@qntmthry gets a thread repost thatās so overdue
As soon as theyāre alone, he has doubts.
Donāt do this. Worst mistake youāll ever make. No one needs to know what you look like. No one needs to know the truth.
Yet still, he doesnāt leave. Yet still, rooted to his spot, he threads a nervous finger through his wig, almost wanting to rip it off and get it over with. He has to show someone. He has toābefore he shows PadmĆ©.
And really, who could he show his scars to? Renate? No, sheād be way too nice, and not even in a sugarcoating way; sheād genuinely think he was still beautiful, no matter what. Viktor and Viktoria? Theyāve been friends for the past four yearsātheyād be biased. Tobias? Heād be biased too, and whatās more, he might make some stupid joke in an attempt to lighten the mood but which would actually make Anakin feel worse. Now, he and Colress had become fast friends for sure, but they had pretty much only just metā¦Colress would be kind enough to let him gently, but perhaps their bond was not yet so close that he could not be objective.
Perhaps thereās no point in doing this. Part of him āknowsā that Colress will be repulsed, so why is he even asking this advice? Itās not that his opinion would even matter, though, according to the oldest and most tired clichĆ©. The one who truly loves you will love you regardless of your looks, and sheās said sheād love him even if heād been injured just like he was in his pastā¦Well, it had happened, and though heād healed considerably better than he did before, he still had scars, and he still had no hair. He still does feel somewhat foolish; shouldnāt he trust PadmĆ©ās assurances? But then, if he could not look at himself without shame, who would?
Ā Ā Ā āThereās something I want to show you,ā he saysāquietly, too quietly; there must be something wrong. āWhen I go back home, I want to propose to PadmĆ©. But thereās something I wanted to ask you about first.ā
anakin , in a very brief period of time , had started to compete with ryo chandler for the title of colress' best friend . a fellow inventor who also enabled his chaotic nature ? who thought he was cool ? who fed him the most delicious foods he'd ever had outside of gourmet restaurants in unova ( & maybe those five star kalosian places , but whatever ) ā
so , when he asks colress about this , the doctor knows it's important . it's a sign of trust .
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā there's something i want to show you .
ā well , if it's about if she'll like the ring , i'm going to say yes . she'll like whatever you give her . that's love . ā a gentle smile , but he knows it's not about a ring . this is some sort of soul-deep thing . he knows , because it's that same look he's seen on ghetsis' face . when they first put colress in charge of the king's health , ghetsis had told him that any illusions he had would be shattered . that his body was not in the condition the young doctor would've thought . that there was a reason he kept covered up .
it's gotta be something like that . & it isnāt the intuition from his blessing from the allfather that tells him . itās because he knows how to read people . side effects of being around a man who could sway someoneās very soul in five words .
ā ... i know this isn't about a ring . i'm kidding on that one . but i'd like to think i'm good at giving advice to friends . so ... really , you can ask me anything . ā
