I am so mad at the way my life turned out. I am grateful for what i have but at the same time it sucks when i look at the way my life has been shaped. I am mad that i missed out on so many opportunities to go hang with friends when i was in high school/post high school/uni days because my parents were so strict on me i got a lecture for making it home by 10pm. And now i feel i am not as close to my friends as i once was. Not one year ago i was still getting told off for going to hang with friends until 12am. But they’re lenient on me now because my younger siblings do the same thing but they go out until the early AM’s/drink/do drugs etc but they don’t say anything, they’re almost proud? It sucks being the oldest and this sounds so stupid but i just need to vent because i feel like i work my ass off to get the things i want. my job. money. my goals. i worked to pay for everything and everything is just handed to them. it really sucks.
