I'm A Star

Hello there. My name is Rachel Berry. My dream is to become a big star just like my idol Barbra Streisand. I'm now inside the safe zone away from the zombies but i'm willing to help my friends anyway i can. This is a RP blog. I'm not really Rachel Berry.

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[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

"I wish I knew", Sam said. "What if Kurt now asks him to decide immediately without them trying to get used to each other first? Of course Blaine would choose Kurt and they would move far, faaar away and I’d lose him forever and it still could turn out they don’t work out and what then?"

Sam didn’t manage to suppress some tears. They ran down his cheeks and he quickly wiped them away, hoping Rachel was too busy with her Kurt-drama to notice. Damn, why did everything have to go wrong? Stupid zombies, everything was their fault!!!

[rachelfannybrice]

Wow, Sam seemed really worried about this. What should she say? Oh, don't give up. Blaine would choose you. Rachel had told Sam this plenty of times but for some reason she was beginning to doubt her words. Kurt's and Blaine relationship nearly fell apart when Sebastian came into it, as a result Blaine and Sebastian hardly spoke. 

"To tell you the truth...i don't really know the answers to your questions," Rachel shrugged and Sam's face fell. "But i think you and Blaine need to have a serious conversation just to make sure that this crush thing isn't going to affect your friendship with him."

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

Sam shook his head like in trance, then he shrugged. “I don’tk now. I mean it was the first shock and everything… But you know him better than me, is he very unforgiving? In every case I think you’ll have a hard time living with him.”

Oh, Sam was really glad he didn’t live here, too. The shelter wasn’t the best accommodation ever but at least it gave him some distance to Kurt now. 

[rachelfannybrice]

"Yeah, i know," Rachel murmured with a sigh. "But this is my apartment too and since i'm not moving out Kurt would just have to forgive me."

Rachel knew Kurt was the type who loved gossiping and having people to gossip with and who else would Kurt gossip with than his best friend? It's not like he could gossip with Santana since she hasn't really been in the talking mood lately and Elliot,who like Dani, haven't been around much. So really she had nothing to worry about...right?

"What about Blaine?" she asked. "How do you think he'll take this?"

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

Sam’s legs were frozen. He kept staring at the door long after Kurt was gone and Rachel did the same. Still it was her who moved again first, driving a hand over her mouth.

"Shit", Sam whispered. "It was even worst than getting slapped. He slapped me mentally. Guess I deserved that after having done the same to him."

[rachelfannybrice]

Rachel pursed her lips, thinking over what Kurt had said.

Was Kurt not going to speak to her again? By the look on his face he seemed more angry at her than Sam for betraying him. What if this was the end of their friendship? Rachel didn't want that. Kurt was her best friend, she couldn't lose him.

"Do you think Kurt was serious when he said he'll never speak to me again?" she asked.

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

I don't like the shelter

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

What am I supposed to do now Rachel? I don’t want people to suffer because of me but I also don’t want to step down and let Blaine go. I can’t.

[rachelfannybrice]

Well then don't let Blaine go. If you really like him, prove to both Blaine and Kurt that you're willing to fight for Blaine no matter what. 

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

I don't like the shelter

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

oh shit! why would Kurt do that? Blaine didn’t do anything, it’s not his fault, it’s not like he cheated or something! Why even did Kurt react like that I mean I just told him I like Blaine not that I kissed Blaine or whatever

[rachelfannybrice]

I don't know. He's probably worried he'll lose Blaine too just like he lost his father to the zombies.

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

I don't like the shelter

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

Oh he would’ve heart from Kurt anyway. Well what did he say? Do they both hate me now? Never want to speak to me again?

[rachelfannybrice]

Oh Blaine didn't say anything yet. He's probably worried Kurt wouldn't talk to him too.

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

I don't like the shelter

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

No I also wouldn’t want that. I don’t want to live with Kurt and Blaine. Kurt because well, you know why and Blaine because I don’t want to pressure him and follow him and everything

[rachelfannybrice]

Okay don't be mad at me but i told Blaine about our confrontation with Kurt.

[fcktherules]

Staring

[fcktherules]

Not recently no, why?

[rachelfannybrice]

Oh well, you know about that thing with Sam having a crush on you. Well Sam told him yesterday and Kurt got angry and he hasn't spoken to us since.

[fcktherules]

Staring

[fcktherules]

I can come with you if you want. If killing zombies has taught me anything, it’s self defence.

[rachelfannybrice]

Oh Blaine you're a life saver. Before i forget, have you spoken with Kurt yet?

[fcktherules]

Staring

[fcktherules]

Owch, you should confront her. Ask her if she is and get to get her shit together if she is.

[rachelfannybrice]

Oh my god Blaine you're right. I should totally confront her and tell her if she has anything to say, she should say it to my face. But what if a fight happens? I should learn karate just in case. I wonder what's Jackie Chan's number. I'm sure he wouldn't mind helping Fanny Brice out. 

[fcktherules]

Staring

[fcktherules]

What’s up with you?

[rachelfannybrice]

Okay so there was this girl who goes to the same school as me and i swear every where i go she's giving me the stink eye and i'm pretty sure she's talking behind my back too. Seriously, it feels like high school all over again.

[fcktherules]

Staring

People keep staring at me, it’s like they know that I was outside the safe zone. Someone even came up to me and asked me if I felt good about myself for leaving my family behind. Because that’s a good start to the day.

[rachelfannybrice]

Well society is made up of very cruel, evil monsters who don't care about your feelings and would stomp all over your dreams if they had the chance to. I mean can you believe the nerve of some people? Honestly i just believe they're just jealous i got the Fanny Brice role and not them. Oh sorry Blainers i was talking about my problems. Sorry you had a bad day.

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

I don't like the shelter

People are rude, mean and so depressing. It’s like a home for the homeless or something 

[rachelfannybrice]

I would offer you to live in my apartment but i don't think Kurt would want that.

[longstobefreehummel]

Kurt let the words sink over him as he left the room almost in tears " I am not going to slap you Sam you can't change the way you feel just know I will never let him go but if he wants to leave there is nothing I can do". Kurt paused and looked back at them before wiping a tear from his eye " you know where the door is Sam and Rachel if you knew anything about this .... don't bother trying to talk to me"

[rachelfannybrice]

"Wait Kurt," Rachel said, reaching for Kurt's arm before he had a chance to leave, "Please don't go."

Rachel didn't want to lose her best friend and now she felt like if she was to let him go that would be the result.

"Let go of me Rachel," Kurt said, his voice taken over by raw emotion. He then tried to escape Rachel's grip, however, Rachel held on tightly.

"Please Kurt. "Rachel begged, "You're overreacting."

Kurt chuckled. "Really? I'm overreacting?"

"Okay i get it , you're angry and you think we betrayed you but just let Sam and i explain ourselves before you go and then if you decide you never want to speak to us again...then i'll accept that."

[enchantedadieu]

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

The Loft II Kurt, Rachel & Sam

[sam-evans-dom-deactivated201405]

"Wait! How… what… how am I supposed to tell him?" Sam whispered. His legs had stopped moving without his consent. He looked at Rachel and waited for her to give him all the answer he needed right now, and tell him Kurt would understand and not be mad at all and maybe even say ‘hey it’s okay you can have him’.

[rachelfannybrice]

Tugging on to his arm, she pulled him into a corner somewhere where Kurt wouldn't hear them.

"Haven't you thought about that before you came here?" she asked.

Sam pursed his lips and shook his head. "Not really."

Rachel sighed. Sam should have thought of thought of something to say before he came here since Rachel was sure Kurt would be asking a lot of questions about Sam being bisexual and if Sam was sure if he even was bi and not just a phase he was going through, since Kurt didn't really believe in bisexuality.

"Well you should have thought of something before you came over here. Just tell him you're in love with Blaine and that you're ready to fight for him if that's what you want."