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i’m sorry , by the way . ’ ( blair & serena ) @reblhearts​ )

of course she was , but the apology wasn’t what she wanted to hear. all she ever wanted was for blair to be happy , and honest .  ❝ when were you going to tell me , B ? i heard it from vanessa and i couldn’t believe it . I told myself why would my best friend keep something like that from me ? ❞ the blonde wasn’t even really upset by the content more like the lack of honesty. finding out from an entirely different source. they were supposed to be best friends , and yet they couldn’t have felt further apart. practically strangers , and she didn’t want it to be like that. 

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hazywolves‌:

ALL NATE WANTED FOR SERENA WAS HER OWN PEACE. Whatever that meant for her. She had been through a lot and yes, some of it was her own doing, but he couldn’t really fault her for it. Or, he didn’t WANT to. He could probably be seen as a hypocrite for the way he reacted to Serena compared to other people he surrounded himself with. But, that was probably the way for a lot of people. And if he were honest, it was because of his feelings for her but, he didn’t want to think about that. At least not now when he was needed as a friend and he made this his main priority. “I don’t think I’ll be leaving town anytime soon. As long as you’re okay with it, I’m happy to check in with you.” He nodded when she spoke and then thought it over. “If you give me fifteen minutes, I can smuggle you in some fast food from one of the places across the street. What do you want?”

Many would see it as running away from the her problems , and they wouldn't be wrong. She just wanted to feel okay again , without the pressures that came with the expectations of their world. And out of all of them , Nate could understand that. She knew he did and that's why she felt closer to him than Blair or Chuck. Even Dan fell victim to the poison that came with it . A world that she led him into it. “ I'm more than okay with it , “ she confirmed with a brilliant smile that lit up her features , it felt like it's been a long time since she smiled like this. And actually having it be REAL. “ That's the worst question you can ask me right now ,” a laugh escaped her before she bit the flesh of her lower lip in thought. “ Will you ? Actually , surprise me. I have complete faith in you . You know I don't care , “ she reminded him.

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 [ WAVE ] for your muse to gesture to mine to come closer ( serena & dan ) @stilltalking​

she had been discharged from the hospital , her thumb scrolled through the contacts in her phone -- she was about to call nate until her eyes gravitated upward. she slipped her phone into her purse and walked over to dan humphrey with an inquisitive look in her eyes.  ❝  dan , why are you here ? ❞ she asked as her slender fingers ran through her golden threads once.  ❝  does blair know ? ❞ of course , she assumed that blair knew everything , which made his visits even more perplexing while she never received one from blair herself. 

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hazywolves‌:

NATE KEPT HER AS STABLE AS HE COULD, WATCHING HER AS HE DID. He was concerned. He couldn’t remember how long it had been since he’d last seen Serena but, he knew that it had been maybe a little too long. Especially given her current state. He had just thought that she was with someone else, HAPPIER than before. “It’s not so bad. I’ve always wanted to be someone’s knight in shining armor.” He chuckled, an arm around her frame to continue his efforts. “Well, I’m here now. Where were you off to?”

ANYONE COULD EXPECT SHE’D BE HAPPIER , getting away from the chaos that is manhattan is always a dream come true . as much as it’s her mother’s time of scene , serena had her own ambitions. dreams that didn’t quite align with the social circle that she and nate grew up in. the blonde beauty fell in love with a normal life. everyone visualizes perfection in her presence , a golden glimmer to a cloudy day. but she is far from perfect , everything may come natural to as breathing. but she didn’t have it all together , she bled like everyone else.  ❝ well , you’re amazing at it , i hope you stick around  ❞ she made a playful jab ,but it was honest. now that he was here ,, she felt calm. or at least the closest to it.  ❝ i was actually about to get some of that awful cafeteria food , or try to .  pretending to be asleep can really work up an appetite.  ❞