Happy Blues @qweryuioqp - Tumblr Blog

I've been thinking a lot lately. I am just so tired of all the bullshit life has dealt me. Getting kicked out has thrown me through the fucking wringer. I'm hurt and tired. All of these happy moments in between aren't distracting me like they used to. The person who said I could stay with them truely doesn't want me there. I respect that but my other option, that I told them i could do if they weren't comfortable, would've worked itself out by now. I'm just so fucking tired of having to start over from stretch over and over again. This shit is fucking tiring. If this is how the rest of life is going to be looking for me, you can have it back.

scorpioschemes

https://www.instagram.com/p/B1JTcs4py7Y/

sbawnmendes

if that isnt the sweetest sight 🥺

qweryuioqp

But who is the guy in the back tho👀

I have a theory

The reason why big hair was so popular in the 80s is because of the natural hair movement in the 70s. You know just going off the idea of black people can't have ever anything to ourselves.

#just saying #my opinion #black people #70s #80s #80s hair #70s hair #my theory

hazskillerqueen

COME TO ME. But really, come through.

trappeds0ull-deactivated2020072

Accepting new friends fr

poetic-disaster

new friends welcome.

goochie-mane

*Any minor inconvineince

Me:

jehovahhthickness

Literally me

beraris

Hey tumblr, it is 2:21am currently. I haven't written here or anything for that matter, in a long time. I few days again I realize how soon I'm turning 18. Its really weighing on me right now. Every passing day just makes me feel worse. I don't really feel like I even belong here and have really given up hope that I will ever be anything. I don't want to continue on anymore. I just want to end it and put everyone out of their misery. I have no to live for anyway. No accomplishments or achievements, I'm literally a failure has pissed their life away. I feel so miserable everyday and dread getting out of bed. I'm a last cause, good for nothing.

What I say: I feel like everyone is mad at me.

What I mean: I got the impression that one specific person is mad at/dissatisfied with/disappointed in me and that feeling has bled over into my perception of literally all other people, because emotionally I cannot grasp the concept that negative feelings or reactions to me are not 100% universal, and as I mostly define myself by what other people think of me I can barely imagine what it feels like to be an individual with free-standing feelings and depth of character separate from what is decided by the judgement of others, thus enforcing the idea that when one person is upset at me then everyone is, because when someone else decides what I am it becomes true.

wetsnail

I spent a year looking for this post.

Ughh

So today I left the house at 2 o'clock to meet my sister at her job. It is now 3:20 and I just now got on the train. Well first I had to walk like 15 minutes to the train. Then I had to walk all the way back to her apartment because I didn't have enough change. On the way I realized I didn't have a key to get into her apartment. So I had to wait a good 15-20 minutes for her high ass roommate to open the door. Then I had to walk all the way back but this time I decided to take a way I thought was shorter. Only to find out that that end of the train station was closed. I had to walk down the street to the other one. My legs were killing me, only because I'm a lazy ass bitch and yesterday we went to the gym and it was leg day. Anyway I want to cry so much and just go back to sleep but heee I am on the train pushing through it wish me luck.

Idk how people do the whole ‘waKe up and get stuff done’ thing. This shit is tiring

#I'm so tired #I need sleep #My body hurt #I'm to lazy for life