CoConut Life

🌴 Island Life

[thepersonalquotes]

[perfectquote]

“When someone is going through a storm, your silent presence is more powerful than a million, empty words.”

— Thema Davis

[yms1]

Tumblr still feels like my safe place after so many years

[queenantoniette]

I love you too much that thinking of loosing you makes my heart ache 💔

Loving you was the best decision but also the most painful since all I do was to love you but gets disappointed when I don't get the same way I feel for you 🥺 it sad to know, your okay with this silent treatment even how many times I've said that I don't like it.

You don't see the small gestures that you kept wondering why I'm so mad over little things.

If I could date me I don't want me to feel so unlove for the things I knew and was open in communicating what she would like to do with this relationship, but never the least I am amaze on how I always find ways to forgive over small things that makes me upset.

If one day, that God decided you're not for me, I'll pray that I'll be able to accept His answer and doesn't need to find excuses what He had decided.

[queenantoniette]

Loneliness

Am I dome to be lonely even how many times I am with the people I love the most but still I am alone 🥺

How I wish I would not feel this type of sadness but who am I to begin with, I prayed that one day my heart won't ever felt this emptiness which lead me to question myself, am I worth to begin with.

I question myself "Do I deserve to be alive and kept breathing where some of this people that are dying are more worthy of me."

I prayed harder to let me understand the situation that each time I was given the answers that I am not please to hear 😣

I am not a Saint, I have my tantrums (even I am a grown adult) I just wish I would reach to a certain point my insecurities would go away. The more I've tried the more I lose myself in this process.

I've always asked HELP but I felt that I wasn't heard maybe I was asking to people that doesn't want to help me or choose to ignore my feelings 🥺

[queenantoniette]

If only I have my patience longer I wouldn't feel shit right now.

If only they knew what I felt would they ever understand and would not have the audacity to make things bigger.

Niya ako na henoon ang YAWA.... Maayo kaayo I would sometimes question myself, how far would my sanity be all this toxicity to this person I love the most and the one who hurts me so badly.

I would always think is this pain worth it or is just here since I was been born from a sin.

[queenantoniette]

As days go by, I wish everything would go back to normal. I may smile most of the time but deep down I wish I would be with them rather here where I am now 😭😭

[queenantoniette]

I'm in a stage of my life that I don't want to worry anymore what other people have to say to how fat I am anymore, since end of my day I was the one who paid for my meal and not them 🥺 https://www.instagram.com/p/B95PuAigQdv/?igshid=1w0i2qafuaen3

[wholesome-suggestion]

love ur body:

look at ur hands: they have pet so many cute animals and dried so many of ur tears

look at ur feet: they have walked you to some of ur favorite places and walked you away from the bad ones

look at ur belly: think of the days when its been full and warm with your favorite foods

look at ur legs: they have held you up when you thought you weren’t strong enough to stand

look at ur eyes: they have seen so many beautiful people

look at ur mouth: it has told so many people that u love them

ur body has been there for you since day 1; love it, it loves u.

[queenantoniette]

The every day struggle leaving the house early so I wouldn't caught up with traffic so far it's always leading, praying this is just temporary that someone can find a solution to this heavy traffic in Mandaue Cebu 😕 #trafficstruggleisreal #trafficstop #traffic #prayingthiswouldbeover https://www.instagram.com/p/B5Zrf7dA0_1/?igshid=yryg0yu7wwek

[queenantoniette]

Wondering on my MIND.

Funny it may seem I have been fascinated to write once again there are days that I wish I could have written that down. There are times when your in front with a piece of paper and pen all your good ideas you had thought awhile back can no longer be retrieve. Wishing you had more time to recall those great idea but sadly the wish you had with it can never be back. 

[thoughts-memories]

[queenantoniette]

How many kisses do you like in return?

[queenantoniette]

Living death

How I wish this pain would go away as soon as I close my eyes. That every sorrow I feel from the time I knew what pain means or felt. How I wish never meant or felt this since then it has been with me. If pain isn't around loniless would take over felt so unwanted in life. Even my own mother might not want me. How I long to be with her the unconditional love they say that a mother can provide, the care I long for but it would just be a dream.

How I prayed that her health and life would be longer than mine since she deserve to enjoy what she would love in life but sadly I felt the opposite I wish to cut my life short in order for her life to be longer. How I wish that would be an easy wish to be granted. I prayed some day no more heartache from her since I won't be a the daughter who doesn't know how to dress up, the daughter who isn't smart and most of all a daughter who's fat since the day I knew what food I would like to have.

I'm sorry I can't be those skinny daughter or the perfect one for you but I did my best but my best isn't enough to please you. I think my love isn't enough as well since I would cost you this much hurt.

[queenantoniette]

Is been awhile that I had posted anything in here since I was too busy and still busy 😑 but still now I have the time to go through with this now.

I have been always insecure people who has perfect body or the person who can fit small sizes than me. It is a struggle where my mom constantly nagging at me to get in shape (no offense to this kind of mom's since they want their child to be healthy or at least not getting to fat in life) Love you mom even your a nagger to death.

Now is my turning point in life to live what actually felt living once again. To be more healthy losing some fats is good but being healthy without fear best decision 👍🏻

Cheers 🥂 to greater life to come 😊

[queenantoniette]

Day 1:Time for me to be responsible with my body, since I am not getting any younger each passing day. I have always find ways when to start but never do the action.

I hope this time would be different cause sometimes being different isn't that bad but you can tell yourself that you've changed some way or another.

[queenantoniette]

Courtesy my sister' phone ☺☺

[kittrose]

Zendaya / Jeanne d’Arc

[queenantoniette]

Love it 😍