Raining on a Tuesday

I am a adult who is trying to figure out her life day by day. Books, marvel, bands, and dogs are my some of my favorite things.

[raining-on-a-tuesday]

I think it’s really weird how much I hate working here cause it’s on another level. Like I hated my last major job, but I mostly enjoyed it. It’s like I have never felt this level of like sadness. Maybe because it’s mostly anger? Idk

[arradraws]

It was a plushie, but what if... puppy.

[calellon]

i’m surviving solely on day dreams and fantasies at this point

[looceyloo]

One last Meli before I get sucked back in the Hades 2 hole!!

[starlit-meadow]

just want to curl up into big warm arms and have my hair pet and my forehead kissed and i don’t think i’m asking for too much if i’m being honest

[wolfythewitch]

that one au where patroclus is the champion of elysium

[nessieartss]

I like my prince of the underworld short and silly

[xoxochb]

[stuckinapril]

“Change is just part of life” “time passes on anyway” “everyone goes through the seasons of life” can you tell me where your address is so I can jump in front of a train in front of you

[fairycosmos]

it's just sooooooo like. i feel like other people are so animated and driven and full of feeling and life and passion and connection with those around them and i'm just completely blank behind the eyes and i never do anything and i can't make myself authentically feel and think in that naturally comfortable way that most people seem to

[bakedbakermom]

fuck terry pulling no punches in this one

[feral-ballad]

people will be like “don’t worry it’s all in your head!” like babe… yes… that’s the problem… how do i get it out of there…

[kosmogrl]

firm believe that not everything happens for a reason, sometimes things are just cruel. and they shouldn’t have happened and it’s not supposed to be a lesson because we never deserved such thing.

[raining-on-a-tuesday]

Why do I get better and then get bad all of a sudden

[raining-on-a-tuesday]

I love it when I’ve been hard on myself all day, and then the one person I would talk to is mad at me. This is why I shouldn’t have friends. I was “better” when I didn’t. The only person to disappoint would be me. Maybe I shouldn’t be friends with anyone. Maybe I should leave this state and become a loner where no one knows me. “Why can’t you talk about your feelings?” Because I grew up in a household where no one talked about their feelings and I didn’t have anyone to talk to them too. Fuck this. Fuck today. I’m just a disappointment so who the fuck cares

[raining-on-a-tuesday]

Also after they have gone being mad, I just want to be petty and ignore them. I’d rather fight with you then know you aren’t talking to me.

I suck at being a friend

[str4wb3rry-newsboy]

no, i dont lose hyperfixations. theyre just moved to a different, slightly less used, shelf in my brain.

[gayfandomnerd225]

And then one thing happens and they move back to the front shelf of my brain

[raining-on-a-tuesday]

I love it when I’ve been hard on myself all day, and then the one person I would talk to is mad at me. This is why I shouldn’t have friends. I was “better” when I didn’t. The only person to disappoint would be me. Maybe I shouldn’t be friends with anyone. Maybe I should leave this state and become a loner where no one knows me. “Why can’t you talk about your feelings?” Because I grew up in a household where no one talked about their feelings and I didn’t have anyone to talk to them too. Fuck this. Fuck today. I’m just a disappointment so who the fuck cares