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[depsidase]

[biracy]

Basically I think a lot of White ppl think the antithesis to racism is "Black people are inherently Cool, White people are inherently Lame" and it's just very hard to convince them that this is also extremely racist lmfao

[biracy]

It's the combination of "seeing a racialized group as Fundamentally Inherently Good is still dehumanizing and you aren't seeing them as people" and "your self-flagellating White guilt is extremely annoying for the people of color around you to deal with"

[caspercryptid]

I feel like not enough people realize that people under enormous strain act really really fucking Weird

[caspercryptid]

If someone is doing things that don't make Sense, try to understand that it is entirely possible that their brain is probably under an enormous weight and fracturing under the pressure. People who have been stabbed will sometimes talk a circle around the fact that they've been stabbed because stress and shock prevent you from recognizing the distress you are in and what you need to do to seek help for it. PTSD will do this also. You will find yourself repeatedly jamming a bag of frozen fruit into the same spot in the freezer where it doesn't fit and keeps falling, over and over and over, focused on nothing but that bag. You will decide that a beanbag chair is 10000% necessary to your life. You will lose your entire shit because you stubbed your toe on a table and that means the whole setup of your furniture is wrong. These are largely harmless examples. People under strain will also hurt themselves and others. Cornered animals bite. And it doesn't heal the bite to go "Hey, are you okay?" But it might get you to an animal that stops biting, so you can start to heal. And before you had an animal that bit, you probably had an animal that kept doing shit you didn't understand as stress signals

[jethroq]

[wettestwraith]

prev dont leave this in the tags

[silvergryphonart]

Literally the definition of imperialism and classism. Doesn’t matter how many peasants you sacrifice as long as the most powerful piece is left standing

[musicalhell]

Proximity of bishops to the rulers promotes theocratic oppression

[juh-was-deactivated19691231-dea]

the horse is so fuckable

[marxistlesbianist]

the tower is so fuckable

[pcktknife]

kill em w kindness? wrong! chain lightning 😋

[xanaxfarts]

[penny-anna]

hes literally nice

[saisaixchan]

Loki & Lola

Sooo, I wanted to explore the narrative around these two.

Mainly, I wanted to explore what caused Loki to fall in love with Lola, and why it may have happened in the first place.

The first time we hear about any of this is through Chiffon.

According to her, Loki fell in love at first sight. We don't know exactly when this happened, but it was at least 6 years ago, since that's how long Loki has been chained up.

When Lola ran away from the proposal however, Big Mom sent Chiffon in her place. But that just ended in disaster, and it further ruined relations between Linlin and Elbaph.

Which tells us that:

1. Since the giants all hate Big Mom, Loki must have actually initiated interaction between their groups with his proposal. She's basically been blacklisted from the island and everyone involved, so there's no way she could have gotten into contact herself.

2. Loki knew Lola well enough to immediately tell that Chiffon wasn't her. Which means he loved her because of her personality and strength of character.

3. This was such a huge slight, that the giants of Elbaph - who all despise Loki because they believe, at this point in time, that he killed his own father, King Harald - were upset at the sheer disrespect shown here.

This upset Big Mom so much that she began to beat Chiffon regularly, and actively wants Lola dead.

This was her last chance to make a connection with Elbaph, and Lola ruined it by running away.

Again, given how much the giants hate Big Mom, there's no reason any of this should have happened unless Loki made the first move.

Now, the real question: What about Lola made him fall in love with her at first sight?

Let's put a pin in that.

Although unnamed, Pudding directly references her on Cacao island.

She was acting the part of the innocent fiance, but I don't actually think her words were empty here.

After she hears that the crew met Lola, Pudding thinks back to her older sister.

This isn't her acting. She has no one to act for here, and no one can read her thoughts.

This is all Pudding thinking about her mom and her sister, and deeply contemplating her own situation.

Not long after this, she attacks Reiju.

If I had to guess why, it's because she knows that, if she's not useful, her own mother won't hesitate to kill and discard her. She knows this because Lola decided to seek out her own freedom - and Pudding saw, first hand, the consequences of those actions.

And so she doubles down on being evil, ensuring her value to Big Mom. Because, from her point of view, there really isn't any other choice.

But i think that, deep down, Pudding wishes she could do the same as her sister.

At the end of the arc, we get to see Pudding's memories, along with her genuine thoughts and feelings during them.

During the scene on the balcony - which happens right after Lola was brought up - we see her thinking about how she's not just a doll for Big Mom.

Even if Lola is hated by their mother, she's free, and determined to choose her path in life - one that isn't controlled by Big Mom.

Something that Pudding wishes she had.

And it's pretty heavily implied that Pudding genuinely loved her sister.

During this scene, she's already sided with Sanji and the Straw Hats, and Chiffon (who was part of an assassination plot to kill their mother) is right there to correct her if lies. But there's no reason to here.

From Chiffon, we learn that she's been offered the chance to become Minister of Chocolate, which would give significant benefits to her.

But she keeps refusing, because she wants the position to be open for Lola, if she ever came back.

It's honestly such a naive, innocent hope - Pudding knows how much Big Mom hates Lola and wants her dead. Even if she came back, there would be no place for her there. It'd be a walking death sentence.

It's something she even warned Lola about before she left.

But that was her beloved sister's position, and Pudding refuses to take it, just on the off chance that Lola would ever return and, somehow, be welcomed back.

If we examine the arc, Pudding doesn't seem to be particularly close to any of her siblings. Chiffon seems like the only one she has any kind of genuine bond with.

Which begs the question: out of all their siblings, why does Pudding like Lola so much?

As soon as Lola is introduced on Thriller Bark, she displays great strength of character.

When an opportunity for a counterattack against Moriah finally appears, she takes it. And after Nightmare Luffy begins his attack against Oars, she immediately orders her crew to go aid the fallen Straw Hats.

She may not be the strongest pirate around, but she's a fantastic captain to her crew and demonstrates great leadership.

And when it looks like dawn is coming and they're going to die, Lola refuses to go to safety and hide, despite her crew begging her to.

She's put her hopes and dreams on the backs of the Straw Hats, and she's going to see it through to the end. As far as she's concerned, she's done hiding - whatever fate the Straw Hats end up with, good or bad, she'll be joining them.

If they die, she dies. It's as simple as that.

Lola demonstrates that she's anything but a coward, and that she's got a deep sense of honor and pride. She has strong convictions, and she will fight and die by what she believes in, consequences be damned.

Which she then reinforces again at the end of the arc.

She's the one who recognized who Kuma was. She knew better than anyone else the kind of danger he presented.

But when he asked them to hand over Luffy - someone she now owes a great debt of gratitude to - she (and her crew) join the rest of the Straw Hats in refusing to comply.

There's no hesitation. Even if she has no hope of stopping Kuma, she won't hand Luffy over.

This moment also shows how deeply she cares about those around her.

Lola loves her family. She believes Linlin still loves her and would never kill her because they're mother and daughter.

At the end of Thriller Bark, after everything they've been through, Lola says that she and Nami are now like sisters. And through her shadow, we've seen how far she's willing to go for people she cares for, even willing to jump in to protect them, as Lola the Zombie did for Nami when Absolam was chasing her.

So we've seen how far Lola will go for someone she views as family.

Pudding is about 10 years younger than Lola.

I can't imagine Lola would take the bullying Pudding went through quietly. Especially since we've seen how Pudding has such a soft spot for her.

And at the very least, Lola is not the type to judge someone the way people were judging Pudding.

I believe her relationship with Pudding ties directly into why Loki fell in love with her.

Because Pudding and Loki share a lot of things in common.

They were treated as freaks and monsters for their unusual eyes.

To the point where they both truly believe that no one will ever love them because of it.

They hate themselves. And it tears them up inside.

Both Linlin and Estrid found them to be creepy and disturbing.

Their was deeply conditional - for Pudding, she would only be loved if she were useful.

And Loki was never loved in the first place because he wasn't born with "normal" eyes - something completely out of his control.

And so both decided to embrace the titles of monster and freak. They lashed out at the world and those who abused them, and only survived day by day.

If they were going to be treated like monsters, they may as well act like them.

However, Pudding had all that shatter the second Sanji called her beautiful.

It was the first time anyone had ever called her that. Anyone who knew about her third eye always called her hideous - and she deserved it. Because she was a monster.

But not to Sanji.

This shifted her perception of reality so much that she immediately broke down crying, completely unable to go through with the assassination plan anymore.

His kindness literally broke her, cutting her to her very core and exposing things she thought she had long since buried.

As a child, Loki couldn't believe that Harald would come back to Elbaph just for him.

The idea of his father caring about him enough to drop everything and return out of concern for his son was such a completely foreign concept, that Loki couldn't even conceptualize it. He could only rationalize the idea as being a coincidence.

Loki only really accepts the idea that Harald loved him in the moments just before killing him. That was 14 years ago.

After that, he sets out to become a pirate.

Then, at some point, he runs into Lola.

Lola, who is extremely non judgemental and earnest - who has a deep sense of honor that would make any Elbaph warrior proud, who shows kindness like it's second nature - never assuming the worst of those around her. And who always stands up for what she believes in, regardless of consequences.

I imagine, if Lola ever saw Loki's eyes, she would have little to no reaction to them. After all, she saw how horrible people treated her sister.

If anything, she might even compliment them.

Which, i imagine, would send the same kind of shock through Loki as Sanji's words did to Pudding.

And if wasn't her reaction to his eyes that led to a proposal, I'm sure something in her actions did.

And I'd be surprised if he didn't admire her free spirit.

There's very little reason for Loki to have not fallen for her.

But as we know, she turned him down and ran away to find her own future, eventually getting married to Gotti.

Unfortunately for Loki - between Rocks and Lola - he has a track record of picking people to love and idolize that won't return the sentiment, and with Harald and Ida, he realized far too late how much they meant to him.

At the start of the arc, his closest relationship is with someone named Shaggy. Maybe things will be different there. But that's something to look forward to in the future.

[commiefaggoth]

so embarrassing to watch yourself become obsessed with a character that feels tailor made for you specifically to become obsessed with. feels like i fell into a trap made just for me. like damn they got me. those are all the things i like and go crazy for

[antlered-vixen]

I am so tired of short-attention-span, trim-the-fat culture. All writing advice these days is for how to write like Chuck Palahniuk. "Cut 'think', cut 'feel', cut 'wonder' - only action, only pushing forward, show and move and move and move." What if I could emulate this style, and still don't want to? What if I want to write like Henry James, with three paragraphs of introspective musings between each dialogue line? The music advice is, "make it shortform, make it Tik-Tok compatible, make it punchy, hit the refrain as soon as possible." What if I want that 10-minute prog rock piece? What if I want that symphony? What if I want it slow and luxurious and lazy? Movies. Series. Poetry. Bodies. Everything is "trimmed trimmed trimmed trimmed, stripped bare, you have three seconds to win me over, make it airport chic." I don't want to win you over, then, I guess. I want the fat left it. I want the pleasure and the indolence and the indulgence. Fuck this art-advice that's always "your art needs Ozempic."

[arcadebroke]

medusa

[parkchanwoohoo]

You read Wretched of the Earth and how the colonizer has PTSD from torturing the colonized and the former has a panic attack upon seeing a former victim while the latter desperately tries to kill himself to avoid recapture and I think it's right to ask: Am I really supposed to pity the former?

[Speaking slowly, gently, as though trying not to scare a startled horse] Now. Consider. The US military

[parkchanwoohoo]

To be clear I am not saying Fanon is attempting to elicit sympathy for the colonizer. I mean "Am I supposed to feel sorry for them" in an aghast way because the colonizer, who is suffering, feels he deserves sympathy. You see it again and again, all throughout history, and even now people complain about how traumatized they are from murdering civilians. How even in the end, in their eyes, the true victim is the perpetrator who lives rather than the dead person who is "at peace." As though any number of extenuating personal circumstances is supposed to make your guilt weigh more than the actual harms other people have experienced at your hands. As though people overseas wouldn't also like to go to college, would like to afford a house, would like to escape poverty. It's infuriating!

[brostateexam]

[orcboxer]

Whenever I make fun of deer skull old god blood pomegranate cannibal flesh teeth, it's vitally important that you know that I'm saying you can't write whatever you want. You have to write what I want and the only thing I want is gnome-centric sims 4 erotica

[keibay]

Piece by Piece ....

[commissions]

[lesbian-sweeney-todd]

the argument "you can't identify into women's oppression" is particularly funny because like, you actually can. when you start transitioning people will start oppressing you as a woman. it's just a very silly, obviously wrong, argument.

[the-whipping-girl]

from "Feminism Needs Trans Women"

Sometimes, women are accused of being men. This happens especially to intersex women, or women of color — prominent women of color athletes like Imane Khelif and Caster Semenya have been accused of being "male". If people truly believed that these women were "male", and treated them as such, this would cause these women to be treated better — they would escape misogynistic harassment and abuse. But being accused of being a man does not grant a woman exemption from misogyny; rather, it is a form of misogynistic harassment unto itself. 19th-century Black feminist Sojourner Truth was once forced to bare her breasts to an audience that accused being a man.[1]

A woman who is accused of being a man is degendered. This is a misogynistic process of humiliation in which women are expelled from the class of "woman" and relegated to that monstrous third class of "other". People who are members of the "other" class experience all the violence associated with being a woman, but none of the privileges. A male supremacist world is intensely cruel to women — but some level of chivalry and gallantry is also expected: men are expected, to a certain extent, to treat women with respect and reverence. People who are degendered are denied even this small privilege: they experience a form of misogyny that is intense and pervasive.

Degendering is a misogynistic tactic used to control women. Women who are too strong, too smart, too angry, are beaten into line with the threat of degendering. A woman who manages to achieve success — which, in a male supremacist world, is intended to be the domain of men alone — risks being accused of being "male". When this happens, the woman is humiliated and degendered. The misogynistic harassment continues, but she is denied legibility and relief. Ultimately, degendering poses a threat to any woman — radical feminist Shulamith Firestone was once accused of being male by fellow feminists.[2] These accusations are meant to limit and control the realm of behavior and physical appearance that is acceptable for women.

Degendering is an essential part of the misogyny to which trans women are subject. Trans women who are degendered — who are accused of being male — continue to be subject to misogynistic harassment. They continue to be sexually objectified, dismissed, treated as crazy, exploited, abused — but they are denied legibility as women. Violence against trans women is socially acceptable because they are seen as "not women". Blatant sexual harassment of trans women — such as radical feminist Sheila Jeffreys's lurid speculation about trans woman Julia Serano's sexual desire[3] — goes unchallenged because of the "other" category into which trans women are sorted.

The degendering that transgender women experience is especially harsh (because it is often seen as simply "true" that transgender women are male), but it is not unique. The threat of degendering hangs over all women. Cis women have ways to exempt themselves by appealing to their female biology, birth assignment, or history – but no woman is entirely safe from degendering.

Feminists who argue that trans women are "men" are simply incorrect. From a cold and objective sociological perspective, trans women do not occupy the social class of "men". Often, they occupy the social class of "women" — but otherwise, they occupy a different class, below women on the gender hierarchy.

[1] Cameron Awkward-Rich, “On Trans Uses of the Many Sojourner Truths,” in Feminism against Cisness (Duke University Press, 2024), 43.

[2] Jude Doyle, DILF: Did I Leave Feminism? (Melville House, 2025), chap. 3.

[3] Sheila Jeffreys, Gender Hurts: A Feminist Analysis of the Politics of Transgenderism (Routledge, Taylor & Francis Group, 2014), 50–51; See Serano’s response, Serano, Outspoken, 162–170.