[ambroselefey]

Witchy Song Suggestions

Hello Family! I am with you today to speak about some of the songs which I listen to when I am trying to manifest. I may suggest some *Some of these songs may fall into more than one category.* Feel free to add songs!

Love/Romance Magick:

Wonderful by Lianne La Havas

Serial Killer by Lana Del Rey

Lovefool by The Cardigans

Little Numbers by BOY

Love by Lana Del Rey

Romanitcise by Chelea

A Dream by Rachmaninoff - Sung by Dawn Upshaw

Morgen by Strauss - Sung by Barbara Bonney

Hey Now by London Grammar

Like I Can (Cover) by Jordan Smith

Golden Slumbers (cover) by Jennifer Hudson

Bittersweet by Ellie Goulding

Warm on a Cold Night by Honne

River Flows in You by Yiruma

L’heure Exquise by Hahn - Sung by Susan Graham

The Way I Am by Ingrid Michaelson

Giant Steps by John Coltrane

Red Arrow by Gem Club

Blue Skies by Ella Fitzgerald 

Long Time Ago by Trad/Copland - Sung by Nathan Gunn

Chi Il Bel Sogno from La Rondine by Puccini - Sung by Renee Fleming

Claire de Lune by Debussy - Performed by Xavier de Maistre

Che Gelida Manina from La Boheme by Puccini - performed by Vittorio Grigolo or Luciano Pavarotti 

Sex Magick:

Is It a Crime by Sade

I Put a Spell on You by Nina Simone

Teeth by Lady Gaga

All Night by Beyonce

Hey Now by London Grammar

Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge

Hummingbird Heartbeat by Katy Perry

Pillowtalk by Zayn

Do What U Want by Lady Gaga

Off to the Races by Lana Del Rey

Money Magick:

Dog Days Are Over by Florence + The Machine

Feeling Good by Nina Simone

Coca Cola by Beth Hart

Digital Witness by St. Vincent

6 Inch by Beyonce

Money Honey by Lady Gaga

Beautiful, Dirty, Rich by Lady Gaga

National Anthem by Lana Del Rey

Million Dollar Man by Lana Del Rey

Luck Magick:

Tokyo by Lianne La Havas

Dog Days Are Over by Florence + The Machine

Feeling Good by Nina Simone

Primadonna by Marina and the Diamonds

Q.U.E.E.N. by Janelle Monae

Evergreen by Yebba

Right Place, Wrong Time by Dr. John

No Roots by Alice Merton

When the World Was at War We Kept Dancing by Lana Del Rey

Nagual by Trifolia 

Make Me Feel by Janelle Monae

Beauty:

La fille aux cheveux de lin by Debussy - perormed by Xavier de Maistre

Venus by Lady Gaga

L’heure Exquise by Hahn - sung by Susan Graham

Unstoppable by Lianne La Havas

Radio by Lana Del Rey

Bel Air by Lana Del Rey

Breaking my Heart by Lana Del Rey

Binding:

Paradise Circus by Massive Attack 

Work Song by Hozier

Summer Bummer by Lana Del Rey

In My Feelings by Lana Del Rey

Brother Sparrow by Agnes Obel

Wallflower by Agnes Obel

Avenue by Agnes Obel

Gold Dust Woman by Fleetwood Mac (good cover by Karen Elson)

Up in Flames by Ruelle

Body Electric by Lana Del Rey

Circle the Drain by Katy Perry

No Roots by Alice Merton

Hit Me Like a Man by The Pretty Reckless 

Backfire by Lana Del Rey

Goodnight Moon by Shivaree

Baneful Magick (Curses and such):

Paradise Circus by Massive Attack

Wallflower by Agnes Obel

Strange Fruit sung by Nina Simone

Sinnerman by Nina Simone

Seven Devils by Florence + The Machine

Power and Control by Marina and the Diamonds

Teen Idol by Marina and the Diamonds

Kill of the Night by Gin Wigmore

The Rake’s Song by The Decemberists

Humans by Sevdaliza 

No Rest for the Wicked by Lykke Li

Killing Moon by Roman Remains

Bones by Ms Mr

Limbs by Widdowspeak

Yubaba (Spirited Away Score) by Joe Hisaishi

The Raven by Alan Parsons Project

Neverland by Sisters of Mercy

Countdown by John Coltrane 

In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida by Iron Butterfuly

Bloodletting by Concrete Blonde

You Know that I’m No Good by Amy Winehouse

Power Gathering: 

Death Defying Acts by Angus & Julia Stone

Django Jane by Janelle Monae

The Curse by Agnes Obel

Superpower by Beyonce

Spectrum (Song and Album) by Florence + The Machine

Sinnerman by Nina Simone

Edge of Seventeen by Stevie Nicks

Four by Miles Davis

Twice by Little Dragon (Lianne La Havas also does a beautiful cover)

Sarajevo by Max Richter

Retrograde by James Blake

Personal Jesus by Depeche Mode

With You In My Head by UNKLE

Out Alive by Ke$ha

Ninth Gate: Vocalise performed by Diana Damrau

Sunrise by Yeasayer

Castle by Halsey

Breath of Life by Florence + the Machine

Healing:

Dreams by Fleetwood Mac

Who You Are sung by Jordan Smith

Stevie’s Dream by Janelle Monae

Hunger by Florence + the Machine

Life Goes On by Fergie

Wonderland by Haley Reinhart 

Twice by Little Dragon (Lianne La Havas also does a beautiful cover)

Alive by Sia

Unbreakable Smile by Tori Kelly

Arabesque No. 1 in E Major by Debussy - Performed by Xavier de Maistre

Im Here from the Color Purple 

Meditation: 

Death Defying Acts by Angus & Julia Stone

Icarus by White Hinterland 

Love Drought by Beyonce

Twice by Little Dragon (Lianne La Havas also does a beautiful cover)

Sarajevo by Max Richter

Cranes in the Sky by Solange 

So Much More Than This by Grace Vanderwaal

Arabesque No. 1 in E Major by Debussy

La fille aux cheveux de lin by Debussy

Protection:

Safe & Sound by Capital Cities

Florets by Grace VanderWaal

Sarajevo by Max Richter

Alive by Sia

Ständchen  D.957 by Schubert - Performed by Evgeny Kissin

C’est L’extase Langoureuse by Debussy - Sung By Elly Ameling

The Fire by Kina Grannis

The Bird by Duke - Sung by James Taylor

Arabesque No. 1 in E Majoy by Debussy - Performed by Xavier de Maistre

Confidence:

Fashion! (Artpop) by Lady Gaga

***Flawless by Beyonce

Bodak Yellow by Cardi B

Raining Men by The Water Girls

Sugar Pill by Kovacs

Q.U.E.E.N. by Janelle Monae

Oh No! by Marina and the Diamonds

Sisters Are Doin’ It For Themselves by Aretha Franklin

Land of Lola from Kinky Boots

Sex Is In the Heel from Kinky Boots

Screwed by Janelle Monae

I like that by Janelle Monae

Bad by Michael Jackson

Check it Out by Will.i.am & Nicki Minaj

Happiness/Just Good Vibes:

Blood (Album) by Lianne La Havas

Blue Skies by Ella Fitzgerald (or anything she sings)

Origami by Capital Cities

Pocket Full of Sunshine by Natasha Beddingfield

Rumors (Album) by Fleetwood Mac

Young Volcanoes by Fall Out Boy

Don’t You Worry ‘Bout a Thing (cover) by Tori Kelly

Seven Wonders by Fleetwood Mac

Happy by Pharrell 

Feel it Still by Portugal. The Man

Let’s Get Together by Beth Hart

Arabesque No. 1 in E Majoy by Debussy - Performed by Xavier de Maistre

Tightrope by Janelle Monae

I hope y’all find this useful! Feel Free to add songs! Also, email me at [email protected] for any questions, follow my YouTube @ Mojo Magick for some Magickal content, and Be Blessed! 

Love, 

Mojo Magick

[battlestar-royco]

masterpost of fix-it headcanons for AC0TAR

the only day you can add onto this is  e v e r y  day

this blew up into a huge thing and it’s no longer just headcanons but more a reworked outline/embellishment of the first three books. feel free to add or change what you want if you make it through the whole thing :D

n/esta–a gray ace icon!–is the main character. the first book is told in n/esta and l/ucien’s alternating POVs.

some worldbuilding and character background for human lands because sj/m provides fuckity nothing: mama and papa arch raised their children on scary stories about the fae. the first story every human child hears is the one about the human-fae treaty and the ominously growing rip in the wall between human and fae lands. (as a young woman, n/esta remembers a time when a fae attack would happen once every few years, but now she hears of five to ten a year.) because humans are atheist, the arch sisters also learned many stories about secular historical figures and events such as j/urian and his legendary murder of c/lythia during the human-fae war, and f/eyre took an interest in famous painters from a young age.

mama arch died and papa arch’s leg was irreparably damaged while protecting their daughters from a fae creature attack. the girls developed growing resentment toward fae as they got older.

after their family’s fall into poverty, n/esta and e/lain grew up helping f/eyre learn to read. she’ll never be at their level, but she knows enough to get by. n/esta always budgets and goes shopping. the harvest from e/lain’s little garden has saved them a few autumns, just like f/eyre’s hunting. their father loves them and wishes he could do more, but they’re happy to care for him.

actual ac0tar timeline: (because the humans deserved a plotline and i’ll die mad that they never got one:) the human lands are deeply unsettled by the hole in the wall, and a few attacks have ravaged the northernmost villages. f/eyre is taken to p/rythian. n/esta and e/lain find the mercenary who helped f/eyre. the mercenary is an important mentor for them and she helps n/esta leave tomas. e/lain’s fiance g/raysen who is completely justified in his wariness against fae fiGHT ME sj/m is an advocate for human rights, and all his family’s resources are helping mend the wall, but they just can’t do it without magic. e/lain stays at home to take care of papa arch while n/esta heads north with the mercenary to save f/eyre and possibly find a magical solution to the wall. unsuccessful, n/esta returns home to find that her family has suddenly come upon fortune again, and she funnels some of that money into the human effort.

meanwhile in the sp/ring court, l/ucien watches as tom lane brings home a human girl, f/eyre, who may just be the key to defeating a/marantha’s curse. the curse forbids him from warning her about tom’s true nature, and his feelings toward tom are difficult because tom has provided him shelter from his family but has also been another source of abuse. l/ucien also resents f/eyre for murdering andras. both trapped and opposed to each other for different reasons, f/eyre and l/ucien begrudgingly become friends. they look out for each other and a/lis.

throughout book 1, l/ucien mourns andras and carries out his duties as tom’s emissary. he visits utm multiple times, discreetly conversing with all the imprisoned high lords and their spies (maybe a/zriel and/or n/uala and c/erridwen makes a cameo here) and spreading the news that the curse may soon end. every time he returns, the high lords inform him on their movements/preparations for a/marantha’s death and h/ybern’s rise.

f/eyre completes her third task, but her stab to tom’s heart is fatal. tom dies honorably, for the greater good of all the fae, but l/ucien and f/eyre will never forget the darker parts of him. because a/marantha deserved better as a villain, a/marantha disappears in a diversion created by the king of h/ybern (hereon known as “koh”). rice is a straight-up antagonist and kidnaps f/eyre into the night court. l/ucien is left to rule the s/pring court alone.

ac0maf timeline: the second book continues l/ucien and n/esta’s POVs but also introduces t/arquin, m/or, and a h/ybernian’s POVs.

the h/ybernian pov (perhaps a commoner, soldier, or advisor to the koh) gives us insight on the koh and a/marantha’s plans. both the koh and a/marantha are given thorough backstories that make them sympathetic and/or interesting villains. the latter is one of many lethal commanders in the h/ybern army, alongside d/agdan and b/rannagh. her bitterness against humans has been renewed upon her defeat by f/eyre. the h/ybernian perspective also allows us to see h/ybernian culture, history, and pro/anti-war factions so that h/ybern is no longer a monolith. at some point, we see the cauldron come together. its power is immense.

now, let’s add some semblance of conflict and flaws to the inner circle. (i tried to stick as close to the canon as possible here, but again, mess provided FUCKITY NOTHING.) they each have differing motives, but at the end of the day they all just want prythian to be safe. they’re actually morally ambiguous anti-heroes/villains as heroes instead of this “it was all an act” nonsense. i/llyrians are explicitly poc. rice kidnapped f/eyre not because they’re mates, but because he wants to use her newfound powers as an asset against h/ybern. a/zriel’s torture victims never recover, but he only ever resorts to such measures when he believes necessary. a/mren (agender; ace) hunts for their blood, and they have an insurmountable body count. m/or (power lesbian) is incredibly kind, but everyone in court knows not to get on her bad side or they’ll face her justice. c/assian is the most ruthless commander i/llyria has ever seen.

additionally, the inner circle is complicated. m0riel was never a thing. c/assian and m/or also never hooked up, but they are besties. a/zriel is the intuitive, emotional core of the group; everyone goes to him for advice on friends, relationships, and hard decisions. a/zriel (pan) and c/assian (bi) have been steadily falling in love since their time in the camps as boys but neither of the idiots will admit it to themselves or anyone else. a/mren is still known as “tiny ancient one” because they’re like millennia older than everyone else. they impart cryptic wisdom and brutally honest advice on their edgy^TM kids. the night court also know their time with a/mren is limited because they are searching for a way out of their fae form, so their company is cherished. the four of them have stood beside rice over the centuries, and they love him, but they’ve also watched him steadily become more corrupt and merciless. can he be saved or is it time for a change in leadership? this is a conversation everyone wants to have, but no one is brave enough to begin. everyone skirts around it throughout the book, tension slowly building to an inevitable confrontation.

moving on to the plot: in the night court, we follow m/or ruling v/elaris (she fucking  f i n e s s e s  k/eir in the process). she’s in a simmering, slow burn romance with an i/llyrian woman: an activist against wing-cutting and a mutual friend of a/zriel’s (he set them up). m/or’s strength in court is her kind nature. she has many loyalists in the court of ni/ghtmares who know of her past with e/ris and k/eir. meanwhile, a/mren and f/eyre’s subplot takes them to the human lands to get in touch with the arch sisters.

after his time utm, t/arquin returns to the summer court to play his part in preparing for the war against h/ybern: translating his half of the book of breathings and gathering powerful allies (br/yaxis, the b/one carver, and the w/eaver) for the war. his emotional arc is all about his recovery from the trauma he underwent utm. meanwhile, c/resseida hears word that some night court members are headed to the human lands, so she initiates an alliance with them and tags along in hopes that she can retrieve the mortal queens’ half of the book.

in the spring court, i/anthe is introduced. l/ucien soon realizes she is a double agent for h/ybern. she feeds him info on recruitment and battle strategies. koh and a/marantha are depending on i/anthe’s priestess order to spread pro-war rhetoric across h/ybern (??? this is the best i could do with what sj/m gave). the human lands are the most at risk because koh plans on cutting his army directly through spring court to crush the laughably weak human resistance before taking over the south. (sources report the effort is headed by the cursebreaker’s older sisters….)

in the human lands, n/esta and el/ain are pleasantly surprised by a visit from their sister, and more than a little alarmed by the two fae who accompany her. f/eyre just missed papa arch, who recently set sail with some of g/raysen’s soldiers to recruit southern soldiers. human efforts to seal the wall have been mostly fruitless, and every victory pyrrhic. although neither sister is a fighter, n/esta and e/lain have both seen enough horrors to last a lifetime. n/esta has worked her way to the position of treasurer of g/raysen’s army, and it seems that the proximity of the wall has activated some magic in elain so she is now a seer (this is some bs but so is sj/m’s magic system smh i tried). therefore, both of them (plus the mercenary) always sit in on war councils, and they receive a formal invitation from the mortal queens to discuss their next movements. a/mren and c/resseida come along, and the queens agree to give their half of the book in exchange for some fae magic to mend the wall. only m/or is powerful enough to do such a thing (also bs but sj/m never explained her power!!), so they must go back to the night court. amidst all the suffering, one good thing boosts human morale: e/lain and g/raysen’s marriage.

in the n/ight court, a/mren, c/resseida, and f/eyre return to merge the book and tell m/or of the deal with the queens. tensions have risen between m/or and rice’s ruling styles. the court of nig/htmares is also split between m/or and k/eir. too much is mounting for mor to even think of going to the human lands. she and a/zriel also recently received a request for help from l/ucien: one of the spring sentries reported that amarantha’s legion is on the move. meanwhile, the h/ybernian pov chronicles the legion traveling to spring. the best the n/ight court can do is send c/assian. l/ucien and c/assian do all they can, but a/marantha’s too powerful and she rips right through the hole in the wall. c/assian’s wings get fuCKING SHREDDED in the process.

acowar: we’re gonna pretend v/assa, m/iryam, and d/rakon don’t exist bc they did very little for the plot. pr/ythian is in all out fucking bloody-ass war. when war crimes are committed, characters are held accountable. spring fae are scattering, seeking refuge in other courts. we see true horrors and battles and loss throughout the book. it’s high time that the lords all convened to lay out a plan of action, but everyone’s had pretty big fish to fry in the post-curse era. the n/ight court is fracturing, t/arquin and l/ucien are adjusting to being high lords, the a/utumn court has always been infighting, etc. so now an effort is being made to call everyone to a council in dawn.

first, m/or can no longer ignore the call to the human lands. l/ucien joins her because of his lands’ proximity to the wall, leaving i/anthe in charge (they’ve become quite good companions and she’s cut off her ties to hybern). c/assian also comes because l/ucien has been harboring him in spring and providing the best possible (but insufficient) healers for his wings. finally, our human and fae plots come together. m/or and c/assian’s reunion is touching. c/assian’s banter with abrasive n/esta takes his mind off his damaged wings. they both enjoy each other’s pragmatism, sarcasm, and emotional empathy. (in another life, they might’ve made a good match ;).) m/or patches the wall because even though a/marantha is already through, it’ll stop reinforcements from joining her. in a historic event, humans (the queens, the arch sisters, and g/raysen) are invited to the council of high lords.

all our big players are at the council: all h/igh lords + partners and courts, plus terrified but dignified human squad. m/or is reunited with her old friend v/iviane, (they were DEFINITELY a thing once). k/eir, e/ris, and b/eron were invited by none other than rice, who also plans to use feyre’s powers to win multiple battles. the n/ight court can no longer deny that it’s time to talk about rice. all the rising tensions come to the surface here. rice wants to employ the [insert better name for keir’s soldiers than fucking d/arkbringers], but m/or’s i/llyrian gf has been raising an army and she thinks that’s the safer bet. in the end, all the high lords decide they need both, and no one is quite happy. no one knows wtf is in the future for n/ight court leadership.

human squad and fae recap each other. humans hope papa arch can come through with some southern support. amarantha is razing her way through human lands while a/driata and v/elaris have suffered attacks from koh. n/esta, e/lain, and f/eyre all share stolen conversations between meetings over the days. f/eyre misses her home and family, but she knows she’ll never belong there again. humans are given the d/arkbringers (yikes) and b/ryaxis.

as human squad + lucien make their way home, their caravan is attacked by a h/ybern commander–maybe d/agdan or b/rannagh. e/lain is kidnapped to the koh’s camp; she’ll be a good hostage to draw in the pr/ythian asset f/eyre and crush human spirit. the h/ybernian notes that the cauldron has amassed much more power than we last saw. however, koh’s power over the cauldron and his soldiers has been spiraling out of control ever since a/marantha left to attack humans. though she’s been successful against them so far, her obsessive desire to slaughter humans wastes a lot of soldiers & resources on lands that are of little use to h/ybern. the h/ybernian gradually becomes acquainted with e/lain and frees her from the camp. humans return home shaken, but without further incident. the diversion has given a/marantha enough time to secure g/raysen’s lands before they arrive.

in the night court, they realize that without b/ryaxis they’ll need to free a/mren from their body for once and for all to defeat koh. they all share one last night of drinking, games, and being silly and sad. a/zriel and c/assian ruminate on the possibility of losing other inner circle members, and realize their feelings for each other. when h/ybernian and p/rythian forces assemble for the final battle, rice dies an anti-hero’s death on the battlefield. c/assian commands i/llyrian infantry nobly and courageously while m/or’s gf commands from the skies. f/eyre uses her powers to the best of her ability, and with significant help from a/mren in their true form, wins the day for p/rythian. a/mren disappears into their original desired dimension, and f/eyre dies knowing that she neither belongs with humans nor fae. c/resseida, t/arquin, and some p/rythian court members survive, but not without suffering scars, limb loss, and casualties etc.

in the human lands, papa arch has returned from the south with a few thousand men, but not enough to face a/marantha. the d/arkbringers and b/ryaxis hold their own against her soldiers, but she herself still lives. echoing how f/eyre outsmarted a/marantha in book 1, the humans must utilize a/marantha’s own hubris to defeat her. a major human character dies: perhaps g/raysen, the mercenary, or a queen.

finally, the enemies are defeated. arch family and high lords are invited to a funeral for f/eyre cursebreaker in the night court. n/esta and e/lain mourn their sister, but the funeral as a whole serves as a commemoration of all the losses of the war. additionally, m/or and i/llyrian gf have a beautiful private wedding. in rice’s absence, the courtiers of dreams and nightmares flock to m/or. now that their power is secure, she and l/ucien hold long overdue but fair trials against e/ris, b/eron, and k/eir for what they did to m/or and j/esminda (l/ucien’s lover who was killed before his eyes). they are found guilty, and a/zriel uses his sword truthteller in the execution. after, everyone settles terms and plans for war reparations. all the courts vow to donate what they can to the human lands because they all bear the responsibility. the humans go home one last time. human and fae alike are deeply traumatized by the war, but there is hope of happiness and recovery in the future.

[rainysummereenings]

This is so much better

Like

Wow

[rainysummereenings]

Me: ( pointing at rhysfuck )FUCK YOU!

Me: ( pointing at Feyrug) FUCK YOU!

Me: ( pointing at crackian) FUCK YOU!

Me: ( pointing at Nesta) you’re cool

Me: ( pointing at assriel) FUCK YOU!

[inky-duchess]

The Duchess’s Writeable People of History #8

Maria Antonia of the House of Haspburg, Marie Antoinette, Last Queen of France and Archduchess of the Holy Roman Empire

Marie Antoinette was the last Queen of France. Hated and villified, Marie Antoinette has been centre stage of the French revolution. Known to her enemies as Widow Capet, Madam Deficit and the Austrian bitch, Marie Antoinette was slandered ever since she crossed the French border. Did history ever give her a chance? We’re going to, right here.

Marie Antoinette was born as Maria Antonia, youngest daughter of the powerful Holy Roman Empress, Maria Theresa. She was one of fifteen children so there was little time for her. She wasn’t educated as greatly as others and nobody bothered to teach her how to be a queen. Maria Antonia was trained from birth to become the Dauphine, the wife of the heir to the throne. In her fourteenth year, she was finally sent to go to marry her prince. This was going to be the biggest moment of her life. She was not going to ever be sidelined again. She was not Maria Antonia. She was to be Marie Antoinette.

Arriving in France was no fairytale. She did not take to her husband Louis at first (they didn’t consummate the marriage for seven years) and the king turned out to be under the spell of his mistress Madame du Barry. Marie Antoinette was inducted into the intricate etiquette system of Versailles. Everything was done for her. She didn’t dress without help or alone. People came to watch her get dressed and eat. Nothing was private any more.

Marie Antoinette had one big obstacle in her early years: du Barry. The mistress couldn’t speak to her until Marie Antoinette spoke to her first, something she avoided. She finally spoke to du Barry with the infamous words “There are a lot of people at Versailles today.” But Marie Antoinette would not suffer long. When the king died, du Barry was shoved out and Marie Antoinette became Queen.

Marie Antoinette had four children but two died young. When she was giving birth, the court crowded to watch. Nothing was private in Versailles. Once Queen, Marie Antoinette began to spend. She owned thousands of gowns, shoes and wigs. Some blame her education for her recklessness with money and some say she was greedy. I think it was because of extreme loneliness.

Because France had over taxed their people, most of the increases were due to the American War of Independence, the French revolted. They stormed the Bastille on 14th July. Yet the king and queen stayed at Versailles. A group of women stormed Versailles and drove the royal family to the smaller Tuileries palace. There the royals were arrested.

Though attempting an escape, the royals never made it out. Once King Louis was guillotined, nobody was safe. Marie Antoinette was put on trial. They claimed she had molested her own son and had said the infamous and false phrase “If they have no bread, let them eat cake.” Marie Antoinette climbed the guillotine steps after her trial. She stepped on her executioner’s foot by accident (maybe) and apologised before getting on her knees and dying.

Marie Antoinette was not history’s villain. She cannot be overly cleared for all she was accused of but perhaps we can understand her a little bit. Marie Antoinette remains the most glamorous Queens of History.

For @slythering98

[rainysummereenings]

Wow, you used to be really mean

Yeah...

But you're not anymore?

No, now i'm an angel