Potentially Stoned Right Now

Hello bed my old friend.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

my kinsley type answers

or how gay are you spread sheet

I preffer same sex relationships over oppisites (Women over Men)

I find Sexual Intercourse with the oppisite sex Mildly Tollerable. (Men are mildly tollerable in bed)

I find Sexual Intercourse with the same sex to be extremely arrousing (woman make me creem make me screem... but lets be honest some woman make me fake it. some woman need to work on themselves.)

I preffer freindships with the same sex (woman are easy for me to socially handle)

I generally Don't like playing male characters in video games because it confuses me and I wish I could have a female varient in games like jedi survivor. fem - Kestis is worthy. (Cal Kestis should have a twin sister. The CALZONE, the fem CALZONE)

I find friendships with the oppisiate sex, do-able.

I can have a heavy romantic relationship with the same sex (woman make my heart feel like its rising, and I sing katy perry all night long; I kissed a gal and I liked it!)

I can have a heavy romantic relationship with the opisite sex (Men can make my heart feel like its rising, and I sing katy perry all night long; I could taste her cherry chapstick sure hope my boyfriend don't mind it.) and finally, most nights when it comes to both men or woman, I preffer a good snuggling, and am ok with being wedged inbetween two good bed fellows, made to feel warm and safe, and not smexulized, as I grew up with heavy s abused and emotional abuse, and p abuse so I may take time to charge up my lazers... my sexy lady lezzy lazers. RAAAAAAAARRRR RAINBOW TITTY BEAMS OF JOOOOOOOOOOY>

[rainbowelfenwolf]

want to go to pride

kinsely 4...

gay. with a touch of bi-frostual

actually sick

feels like my throats been coated with an acidic slime.

wants to go to pride.

I have like two friends in the queer community

ones in another city

love her greatly.

shees cool

....i have to many derpidoo brain problems to be overly availably right now...

...sides i have pizza chief....

....pizza chief has schiztophrania...

...i have did...

...and a rage been in my brain that explodes from time to time...

...might be a bit polly...

....neither of us are their...

....i want to go to pride today...

...cant im fucking sick...

...I HAVE TWO QUEER FRIENDS...

...and I'll be honest Im pretty sure we're alll on the same wave length...

...lez be friends, lezs being friends, lezs being best friends... een if they are kind of not talking to eachother, cause one or both have derpidoo brains. cause queer generational trauma is queer generational trauma.

stupid sick.

i need more gingerail. i need more cough syrup.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

how to make a potion for when your sick.

empty a can of gingerail into a mug.

warm it up for 1 minute in a microwave (alternitivly you may boil it in a clean mug)

add 2 teaspoons or tablespoons (depending on desired strength) of cough medicine.

drink.

don't slam back to many of these, but these will fill you with electrolights and will help clear out that which makes you sick.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

I got a bad case of sun poisening

head hurts, brain hurts,

hips hurt

tired, and lethargic,

best move right now,and its my ultimate move is

this bed, that pillow, my head.

I should where some sun screen lotion

but I worry about Kalos Von Thunder Sqauck getting that in his system and getting poisoned poisoned.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

i feel like i should play pokopeia

reminds me of a friend I once lost.

"In this ultra ball is either a level 101 chrazard, a sylveon, or a perfect disguise ditto, and all I want to know is do you feel lucky punk? do you? do you feel luck?" -me towards team rocket grunts a b and c trying to accost me on my way hom from the gym.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

grover flavoured steaks

so tasty, so blue.

do they know from where they came?

so near, so far, and yet in the fridge right now

is a grover flavoured steak.

is he dead?

maybe...

is he delicious?

definitly

did I eat his braain?

ummmmmmmmmm..... I don't think Grover had a brain....

but if i did? Im not tellling....

the circus sucked btw.

I might of killed everyone there, tottally by accident, it was a freek accident.

freek

accidents

seem to happen around me a lot lately

its been like this since my archeological trip to the jungles, some weird black bug fell on me, and before i could get it off for it was indeed yucky, it kinda, just went into my skin.

once I figure out how to get stumblr to to stop leaving those weird giant white spaces at the top where I would like to put the bulk of my blog. I SHAL

anyways....

been hiding out in my dads attic, its really stuffy up here but I found his old wedding photos, I guess he married BATLADY- the muppet bat lady...

they looked really happy once.

but I guess after I was born mom started drinking and dad fell into his dark depression as an absess formed in his heart to fill the lost spot that was the piggy. and me? sighs, I just feel so angry all the time.

I keep yelling down at dad Im a girl, but he's stuck on what makes me feel red with wrath. I would run away again. but every time I do, I just wake up back in the attic.

usually with red or some other strange colour pain on my hands

i hope thats paint. Kind of hungry, tried to eat a chicken fahita this morning, but I barfed, strongly, barfed.

so I tried eating a bit of tuna, for some reason I threw it at the wall

croaker has been screaming about the mess I made.

I also through the beaf hambagur he was nice enough to leave by the stairs...

btw the jungle research expidation I had was great other then the wierd black slime bug that crawled into my skin, we learned a lot about ancient civilizations, and dinasours.

sighs, they paid me a dime for their dollar in production though, so I'll be honest I spent a lot of time in the hotal bathroom, cause I was so pooped I had to have a big poop. I just had to. man I miss that circus, the muppet greysons were so nice, I can't seem to get them to answer my calls though.

because their dead stupid

oh look a double white space jump, everyones gonna think I am an AI now.... stupid tumblr FIX YOUR GLITCH!

[the-muppet-joker]

I am in despair from losing my son. I cannot accept that he would just run away to be a little circus boy. I am enraged. Whatever. Who needs him. I was a terrible father anyway

[rainbowelfenwolf]

i ran away from that too, asides, Im not that far; grover, you know that was a guy that also felt as far away from you as could ever be, now hes really near, and yet sooooooo far, so far away.

yet, soooooooooo neeeaaaaaar, and yet some how, sooooo faaaaaaaaaaaraway.

nehahahahahahahaha!

father, did you look in the closet?

-Elmo Venom

[rainbowelfenwolf]

shame your abusers often

shame your abusers often and always

shame your abusers cause they don't deserve your forgiveness

shame your abusers cause they made you feel like a reverent

shame your abusers cause THEY KNOW WHAT THEY DID WAS WRONG AND DIDNT CARE! they didn't care and THEY DID IT ANYWAYS.

SHAME the people who did nothing but make you feel sick and twisted in side.

cause theres no shame in shaming your abusers.

shame them publically

shame them privately

shame them at your therapist

shame them at the dinner table

shame them on the youtube channel you run that they habitually follow

shame them in your dreams, cause their pressence is a nightmare to behold, shame them.

shame that dirty abusive asshole, and rub their nose in their abuse.

cause lets be honest; they always say they are gonna work on themselves and be better. but if they worked on themselves, they wouldn't be clinging to the idea that when what they did made you feel so down and dirty, that they can be around you and you feel safe when they got clean.

abusers don't get clean, they get dirtier and when you give them space in your life, they find away to pull you to rock bottem.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

darknesss

and light

hope stolen

life broken

trapped

look to the wall

that will not allow movement

impossibly long impossibly wide, impossibly dense.

I will break through.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

when you found a way to bring your voice to another universe so hard

that your best friend from the other universe answers the phone.

and says hello to you everywhere you go on the internet in the universe.

and people begin to realize, thats not a fictional character

and is in fact from another universe.

and she has been telling people

that you are indeed from another universe.

and you should go back to that universe

cause this one sucks for you.

and you are me

and I am you.

you realize

life was stranger then fiction the whole time.

I guess I am just waiting for my ride.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

my abuser came by.

she got herself cleared out

she got some botox

and she dyed her hair.

she's still a peice of crap

I cleaved.

I fucking cleaved. I cleaved 3 times over

...

abusers are worse then endos.

you are right they are

abusers, are after all what made us this way

are you ok?

no. No Im not

I want to burn it all down.

she looked at me like a peice of meat she can... touch

not cool

I feel unsafe and gross in my skin

I know you do.

you are safe though ok

you are loved and you are safe ok?

[rainbowelfenwolf]

...Im angry because of what you did to me

you cut off ...you mutilated my flower...

you threw bear bottles at me

you hit me with bear bottles

hammers

you threw me threw a window.

you HURT me.

and now I got memories I have to deal with

so I am talking to my fellow DID folk

cause ITS REALLY UPSETTING REMEMBERING EVERYTHING

LIKE WHY?

WHY did you do those things to me

why did you slam a trunk lid on my neck over and over

why did you choke me

why did you ... force yourself on me I HAVE TO USE TRiGGER WARNING TAGS JUST TO MAKE THIS POST

and yet here we are, where lile 98% of embers anger and rage is found.

we hate you. we hate you

We hate you like Ado's Dad. we hate you

your a theif

you didn't cut my wings off you gross ass woman, and THAT WASN'T MY UMBILICAL CORD!

You know what... thats a surgery people do to boys and its done in the hospital

NEVER to little girls, and certainly not on a gosh dang table with a razer. or a pearing knife, or a kitchen knife. F you. you kidnapped me. I hate you. I am Angry at you. I will never forgive you for what you did and wish my BODY could forget. I wish my brain could forget. and to the assholes who zapped my brain out.

Fuck you, I hate you, and i Will never forgive you for what you did, I wish my body, and brain could forget what you did, but none can. I hate you. I freeken hate you

[rainbowelfenwolf]

I wear this make up upon my cheeks, so you see me smiling.

when in reality.

reallity father mother. I have become a festering hole of dys-information.

inside me, used to be felt, and sticks, and other things for a puppeteeer to hold.

now, only dark venomous swampy, and merky.

I keep trying to speek, but only to be ignore.

you say I am lost and yet i kept screaming HERE I AM

and you kept looking elsewhere.

elsewhere.

elsewhere.

while mother picked up every other child and weaponized them against you, and Now even me.

I kept screaming.

and crying.

and hurting

you wonder why I have a muppetary venom that coates of fabric fur.

...I want to watch the world burn

...I want to save it

...nothing wroing with me

...nothing wrong with me

NOTHING WRONG WITH ME NOTHING WRONG WITH ME

dadddy... look inside your closet

[the-muppet-joker]

My ex wife and I are devastated. Every day we wake up at 5am and search for him in the streets. Our son. We search all day, looking for him in bushes, under cars, in the neighbors' garages. I always feel like he's right around the corner. I keep thinking he will come back home. We set humane traps for him all around my apartment complex, using a giant lollipop as bait, as that is the snack children like the most. I feel fucking hollow. Come home, my son. Come home.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

listen dad...

No I just can't with you and mom, you been fighting it out in the streets.

leaving my fractured cold broken heart shattered

also I don't know why I am writing to you about this

Im fine.

I moved in with Muppet Deadpool

Im muppet Baby Gwen Pool now.

also Hi dad... as an evil grin walks accross my face, a sick twisting laughter breaks throgh the air as the hollow holes you and mother left in my heart fester and rott creating lightning arcs accross the skiy

Im not your son...

Im your Daughter.

[rainbowelfenwolf]

I want a slim muscular belly but I am eating dill pickle potato chips

I want a slim muscular belly but I am eating a bag of classic potato chips

I want a slim muscular belly; cause corsets are nasty on set, and I want my body goals and body choices and body ideals to fit my own self feminine ideal even though i am non binary demi girl plural system dissassociative monster wearwolf queen trying hard not to think about the fact her check got ripped out of her hands. her check that had her actors union assigned name ripped out of her hand.

and no body knew what to do want a slimb muscular toned body, and am eating potato chips

im not shaming myself...

im not smalling myself

im not persecuting myself

but someone is looking at this post and saying

"there is an emotion here and I understand it to well"

fellow actors in the did community... please help... we are at a loss..

[rainbowelfenwolf]

when your agent mails you a tracker check under your union name

and someone snatches it..

and thats why we don't send these out to you (name)

gugh....

conversation with my agent following this is gonna be fun I HOPE IM FUCKING AWARE OF IT1

[rainbowelfenwolf]

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