cross me;

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“We should, I agree. Tonight works.”

“Alright, tonight. We’ll go on a date.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“Should we? You’d want to be seen with a kiss ass?”

“It’s a sacrifice I’m willing to make, sure. But seriously. You’ve been busy with school, I’ve been busy with school, and things have been...well, we should just go on a date. If you want?”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“Because I’m charming as fuck?”

“More so you’re a kiss-ass. So...we should go out tonight.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“And my professors love me.”

“Doesn’t really surprise me that you’re teacher’s pet.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“My grades speak for themselves.”

“Yeah, yeah. I guess they do.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“I”m smarter than I look, Holliday.”

“Sure about that, Meeks?”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“College isn’t so bad, it’s a lot easier than I thought it was going to be based on what my high school teachers said.”

“Still not totally convinced that you don’t cheat.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“It’s pretty obvious you’ve been torn up.” Simon shook his head. “I should just go.” He turned on his heel to go, his chest felt a lot like it was going to cave in.

Quinton reached out then, grabbing Simon’s sleeve and giving it a bit of a tug back. “Simon, wait. Fuck, this is such a bad idea, for both of us. But I just - if I don’t I think it will be a mistake for both of us.” Turning the boy towards him, Quinton didn’t wait before pressing his lips hard against the other boy’s. 

[quinton-holliday]

lilaholliday‌:

“Yeah? You think they’d let me stay in the dorms with you?” She asked, teasing. “I don’t even know anymore. Does anything make us happy?”

“Yup, I’ll sneak you in. We can make this work, it’s fine.” Quinton shrugged then, unsure really what to answer. Very little made him happy lately, though admitting that seemed lame. “I...don’t know. I mean, cheerleading makes me happy, but not cause it’s admired or any of that shit. I just...like it.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“Are you serious?” Simon paused, looking at the man. “You don’t really hide the fragile thing. Like at all.” At least not from him. Simon sighed. “You’re right, You’re… right.” They were both too far into it.

“Consider yourself lucky...or cursed. I don’t fucking know how you want to take it, but I don’t really...being open with people isn’t really me so. I tend to do my best when I’m all interal thoughts stay internal, weakness can’t be shown, game face on at all times. This...with you...it’s been something else. I really am sorry, Simon. I was stupid and I understand why you’re upset.”

[quinton-holliday]

lilaholliday‌:

“Aren’t you leaving for school?” She asked. “I just… I don’t know what to do and I haven’t for a long time but now… Now everyone is making me make a choice and I’m really not good at it.”

“Okay, yeah, I guess you’re right there. You could come with me there, move with me. Well, if you did have to make a choice, what would it be? Think about what you want, no one else, just you. What would make you happy?”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“I shouldn’t care this fucking much. I shouldn’t care what you say about me, what you tell your ex about me. but I fucking do and I fucking hate that because- because it fucking means that everyone was right and I am deeper into this than I meant to be.”

Quinton was silent for a moment before releasing a deep sigh. “We’re stupid. We’re really fucking stupid, thinking we could avoid this, feelings, any of it. Just saying we’re fucking and thinking that makes it true. Simon I - I just got out of something that I thought was real and serious and I just - right now I’m really fragile. I don’t act like it often, I know that, but I just don’t want to end up getting hurt or worse...hurting you more than I already have.”

[quinton-holliday]

lilaholliday‌:

“Ieed to quit the taco place.” She muttered. “But I can’t afford to not.” Lila was trying to work towards moving out, to getting her own place. She was also paying her mom rent, that was one of the deals when she put off college, even after the surgery.

“You could stay with me. I mean, it’s not a big room or anything, but I know that little study can fit a bed. It has before - or so I was told. I can convert it into a modest bedroom. You can stay with me, save up, we can figure it out together.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“I did do it for you, asshole. Have I tried to do anything with you the past few days?” He asked. “No, because I know you’re in a bad place and I didn’t care. I was fine with just… being there. I didn’t come here tonight planning to fuck.” He ran his hands through his hair and stepped back. “I just- Fuck you, Quinton.”

“What the fuck do you want from me, Simon? I said that I was sorry, I said that I made a mistake. I can’t take it back. All I can do is say I didn’t fucking mean it. What, do you want me to call Dean right now, tell him that I was fucking lying? That I don’t believe any of those things I said because you’ve been better to me in the past three days than he has in the past three fucking years?”

[quinton-holliday]

lilaholliday‌:

“What if- Quinton, if i get clean, I won’t be able to handle this. All of this, the jobs, my life- The Treasure Chest is fine but the taco place is crap. The only way to survive this shit is high.”

“Then...we find out what you can handle and we do that. You aren’t bound by what’s going on right now, not really. It won’t be easy, I’m sure of that, but we can figure it out together. Hell, we’re smart people. I mean, I believe in us.”

[quinton-holliday]

simonxmeeks‌:

“You chose me? You chose me because I was convenient, because I was some stupid kid willing to be your rebound. I’ve been lying to my family for you, I got into a big ass fight with my best friend for you!”

“I never asked you to do any of those things. So you don’t get to now say that you did it for me. You did it for yourself because you wanted to fuck me, Simon. That’s all. And yeah, it was fucking convenient at first, but that isn’t why I kept coming to you with...fucking everything.”

[quinton-holliday]

lilaholliday‌:

“I don’t even know anymore.” She shook her head. “I don’t want to- I don’t want to go to rehab. I’m fine with… this… but everyone else has such a problem with it- I don’t think I really have a choice. “

“I think we’re all worried that this is going to kill you, though. It’s not really a sustainable lifestyle. You know that. We all know that. Getting clean isn’t just an option. It’s really the only solution.”