house I live in now. But I still need to try and be clocky at the grocery store. I wish i had a job to be clocky at. Being visibly me is one of the most radical acts I'm capable of, and I hope that one day we live in a world where it isn't radical at all.
about three months after i started testosterone, i had to go to auto zone to get a new taillight for my car. the woman who checked me out offered to help me replace it, so we walked outside together to the car
she helped me change it, and when we were done, she asked me if she could ask me a question. when i said sure, it immediately turned into her telling me about how her younger brother had just come out, he was starting testosterone, and she wanted to know how best to support her brother, how to make him feel loved
was i absolutely shocked to have been clocked like that in public? of course! in that moment tho i was so so glad that i was there, that i could help.
i live in the middle of nowhere oklahoma. if someone can see me and feel a little bit of hope, a little less alone? i don't mind being obviously queer so much.
This was one of the things I made a big deal of when I was a teacher. Reinforcing my pronouns (they/them at the time) and engaging with kids who ask a lot of questions will get you a lot of rude comments, but it'll also get you a lot of kids whose eyes brighten at the idea that they're not alone, or learn something about themselves or the world. I keep the letters and cards I was given, and a lot of them mention that seeing something of themselves in an adult gave them confidence to like themselves.
One day I'm gonna go back to the classroom, and I'll be unapologetically trans, for them.
URGH. Emmerich Holyblade and I just went to The Ceremony to receive our RPG Job Titles, and he OBVIOUSLY got Chosen Hero Sword Saint. So now he's gonna set out to kill the Demon Lord of Darkness.
Me? I just got Dark Mage. Honestly, it's pretty rare, but the job opportunities are also limited. You either get into covert assassination or dungeon raiding.
God, just because we're the only two kids in The Village, Emmerich Holyblade automatically assumes this makes us friends. He doesn't even realize I hate him and his stupid smug swordsman ass.
URGGHHHH he just asked me to join his Grand Hero's Party. fuck. I can't just say no if the Grand Holy King himself is gonna payroll us to do this shit. Whatever man. Let's rock till the Demon Lord of Darkness is dead, and then I can retire and never see Emmerich Holyblade again.
Help me. I've been trying to quit the Grand Hero's Party but Emmerich keeps introducing me as his childhood friend to all the new fucking party members. I hate them all.
The tank Ferron Shieldson gives me bro fists hard enough to bruise. Sister Savantha Healier has tripped over her habit ten times in the past hour.
Elfdame Woodsworth the beautiful elf archer huntress keeps dragging deer carcasses to camp. I'm so tired of venison.
I've been trying to have the Grand Hero's Party kick me out, but instead of undervaluing my Super Secret Invisible Debuff Technique (which looks like I'm just standing there) Emmerich Holyblade figured out it stacks with his Five Phoenix Absolution to hit the damage cap.
Outside of combat, I've done a lot of very invisible low-tier work nobody really needs, such as managing all of our finances and inventory, yet they keep fucking including me and praising my efforts when they're having a drink at the tavern.
Emmerich Holyblade spilled some beer on my shadowy cloak when he slung an arm around my shoulder. His breath stinks.
I'm so tired of camping, honestly. Random Farmers and Shit keep inviting us to stay with them for the night, but their beds suck and I hate the food.
Our reputation really soared when we stopped one of the Four Demonic Kings of the East North South and West from destroying Capital City of the Holy Church Kingdom Nation.
Emmerich Holyblade insists my 70% Paralysis Debuff clutched the entire encounter despite dealing the Super Cool Omega Finisher, so everyone's asking me for autographs.
Shouldn't he know I hate social interaction if he claims to be my "childhood friend"?? LEAVE ME ALONE.
At least Princess Dowed Verily only has eyes for Emmerich Holyblade and his stupidly sculpted biceps. Weird he insists on ignoring her advances, though. Dude, you could be King. What the hell.
Emmerich Holyblade truly is the worst. Princess Dowed Verily tried to have me exiled before the whole court, saying I'm just a leech on the Grand Hero's Party besmirching my "childhood friend"'s good name and status, but Emmerich Holyblade fucking defended me!!!
He said I'm invaluable to this party both as part of our battle plans, our day-to-day tasks, and as his "dearest companion". GROSS!!!
Doesn't he realize this was the PERFECT chance for me to disappear to another country???
Why did I think this Demon Lord of Darkness-slaying shit was a good idea in the first place?? Surely Emmerich Holyblade's boundless enthusiasm to be a do-gooder can't be an infectious disease??
Another day, another trial. We journeyed to the Yggdrasil Holy Nature Origin Forest because it's said the Elves of the Yggrasil Holy Nature Origin Worldtree have the sacred sword Swordexcaliburn, the only weapon capable of permanently killing the Demon Lord of Darkness for good.
Except Elfsdame Woodsworth might be the Holy Nature Origin Princess, or something. I wasn't really paying attention to her dramatic backstory.
After we killed the Holy Nature Origin King (who was really one of the Four Demonic Kings of the East North South and West in disguise), Elfsdame Woodsworth the beautiful elf archer huntress just kinda gave us the sword.
It's sunset right now, and I climbed a tree to just overlook the forest in peace, ALONE, except Emmerich Holyblade "knew I'd do something like this", so now he's HERE. HE ALWAYS DOES THIS!!!!
Blergh. Now we're watching the sun set over the whole Holy Kingdom Church Nation. It's pretty, but that dumbass Emmerich Holyblade isn't even looking at it. Idiot.
By the way, we beat up the other two Four Demonic Kings of the East North South and West, because we don't really have the time to show all this onscreen, you know? Nobody really cares about them anyways.
We've reached the Demon Lord of Darkness's Dark Demonic Castle Keep now, and we're striking tomorrow.
It's my last chance to quit if I don't want to beef it tomorrow (I do not trust Ferron Shieldson to shield me), but Emmerich Holyblade said he can't do it without me. HE, singular?? So everybody else can do it without me??
And to make matters worse, he said he'd tell me something after we beat the Demon Lord of Darkness. Why the hell tell me you're gonna tell me something??? Just tell me in the first place so I can ditch.
And besides, as if anyone could actually kill the goddamn Chosen Hero Sword Saint. At the very least, he's gonna survive tomorrow. Doesn't he realize how stupidly contrived his powerset is?? Dude, as IF.
I told him that, and he ran off. I'm never going to understand him.
One more day, and I'm leaving forever. Grand Holy King better pay up good, or I'm covert assassinating his ass.
Inside the Dark Demon Castle Keep, we had to fight through so many waves of enemies, like Sister Savantha Healier's Evil Twin, who worships the Demon Lord of Darkness instead of the Goddess of Good Stuff.
But mainly I was just standing in the back. Debuffing is a crazy magic drain, so I did get super tired, but the most exciting thing I was involved with was when Sister Savantha Healier's Evil Twin threw her weapon at me in a last ditch attempt to take at least one of us down, but Emmerich Holyblade intercepted it. With his body.
Sister Savantha Healier just healed him after, though, so it's fine. I might've been mincemeat had that hit my squishy self. I'm a proud backliner, okay. But it was still pretty stupid and unnecessary, considering we have Phoenix Blessing Revival Potion Stones.
Demon Lord of Darkness up ahead... Just one more boss and we're doooooone.
Anyways, the Demon Lord of Darkness wasn't even that cool. The orchestra was great though. I gotta see if the piano player survived the Dark Demon Castle Keep's collapse.
Everybody weakened the Demon Lord of Darkness with their own strikes, so Emmerich Holyblade could finish him off properly with the holy sword Swordexcaliburn.
Before he did, he looked at me with these fucking... star-filled eyes and bright smile, which made everybody else also look at me, which made the Demon Lord of Darkness laugh, so I just nodded at Emmerich Holyblade to go kill the fucking Demon Lord of Darkness already.
God, that took so long. I'm taking a vacation. I'm disappearing into a forest without any elves in it and never talking to another person ever again.
At least now I get to know whatever Emmerich Holyblade wants to tell me. It better be good, because it's the last thing he'll ever tell me.
JUNE. JUNE WHEN I GET YOU!!!! aurgh i love these. thank you so much. how did you know i kept imagining emmerich as blonde. AND THE PIANO PLAYER IN THE BACK RHRGH
Alloris- thriving kingdom in the great valley of the twin forge mountains; known for agriculture and wildlife populations
Kanadorn- perched just above Alloris, atop the twin forge mountains; known for timber and mining
Fierryn- built next to the Pallodus volcano and surrounded by rocky cliffs; known for technological innovations and military force
Pyrefall- kingdom in the secluded, and forbidden, Hollowdrake woods; known for magic
Fort Gaias- oceanic kingdom built amongst the coral; known for precious jewelry, metals, and medical innovations
would you rather have a “freedom, if demanded of you by an archon, is really no freedom at all” son or a “then as their god, i shall die among them” daughter
given the current climate this pride especially i feel i must mention that i love my trans friends, i stand with trans people in the fight against transphobic legislation and those who would enforce it, and this blog is not a good place for you to be if you do not vibe with that