Kyrs

"Bones they, break and mend admirable quality. Still they envy you." -Brendan D. Moore

[queenkyrsjade]

[queenkyrsjade]

One of the hardest things I’ve had to do is pick between two utterly amazing people and hope that what I am losing is worth what I am gaining.

[queenkyrsjade]

It’s been 4 years, and it most certainly was not worth it

[cryptidsandchaos]

might fuck around and walk into a thick fog and never return idk

[queenkyrsjade]

#7

“Starcrossed and Gazing”

CJ

crippled by recent decisions you made to depart this realm

I hold on tightly to memories of our brief affair

road trips and adventures in your Miata left me breathless & dizzy

skinny dipping in rivers I will never be able to place

stargazing and plane watching in obscure valleys and foothills

encounters with cops and pastors alike

belting the national anthem as fireworks burst

twas never a dull moment

sinful commonalities aside

I am sorry I was not more present for you, longterm

I was terrified of you

your past and present

you were a different breed

sporadic and neurotic

even still, full of passion

wild goals to keep moving forward at any cost

that’s what made you irresistible

how ironic

regardless of our circumstance

I hope you know how deeply I adored you

when I held onto you in our feverish haze

I’ll miss you for eternity

losing you was a travesty

rest as peacefully as you can

my sweet supernova

[queenkyrsjade]

Hey y’all ✌️

[everythingstarstuff]

Logic of a Dream ~ Laprisamata LuisToledo

[clawmarks]

Rising sun (cropped) - Artist unknown, Japanese - c.1904-1905 - via MFA Boston

[queenkyrsjade]

Do me a favor and get zootie patootie and give this a listen 💋 ur welcome

[recaption]

[queenkyrsjade]

#38 “Crusty King” Brandon

as I cruise along your side of the city

this crevice I harbor morphes into a cavern 

filled to the brim with bruised buttcheeks

1970’s Japanese horror

and dirty talk that actually makes me question my cleanliness

in your palace of filth

styling gliding up your block 

knowing full and well you are states away

I romanticize dusty afternoons spent “watching movies”

to avoid natural connection

you say I am sweet

you say I take it well

you say bitches far too much

I feel gross when I finally release myself from your ghastly grasp

a firm grip I am all too familiar with

and yet

here I sit

perched on a throne of delusion 

because being alone makes me so uncomfortable 

that I’d rather feel nasty in your company 

you make me cum and giggle abundantly 

I foresee how this plays out

as I always do

I am a permanent placeholder to my lovers

a temporary warm body

how does one break such a sickly cycle of torment and self degradation 

when it’s all one’s really experienced?

show me

can you?

I didn’t imagine you could

and you did not

[jumex]

due to not wanting to. I will not be

[losttubesocks]

u know what rlly turns me on? ultimatums :)

- said no one ever

[tokyoinns-deactivated20200314]

my only coping mechanism is making spotify playlists

[queenkyrsjade]

I will miss you forever sweet boy. I don’t understand. I talked to you a week ago today and we FaceTimed for hours as we usually did. You told me tales of happiness and freedom. You said I would see you in May and we would go to our creek and recreate our childhood memories of love, lust, and exploration. My heart has not ached like this in ages. I don’t know what to do with it. I am so sorry I failed you and I hope you’ve found the peace you’ve always spoken of.

[notalkingplz]

[losttubesocks]

i’ll be sure to love u when it’s convenient for me

[queenkyrsjade]

professing the love I still have for my ex girlfriend while she resumes successfully attempting to turn a straight girl